Sorry that it has been so long! Things (life gets in the way- if you read Cullen Brothers you know what has all been going on) This is back to BPOV! Hey I am sill needing some pre-readers you get to know what is going on before anyone else- except my Beta!

It had been over a month since I had left New York.

A month filled with a seven day work weeks and working twelve plus hour days. I was exhausted physically and mentally. By the time I would get back to the hotel each night, I would practically fall asleep in the clothes that I had went to work in.

I had called and spoke to Rose and Alice several times since I had been out here and they were even planning on coming out this weekend. Alice made arrangements for us to spend a day at the spa and then some shopping.

Even thought I hated to shop, I was looking forward to my first days off in over a month.

I had not spoke to Edward, although we were corresponding via snail mail and email. I have asked him not to push me and so far he has obliged. I was getting to know him all over again and somewhere in the pit of my stomach, it excited me and scared me at the same time.

I talked to Jacob every day, and we were still proceeding with the wedding, although I had been dragging my feet with all the preparations. I was blaming it on work overload, but I really just wanted to postpone the whole thing until I had a moment to breathe, and then think about what I, Bella Swan, really wanted.

Since he had been so busy himself with his dad and work, Jake would only be coming to see me for the first time tonight. I planned on discussing postponing the wedding for the time being and seeing what he thought about it. I had to admit that I missed him, more than I ever had thought possible, but I was so unsure of almost anything at this point. Plus I felt like I was coming down with something and all the vitamins that Angela was practically force feeding me with was not helping much either.

It was a little past eight in the evening when the last meeting for the day ended, sending me practically running to get a cab ride to get to the airport on time. I was barking orders at the cabbie when my phone started to ring.

"Hello," I screamed into the receiver.

"Bella?" Jacob sounded confused.

"Jake is that you? Where are you?"

"Where are you is more like it? I took an earlier flight out and I got here about an hour ago. I am at your hotel right now, waiting for you."

"How did you know that I wouldn't just go straight to the airport?"

"I called Angela just a minute ago and she was going to try to catch you, but I guess you were a little speedy getting out of there."

"Yeah, the meeting ran over by only two hours tonight. I'll be there in about five minutes. I'll see you then."

When I got to the hotel, Jake was standing outside waiting. He was sure a sight for sore eyes.

He grabbed me and pulled me into him. I closed my eyes and tried to enjoy it ,and I did, but something was off. Something was different. Me.

We decided to go to the restaurant that was connected to the hotel. For that I was thankful, I was exhausted.

We talked about his work and mine, kept things light. The more that we talked, I realized that something was off with him also.

"Jake, is something wrong?" I asked as soon as the waiter came and took his empty and my half eaten plates away.

"No. I just needed to see you. I think we need to talk, Bella."

Crap! Had Tanya went and shown him the tape of Edward and me?

The thought of him finding out that way had me sick, and I felt nauseated. I excused myself and ran to the bathroom just in time for all the contents of what I actually did eat to be expelled from my stomach.

I laid my head on the porcelain ring and cried.

What had I done?

My head was pounding, my stomach felt like it could go a few more rounds and I wanted, no I needed to go to sleep. I rinsed out my mouth and splashed some water on my face before I went back in to the dining room.

I looked green, with pasty white accents. I was hideous. And I was pretty sure I had the flu and now my fiancée wanted to talk.

Great.

When Jacob saw me he came over to my side and grabbed me. "Sit right here and I will go pay the check."

I obeyed. I leaned my head off to the side, closed my eyes and felt myself doze off for those few seconds.

"Bella, lets get you upstairs."

When we were at my room, Jacob had me pull my key card out of my purse and opened the door for the two of us. He took me into my bed and laid me down, took off my shoes and covered me over.

"Was it something you ate?" Jake asked as I heard him moving about the room and the bathroom, looking for something. "Where do you keep your medicine?" He was in the bathroom going through the cabinet.

"Kitchen counter, I think." I closed my eyes and when I reopened them, Jake was next to me offering me a couple of Tylenol and some water.

"Do you feel better, now that you laid down?" Jake asked and put a pillow behind his head.

"Yes, very. Thank you."

"I can only stay the night, Bella. I have to take a flight out in the morning. But I do want to talk to you before I leave."

"Okay." I was half awake-half asleep. I let my eyes close and sleep take over.

When I woke in the middle of the night, Jake was not on my bed, not in the bathroom. I went searching for him. He was out in the front room with a beer sitting on the table next to him. He had some papers laying on his chest. Little pieces of paper that looked very odd in this light. As I got closer, I realized what they were.

My letters and such from Edward. Even the ones that he had mailed to me since I had been here in Phoenix.

I was screwed. I picked up the small one that accompanied the flowers that he sent me after the night that he and I made love. I studied it closely and realized that it had the date on it.

Shit!

I tried to collect the rest of the documents when a drunk Jake grabbed at my left wrist. "What are you doing, Bella?" he slurred.

"Jake why don't you come to bed? You're tired. Come on," I said and tried to pull at his arm to motivate him to leave his seat.

He pulled away from me. He was angry and had been drinking, which was not a good combination when it came to Jake. "What are these, Bella?" He had wadded the papers up in his fist.

"Jake, please? Just come to bed and we can talk about this later."

"NO!" I want to know now, Bella." His voice was more threatening than I have ever heard before. "What is going on between you and Edward?"

"I can't do this now with you, Jake. Just stop. Please." I turned around and went to my bedroom and locked the door. I was not scared of Jake, I just have never encountered him whenever he was this mad at me.

"Don't lie to me, Bella Swan," he roared. I heard glass breaking and things being rustled about. "Bella! How could you." The next thing I knew I heard the door slam. He was gone.

I wanted to go after him and explain everything, but I was in no shape and I had no idea how he was going to react. I slid down the door and cried myself to sleep. I pulled the waste can over next to me and vomited a few times more.

I called Angela first thing in the morning and explained that I was sick, and she was at my door a half an hour later with tissues, ginger ale, crackers and chicken noodle soup for me to eat later. I thanked her and she promised to call and check on me later, to make sure I didn't need anything.

I tried calling Jake's phone a few times and even tried to text him with no response. I guessed I would have to wait till later on in the day and let him cool down. While I was sitting at the computer, Edward emailed me asking about how my day was going. He was concerned that I was not feeling well and even offered to drop everything there in New York and fly all the way out here to take care of me.

God, how I wish I could take him up on his offer. Instead I told him that if I felt much worse, or if this lasted for any length in time, I might reconsider.

After spending the rest of the day in bed, I felt a little better and thought I was prepared for another day full of meetings. Bad idea. After a breakfast meeting, I spent the next hour in the restroom sick. Angela sent me back to the hotel and even made me an appointment to see the doctor, the next day, Saturday. The same day that Rose and Alice were coming in to spend a girls weekend. I tried coming up with every possible excuse I could think of, but she still insisted. I agreed and made the appointment for around ten.

That night was spent the same way, in bed.

Waking that Saturday, was not the way that I could have ever expected. At eight in the morning there was continuous pounding on the door. I groggily made my way to answer the door and when I opened it, I was pleasantly surprised to see not only, Rose and Alice, but Emmett, Jasper, my mom and my dad, Carlisle, Esme and the one person I really wanted to see, Edward.

"Surprise!" Rose and Alice, along with everyone else yelled.

I put my hand up to sooth my aching head. "Keep it down." everyone filed into my hotel room, practically filling it up completely.

Alice pushed her way into my room. "Not bad, but I need to pack you a few things for a couple of days stay. We have some suites reserved at the Biltmore. Now come on and lets get you ready."

"Alice, I am so happy that you are here, but I feel like shit. I think I have the flu or something. I really just want to go back to bed for a while. I can meet you there in a little while…"

"Oh, honey, what's wrong?" my mother said as she put her hand on my forehead to feel for a temperature. "You don't feel warm?"

"I've just been fighting this horrible headache and I think I have the flu. I can't keep anything down." I plopped down on my bed and my mother sat down right next to me, putting her arms around me as we watched Alice attack my closet and my dresser drawers. Rose was hard at work in my bathroom, pulling out my essentials and packing them into a suitcase they seemed to have already found.

"Well I think you feel so much better when we get to the Biltmore and start with a relaxing facial or back rub, don't you think so, Renee?" Alice put all of my acceptable clothing options into my bag as she spoke.

"I don't know, Alice. If she doesn't feel good…"

"Pish, posh." Alice waved us off and continued on. There was no way out of this, even if I was vomiting blood, she would probably still force me.

"Anyway, I have an doctor's appointment at ten, so I could just meet you there?"

Please?

Rose intervened on my behalf. "Alice, if she is contagious… Just let her meet us there." Rose winked at me.

Good old Rose.

"Fine. Fine" She held up her hands. "That will give me time to get there and have our day all planned out. But I expect you there by noon. I am sending a car for you and you better be there." She left the room to join the others who were all still in the living room area of the hotel room.

"Not that I am not happy to see everyone, but what are all of you doing here?" I directed my question to my mother.

"Well, Alice told me that she and Rose were coming out for the weekend. I love the warmer weather and that gave the guys a perfect excuse to spend some time golfing while all of us had some girl time together."

"So why did Edward come?" I tried to contain my excitement at seeing him and seem all blasé about the matter.

She started smiling exceedingly. "He was worried about you, when he had found out that you were sick. Plus I don't think anyone could really of kept him from coming." She stopped to take a look at me. "If it is going to be a problem, Bella…"

"No. It's fine, Mom. I just was surprised is all."

Plans were made and I was to meet everyone after my doctor's appointment. Rose said she would go with me to make sure that I would keep up my end of the deal.

"Do you want me to come in with you?" she asked as we were in the vacant waiting room, sifting through some out dated magazines.

"If you want to. I know how you feel about theses places." I felt bad for bringing her here now given Rose's history of constantly being a sickly child and was in and out of the hospital until she was a teen.

She grabbed my hand. "Anything for you. Anyway they are going to be running tests on you, not me." Both of us laughed at her rebuttal when they called my name.

Once inside the doctor's office I noticed the sterile smell of bleach and antiseptic and it made me nauseated.

"Are you going to be sick again?" Rose leant over and passed me an empty trash can.

"I don't know,' I answered as the doctor came in and introduced himself.

His name was Dr. Matthews and even he could give Carlisle a run for his money in the good looks department for men over the age of forty. Even Rose was flirting with him and I had to remind her, more than once, that she was a married woman.

He began his examination of me and then started asking me some questions about what medications I took, family history, last menstrual period. The usual stuff. He wanted to run an urinalysis and blood test to make sure I didn't have any type of kidney infection or possibly a higher white blood cell count that would account for an infection.

Soon I was peeing in a cup, and having my blood taken by his nurse and then Rose and I waited in the office for any results.

"I hate having blood taken." I said as I played with little cotton ball that was attached to my skin at the crook of my elbow.

"Quit being a baby." Rose said as the doctor reentered the room and both of us became silent.

"Well your blood test results will not be back until early on next week, but I don't think I am going to need them to tell me what is wrong with you, but I want to double check some things, just in case."

"Okay?" I was a little puzzled as to where this was going.

"Would you like to discuss the findings in private or…" His voice was taking on a more serious tone.

"No. Rose can stay." I looked at her and she smiled.

He opened a file folder with my information and addressed me, looking over the top of the file. "Ms. Swan, the reason that you have not been feeling so well is that you are pregnant."

What?

Rose scooted over into the chair next to me and put her arm around my shoulder. "Bella, are you…

"What? How could I be pregnant? I've been on the pill since I was fifteen." I looked at the doctor to explain it was not from being promiscuous. "I had problems getting regular when I was younger so my doctor put me on birth control pills to help and I have been on them ever since. How could this have happened?"

"Were you on any antibiotics recently?"

"Well I had a small sore on my foot that was not healing and the doctor prescribed some Amoxicillin to help clear it right up and it did, but I never knew that it could …"

"Sometimes antibiotics can cause certain medicines not to work, and unfortunately birth control pills are one of them."

"What am I going to do, Rose?"

"Doctor, do you know how far along she is, possibly?" Rose asked as she pulled me in tighter and tried to console me.

"I won't know anything for certain until I get the test results in and she has her first ultrasound, but I would have to say about six to eight weeks from her symptoms."

Oh shit! I had no idea who the father was. I had slept with two different men, within one day. Previous to the last time Jake and I had sex almost three months prior. . so I could not positively say it was Jake's. I was so screwed.

He prescribed me some prenatal vitamins to begin with and had to make an appointment in two weeks to have my first ultrasound.

I could not even form coherent words until I was in the car. I was so upset that Rose had to drive my rental.

"Rose, what am I going to do? I don't know who the father is."

"Bella, it will be okay. We will figure something out. Let's just go meet up with everyone and try to relax. I'll tell everyone you have some type of flu bug or something and then we will get you all settled in and then we will figure it out."

"But, Rose, Edward? Jake?"

"It will be fine, I promise, now please calm down, I don't really need you getting sick in the car.

Once at the Biltmore, I was bombarded with questions of how I felt, what did the doctor say and all. And one thing about me is that people can read me like a book and it was so hard for me to lie to everyone, that I let Rose do all the talking since she was a hell of a lot more convincing than I could ever attempt to be.

All the woman were at the spa enjoying their day of getting pampered and the men all had scheduled tee times so I was under the assumption that I would be spending that afternoon alone. I guessed wrong.

There was a knocking at the bedroom door. "Come in." There he was looking all beautiful as ever. Edward.

"Can I come in?" He stood there in the hallway waiting for me to answer. I wanted to say no, shit, I needed to tell him no, because if you come close to me all my barriers come crashing down and I am liable to tell you about everything, including my current condition.

"Sure, come in."

He came over to the bed where I had myself propped up with some pillows and sat. "How are you feeling? Any better?"

I won't be feeling better for awhile.

"A little." I decided to get off this subject. "Where is everyone?" I already knew, but I thought this was an purposeful, but unimportant, line of discussion.

"Simple. All the woman are at the spa and all the men at the links."

"Why are you not with them?"

"Because I nominated myself to stay behind and keep watch over the sick patient." He laid down on the pillow next to me, his eyes boring into mine.

"Edward. You don't have to. I'll be fine. Go have some fun with everyone else." I rolled over away from him and turned on the T.V. hoping it would act as a distraction.

He followed suit by scooting himself closer to my back and put his arm around me.

Was it so wrong that I was enjoying this?

I made the decision that I was going to enjoy myself and once I knew the results of my blood test, I would take it from there. I was done trying to make everyone else happy.

I told Edward that I needed to make a phone call and I went into the bathroom and called Jake. He sounded not nearly as angry as he was on Thursday night, which was a good thing. But I knew what I needed to do. For me, at least. I needed to postpone the wedding until I knew who I wanted to be with. Honestly, this, what I was doing was not being fair to Jacob and he needed to know that. Add to the fact that I might be carrying another man's baby.

I said that I was sorry for everything, but told him that I needed sometime to think about everything. He said that he understood, but that he loved me. I told him that I was not ready to get married. A lot was on my mind, and I thought it would be best if we took a break. He said that he would like to try another visit in a week or two and I agreed. We had a lot to talk about.

Tears were running down my face as the phone call ended. I walked out of the bathroom and Edward jumped up to be at my side. "What's wrong?"

I sniffled. "Jake."

"What's wrong with Jake?" he asked. I heard the deflation in his voice as he asked.

"Nothing. I just told him that I needed some time, and that I was not ready to get married." I could see the light in his eyes reappearing.

"Seriously? You're not getting married in a couple of months?" He asked as I started to shake my head no. He picked me up and swung me around the room. I thought it was going to make me sick again, but it didn't.

"Oh, Bella, I'm sorry. You're sick and I just…" I stopped him by kissing him full on the mouth. Since I was not contagious, well not really, I felt I was entitled.

"Does this mean…?" he asked.

Shit, I did not mean to lead him on, since I was still unsure of anything right now, but I knew I needed Edward, right now more than ever.

"Edward, I don't know what it means right now, but if you're okay with not knowing also…" I started to say before he leaned us both back with me falling to the bed and him falling on top of me. His lips were all over me. And I felt I had to make some small explanation.

"The doctor says that what I have is not contagious." His lips were all over my neck and the top of my chest as I spoke.

"I wouldn't care if you were." He took off his shirt as he now hovered above me. This man was godlike. His torso was that of a model with a fully defined V that made me keep desiring even more. I needed to stop this, but wanted so much more.

"Edward, I don't know if we should do this." I saw him push off of me onto the side.

"What do you want, Bella?" he said as he laid there next to me.

"I don't know what is going to happen, Edward. I don't want to lead you on…"

"What do you want, Bella?"

"You. I want you, Edward."