Lycaon Dusk

Man chapter eighteen was a long chapter writing it took me three days typing it took me five hours on a Saturday. Anyway As I said the story is getting darker at this point. Now Diana going to have it difficult in this chapter so warning on language here.

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Chapter nineteen

The next morning I felt fully rejuvenated dad always said swans are the best morning people when having nine hours of sleep. Though I believe it was the military thing an old habit returning to me for my body now accommodated with its own clock. It's difficult to explain. Anyway after doing my morning routine and changed into my new clothes I went down stairs to smell food, eggs and bacon. Seth already inhaling the grub, Rosalie feeding Nessie on the couch, Emmett and jasper watching sports and Esme rearranging the flower, since I assume Edward was with Bella and Carlisle was in his office by the sounds of paper shifting.

"Ah, Diana your awake," Esme cheered as she disappear and reaper with a plate full of breakfast setting it on the table. "I made you breakfast, come eat."

"Thanks," as I sat down, taking a bite of scramble eggs and hummed, food, meat. Esme smiled handing me a glass of juice.

"I assumed you like it." She stated.

"Yes it's good." I said when I finished eating though scowled what am I'm suppose to do today. It's Sunday and I finished my homework Friday before going to the dance, Shit the dance I totally forgot about Ian he must think I stood him up. A whimper escape.

"What's wrong Dia?" Seth asked.

"I totally forgot about Ian, I sorta left him hanging on the dance floor Friday night." I whimper hands covering my face.

"Hey, I'm sure he'll understand sis, tell him you got sick." Seth said.

I cocked my head at him, "That's the oldest excused in the book Seth."

"Yeah, hey want to go for a run or ride my back I know that makes you feel better." Seth chuckled rubbing his neck though eye's never left Renesmee he truly didn't want to leave her.

"I'll take her Seth you rest." Jacob said as he enters the house. All eye's on him in shock. Why would he . . . Jacob shrugged, "There are thing we need to discuss anyway in private."

"Alright," standing up while following him out of the house and into the woods, I turned so he can phase except two strong arms wrapped around me, pulling me close to him as he turn me so my face rested on his chest.

"I'm so sorry Diana, I was a huge jerk to you." When he said that my body shake. I growled and shoved him off me. I wanted to yell at him, punch him do horrible things to him and now I can't but my body did the only thing I could do was run. So I ran I ran as far as I can in free run against the trees. With Jacob in pursuit.

"Dia! Hold up." Jacob called.

I kicked the pace faster the trees and shrubs looked nothing more but green streaks and brown blurs. The wind whipping into my face unpleasant touched like I was flying heart accelerating to such velocity. Climbing a fifty foot tall tree to the tallest branch body still shaking of furry as I looked down to see Jacob in his wolf form he looked up and scowled.

"Come down Dia we need to talk." He thought loud that I cover my ear. He whimper, "Please I'm sorry that I hit you and-"

"You didn't just hit me, you almost practically destroy me." I snarled he flinched at my tone stepping pack, "You call me traitor after everything I did for you and the pack, I ditch school many times for you all, and I ignored my cousin during the time for the Cullen's return. Even with my crucibles I helped with your there day after you phase. I try avoided them and still I get treated like crap. You think your all that, you were rude to Orion, to my family, runaway from us, almost bit my hand off during the summer, hit me that I got a black eye and call me a traitor. I was there for you but where were you when I needed you.

"After the wedding I was struggling I need my best friend, I couldn't eat, I had nightmare and was sleepwalking, and many episode. I almost snapped at Charlie. Why why do you do this to me?" I exclaimed all my anger out.

Jacob pouted looking down, "I'm really am sorry please understand there are things I want to tell you but not yet. I can't do it if you're mad at me. I know I deserve every punch, yell scream curse anything you give I'll take even if I get bit by your teeth."

I snarled not of rage but shock he would dare conflict with my demon form. I huff a laugh lying back on the branch hands over my face. "Some time's I wonder why my wolf made familiar with you?"

Jacob breath hitched as I heard him phase. I closed my eyes and listen to the forest, taking deep breathes when I open them I was face to face with browns eyes follow of regret and sorrow however something else linger in them but I couldn't put my money on it. My breath hitched as his scent consume my senses of his dark spice as he lean closer grabbing my wrist immobilizing me from running away.

"Let go," I growl low

"No, not until you understand, I'm sorry damn it it's been torturing me from what I did okay, I'm sorry for everything, hitting you, snapping, every god damn thing I did to you, I've been an ass and I want our friendship back together even if you hate still I understand but please don't end what we had."

I scowled "Then be nice to Nessie and the others."

He pulled back and groans "Are you serious that thing kills Bella and its annoying how everyone goes googoo gaga to it."

I glare at him through golden eyes. Lips curled in a snarled, "Sooner or later when you have kids you'll go goo-goo gaga at them."

He stiffens for my voice no longer sound human more like demonic not deep but an echo to it. Jacob glares back at me.

"Like as if I want them."

"Well your imprint would." I spat pulling my hand back.

"As if I'll ever imprint once Bella wake I'm living in the woods."

I took a deep breath counting twenty backwards he's not worth it. "It's natural, accept it."

"Like you did?" he question.

My hand pinch the brim of my nose a headache forming full of annoyance. "My curse doesn't happen to be once a month . . . . It's what's surrounds me. So stop mopping and get your act together. Bella wouldn't approve such temper."

Jacob opens his mouth about to speak but shut it. One point for lycan. That was until he asked. "Do you want kids?"

I sigh adjusting on the branch so my legs dangles. "I do but now I can't not for a very long time. Also I need to find a mate."

"Seth mentions something about you already found a soul mate is that Ian kids him."

I burst out laughing, "No, he's not my fragment soul their rare but one of my many soul mate is already a vampire. Riley said he keeps his arms open though I don't think it would work out."

Jacob growled, "That leech is the one who molest you."

"Yeah and he's a good kisser but it wouldn't work you know natural enemies and all that crap."

"Then how do you tell if you found your fragment mate?"

"By a kiss, Orion mentions a few who describe finding their fragment through just a kiss that they feel an electrical shot of lightning or any happy excited metaphor that's out there. Fragment or any wolf I don't plan on mating anytime soon. I want to know who I am, and don't go on the list Jacob. My mom was a werewolf child and the bite from Orion brother, awaken my true self so I need to know who my grandfather is even if it means going to Scotland or travel the world or become a Hound Marshal so be it I got forever."

"You're such a free spirit." Jacob muttered.

"And proud to be one," I breathed then looked at him, "Do you attend on becoming a solid wolf Jacob it's your choice but you're throwing a lot away. Your dad, Rachel, your friends, and your obligation you're an alpha now and next chief of your tribe."

"Diana I didn't want to be in a pack nor lead it and being chief is a set of honor not a destine choice, but things change. Maybe I'll take up on your offer."

"What offer I didn't offer anything?" I said raising a brow did I offer him anything?

"Maybe I'll become a Hound Marshal as well come on the pack is already splitting, Leah, Seth, Quil imprinted, and Leah is going to follow you and Orion when you travel and-"

"No," I practically exclaimed, "Jacob you can't be a Hound Marshal there are thing you can't –"

"Can't what do," Jacob interrupted, "I can do nearly everything you can if not better, I can delay aging, faster than any bloodsucker if not stronger, phase at will and . . ."

"It's not that Jacob," I exclaimed slapping him in the face, "If you become a Hound Marshal than there's a possibility of you becoming a werewolf an actual Lycan. I read it all, for curse the transformation is brutal and I experience it. They aren't sane like Orion either one false move or they'll rip you to shreds. They kill for hunger and game not lust or pleasure. So Hound Marshal must hunt those who dare. I can't risk losing you to one of them do you hear me, they aren't shifters and they aren't like vampires . . . . DO you know what we eat if we refuse to eat like humans?"

"Animals and whatever wolves eat." He answered confused not getting the message.

"Jacob, why do my eyes turn gold?" I asked as I took his hand unsheathed my claws and cut a small line on his leather soft skin. My breath hitch as the scent of bloods overrides my senses but I stayed in control through the sudden excitement as my eyes turn amber. Jacobs stayed still, shock, "This mid form doesn't express just emotion . . . . It the excitement of the scent of blood no matter what it is. We are the hunters and humans are our prey."

I was breathing heavily as Jacobs's blood was strong. The urge to taste it but I bit my tongue to prevent that. I am no wild animal. Jacob eyes widen understanding what I meant removing his hand however didn't wipe the blood off.

"You a monster as well." Jacob said and it hurt like a silver dagger.

"Human form by day but show our pelt by night when the moon is full, the movies and books aren't not exactly what they seem. I had hurt Sam as you saw the wound I inflicted and killed a doe without mercy we are beast with two forms cursed by the gods for the pleasure in blood this is punishment from hells gift. So I advice you don't ever consider in becoming a Hound Marshal for your own goal is to eliminate the threat before more souls are condemn."

Jacob didn't say anything though question my panting as I stare at his hand at the blood. All of the sudden he lifted his hand near my mouth offering it. "If it'll calm you down."

Shock I shoved his hand and through it at him, standing up. "I'm not going to lose myself to that instinct or desire, don't ever do that again. You hear me?"

"Sorry" He grumbles wiping the blood on his shorts. Then looked down. "How are we going to get down?"

I smirked, "Easy like this," As I jumped down from branch to branch until I reached the bottom. Looking up and smirked, "Come don't be such a scardy cat."

"Why you show off." As he took a big leap and jump two stories than another jump to the ground. I rolled my eyes with a yawned, "Oh so you think you can do better?"

"Well I did out run you mutt."

"Bitch,"

"Son of a bitch,"

"Okay let's not get to personal there."

"Sorry," I apologized Sarah was a sensitive topic around him and she was a nice woman I met before she died. I sigh and started walking, Jacob right behind me.

"So are we squared?" He asked.

"I'll think about that?" tapping my finger on my chin, "I'm thinking, I'm thinking, I'm thinking . . . . . fine I'll forgive you as long as you don't do it again. Better get the most of our friend ship before fates snipe's snips."

"Why do you say that, it's not like our friendship is over?" he said with a huffed but I looked away biting my lip, not daring to look at him, "Dia what are you hiding,"

I snarled a warning to shut up, "Listen and listen well Jacob I don't know everything but I have unparallel instincts that cannot be explain so when I don't answered there a god damn reason. So shut it and mind your own business."

Jacob shut up with a frown as he walked ahead of me, I sigh as my heart tighten. There are times I hate what I am and what I regret when snapped. And snapping at Jacob like that, I regretted the most.

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I was on the couched holding Renesmee as I fed her bottle of daily blood. The smell excited that my eyes turn amber but not enough to rip it out her hands and taste it. By far babies' make me calm a weakness I have since I was ten. I loved them and when I seven I asked my parent If I could have a baby brother or sister. My parents tried but my birth was too much for mom to have another. So I take up on babysitting or family events and played with young ones. Kids love me and parent immediately calls in for a babysitter for any given weekend.

Renesmee mumble as she placed her hand on my wrist as she send a picture of me looking a bit sad. I shook my head and smiled. "It's alright Nessie cousy Dia is just tired "

Then she showed me an image of Bella after giving birth. I shiver at the bloody scene.

"Mommy's okay Nessie she's just sleeping just one more day tomorrow I promise but tomorrow is her birthday what should we get her?" I said in a lovy dovy voice.

She pouts thinking, for a two day old who looks like two weeks old in not a month is intelligent. She taps my wrist again and showed a tired Edward.

"You want to ask daddy?" She nodded. I sigh setting the bottle down and carried her up stairs I know on the door Edward and Bella were in and Edward open it though smiled when he saw his daughter. I nodded my head to the next room which he complied since we didn't want Bella to hear.

"What is it is something wrong?" Edward asked.

"No, Nessie wants to meet her papa and asked him what should she get momma for her birthday?" I said still in my baby voice nuzzling my cheek into Renesmee warm blubber."

Edward sighs and held his daughter for the first time. "Don't worries Nes-Renesmee I got your mother settle she got a new car and a surprised from the family?"

Renesmee smiled as she gave a gummy smiled Edward chuckled, and then look at me "how are you feeling?"

I shrugged, "Tired but this little one kept me occupied she has her mother's eyes."

"Yes she does, I heard you wanted children," Edward said.

"You know sometimes its get annoying to peek into conversation of other people heads," I crossed my arms and sigh, "Yes but not now, I want to adjust at first before I search for a mate that maybe a few decades. So quite it this one is enough we don't want little werewolves running around yet."

Edward chuckled tangling his fingers in his daughter curls. "Have you gotten a gift for Bella?"

"You know she hates presents and beside I gave her the ultimate gift, by breathing and apart of her life remember in a few decades I'll be the only blood relative left . . . . And I drew her something though the star of the portraite can't stop growing."

Renemsee goo at that that we all chuckled. "She's too cute for her own good, say how is she?"

"Bella I don't know she quiet and doesn't show any sign of pain. I fear she's already dead however her heart still beat's." Edward replied.

"Belly is a strong girl and selfless she wouldn't want you to worry just stand by her breath talk to her cause I think she dyeing of boredom, not the pain." I said taking hold of Renesmee,

"May I ask how you know of pain?"

I sigh "You just experience this three day torture of fire burning once we werewolves have to experience once every full moon for the rest of eternity. Do the math genius."

Edward frowns and apologized. I may have experience a pleasure pain the other night doesn't mean it didn't hurt. I sigh and took Renesmee as we went down stairs back on the couched and fed her bottle. I was so tired, exhausted from all this drama and more is coming. So taking deep breaths I watched the forest through the window seeing Seth rough housing with Emmett. I smiled and close my eyes humming a tune at random lulling sometime. Until someone sat next to me and Rosalie took Renesmee that was when I fell asleep.

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We were at our cabin outside on the January winters night. Dad lit a fire in front of the rented cabin. It wasn't snowing and the temperature wasn't that cold. So I got out some smorez and we roasted them.

"So Diana enjoy skiing today?" Dad asked

"Yeah even when you got us stuck on the powder hill," I laughed while dad scowled at the memories of getting stuck. He saw a short cut to bet on the main hill untouched though didn't notice the snow cover half the small pine tree that when we pass through we sunk two feet. Difficult to move, took us ten minutes to get out and ski rest of the slope.

Dad sighs and looked down then chuckled, "I got a letter from a family member,"

"Is Uncle Charlie okay?" I interrupted worry since Uncle Charlie was alone and we try to visit him when on the mainland.

"He's fine, your cousin Bella is living with him," Dad said rubbing his neck, "But this is from your mother side of the family."

I looked at him confused, "Dad grandma Sloan passed away fourteen years ago?"

I looked at the forest for I saw movement, a solid form in the woods. Looking closer two color dots stare at me. One red the other yellow, it was like I was lost in a trance staring for a bad feeling crept over. Was it an animal a deer or some other nocturnal creature? Dad saw my paused and looked at the same direction as me.

"What is it Diana?" He asked standing up grabbing the bucket of watered.

"There's something out there a deer?" I question as I cocked my head.

It did the same that was when a blur rushed out and made impact into me. The collision of force pushed me hard into the cabin stone step my head hard that I cried. Suddenly something sharp started scratching me that it hurt. Opening my eyes and see a grey wolf as it glare at me with those two color eyes in hate as it growled clawing my arms. I screamed in horror.

"Diana!" Dad exclaimed grabbing the act about swing but the beast let launched back and charged at my father. I collapse and fell to the ground eye lost to the battled as my father try to dodge the monster. It was huge, gray and almost . . . .

A gun shot was heard and everything went black.

When I open my eyes again I was lost confused as everything was hazed clouded as I saw something big move around. Brown and murky to describe as it crawled around the tattered camp sight, red spots on the ground my stomach hurt. I groan trying to sit up or lay on my back. It stopped and turned to face me my sight so fogged up that I only see these two amber eyes.

Those were the only thing that was clear in front of the blur. Warm harvest yellow eyes, the color of liquids topaz- the color of the yellow moon that hung above. Though it pupils dilated expanded to full extent not a trace sclera (white of the eye) Just amber iris and combusted pupil almost like a dog. The thing whimpers a growled and crawled toward me as he turn me on my back and set its face in mine sniffing my scent. I coughed blood oozing out of my mouth drown in the revolting taste of copper.

The creature growled again forcing my shirt up to see what damage then whimper. Confused was this, a dream or was it real and what is this thing or who is it. All remaining train of thought disrupted as something wet wipe across my abdomen. I moan to some pressure and gasped when it was force down deep into sever wound. What was happening what is it doing?

Until a hand pressed against my chest forcing me down as it other on my leg. Before I could protest with what remaining energy, I screamed as sharp countless mini knives plunged into my skin close to me ribs. I screamed arching my back to such pain while the force on my chest pushed me down. The monster bite harder while its tongue continued to lick the mound it made swallowing blood.

"Pl . . . please . . . sto . . . stop!" I cried

As by command it stops pulling back. With a sigh of relief I closed my eyes in hope death would come or somebody. My eyes were now heavy but my body was still awake and bleeding in stabs. A warm hand cupped my face.

"I'll set revenge and bring down the monster that destroys your future, but I'll need your help later on. Welcome sister for you have awaken." Said a husky voice

When I gagged on blood I open my eyes again and stared in horror that of a blood bath, as my father laid still across from me his eyes empty in horror blood everywhere, his chest look like . . . I couldn't describe it, stomach ripped open to see inner organs ripped out but what caught sight was his left arm missing easy to see the bone now shattered on one end marrow leaking out. I wanted to scream, to turn away to wake up but couldn't. In which I cried silent tears. Before screaming in pain-

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I woken up with a silent screamed to feel strong arms around me. So overwhelmed I cried sobbing into my hand as a constant headache return to new standards. I sobbed for my father in grieved. While the other person held me close to them settled me on their lap and rubbed my back. I grabbed their shirt and cried harder.

"What happen?" Jasper ordered.

"I don't know one minute she was whimpering the neck she woke up crying," Jacob said as he continued to rub my back.

"It's another nightmare, Diana mention she gets these constantly," Carlisle said his cold hands placed on my neck to check my pulse though Jacob chest virbrated.

"Diana, can you tell us what the dream was about?" He asked

"Dad . . . dead . . . blood bath." I whisper wrapping my arms around Jacob neck and cried again.

"Do something to calm her down." Jacob growled worried.

"I am Jacob but she is too overwhelmed." Jasper replied.

"Jacob can you take Diana to her room maybe that would help," Esme subjested concerned.

"Sure, sure." Was all Jacob said as he stood up and carried me to the guest room and laid me on the bed as he was about to leave my heart jumped in fear instantly grabbing his hand. He turned around anguished written in his eyes.

"Please, don't go." I begged.

Jacob knelt down and cradle my cheek, "I'm not going to leave you I'm just shutting the door."

I nodded and watched him shut the door then walked back to me, when he sat down I instantly hugged him and cried. My headache hurt badly as the flash back continued to pop in my head like crime scene photos while the camera sounded echo exactly like in those crime shows. Instantly grabbing my head rubbing the temples to make them go away, I don't to remember my father like that, remembering those damn pictures some reported took and his stupidity to show them to me after two days of recuperation.

"Make it stop, make it stop." I mumble shaking my head side to side.

"Dia," Jacob called grabbing my shoulder and forced to face him, "Look at me."

I open my eyes my sight milky but able to see his face, "It was just a dream, it wasn't real."

I shook my head no tears coming down; "No it was real," Resting my head on his chest in his response wrapping them around me, "Why why do I have to dream that night? I want to forget the horror the blood, but I can't . . . . "

"SSHH, stop you'll make yourself sick." Jacob murmured.

A hiccup escape that I coughed hard while rubbing my temple, Jacob saw this and took my hands and pull, them away.

"Does your head hurt?" I nodded, he sighs and encourages me to lie down that I rested my head on his lap, "Let me,"

He began to delicately massage my head, removing the scratchy out and fan my out on his lap and brushed his fingers through them softly. Jacob the hummed a tuneless song under his breath, It sound familiar but the migraine made it impossible to think as my breath were heavy chest raised up and down fast that I grabbed the closet thing and it was a pillow. The light wasn't helping either all gray near white for sensitive my eyes were scrunching them tight. A whimper escaped.

"Calm down, I got you just relaxed." Jacob murmured adding pressure that a moan escaped. I open my eyes shocked for what came out of my mouth and stare at Jacob.

He didn't care but gave a crooked soft smiled one that I thought was lost forever. His gazed more focused than any person should be. His eyes were nearly dark almost black, it reminded me of dark chocolate- the bitter sweet treat strong though . . .

My migraine lighten although it pulse heavy in my veins of the temple; a warm engulfed me for the wolf locked inside purr, her anger her distrusted, her sorrow, our pain soothed to manage state. What was it with this connection I had with Jacob, we were playmates when young when spending summer vacation in forks while our dad went fishing, our mothers chat, and we played on the beach making mud pies at time. But then time separated us from over sea's trips and it wasn't till eight months ago we met again, a friendship restores though strangers. Siblings our family and friends would say until now since chaos erupted in emotion drama of the supernatural.

The curse of emotion that of love on this condemn world, friendship broken, natural enemies, alliance, and betrayal in which can be solve logically. However we're not human, logic morals was a faint string a simple thread while instincts the animal take control the dominate conscience. The little voice in our head screaming so loud that you can no longer focused on reality and fall into madness that of insanity. You can't think straight, even though you know what's going on your body reject your demand and let matters take control. Another person speaks for you a shield of your darkest self who just wanted to protect their vulnerable self, their secret or common twin from pain even the true person watches the moment happen. Like going through the motion . . .

Why though? Why or how did I make familiar with Jacob? IN Macbeth the third witch had her own familiar a toad name Paddock was he actually Hecate servant or was he friend to one of the weird sister being a life rave for their madness or such. A acquaints Jacob was to me or was there something more that the ancient Greek fates chosen in there tapestry to fool one's mind in riddle of unknown reason a game they play when form a tapestry in which the plot wasn't right for the future that they rip it out and sew another story. The future may not be set in stone however who control the time and dementions sure did.

And yet here we are in this sick twisted joke they chose whoever they maybe. A bond form between us was having many things in common. To lose one parents, cursed to be a monster, we discover what we were on the same day, our purpose or what it maybe, the torment of the unknown taking our desires away. Jacob was an innocent sweet guy and the spirits took his persona away and dropped him to reality of the unknown. While for me, I should be dead except that person whoever he was gave me a second chance to live awaken my true self but with no cause no reason and condemn me to wild insane life of pain.

Why, why can't I hate him? From everything even though I accepted his apology for his action most would hate and won't forgive. But I can't why is that, these tugs on my string when one, alone from pain, physical or emotional.

I may never know but I can't see my life without him, when the time comes Diana Helen Swan will be gone and loner shall awaken.

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So can anyone figure out what connection that's going on between Diana and Jacob?

Or who was the person in Diana dream and was it two werewolves that were present on that night?

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