Hello all, this is Jade, Izzy's co-writer. Earlier today, we were going to surprise you lot with another chapter, but we realised that not all of the chapters were in the right order, so I've spent the last two hours fixing all of it. The chapters that have changed are 5-19, so you should probably go and read those before you get to this one.
So sorry about the mix up, and everything should be good now. I'm having Izzy yell at Loki right now, because it's definitely his fault.
Thanks for understanding and I hope that this never happens ever again.
"I'll go find Rachel." Bruce announced. "I'll go with you." Steve told him, following Bruce out the door. Seconds later Loki went up the stairs to Raina's room. He walked swiftly up the stairs and was about to call for her from the other side of the door when he started to hear heavy stuff being thrown around and the sound of some of those objects breaking, along with heavy sobbing and screaming. When Loki stopped hearing the breaking sounds he finally called out to her, "Rain. Please let me in."
"Go to hell!" Raina yelled out in between sobs.
"Raina let me in." Loki said a little more sternly.
"Go away!" She yelled. Loki hesitated, and then decided that she needed some time to calm down and went back downstairs. Loki sat down on the couch, shaking his head and sighing. Clint went up next.
"Raina, open up, everything will be alright." He spoke through the door.
"Go away or I will cut off your manhood and shove it in your mouth!" She yelled at him. Clint grimaced and returned downstairs.
"We can't just let her sit up there all day. Nothing good can come out of such self-isolation." Thor stated, finally breaking the silence.
"I shall try again then." Loki announced as he rose from the couch and went back upstairs.
"Raina, open up this door, now," He demanded.
"Who are you, my father?" Loki waited a few moments, making her think he had left and then began to pick quietly at the lock. When he'd finally got it opened Loki found Raina laying on the floor in the middle of a bunch of broken glass, small cuts covering her arms and legs. She was on her back, tears falling down her face, just staring blankly up at the ceiling. "Come now, my dear, let's get you someplace safer." Loki said as he picked her up, Raina muttering a soft 'Go away' as he did, and took her to his room, placing her onto his bed.
"How about we get these cuts cleaned up." Loki went to dabbing at all of Raina's cuts, rubbing away all of the blood. As soon as he was done, Raina sat up and threw her arms around him and began crying again. "I try to do something responsible, show that I can and once again it's thrown back in my face! It's not fair!" She cried, hiding her face in his shirt. As Loki put his arms around her to hold her closer he made an epiphany. He knew exactly how she felt because it was exactly what he felt when he'd tried to destroy Jotunheim and when Odin showed great shame and anger for his actions.
"I'll always be here for you my dear sweet Raina, and I know that you'll always be here for me. We were meant to meet." He whispered into her ear.
"If only we could've met earlier." She muttered back pulling him closer to her. Loki held two fingers under Raina's chin, moving her face upwards, her eyes meeting his.
"But we have each other now and that's all that matters." Loki spoke softly as he started to lean his head down closer to hers. Their lips locked and in those few short moments nothing else in the world mattered.
Rachel stomped out of the back door and walked in the direction of the woods. She didn't know where she was going, but she kept putting one foot in front of the other. Not so deep down, Rachel knew that she had over-reacted. Buying things was a habit of Raina's and this time she actually had a good reason for it. Rachel sighed angrily, and walked faster, going deeper into the woods.
Even though she wouldn't admit it to herself, she was afraid. Somewhere Rachel knew that this would never be a permanent situation; the Avengers and Loki would have to leave. Rachel was terrified that Raina would leave her. Rachel, though an intelligent and independent woman, didn't make friends easily. She feared that she would never be able to move on from Rain. Raina's bringing in of the beds only meant more of a pain when everyone left her. Rachel was going to be left alone to clean up the wreckage. She hadn't had to do that in a long time, even longer when part of the wreckage would be herself.
Rachel was also worried about the Avengers themselves leaving; she felt as though she had grown rather attached to them over the past week and a half. Tony was just as funny as Raina. Thor was a giant teddy bear and great for hugs. Clint was the smart ass and also good for archery advice. Natasha was another female she could talk to without having to be girly, which Rachel appreciated. Bruce was a wonderful listener and a truly caring person. And Steve, Rachel couldn't think about him, she knew that she had passed the crush stage with him. Rachel honestly couldn't tell if she would be more heartbroken by Steve or Raina leaving her.
Rachel slowed down her walking, and stepped hard on a rock, which reminded her that she had stormed out without wearing any shoes or socks. She had lost the purpose and anger in her walk, which meant that now she was going to pay; every rock or twig that she stepped on was going to hurt now. Rachel slowed down even more, trying to figure out where she was, and once she did, she changed her direction a little more to the east so that she was heading towards the river that was at the edge of her property.
Rae stepped out into the clearing that led to the bank. A couple of months ago, her and Raina had moved about four boulders semi close to the bank so that they could sit there and watch the water go by. Rachel walked over and sat down. A single tear fell from her eye as she thought about the possibility that her best friend was going to leave her. Rachel could easily admit that she needed Rain in her life, and would be lost without her.
Rain provided the humour in her life that Rachel neither wanted to or could get anywhere else. Rae put her head in her hands; she felt like a complete shit for the way that she reacted to the beds. With her anger gone, perspective wise, buying five beds was really on the low side of bad decisions that Rain had made, and it wasn't even really a bad decision, Rain had a legitimate reason for the beds. It wasn't like the time that she bought four laptops to see which one was more durable by taking a hammer to each of them. Rain had accidentally smashed Rae's laptop when she did it because Rain had bought an identical one. Rachel wouldn't allow herself to cry, not yet anyway. She did, however let a couple more tears slip from her eyes. She felt oddly alone in that moment.
Rachel felt a presence behind her and she knew that someone had come looking for her, for a minute, she thought that it was Raina. She was disappointed when she felt a hand on her left shoulder. The hand belonged to Bruce. She wasn't all that surprised when Steve came and sat down on her right side.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Those seven words are generally unassuming, but in the right moment, spoken by the right person, they can send someone into tears, which is exactly what happened to Rachel when Steve asked her that question. Seven words send Rachel into tears for the first time since she was sixteen. Bruce, who had moved so that he could sit next to her, hugged her.
"I'm a shit," Rachel sobbed. Steve ignored her language and said, "No you're not."
"Yes I am, look at what I did, just because I was angry." Bruce laughed, "I've done a lot worse when I was angry." Rae looked over at him, and attempted a smile, but failing spectacularly.
"Was it really the money that you were upset about?" Steve asked knowing that it wasn't. Rachel confirmed his suspicions by shaking her head. She then proceeded to tell them almost everything. She told them how she was afraid of Raina leaving her and how she tried just taking the anger out on Loki, then how she was upset with beds because they were just going to remind her that she had a full house and how much she knew she was going to miss everyone when they left.
Steve and Bruce listened patiently as she talked through all of her fears and when she finished, Bruce asked, "If you're worried about Rain leaving, why don't you just go with her?" Rachel blinked at Bruce. That was the only option that she hadn't considered, but even as she did, she knew that she wouldn't; unlike Raina, Rachel had a family to be concerned about.
"I can't," She said looking at Bruce, "My family." Rachel didn't notice Steve frown when she said that.
Bruce, who had noticed Steve's look, asked, "How about we figure it out later?" Rachel wiped her eyes and nodded.
"How's Rain?"
"We don't know, we went for you, but I think she's as upset as you."
"You need to talk to her about this Rachel, it's well past time." Bruce said.
"I know, I just don't want to lose her. Believe it or not, I like taking care of people, and I don't think there's anyone in the universe that would need me as much as Rain."
"Maybe you should stop trying to take care of people and let someone take care of you for a change." Steve said.
Rachel frowned, "I guess."
"What do you say we head back? You and Raina need to talk."
Rachel sighed deeply at Bruce's words, "Okay."
Hope you enjoyed the chapter and reread the others in the correct order.
Again, super sorry, blame Loki for screwing it all up and thank Steve for helping me fix it.
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