Chapter 19
Luce's P.O.V.
"I think I need some air." I say and walks towards the door. That's the first thing I have said in the 2 hours that have gone since they told me. In fact that's the first thing anyone have said. "I come with you." Daniel says and stands up from his chair. I shake my head, "I would like to be alone for a little while." The look on Daniel's face is disappointed, worried and loving at the same time. He doesn't say anything and I walk out through the door. I feel a little better once I close the door, I can't stand the look on all of their faces. During the 2 hours that have passed they all have had a special look on their faces, a look that is filled with empathy and sadness. And that look and those feelings are choking me, and I don't have the time for that.
I walk through the same corridors that I walked through when I were a student here. It feels odd, remembering all my past lives, but at the same time I feel complete. Remembering all of my lives somehow makes me feel whole, not shattered like I thought in my past life.
As I pass another corner I see some students. They look at me with amazed eyes, like I'm some celebrity. Though I would have liked to stop and talk to them, ask them some questions, I walk past them towards the door that leads out to the front gates. Just as I open the door I can hear how one of them whispers to the others "That's Lucinda, the archangel, Daniel's love. She is back. I heard…" The gossiping continues but I don't care and walks out through the door. Those students back there remind me of Shelby and Miles. "I wonder what those two are up to? Are they married? Do they have kids? Why haven't I thought about them until now?" I think to myself as I spread my wings and fly over the gate, out into the woods. I land in the middle of the woods and sit down on a fallen tree. "Maybe I should call them, sure someone back there must have their numbers." I think. But then something else, much bigger, comes to my mind. How am I to first of all find the power? And how will I be able to defeat it? "Why me?" I whisper into to the woods and hide my face in my palms as I begin to cry quietly. Somewhere in my mind something asks me if I just can't ignore it, let someone else fix it. "No. Lucinda, you are the first archangel now and you will not hide from your responsibilities, even though someone else put them on you!" I say into my palms. Then I dry my tears and lift my head up, then something hits me. I'm the first archangel now, that must mean something. I remember that I had some gifts in heaven, like a slight healing ability...and light. I could control the light. "But that sort of light doesn't exist on this earth." I mutter. But then a voice creeps into my mind, it's warm and convincing, it's the voice of The Throne. "Fire Lucinda, you control fire." And just like that the voice is gone. But I'm grateful for the little help I got from The Throne. "Fire." I mutter and reach out my palm in front of me, facing it upwards. I focus my mind to my palm, feeling the heat of it. Suddenly I can see a flame coming up from my palm. I stare at it with shocked eyes. But there it is, fire, I control fire. "The irony, in the curse I always bursted up in flames. Very funny." I say out loud and continue to stare at the flame. "Isn't it?" The voice appears from nowhere and I get so surprised and frightened so I loose control of the flame and it disappears. I look around until I see him. He's coming towards me from the woods, he still has that confident walk of his. "You scared me Lucifer." My voice has a tone of irritation in it. And why wouldn't I be irritated? He's the reason to why I'm in this mess. "It's been a long time Lucinda." He stops right ahead of me. "Not so long if I remember right. You visited me last year, the flipping coin guy, if you remember?" Why had he done that? He weren't allowed to visit me while I were human, but then, I really never had been human. "I thought the flipping coin thing was kind of funny." He says but his eyes tell me a whole different story. Even after everything that happened last time, he hasn't gotten over me quite yet. But I'm Daniel's and Daniel is mine. "What do you want Lucifer?" My voice sounds tired even though I'm not tired, or hungry or anything that is connected to human needs. One of the benefits of being an angel. He doesn't answer and looks at my palm, the palm from where the fire came from. I cross my arms over my chest to take away his stare from my palm. I feel uncomfortable being out here with him, alone. "That's one of the things I like about you Lucinda, your light. But in this world it's fire. It suits you really, because even though you appear to be harmless, all-good-girl, calm and defenseless you have a fire burning inside of you. You want to fight, you want to help and sometimes I even think that you want to be bad. And I can bet my wings on that Daniel knows all of this and that he's a little scared over that flame that burns inside of you, inside of your soul." His words shakes me up a bit, because he's right, I feel the fire burning inside of me, waiting to be released. But he's wrong about one thing. Daniel may know this, but he loves me and he just want me to be me. He's not scared. "What do you want Lucifer?" I ask again with a whole lot of irritation in my voice. "I want to help you learn how to control your fire."
What do you think? My idea with this is that all angels have some sort of ability, some bigger than others depending on where in the ranking they were, and there's no mention of what ability Lucinda has (at least I can't recall it). I mean they mention that Gabbe has a healing touch. So I thought that because her name means graceful light that she could control the light. But that sort of light doesn't exist on earth, so why not fire? I really just wanted to give her some sort of advantage against the power. Please leave a review and let me know what you think of my addition to Lucinda's repertoar.