John was sat on the floor leaning against the wall "now your not even going to talk to me"
"I've said all i wanted to say" Mickie said looking away from him out the window, they spoke, well raised there voices at one another for two hours until they both went quite.
"you see i don't think you have, there's a lot more you want to say but your to scared to"
Mickie looked briefly down at her hands "I hate myself because of you" she said softly looking out at the moon "you used to make me feel like i was the most gorgeous women on the earth"
John looked into space "and then what did i make you feel like"
"nothing more than something you would step in on the street" Mickie spoke as john closed his eyes "you make me feel worthless an, im letting you do that any more" she said as more tears escaped her eyes
"i never meant to hurt you" john said "i wasn't good at controlling everything and handling everything, and i took it out on you, i was so wrong i treated you like shit and i lost you because of it"
"you've never said sorry, everything you did to me or said to me and you never said sorry"
"i should of yeah but now, a sorry just doesn't feel good enough"
Mickie looked at him "it isn't, but it would be nice to know you show some remorse for what you did"
John rubbed his head "i do have remorse, i just dont know how to show it"
Mickie turned her head away once again "you never did when we were dating and just married either, you would always get me some lame flowers i never wanted" mickie chuckled softly
John chuckled also "why did you except them then?"
"because i new that was you trying to apologise, and you always got me my favourite flowers in my favourite colour, it showed me you put thought into them you didnt just pick up the first bunch you sore"
"somehow i dont think flowers will fix this" john said softly
"no, no they wont"
Beth walked in and they were sat in silence mickie gazing out the window whilst John watched her "i think you should go now" Beth spoke "she needs to get some sleep"
John sighed rubbed his face and stood up "when can I see you again" he asked softly he looked down when mickie didn't answer John left something on her bed before walking out feeling as if he got no where with his talk with her, he spent three hours with her talking over the things he had done and said to her, what scared him the most was the fact most of them he couldn't remember doing. He knew mickie was telling the truth and that he did in fact do those things but it worried him that he for the life of him couldn't remember doing them. It got him thinking about what other things could he of done to his wife the person he's meant to love unconditionally till death do them part, but she just wasn't telling him about.
As her three friends sat on her bed she picked up the thing John left "can, can one of you read it to me, I don't feel like reading it" she said softly as she realised it was a letter he had wrote to her.
"sure" eve said softly taking it from the women she opened it up and began reading it out loud.