Is this what you want?
We had been dancing close for what felt like hours. The music was coming to an end and i was beginning to feel numb. Tonight i had drunk way too much. I was over my limit by a long shot, and Jeff could tell. He never let me out of his sight. By the time the night was over, i could barely walk. I could feel Jeff's arm wrapped around my waist as we walked to a taxi. Matt couldn't stop laughing at the state i'd got myself into. "watch yourself Hardy! My foot will collide with your balls if you're not carefull!" he continued to laugh as we got into the cab "yeah right, you couldn't lift your foot the way you are" to his surprise, my foot came up and met his groin swiftly. Causing him to curl up on the seat. This made Jeff laugh as his brother moaned "alright, i guess i deserved that" "i warned you!"
When we reached the hotel, Matt sulked as he made his way to his room. Jeff's arm was still firmly holding me up as we walked. We reached his room and my head began to shake "this isn't my room, why are we here?" i felt his other arm wrap around me as he leant me against the wall. "you're in no fit state to be alone" i couldn't argue, even though i wanted to. Once he had opened the door, i was escorted in and placed on the bed. The second his arms were removed from around me, i fell backwards. As i lay there looking at the ceiling, i could feel the room around me start to spin. This was not a good feeling, but i only had myself to blame. When Jeff placed himself beside me, he lifted me up so i was sitting again. "why did you drink so much tonight?" i wish he'd never asked that question, at least not when i was this drunk. "i thought i only wanted to be friends with you Jeff, but when i heard about Beth, i wanted to rip her head off! I don't understand why i'm feeling like this. Maybe it's because i don't want to lose you as a friend?"
My words had shocked him. I could just make out his blank expression as he sat there staring into space. There was an awkward silence before he spoke again "you'd never lose me as a friend Lexi. If i was to get back with Beth or find a new love, i would never let them come between us" hearing Beth and new love really pulled on my emotions. I didn't want him to find a new love, but i knew it was going to happen eventually. I had never been so confused in my life. I wanted him to be happy, but i didn't want him to move on with someone else. I wanted him so badly, but i didn't want him. I needed to figure this whole mess out. Before my thoughts could take over, Jeff's hand cupping my face snaps me back. He was smiling sweetly at me "you mean too much to me Lex. Don't ever forget that" and those words turned my rational thinking to shit. I felt so warm inside and for that moment, my brain was telling me i needed him. My hands come up to cup either side of his face as i lowered my lips to his.
It didn't last long before he pulled back and sighed "stop, you're drunk and don't know what you want" his words cut into me, but i knew he was right. I couldn't just jump straight into it. I am far beyond drunk and i could end up regretting anything that happens tonight. A loud sigh finds it's way out of me before i stand up "i need to get some sleep, in my own room" i could tell Jeff didn't want me to be alone, but i needed to be. I needed to figure all this out in my own head. And staying in the same room as the man that had my thoughts in knots wouldn't help at all.
I had managed to stumble to my door and somehow open it. My vision was still very blurred as i attempted to make my way to my bed. My body became numb as i fell towards the bed, falling face down. I couldn't fight it any longer, the alcohol took me into a deep sleep.
The fans were screaming our names and cheering loudly as Jeff lifted me off my feet. I had just retained my knockout title in a fatal three way and i felt great! My arms wrapped around the back of his neck as our lips connected in a passionate kiss. My eyes were closed and i was savoring every second. When my eyes open, we are lying on a hotel bed. Jeff's strong arms and chiseled chest on show as he starts to kiss my neck. My head leans back into the pillow as the pleasure takes over me. His kisses left tingles behind them as he moved up and along my jaw line, eventually falling on to my lips once more. It felt like heaven! My eyes closed again as i let the pleasure take over, but it was short lived. As i opened my eyes, it was no longer me under Jeff. I saw him leaving kisses along Beth's neck as she let out soft moans of pleasure.
I tried so hard to shake this image away, but it would not budge. I blinked repeatedly in hopes that each time i opened my eyes, the image would be gone. But it was no use. My heart began to break and my thoughts started to race. Is this what i really wanted? Jeff and Beth back together, or me and him to give it a shot? I couldn't believe i was actually contemplating me and Jeff with a future together. I had never intended for this to happen, but it seemed like it would never be. "what are you thinking Lex? He is destined to be with Beth. You are just his friend, and that's all you'll ever be. You need to accept that. I'm so sorry" i could hear Reby, but i couldn't see her. Although i didn't want to admit it, those words were true. I needed to accept it once and for all!
My head was thumping and my stomach was turning. All i could think of was trying not to throw up. A loud groan left my lips as i rolled over, pulling the quilt up and over my head. I didn't want to move, ever! I would say i'm never drinking again, but it would be a lie. It felt like several hours had passed before i actually left my bed. I felt like shit and i looked like shit. The only thing i wanted to do was to hide away from the world. My body limped lifelessly over to the sofa, where i slumped down. The tv was going to be my best friend today. I had sat slouched over watching tv for hours. My hangover had finally passed and i'd even managed to eat something. My dream had been playing on my mind all day. I couldn't get the image of Jeff and Beth out of my head. Even though i was going through imense confusion, i knew i had to step back and let them find each other once more.