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Chapter 20: The Final Pieces

Several days had past since Lilly had woken. Nothing had changed much except for perhaps the way I look at her. I'll never again take anyone for how they seem. I had thought Lilly was happy with her life but now, I know better now.

There had been an incident a couple of days before when Lilly had tried to strangle herself with her wires. Luckily I was walking past on my way to the cafeteria when I noticed it. Twice in a few days, that is not good. They chained Lilly's hands to her bed after that. Lilly wasn't so happy about that.

However as the days wore on, Lilly had soon accepted that she wouldn't be able to get away with it, since everyone was on alert. So Lilly had decided to set her mind on the more positive things in life.

Students from school like Sarah came to visit. We all gave them the same story: that Lilly had accidently cut herself while cooking. I think everyone, including Lilly, didn't want the true story to get out.

One bright and sunny Saturday when Cedric wheeled in his fiancée: Julie. I was sitting on Lilly's bed with Oliver on the chair next to us, we were just chatting when Cedric pushed open the door.

Julie had been a lucky one apparently. She had broken both her ribs, arm and a leg. She had survived the surgery and was on her way to full recovery. We had sat there talking about all kinds of things. Lilly's attempted suicide didn't come up though and I was surprised. However when Cedric was leaving he gave me two thumbs up before leaving with his fiancée. I smiled. It must have been the first time I had smiled in a while. It always seemed too hard to be happy now.

That same day, Mrs Truscott called me and Oliver over where she was sitting in the cafeteria. Oliver and I were hungry and decided to get some food while Lilly was having her x-ray of her wrist taken. We soon found the cafeteria and sitting in a table was Mr and Mrs Truscott. When she waved us over, we sat down with our lunch.

"How's Lilly?" Mrs Truscott asked.

"Good, I think." I replied.

I had suddenly noticed a lot of forms sitting in front of her. I wondered what they said. There was a pen lying next to them but it didn't look like she had signed anything. Well not yet.

"What are those forms Mrs Truscott?" Oliver asked, obviously he had noticed them too.

As he asked, Mr and Mrs Truscott gave a look to each other. I wondered if they were considering telling us. After a while, Mr Truscott cleared his throat.

"We want your opinion on something."

"What?" I asked.

"This." He said tapping the papers.

"And that is?" I asked making 'please continue' motions with my hand.

"Transfer papers." He said after a moment.

"To psyche and therapy." Mrs Truscott said in a very small voice.

"What?" Oliver said. "You think Lilly needs to see a shrink?"

"Well, yeah." She said.

I didn't blame them. They had just found out that their daughter had tried to kill herself the other day. They apparently didn't want a repeat. Nor did I, for that matters.

"What does it involve?" I asked.

"Just to see a physiatrist three times a week." Mr Truscott said.

"That's not too bad." Oliver said. "Lilly won't take it well though."

He was right. Barely had Mr and Mrs Truscott had suggested it, Lilly had gone all rigid. She had a screaming match with her parents but in the end they told her that she will do it and there will be no more arguments. They came out of the room, shaking their heads. Oliver and I had to stay outside for the meeting but we knew what was going on. We were peeping through the glass. We could tell through the body language. This is not going to be easy, I thought glumly.

But the next day, Lilly's parents forced up to the fourth floor where Lilly stayed there for over an hour. Oliver and I were in the cafeteria. Oliver had thought ahead and bought Cluedo along with him. Oliver chose Professor Plum and I decided on Miss Scarlet. We had begged Jackson to play (since we needed three people) and Jackson after many pleading choose to be Colonel Mustard.

We were about halfway into the game when Jackson asked the question we were all wondering for ourselves.

"Do you think she will be alright?"

"I think so." I said choosing my words carefully. "We may never know. It may be months or years before her life starts turning around. Remember: she had been going through a lot when she was even thinking about ending it. We just have to be supportive and not give her any reason to harm herself."

Jackson and Oliver both nodded. We continued onwards with our game with me spectacularly losing to Oliver who somehow had figured out it was Mrs White with the revolver in the dining room. How he managed to get all three in the space I had only got one (I had only figured out that it was Mrs White), don't ask me.

"It's always Mrs White." Jackson said as we packed away our game. "Always, if not her then Miss Scarlet."

"I know, right?" I said shaking my head.

Afterwards Oliver and I headed up to Lilly's room to find her lying in her bed reading a book labelled 'Suicide: A Guide To Recovery'.

"Hey." I said walking in.

Lilly snapped the book shut and looked at me but didn't answer.

"You okay?" I said.

"I guess." She said sighing. "Miley?" She asked looking me right in the eyes.

"Yeah?" I said sitting on her bed.

"Why didn't you let me die?"

"I would have thought that was obvious." I said. "You're my best friend. I couldn't just sit back and watch you kill yourself."

Lilly didn't answer as she processed this. Silence fell since none of us knew what to say next. My eyes fell upon a stack of books on Lilly's bedside table. I managed to make out some of the titles: 'Turn That Frown Upside Down', 'Feelings and Thoughts' and "So You Wanna Kill Yourself?'.

"Those are just self-help books. My psychiatrist gave them to read." Lilly said noticing I what I was looking at.

"How did that go?" Oliver asked.

"Aright I guess. Dr Stone – my psychiatrist – told me that suicide is never the answer. We then had this huge talk about feelings etc."

"Did it work?" I asked, my curiosity taking over.

"I guess in a sense. We really dug deep and got to the root of my problem." Lilly said.

"Do you think you will….you know?" Oliver asked looking worried. "Now that you've had a nice little chat?"

"Who knows what the future may hold? A couple of years ago I was happy and then that all changed. You can never tell."

"So what you're saying," I said, my voice getting higher and higher. "Is that you are going to try this little stunt again?"

"I didn't say that. I just said I might." Lilly said.

"Lilly-" Oliver started.

"No, I got this." I said.

I turned to face Lilly, I've wanted to burst ever since I found what Lilly was trying to do and now I've got my chance.

"Lilly don't you realise that none of the reasons you stated are actually true?"

"Miley-"

"NO JUST LISTEN!" I roared. "You can handle Damien, you're friends aren't going to desert you and your parents love you. In my dream everyone was broken at that fact that you killed yourself. You wrote in your diary 'Will they be happy I am out of their lives?' How could you even think that we would be anything but broken and weak? You say we're oblivious but really it is you who is. You didn't see that you were the one breaking not the world around you. There are people who love you and will miss you if you decide to end it. So please Lilly consider the fact that the world is not what it seems. It is not your fault that Damien went off the deep end and that your Dad's girlfriend is a wacko. Oliver and I are grateful that you are our friend. Oliver deeply loves you and that he said no because he didn't want to damage your friendship but he regretted saying no. You see Lilly; all that you think is not what actually is."

Both Lilly and Oliver gaped at me through-out my speech. Lilly was speechless. I guess I have that effect on people. Lilly seemed to think this through. She looked at the book in her hand. I saw the page she was looking at. She was up to Chapter 12: Accepting and Trusting' I could almost see the cogs in her brain working as she deciding what to do. I'm guessing one side is saying "Trust Miley, she has never let me down in the past." And the other is probably saying "She's just lying to keep you here, so she can make your life even worse now." I'm praying she went with the first choice and not the latter.

I held my breath as Lilly finally looked up and looked me in the eye. So many thought were going through my head. Was she going to accept my speech? Or was she going to reject it and decide to end it for good?

"You're right." Lilly said at last in a small voice. "I have been stupid in thinking the things I have been thinking. Of course it's not my fault that Damien and Dad's girlfriend hates me. I didn't do anything to deserve it."

"Of course you didn't." Oliver said suddenly.

"How could I have ever thought that my two best friends have gone against me?" Lilly continued, smiling.

We smiled back; glad that some sense has been talked into her I guess Lilly isn't going to leave us any time soon. She will probably have a long and healthy life free of any evil thoughts that she may be having.

"Can you ever forgive me for doubting you?"

"Of course!" I said smiling.

"And for me thinking that I had to end it to be truly happy?"

"Yes!" said Oliver and with that he kissed her.

Lilly kissed back, glad that her wish had finally come true. It was truly a happy moment for her. I felt a bit like Harry when Ron and Hermione were kissing at the Battle For Hogwarts but I, unlike Harry, didn't interrupt them. I was glad that Lilly had finally had some happiness in her life, that there was a light in the darkness.

And so then I realised why I had that dream. It was to warn me of what might have happened if Lilly had decided to take the blade and slice it across her wrist. I, of course, already knew that, but it was much deeper than that. It was to get Lilly to realise that she wasn't alone in this world. In my dream I had been chasing for the pieces to the jigsaw that was Lilly's suicide and now I have them all fitted together. Everything fitted at last.

A/N: Nearly finished. Only one chapter left after this one. I actually finished this while watching Prince Caspian (it was on TV) LOL. So please review. =)