Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto. I ownly own this weird plot of mine and a few OC characters.

A/N: I'm sorry it has been so long.. Life happened. And I have to tell you a few things before you start reading this. I'm diagnosed as bipolar and according to my therapist this story is something I need to finish in order to heal. This story is how I channel my feelings. Usually I just fake happiness and stash my feelings away and the only channel the feelings get out is... cutting. So, there's gonna be a lot of dark and angst but that's part of the plot too.

And as I planned this chapter, I listenned to this singer, Corinna Fugate, she's amazing and I get a lot of inspiration from her songs. Okay, start reading now. And I'd be very glad if you reviewed. D

FLASHBACK

It was early in April, there weren't much life in anywhere in her favourite park. Occasionally she could hear a bird singing or see some ground with no snow on it. She enjoyed the silence of the nature and the beauty of the sleeping nature.

She was strolling down the small paths in the park as she saw a girl sitting on an icy bench. She was hugging a teddy bear as hard as she could and looking blankly forward. She had long brown hair and it was all over her face but she didn't seem to mind. It was as if she was waiting for something… or someone.

The kunoichi walked closer to her and saw that she was crying. A river of tears came out of her eyes but she made no sound. She noticed also that the snow around the bench didn't have any footprints. There weren't footprints anywhere near and she wondered how she had gotten there.

'So, she has been here for a long time', Sakura thought sadly.

"Hello, what is your name?" the woman asked. The girl didn't answer, it seemed like she didn't want to notice the woman at all. Even though she was standing right in front of her, she didn't even lift her eyes to look at her. She only cried.

"It's cold here, maybe you should go back inside", she said looking at the girl. She could see the girl was shivering, nearly shaking from the cold.

She was still silent.

"My name is Sakura. And, I'm not going to hurt you", she said not knowing what she should say next; she felt stupid. "Where is your mom?"

For the first time the girl reacted to the kunoichi. She looked at her and said quietly: "She… She is dead."

"Oh, I'm so sorry. Where is your dad then?" Sakura asked but received no answer. She sighed, she wasn't very good with kids and the young girl next to her was a complete mystery to her.

Minutes passed but Sakura didn't leave. She didn't want to leave the girl without knowing that she'd be alright. Plus she had a feeling that she should stay.

"It's cold", the jade eyed woman said.

"Daddy… he… he promised he'd come back soon. And, we could go and drink a hot cup of cocoa", the girl cried loudly.

"Where is he?"

"I don't know", the girl kept crying.

"How long has he been gone?" the ninja asked fearing for the girl's answer.

"Two days", the girl cried and held her teddy tighter.

Sakura was shocked; she couldn't believe what she had just heard. She couldn't believe that any father could forget his child out in the cold. Just hearing that broke her heart and she didn't want to feel what the girl was feeling.

"Maybe if I'll take you to drink a hot cup of cocoa and then I'll take you to your home?" she asked and the girl just looked at her. The pink haired woman could see in the girl's eyes that she was fighting with herself, it was cold and she wanted to go inside and drink something hot but she wanted to wait for her dad, too.

"O-okay. M-my name is Y-yuki", she sobbed and took Sakura's hand in hers.

THE END OF THE FLASHBACK

Sometimes when it's very quiet, people get scared. But when people are talking very loudly and there are all kinds of loud noises, people get distressed. Sakura had learnt to live with both of situations. She could be in a place crowded with people and noise and still feel calm, she had learnt to shut the noise and find the peace within. All ninjas had to learn that. Silence was something she enjoyed and it wasn't something she could enjoy frequently. But today was different, it was too silent, as if at last Sasuke had left her mind alone.

She was lying on Kakashi's bed and looking at the ceiling. It was getting dark and it got harder to see all the details of his ceiling. She didn't know how long she had been lying there or what time it was. All she knew was it was too silent and she was afraid of it. The whole time she had been lying on the bed, she had felt that someone was watching her but she couldn't feel anyone's presence near. Something felt wrong.

She felt like cutting again. She missed the blood and the feeling of having cold iron cutting her skin. She sighed at her stupid desires of self mutilation. Slowly she got up to a sitting position. And what she saw in the corner of the room, almost made her heart stopped, Sasuke leaning on the wall. He looked at her and it felt like his eyes pierced her.

"No", she said quietly trying to look away but couldn't, "you're not real. You're not real. You're not real."

"What if I am?" he asked still looking at her.

"You're not real!" she screamed. He didn't reply, just kept staring at her.

She took a pillow from the bed she was on and threw it at him, it fell through him. "Ha! See, you're not real!" she screamed.

"Sakura, it really hurts my feelings when you say I'm not real", he said with a mysterious smile and walked closer to the bed.

"No! Don't come any closer!" she yelled and threw another pillow at him that also piercing him as if he was a ghost.

A wave of pure fear washed her and she felt like she couldn't move as he was right in front of her. Before she realized what was happening, his hand was on hers and it felt like her hand was on fire.

"If I am not real… How can you feel this?" he asked and pressed her tight against the bed.

"Do you realize that the Lady Hokage could send you to exile if we keep meeting like this", a brown haired man sighed looking at Naruto. There they were again, meeting in a dark alley though it wasn't raining this time.

"I'm doing this for the sake of Konoha!" Naruto hissed.

"Hey, you don't have to convince me. I know what Sasuke's like and quite frankly, I agree with you. He's not… He's not one of us anymore", Sky sighed looking down at the ground.

"So… Do you have anything new information?" the blonde man asked in hopeful tone. For years, his only wish had been that he could send his old friend to jail. For years he had watched what he did to Sakura. For years, he had been a fool for believing he could do it alone. But he had learnt later that it took more than one ninja to catch Sasuke.

"He's with us—" the older man said but stopped dead his sentence after realizing what he had just said. The blonde man looked sternly at Sky but didn't say anything. He knew what it was like to play on both sides of the team and trying to let only the other team win.

"He's with the Akatsuki again. But I've watched him and he... He doesn't care for the Akatsuki. He cares for… Power and something else and—" Sky stopped his sentence again as a sparrow flew above them and landed on the same street they were on.

"He never was a team player. And he'll never be one", Naruto said quietly. For a moment he lost himself to his memories but snapped out of it quite quickly, "why do you do this?"

"Because in the end of the day, I'm a Konoha ninja, too."

"No. You give our team enough information and you're with us planning the final strike but why are you doing this?"

"It's a long story", he sighed.

"It's about her… Isn't it?"

"More or less."

Ino had been called to the Hokage's office. She had been hoping for a new assignment, a new mission. Before she could even greet the older woman, Tsunade asked: "Do you know where Sakura is?"

"Uh, she hasn't come home for a day now so she might be at Kakashi's place", Ino said.

"Come on, let's go", the older woman said and got off of her chair.

"Why? What's going on?" Ino asked and tried to keep up with the Hokage. She was clearly in a hurry as if Sakura was about to die.

"I've been ignoring the signs. I've listened through miss Harata's, Sakura's therapist's, recordings of her patients. And she's been getting worse. And today… Today she was supposed to go and see Yuki. And she never misses her dates with Yuki", the older woman explained quickly.

"Oh. So you know what's going on?"

"I might have a hunch."

They leaped from the village's roof tops to roof tops trying to get as fast as they could to Kakashi's place. They stopped in front of his door. Ino wasn't sure what to expect and she was a bit scared. The older woman looked calm, like she had the situation under control. She opened the door quietly and they crept in.

"Rape me, rape me my friend. Rape me, rape me again", they could hear Sakura singing. Before they could even think, there she was, dancing and singing with a bottle of rum in her hands.

When the pink haired woman saw the other women in the room she stopped singing and dancing. She looked like she had seen a ghost. "Oh my God, Ino!" she screamed, "did he hurt you, too? You're all covered up in blood!" Sakura ran towards her old friend and cried. The bottle of rum dropped from her hands.

"Sakura", Tsunade tried to say but it was like the pink haired woman didn't hear her.

"Ino, say something!" she cried but her friend was too terrified to say anything. Ino looked at Sakura and felt sick, her whole body was covered up bruises and blood, she had lost a lot of hair and she looked like she had died days ago.

"Look at her hands", the Hokage said and tried to reach out for her old pupil but the pink haired girl backed away in time. Her hands, from wrists to shoulder were covered with cuts and blood.

"I feel light headed, oh let's dance another round Sasuke-kun", she said and collapsed to the ground.

Over the years Tsunade had gotten partly over of her hemophobia, she could stand blood in small doses. She quickly walked to her old student and started healing her wounds on her arms.

"Ino, check her pulse", the older woman said and she didn't have to be told twice.

The younger blonde leaned down on her friend and pressed her two fingers on Sakura's neck, "her heart is barely beating, it's very slow."

Ino did her everything to fight her tears away. But she was scared for her friend who was on the floor barely alive.

"I heard that… If give up on life completely, you body dies", the blue eyed woman said quietly.

"Yes?" the Hokage asked as she started making some hand signs.

"She's playing with death for years now… That doesn't sound like she wants to live anymore. And-and-and, if one has no will to live, how can one get better and heal?"

"Ino! She will get better. I just—" Tsunade let her sentence trail of for a second, "Ino! Search the whole house for any pill bottles! She's taken something, too much. And alcohol!"

A/N: A-ha! A cliffhanger! Don't hate me. I've already started planning the next chapter and I will start writing any day now. Please review!