Suki's POV

I had been pacing back and forth wondering when Gaara would be back. He had been gone for about forty five minutes and I was the one that was supposed to be guarding him. It wouldn't be a good thing if I had let him walk alone and he got hurt. Heck, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if that happened. I knew Gaara could take plenty good care of himself…I just didn't want him caught off guard without me around.

"Suki," Gaara said once he opened the door again. "I'm sorry I took so long. I had to speak with Lord Kusanagi again." He smiled and came towards me with a strange look in his eyes. "That's okay Gaara," I whispered while breathing a sigh of relief. "As long as you're all right."

"I'm fine," he said while wrapping his arms around my waist. "It's just that I've had to sit by and look at you all day."

"Gaara," I said a little weirded out. "What are you…?"

"I want you Suki," he whispered. "Let me have you." I blushed as Gaara pushed me down on the bed and kissed me roughly. Once Gaara's lips touched mine, I knew it wasn't him. The way this one kissed me wasn't the way Gaara had. The real Gaara was tenderer than this, and even when he kissed me roughly, he was always kind about it. Besides, I always felt something when I kissed Gaara. I felt nothing with this one. "Gaara," I whispered once the fake's lips left mine and nipped at my neck. "I thought you said that you wanted us to wait until we were married…"

"I can't wait much longer Suki," the fake mumbled as his hands traveled up to my breasts. "I love you." I wanted to laugh. Gaara would never ever use 'I love you' as an excuse to get in my pants; that much I knew. He wasn't like that at all; and besides, he didn't love me. "You do know that my younger brother would have something to say about this if he knew," I said, thinking about how Shikamaru would kill this guy. Hell, he even almost killed Neji after he caught us together. "Then we don't have to tell the little guy," the fake said before kissing me again.

After executing the correct hand signs, I used the shadows in the room to bind the fake against the wall. "Shadow Strangulation Jutsu," I shouted as hands came forth and squeezed him. "Nice try," I said as I heard the door open. The fake laughed. "How did you know it wasn't him," he asked. "I thought I did a good job using that jutsu."

"I knew the moment you kissed me," I answered. "I knew something was up since Gaara doesn't usually look at me the way you did when you walked in; I just didn't know what."

"So your own fiancé doesn't kiss you huh," he said. "Pretty sad if you ask me."

"No," I said. "That's just it. Gaara's kiss feels different from everyone else's."

"You truly love the Kazekage then," said a voice from the doorway. I looked over and saw Kei Kusanagi standing there. "Brother," he said in a faint voice. "I do wish you hadn't done this to Suki."

"I wanted to see whether or not the two really were together or not," Tessi said. "It didn't look like they were."

"Well now you know that Suki is marrying the Kazekage of the sand," Kei said. "Now go!" I released him and watched as he ran out of the room, still in Gaara's form. Kei stood there smiling at me and shook his head. "I had no idea you were such a skilled ninja," he whispered. "But now that I do, I have something to ask of you Suki."

"What is it," I said as he walked closer to me. I didn't trust this guy or his brother. "I know that the Lord of the Land of Tea isn't really the one ruining the trade agreements," he whispered. "But someone else is. Every time we send goods to the Land of Tea, they get stolen or arrive rotten. Their lord is blaming me for these things happening and he may start a war I don't want. I wish for the matter to be determined peacefully but the man is stubborn and won't even accept my invitations to come resolve the matter. My people and their safety are my number one concern. I don't have very much, but I'll make sure you're paid well for your services."

"Why don't you ask Gaara to do this," I said in a curt voice. "He is the diplomatic one in all of this." Lord Kusanagi smiled and placed a finger under my chin. "Firstly, because my brother has an interest in you and I'm beginning to think he may be the one behind all this," he whispered. "Secondly, I would think that you would rather not put the life of your dearly beloved Kazekage on the line; there might be someone or something extremely dangerous behind all this. Although I must say that the relationship you say you have is questionable, since the two of you rarely even look at one another, let alone show affection toward. Thirdly, I am curious to see just how good a ninja you really are."

"I'm a damn fine one," I muttered as I raised my chakra level.

"Suki," Gaara cried as he rushed in. My heart skipped a beat when I saw him, but then I felt Lord Kusanagi's arms wrap around me. "What the," I said before he kissed me lightly on the lips. I was shocked, but not as shocked as I was when I felt Gaara rip me from Kei Kusanagi's arms and into his. "I'm sorry Lord Kazekage," Kusanagi said. "It's just that her beauty captivated me and I didn't realize I was kissing her until it was too late. Perhaps she used a jutsu on me…"

"Suki's more faithful to me than any other person is," Gaara shouted. "I don't ever want to see you touch her like that again!"

"It's just that I wonder if the two of you really are together as you say," Kusanagi mused. "If you're in love like you say you are, you would have at least kissed her once by now." I looked into Gaara's eyes with a blush as he looked at me with shock. My heart started pounding as his lips came closer to mine. Gaara didn't seem to sure about kissing me, so I pressed my lips against his softly, which only made him pull me in closer.

"I see," Kusanagi said. "I'll leave you both alone." Gaara slowly pulled away after the door closed and I felt myself wanting to pull him back in. "Here," Gaara whispered while handing me a small bag. "I have to check and see if he's still listening."

I opened the bag to find a small, ring sized box inside. Opening it carefully, I felt my heart skip a beat; it was the most beautiful ring I had ever seen. "Gaara," I mumbled. "Why did you…?"

"You needed an engagement ring to help fool them," he murmured after sitting down on the bed. "Someone is still out there by the way."

"Gaara," I muttered after putting the ring back in the bag. "It's too much. I don't need to use something like that." Gaara got up and grabbed the bag from me. After taking out the ring he took my left hand and slipped it on my finger. "Suki," he whispered as I looked away. "If you don't wear it they'll start to ask questions. Besides, he's still listening at the door…I think he still wonders if we're really together." I blushed as Gaara turned me to face him and looked me in the eye. "G-Gaara," I whispered. "Are you suggesting that we should…um…?"

"No," Gaara mumbled with wide eyes. "Nothing big like that…just…" I couldn't hold back anymore. Just the thought of kissing Gaara again made shivers go up and down my body. I pressed my lips against his and he practically crushed me as he pulled me closer to him. Gaara had never been this rough with me before, and I wondered if it was because he felt that he had to prove that the two of us were actually engaged. "Gaara," I whispered in his ear after he broke away to catch his breath. "You don't need to feel forced. We don't need to prove a point…"

"I just don't want either of them to think they can take advantage of you," he mumbled before kissing me again. I wrapped both arms around his neck, acting through the emotions I felt inside me. I loved Gaara, maybe even more than I ever loved Neji. He lifted me up bridal style and lay me down on the futon we were supposed to share. "I love you Suki," he said.

My heart stopped when he said these words. I knew the words had been forced and that Gaara would never love me the way I loved him, but I still felt happy. Before I could say anything though, Gaara's lips were upon mine again. I let out a low moan in the middle of the kiss and grinded up against him slowly. Gaara slowly pulled away and looked me in the eye. They were so beautiful…like a pool of water I was able to drift in.

Before I was able to pull him in for another kiss, Gaara slowly planted kisses down my cheek, down my neckline, and stopped at the collar bone. He then gave a sharp bite at a spot that practically made me scream his name. Not even Neji nor I knew that that kind of spot ever existed. My breathing became erratic as Gaara's hands carefully laid on my breasts. I noticed him blush as he parted my kimono a bit. I smiled as he looked away from my chest, but kept trying to part my kimono just a bit further.

"You've never seen a girls' chest before have you," I whispered with a teasing smile. Gaara shook his head and quickly withdrew his hands, sat up, then looked at the wall. "No," he mumbled. "Only in the magazines Kankuro leaves around. He says that they've most likely been enhanced by a computer or something like that…" My smile deepened. It was kinda cute how innocent he was, how inexperienced he seemed to be. Most guys his age had already at least made out with a girl they liked and I knew Gaara hadn't even done that. Well, I probably should have included myself in the equation, but Gaara didn't like me that way.

Sitting up, I slowly opened my robe and revealed my black bra. I hated the fact that my breasts were so huge, but it ran in the family…taking Gaara's hand, I placed it on my heart so he could feel it beating. His cheeks turned a little pink when his cool hand touched my warm skin, but turned bright red when he looked at where it was. "Ummm," he muttered. "Suki? What are you doing?"

"Well you said that we needed to fool them," I whispered. "So this is only the natural thing a couple would do." Gaara swallowed and nodded slowly. I shuffled towards him a bit and straddled his lap. I started to grind up against him when I noticed his eyes were still fixated on my breasts and I wrapped my arms around his neck. "I don't want to sound ungrateful or anything," he whispered softly. "But…what do I do?" I really had to hold back on laughing at this point. I thought that maybe he would have picked something up from his older brother, but he really was just as innocent as a little boy. "Well," I mumbled with a blush. "You could massage them or something."

"I know that," Gaara muttered. "I guess I should have asked 'what do you want me to do'." My blush deepened and I looked away from Gaara. I felt shivers go up and down my spine. Just the thought of telling Gaara what I wanted was really embarrassing. I'd dreamt of Gaara and I doing things before sure, but I'd never thought of us actually doing those things.

At the same time though, I wondered what it would be like to be with Gaara in that sense. I wanted to know; maybe even needed to know. What did I want him to do? I wanted him to pin me down and make me scream for him; I wanted him to nip at my neck and find that spot only he knew about that made me feel really randy. I wanted him to hold me in his arms and kiss me tenderly, hear him whisper that he loved me in that soft voice of his, hear him moan as I showed him what kind of woman I could be. I wanted him to lay on top of me with his chin on my stomach and let me run my fingers through his hair while we just stared at one another; but most of all, I wanted him to say that he really did love me and that he wanted me to be his and his alone…I shook my head and looked at him again. His eyes drew me in once more and I felt myself edging forward ever so slightly. "I'm sorry," Gaara whispered just before I was about to kiss him again. "It's my fault we have to do things like this."

"I don't blame you Gaara," I mumbled. "I feel like I'm the one that made things awkward…"

"You didn't," he said in a low voice. "It's just that it's sort of embarrassing for me. I've never done things like that with a girl before…" I felt horrible now; as though I had forced Gaara into all this. I knew I hadn't, but…"I'm gonna go for a walk," I said while straightening myself up. "If I'm not back in half an hour send the rescue squad." Gaara looked at me confused. "Forget it," I mumbled, now thinking I just made the situation worse. I walked into the hallway and walked towards the gardens.

Gaara's POV

"Stupid, stupid, stupid," I shouted when I knew Suki, or anyone else for that matter, was far from the room. "Why did I have to say that? 'What do I do?'. Now she knows that I've never been with a girl that way before. I even told her that I…God I should have let her go back…Why didn't I let her go back?" I slammed my fist against the wall and sighed. "Because you couldn't," I whispered to myself. "You wanted her to be yours…"

I never had loved anyone before, and I didn't even know what feelings I had towards Suki, but all I did know is that she was different from everyone else. She could make me smile and laugh; everything she did either amazed me or astounded me. Her voice soothed me, her eyes captivated me, her smile calmed me, her beauty dazzled me, and yet…

I sighed again and fell onto the bed once more. I really shouldn't have said anything to her and let my emotions take over, but I couldn't do that to her. She would have regretted it if we did something like that; I had to remember that she was still with Neji. Just the thought of his arms around her made my blood boil. He hurt her badly, and he came up with a horrible excuse. When I told Kankuro about it the next morning, he said it was now my chance to have her, but I figured she would want some space.

I shouldn't have asked this of her; she was probably off somewhere thinking of Neji and how much she missed him. I wondered…is it him who she thinks of when we kissed? Of course it was; who else was there in her life? I only wished I was a part of it…even for just one minute. That would never happen though…

Closing my eyes, I threw my lower left arm over them and let out an aggravated growl. Suki knew about the Shukaku that had been inside me and I wished she had treated me like everyone else did. Maybe then I wouldn't be feeling about her like this and everything would be fine. If only she saw me as the monster I truly was…You don't have to be alone anymore Gaara…

I gripped the sheet as that memory of her standing next to me holding my hand flew threw my head. We were younger then, but she still had the same caring eyes she did then. Me being the idiot I was kept trying to push her away; only to realize then that I really didn't want to be alone anymore. Suki was always there for me, even when I didn't think I needed her. Perhaps that was one of the many reasons why I cared about her.

"Suki," I whispered. "You're the only one who's ever made me feel this way…" All this time alone with her was going to drive me insane and the fact that Kankuro took away all her pajama's and replaced them with nighties wasn't a big help. Just the mere thought of the ones from last night was making me aroused...the fact that we had to stay in the same room again tonight made it even worse.

"Gaaagh," I shouted while punching the pillow and throwing my face into it. "Just stop thinking!" This didn't help out at all; now that I wasn't thinking about her, I was imagining her. Her soft pale skin gleaming in the moonlight; a small blush barely noticeable as she lays on the bed with just her kimono and no obi. There was me, trailing soft kisses up and down her neck line while slowly parting her robe. Oh Gaara, she'd moan. I've wanted this for so long…I'd hover over her lips for a second or so, making her kiss me. She would do so and hungrily too. Her skin would be warm and her lips would be soft. Her hands would be entangled in my hair as she grinds up against me. My hands would be running up and down her body before…

"Fuck," I muttered. Unconsciously, my hand had slipped down while I was imagining the things I would do to her if she was in love with me as well. A load had just spilled into my hand, hot and sticky. I didn't even know I had been touching myself while imagining the two of us together; in fact I'd never done that before in my life. This was getting too intense. My want for Suki was turning into something I never wanted in the first place.

Suki was everything I had wanted and couldn't have. She was getting under my skin and I was starting to regret asking her to stay. She would have been better off with Neji…what made me think I had a chance? I had to let her go; once we got back to the sand village I would tell her that Lady Tsunade said no and that she had to go home right away.