I still do not own Twilight! So sorry for the delay guys but the fanfiction website was giving me a error message when I tried to update. Thanks to the computer wiz "slashguy" who figured out how to fix it!
If I missed Isabella before when I didn't see her, I missed her even more now. I never had this connection with any of the other girls... Sure they had been fun in bed, but with her, there was real emotion and love involved. It was an emotion that I couldn't control, and not to sound cliche but I never felt this before. And as much as I tried to deny the love I felt for her so quickly in the beginning, I couldn't deny it now. It was different.
I thought of all the years I wasted with Tanya, compared to these months I'd been with Isabella. Nothing compared to it. Isabella made me happier than I'd ever been. It wasn't just because we finally had sex, it was something else. I felt so good almost all the time, even when I was dead tired at work. All I had to do was think about her...
I spent the last few hours of my shift not sleeping but talking with Emmett. He was on his way in while I was on my way out. I tried to act regularly around him, but he could see through my act.
"There's only one reason why he would have that look on his face. He finally got that!" Emmett announced with a grin. He gave me a handshake. I shook my head and tried not to smile.
"How was it?" he pleaded. I wouldn't tell him anything; his mouth was too big.
"I thought we were bros! C'mon!" I just stared at him.
"I just know it was crazy. You know it's over now right? You know what they say."
"What?"
"Once you go black, you never go back." He said seriously. I laughed out loud. I'd heard the expression before, but the way he said it was like it was some kind of spell or something.
"You never go back? I don't think I'd want to bro. Not ever." I felt my face blush slightly as I smile.
"Really? Bro you have to give me details! Does she have a sister or a friend? Or can't I just watch?" I shook my head.
"No! What happened with Rose?" He shook his head.
"We decided to take a break. All she wanted to do was grill me for info on Bella. I think she was mad because she caught me checking her out. Bro, even if you weren't into black chicks, you can't help but notice how hot she is."
I searched through the fridge for the leftover eggplant parmigiana. I didn't get a piece yet, but Jasper said he hid some for me. Family meals at the station didn't have leftovers for long; especially when the captain made his Italian dishes. I moved through the Tupperware bowls and foiled pans and I found it.
"Yes!" I said. I pulled off the foiled square and grabbed at paper plate.
"But anyways how was it? You did it doggy style right? With that a-"
"Bro! Seriously? Calm down." I interrupted him. I put the plate in the microwave.
"My bad." He raised his hands defensively.
"I'm just used to you telling me everything. And I mean everything. You're different this time...like I can tell you love her. You're so quiet and secretive..." He went back in the fridge and pulled out a soda.
"Like that night when we went bowling, you couldn't stop staring at her. With this look..." I smiled.
"Even Rose noticed. She said ' he never looked at Tanya that way' so not only did I have to listen to her tell Tanya everything the whole cab ride, when we got to her place, I had to hear her complain about me checking her out."
"What does Tanya want? It seems like she just reappeared out of thin air."
"Rose wouldn't tell me. But you know her, she loves a challenge" I sighed as we sat done at the table. I started to eat the food, it tasted good but I couldn't stop thinking about what Tanya wanted from me.
"But with what? She basically treated me like I was untouchable...and now..." It had been years since I had an actual conversation with her. Well a conversation that didn't involve me being drunk and lonely after I got kicked out I should say. Look, I was lonely and drunk, I wasn't used to my new found "freedom" and I called her. I still regret that night even though it was so long ago.
"Bro one thing I've never understood was girls. If only they were fires. You know how they start, then you put them out. Maybe if I were with a black chick, it would easier." he laughed.
"I don't think race has anything to do with it dude, you might need to change." I chuckled.
"Yeah I don't think so." He said as he crushed the soda can in his hand.
After I was done eating, I had a few minutes before I could leave. I checked my cell phone. I had one text from Isabella. "I'm going to bed, I wish you here with me" that was hours ago, when regular people went to sleep. I thought about her sleep in her little bed. I knew she looked as beautiful as she did in my arms.
I thought about that last time I saw her. We went grocery shopping at the 24 hour Pathmark downtown Brooklyn. We raced shopping carts around the store like teens. When we finally got around to actual shopping, I realized how great Isabella was at budgeting money.
She grabbed the circular and helped me pick out most of the things. When we left with bags in our hands headed back to my home she said, "I kinda wish this was all the time". We came back to my place and made love all over again. Tenderly and slower this time...when she fell asleep I couldn't take my eyes off of her.
After dozing in and out of sleep on the near empty train, I made it home. I turned on the radio and jumped in the shower. I could hear the radio play from inside. Isabella changed the station when she was here; I hadn't switched it back yet. Alicia Keys sang her way into my ears, the same song Isabella had set as my ringtone on her cell phone.
"I was wondering maybe, could I make you my baby? If we do the unthinkable, would it make us look crazy?
If you ask me I'm ready..." I sang along with the song almost unconsciously.
As I shampooed my hair, I remembered how she tiptoed so she could do it. And when I asked to wash hers she protested. "No! I can't get my hair wet. It will be a bigger mess than it is now. I'll just go to the salon."
"How big of a mess?" I asked as I pretended to take off the shower cap.
"Diana Ross crazy" she said as her eyes widened. She grabbed at my hands. All I could imagine was a very big afro, and then that photo of her Phil showed me.
"No!" she said said with a smile on her face. I held her hands over her head like that as I watched the water and suds run over her dark skin. Then she looked up at me shyly as she realized how I had been looking at her. Then I bent over to kiss her lips. That's how it started all over again with a kiss, and we made love in my shower...
I exhaled out loud. I missed her. A lot. Everything in my apartment reminded me of her. After my shower I glanced at the time. In a few hours she would be awake. I'd sleep and then call her. But for now, my bed was empty again. I stared at her side of the bed and smiled. I remembered how we played under the sheets. How she giggled, and laughed. How she moaned my name "Oh Edward...don't stop." I closed my eyes and I could hear her in my ear.
When I woke up, it was nighttime. My stomach growled and I knew I had to eat something. I had a kitchen full of groceries but really no idea what to do with them. I didn't have a cookbook, and didn't have computer to check for any recipes. I decided to call Isabella.
It rang a few times and then she answered. "Hi!"
"Hi, how are you? How was your day?" A million of other questions ran through my mind as I got so happy from hearing her voice.
"It was OK. I was thinking about you all day. I just feel... I don't know...like"
"Like a piece is missing?" I blurted out.
"Exactly" she said.
"I feel like that too. I missed everything about you today, well yesterday."
"Edward..." she said sweetly.
"Seriously."
"What's up? What are you up to?"
"Uh, I'm attempting to cook dinner and I need help." I glanced at the frozen solid chicken in the sink.
"Ohhh" she said. "Should I just come over?"
"That would be awesome...um you can bring some stuff over if you wanna stay the night over" my heart started to pound as I waited for her to respond.
"Alright." I could hear her smile over the phone. "I'll come over."
"Great."
It wouldn't take her long to get here from her place so I decided to freshen up. I brushed my teeth and combed my hair. Maybe I needed a hair cut...or a trim.
I threw on a clean white tee shirt and sweats. Then I waited.
When she buzzed the intercom I literally jumped off the couch and jetted down the stairs to get her. She threw her arms around me.
"Hey" she said as she kissed me.
"Hey" I kissed her. I grabbed her hand and we walked up the stairs together.
When we reached the door, my neighbor was in the hall. An older woman who I only said hello to every now and then. She was holding a cat in her arms and she smiled at us.
"Edward is it?" She said in a heavy Irish accent. She reminded me of my Granny.
"Uh, yeah?" I answered and smiled at this old lady with bright red hair.
"I was wondering if you and Isabella could be a little more quiet tonight. I have a doctor's appointment in the morning and the moaning and sighing keeps me and Liam up." She patted the cat's head. I glanced at Isabella and her eyes were wide.
"Uh, yes. Miss uh?"
"Miss Maggie" she smiled.
"Miss Maggie. Uh goodnight." I said and we rushed into my apartment.
"Omigosh omigosh omigosh!" Isabella said nervously.
"That's what got us into trouble." I joked.
"Edward!" Isabella said laughing. Then she shook her head and walked into the kitchen. I followed close behind her.
I guess Emmett can't help being the type of guy he is right? And Edward and Isabella may have forgotten about the neighbors. What do you think? Thank you everyone for reading and supporting my story with great reviews! Thanks for making me a favorite of yours and subscribing to me! Have a great week everyone!