Loving Mr Cullen Chapter 20: Jake is back and Tanya appears, a twilight fanfic

EVERYBODY… CALM DOWN! Okay hehe guys don't panic. This is an ExB fanfic NOT a JxB so it's alright. Resurrecting Jake is only part of the drama. I'm not planning on pairing him with Bella in the long run. For those who might be questioning Bella's decision, I just want to say that I truly appreciate your thoughts, but when I wrote that chapter I decided to take a different route. I didn't want to take the easier way out by writing it like a fairy tale where Edward and Bella hits it off right away after their first time opening up to each other. I just hope y'all would stick to the story and find out what would eventually happen between our beloved Edward and Bella.

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And oh guys there might be only a few chapters left before I end the story. pouts As for a sequel, I'm not too sure. But I would be writing a new story, I already have a plot in mind and I'm quite excited about it. Hint: Edward is a sexy chef hehe

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Chapter 19 Jake is back and Tanya appears

BPOV

That day, 5 minutes turned into 10, then an hour and two hours… He said he wanted to come back to me.

Flashback

"Bella, I'm sorry… and thank you for coming with me." Jake said softly and sincerely as we sat on a small café called New Moon.

"Jake… why are you doing this?" I asked weakly. I no longer know what to do or think. I'm with Jake right now, but my mind and heart is with Edward. Although I am already aware of how impossible it is for Edward to really love me and for him to be mine, my heart just keeps on betraying me.

"Bella… baby… I'm sorry for making a stupid mistake. I'm sorry for cheating on you and taking for granted you and your love. I'm sorry for being an ass and betraying your trust. But these past months, my heart still keeps longing for you. For your warm embrace, your unconditional love and… and Bella I do love you. After losing you, I realized that you are the only one that I can truly love. I know I wasn't the best boyfriend before but if you please please please give me another chance… I want to change. Could you give me another chance? Bella please… I'm begging you." Jake was said as tears kept flowing through his eyes. He was holding into my hand as if it was the only place where he could find comfort.

"Bella… Jessica cheated on me. She only wanted to be with me because of my money. I realize now how much I did hurt you and I'm so sorry. She left me… The pain I caused you was unbearable. Bella… I don't know who I can turn to. Bella… I love you please give me a chance. I'll do anything. Please…just take me back." He pleaded. Jake was sobbing like a child. I've never seen him like this. He was breaking apart in front of me.

"It's alright Jake. Stop crying." I tried to calm him down. Jake was actually a really nice guy. We started out as best friends and as far as I can remember we were inseparable during our childhood days. He was always sweet, caring and he was my protector. But ever since his dad died 2 years ago on our 1st anniversary he changed. Jake was no longer the sweet, caring person. Although he would always joke around, I felt that deep down inside he changed. He would put on a happy-go-lucky façade but every time we were alone I would see a different emotion in his eyes and slowly as the months passed it seemed that he was becoming more and more distant to me. No matter how hard I tried to make our relationship like it was before, I failed and on my birthday I found out that he has been cheating on me.

"Bella… please I need you. It was all my fault" He whimpered before he looked me in the eye.

"Jake…"

End Flashback

So here I am waiting by the elevator for Edward. Ever since the incident last night, Edward has been very quiet. When I came in his office this morning for the MASEN deal progress report, he just quietly listened and gave his comments about it at the end. He was emotionless and very composed. He would smile at me but the crooked smile on his face never seems to reach his eyes. I felt like he was the cold Edward again unlike the Edward that I spent my time on the cruise enjoying ourselves.

"DING!"

"Edward!" I called after him as he walked out of the elevator.

"Hello Bella." He replied with a simple smile.

"I uhm… need to ask for your help." I said shyly.

"What is it?" He asked as we continued walking through the lobby.

"Could you teach me how to regain the lost self-respect I had in my relationship with Jake? We're… back together now and… I don't want to repeat the same mistake like before." I spoke urgently. Yes, I did agree to get back together with Jake. I decided to give him another chance but this time I will no longer be the same old Bella. This time, I would be different. I would love differently. Edward told me that love is a game and this time I want to win. Although my feelings for Edward still linger on, I found no point in hanging on to it. I knew Edward wouldn't love a woman like me. Heck! I even started a war just to make him fall for me but I ended up losing.

"Your boyfriend's back?" He said with a melancholy tone. "Why would you need my help?"

"I want you to coach me. Teach me what I should do." I replied.

"No." He said as he looked me in the eye.

"You know what all the guys I've dated including Jacob said when they broke up to me? They said it was my fault. That everything was because of me. But I don't think I was wrong. And now Jake is telling me that it's his fault. That means so much to me" I was being persistent and stubborn for someone asking help but I need to be different this time.

"See that's why you're wrong. That's your problem. When it comes to relationships you have not the slightest clue." He said as he was dialing something on his iPhone.

"I know. That's why I'm asking for your help." I said as we reached the main entrance.

"Weren't you the one with all these glorified visions of true love?" He asked nonchalantly.

"I want to be in this relationship this time without losing self-respect."

"Self-respect! I didn't know you had any to begin with!" He said angrily as he walked away.

"Hey! Edward Cullen!" I screamed. "Do you have any idea how I feel? How could you, who has never been hurt, understand me? Do you really have to crush my last bit of self-respect?!" I knew I was near to tears but I really no longer desire to be in a relationship when I end up giving everything and getting nothing in return.

Edward slowly turned around and walked towards me.

"Ok. I'll help you." He said quietly this time. All the rage from his face and voice before was gone. "This will be different. It'll be unlike any other love you had before. If it would make you happy, I'll try my best to help you."

"Thank you." I smiled at him.

"Edward!" A voice from behind us suddenly said.

A woman with strawberry-blonde hair with a voluptuous figure walked towards Edward and gave him a hug.

Who is this woman?

"It's been a while. I missed you. I trust that you have been well." The woman said as she took Edward's face into both of her hands as if to check.

Why is she touching him like that?! Wait… why am I reacting this way?

"When did you arrive?" Edward said as he gave the woman a simple smile.

"Just now." She replied cheerfully. "And who is this lovely woman you're with?" She added as she purposely looked at me from head to toe. What the hell?! "You are not cheating on my back now, are you?"

So is she Edward's girlfriend? No wonder. I would never stand a chance with someone like her.

"Funny Tanya. Anyway, this is Miss Bella Swan, she is currently in charge of the MASEN deal. Bella, this is Tanya Denali. She's the senior manager of the Cullen Corporations extension on Chicago. She is also a very old friend of mine." Edward introduced us.

"It's nice meeting you." She said as she held out her hand.

"It's nice to meet you too." I replied as I shook her hand. "Well… I guess I'll be going now. Goodbye Edward, goodbye Miss Denali."

"Bye." Tanya replied. But it actually sounded more like a sneer.

EPOV

I felt the stinging pain from the scar on my chest react as I watched the woman I love walk away. It was all too familiar. I lost Bella like I lost Sara. I never even got the chance to tell her how I feel. Why didn't I tell her sooner?! It was the first time I cried for years. I never thought I would cry for another woman. Bella drove off with Jake and I was left alone. I was numb all over. I got into my Volvo and drove home. How would I face Bella tomorrow?

While Bella was giving her report, all I could do is stare at the papers in front of me. I was afraid that if I looked into her eyes, I would fall apart. I simply commented on her report and gave her a forced smile. All I wanted to do was hold her in my arms and never let go but it's all too impossible now. She is probably back together with that jerk.

I got into the elevator feeling empty. How would I survive? The wall I built in my heart after Sara was now destroyed because of Bella's warmth and sincerity but now that she is gone how am I suppose to rebuild another wall when all my strength to fight is gone?

"DING!"

"Edward!" The familiar sweet voice of Bella called.

"Hello Bella." I said with a smile. No matter how it hurts seeing her always makes me feel somewhat happy.

"I uhm… need to ask for your help."

"What is it?" I replied. I would do anything for her.

"Could you teach me how to regain the lost self-respect I had in my relationship with Jake? We're… back together now and… I don't want to repeat the same mistake like before." She asked seriously. Only one conclusion came into my mind…

"Your boyfriend's back?" No! "Why would you need my help?" I asked.

"I want you to coach me. Teach me what I should do." She replied.

"No." I said to her as I bravely looked into her eyes. I don't want her back with Jacob… I want her with me.

"You know what all the guys I've dated including Jacob said when they broke up to me? They said it was my fault. That everything was because of me. But I don't think I was wrong. And now Jake is telling me that it's his fault. That means so much to me" she persisted. So that's why? How could she let him?!

"See that's why you're wrong. That's your problem. When it comes to relationships you have not the slightest clue." I replied. No matter what that Jake said he would only hurt her again.

"I know. That's why I'm asking for your help."

"Weren't you the one with all these glorified visions of true love?" I replied losing hope. Don't be like me Bella. Love has been a game for me. But to see you want to be like me is wrong. The warmth of your love is what has drawn me nearer to you. I don't want to lose that.

"I want to be in this relationship this time without losing self-respect." She replied.

"Self-respect! I didn't know you had any to begin with!" I know I hurt her with those words but I just can't… I started to walk away when she screamed.

"Hey! Edward Cullen! Do you have any idea how I feel? How could you, who has never been hurt, understand me? Do you really have to crush my last bit of self-respect?!" Her voice was crackling and I knew she was close to tears.

I understand you Bella. I truly do because like you I have been hurt. Hearing those words from her my heart made up a decision. If she really wants this, then I won't stop her. I'll just do whatever makes her happy. As long as she is happy…

"Ok. I'll help you. .This will be different. It'll be unlike any other love you had before. If it would make you happy, I'll try my best to help you."

"Thank you." She replied.

"Edward!" A familiar voice called from behind me.

I turned around to see Tanya walking towards me and she unexpectedly gave me a hug.

"It's been a while. I missed you. I trust that you have been well." She continued as she took both of her hands and placed it on the sides of my face.

Tanya would be Tanya. I sighed to myself.

"When did you arrive?"

"Just now. And who is this lovely woman you're with? You are not cheating on my back now, are you?" She suddenly said. What the hell?! I decided to change the topic. I hope Bella wouldn't believe her.

"It's nice meeting you."

"It's nice to meet you too. Well… I guess I'll be going now. Goodbye Edward, goodbye Miss Denali." Bella said uncomfortably.

"Bye." Tanya answered.

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