-1Reckless Abandon
She can't believe everything that's happened to her in the last six months.
It all seems so surreal, so movie-made. Too perfect, with the twist of danger, aside of course. Leaving her home, the one place where she felt comfortable, at peace, was supposed to be the worst thing that could happen to her teenage life. She was supposed to sulk, cry, resist most attempts at friendship, and go back to her mother before school got out. She was supposed to hate the idea of living with Charlie, of being friends with the school gossip…being school gossip.
But no. Nothing ever turns out how you plan.
Instead, she somehow was saved from death several times, acquired a taste for the solitude that was included in Charlie's home, and gained the trust and love of someone who was just perfect, literally. Her friends were in no short supply, nor were the members of her second family to would protect her until the end.
In the end, the plan had been blown to smithereens and left with reckless abandon.
And that was how she felt every time she was around him. She felt so giddy and carefree that rarely did it ever cross her mind that she was doing one of the craziest things known to man. She was dating the predator. Of course, she wasn't senseless enough to do something to break either of their self control. That would mean disaster for all of them, not to mention heartbreak on all sides.
But then again…
There were times, that summer, when she wanted to throw every caution, every ounce of control she'd ever owned out the door. She wanted to let go of her restraints, to truly be free.
What could be better than being free with Edward?
She wanted to know every thought Edward had. To know what he felt when they were together, when they were apart. She wished that they would know everything about each other, including their emotions.
She wanted him to feel reckless abandon with her.