Chapter 20

The next week Sam made an appointment at the doctors with no one knowing. She didn't want people to know she was sick, and she knew the doctors couldn't tell what was wrong with her. On her way to the hospital, she called in and told them she wouldn't come, because she knew what was going on. She didn't, but that didn't matter.

She didn't go. She went to the drugstore and bought some tests. Home pregnancy tests. She knew it was a long shot, but if she were really pregnant, like James had said before, she would find out like this. She didn't want anyone to know, and if she were pregnant she would go to the hospital to get checked out.

She was now sitting in her bathroom; she had her own in the apartment, and the boys shared the other. She was looking at the tests, still in the package and decided not to do it just yet. She had to drink first anyway, because she didn't need to go to the bathroom.

She got out of the bathroom and bumped into James, who was looking at her intently, but didn't say anything.

''What where you doing in there? I thought…'' he started, and then he sighed. He knew she didn't go to the hospital, but he didn't want to push her.

''I wasn't throwing up, if that's what you think. And I didn't go to the hospital because I think I know what is wrong with me,'' she said, she knew she couldn't hide anything from James, and he was going home soon anyway. She figured she could tell him.

''Tell me, babe,'' he said, and she nodded and took him to her room. She didn't want Danny to know what she thought was going on, and she had to tell James that too.

''Ok, first of, I don't want anyone to know, ok?'' he nodded, ''I think I might be pregnant,'' she blurted out, and he nodded. He didn't seem surprised.

''I thought so a week ago. I saw you and I put two and two together. I think I remember from when my ex was pregnant,'' he said, and she nodded. She didn't want to talk about it too much, but she knew he wanted to know more.

''I was on my way to by some orange juice,'' she said, and he looked at her like she was crazy. She didn't even like orange juice.

''For what? You don't even like…''

''So I can pee, you idiot!'' she said, and he widened his eyes. She saw he got the point, and smiled at him. ''You want to come with?''

''Sure, just give me a moment to get my jacket and stuff,'' he said, and she laughed.

''Don't forget your purse, sweetie,'' she joked, and he threw his hands in the air. She smiled when he came back and they made their way to the store.

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Jason smiled at Emily. He had agreed to meet her for coffee and now she was rambling on about Nikolas. Nikolas had agreed to go for tests, and they had found out he had a tumor. They had done some tests to determine what kind of tumor it was and if they could get it out, and they were still waiting on the results.

''…So, he made his way over to the elevator, and then he had another one of those blackouts, but somehow he didn't get angry – not too angry,'' Emily concluded her story.

''So, he was just a little angry? What did he do?'' Jason asked, wondering if he had hurt someone, sometime.

''Well, he just slammed in the elevator doors and it was over. He never really hurt someone, though. Not in one of his blackouts. Maybe he doesn't know what he is doing, but he really never hurt someone before,'' she said, and Jason nodded. It was weird how she could tell what he was thinking.

''Well, I'm glad. Did you hear anything from Jill?'' he asked. He hadn't heard anything from her the past few days, and he was getting worried about her.

''Yeah, she said she was ok last time I spoke to her,'' Emily said, and she smiled at him.

''Thanks. Sorry, I have to take this,'' he said, and he got his phone, and he picked it up.

''Jason, I need you to come to my office,'' Sonny said, cutting right to the chase.

''I'll be there in a minute,'' Jason replied, and he disconnected the line and looked at Emily, ''Sorry, I need to go help Sonny with something,'' he said to her, and she nodded understanding.

''See you later, Jase,'' she said, and he got up and walked to his car. He knew he had to go to Sonny for Sam, Sonny wanted to know what was going on. He always did that, and he had called him the past few days to come over. Jason always told him he had something to do, and Sonny always told him to come over right away.

He started his car and drove to Sonny's office, with Sam on his mind.

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After Sam and James got back home, she started drinking, and he smiled at her while she was drinking. She was having an expression on his face he knew all too well. She didn't like orange juice, and she wanted to drink the whole can.

''Why don't you just drink some of it and then…'' he stopped talking when he saw her shake her head, and he smiled again.

''I need to drink all of this, because I want to be sure of it,'' she said, and he shook his head. He loved Sam, like a little sister he did, but he didn't like to see her like this. She was pale, still, and when she was pregnant she would be devastated. She would for sure not tell Jason right away, because she wanted to make sure it was Sam who was telling him, not Jillian.

''Ok, baby. Let's just calm down then, stop drinking,'' he said, and she set down her glass on the table and looked at him.

''I know what you are thinking. I think you are right,'' she said, and he frowned.

''About what?'' he asked her, and she shrugged.

''I wont tell Jason right away if I am pregnant. I want him to know what I did before I tell him, and I don't think he wants to have anything to do with me if I told him, so there is a really big chance I will be raising a baby alone. But that is, if I am pregnant,'' she rambled, and he nodded.

''I know. But you wont be alone. If you are pregnant I will move here with Daisy and I will help you,'' he replied, and she frowned.

''Who is Daisy?'' she asked, and he smiled. ''Oh, it's your new girlfriend?''

''It's my girlfriend,'' he said, and she frowned again. ''She knows where I am and I call her every night, Sam. She wants to meet you,'' he added, and she nodded.

''I would like to meet her too. But not right away. After all this is resolved,'' she replied, and then she walked away. He knew she was going to the bathroom, and he also knew he wouldn't know if she was pregnant for another couple of days.

She was not the kind of woman to tell him everything, although he knew almost everything about her. Mostly he did a background check, but she told him enough about her life to know her. The pregnancy, she would keep it from him if he didn't bump into her in the hallway earlier. The results he wouldn't know, because she wouldn't want him to know before she knew herself, and he knew when to stop pushing.

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Sam left James standing there and she knew he knew. He wouldn't push her to tell what the tests had told her, but she also knew he would know what the results were after a couple of days. James was smart, and he knew almost everything about her.

After she had peed on the sticks, she went to her bedroom and laid them in a row on her nightstand. Then she sat down on the bed. She had four of them, just to be sure, and she waited for the time it took.

James had been there for her from the moment he saw her, and she loved him for that. She had told him about Danny right away, because he was her reason to live at that moment. He still was, but not the same as before.

When she would get out of her room he would see her face, and he would know. That's how smart he was, and he could read her like a book. That is why she would con him into thinking she wasn't pregnant. She didn't want him to stay here, no matter how much she loved it when he was here. She didn't want to burden him with her life.

Sam smiled when she thought of James settling down. Now he had a girlfriend and she didn't expect that, and she didn't understand why he hadn't told her before. He had been here for a couple of weeks and she didn't know he was married.

Suddenly, there were several beeps, and she got up to see what the verdict was.