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We walked in silence, comforting silence when words aren't needed just knowing you're not alone makes the world seem all better again. Only things weren't better and even though I still had my doubts I allowed Benjamin to lead me down various corridors and up several flights of stairs to my room.

"So by a walk you really meant let's have a talk" I mused letting go of his hand a plopping myself down in the centre of my bed.

"Yes, I would rather sit here and talk to you about anything that be out there worrying" He nodded to the large window at the end of my room, I knew what he meant. The others would most likely be out there training until later on.

I sighed propping myself up on my elbows to look at him, he was stood at the foot of my bed staring at me intently.

"I don't bite, come sit with me…Please" I held out my hand and waiting for him to grab on before I pulled him down beside me, letting out a soft chuckle as he landed on his face.

"Not funny" He laughed pushing himself up till he was lying in the same position as me propping himself up on his elbows.

"Then why did you laugh? I don't like these mixed signals you're sending me" He smirked as I feigned sadness and poked him in the ribs.

"Me mixed signals…never" I laughed along with him only to find myself scooting closer and closer, he seemed to notice and snaked an arm round my waist pulling me next to him.

A warm feeling rushed over my body as I laid my head against his shoulder and let out a soft sigh, he mimicked my actions before kissing the top of my head. It was a nice feeling, who was I kidding it was an amazing feeling.

I felt myself begin to shake with quiet laughter as he jabbed a finger into my ribs, this is what I would miss. Carelessness, being able to laugh without the background fear and being able to smile knowing those I loved were safe.

Yet with Benjamin those thoughts didn't seem to bother me, I was content with just simply being near him, seeing him smile or hearing him laugh. I could hear the others outside the distinct sounds of marble bodies slamming into each other were hard to miss.

"You love your family dearly…" Benjamin whispered his lips moving softly against my hairline, I smiled and moved to look at him.

"Of course, I would do anything for them. All they need do is ask" I spoke with determination gripping his hand tightly; he looked down to our hands then back up to my face.

"Then why not leave tomorrow with Renesmee and Kebi, then you are certain to keep your promise…The others are not hopeful for a victorious end so why not give yourself the chance to live and the others peace of mind" It didn't take much for me to hear the pain in his voice as he spoke, each word sounded forced.

His face twisted into a grim expression as he lowered his eyes back our hands.

"Benjamin, what do I mean to you…" I paused as my gaze also fell onto our intertwined hands, they looked as though they were a perfect fit, his hand meant for mine.

"I thought I had made my feelings toward you evident enough" He muttered holding our hands up to me, I knew what he meant but I wanted to hear him say the words. To admit he cared for me the way I cared for him.

I myself wasn't certain at first, because thinking about it I couldn't really describe all the emotions that rushed around my body when I was around him but I knew I felt a spark. A spark that seemed to connect us, it was evident that I was happy around him.

I felt soothed in his presence and even though my heart no longer functioned I felt like a giddy schoolgirl around her crush. I couldn't explain how I felt it but I knew what it was and in my eyes it was love. I was in love with him…

My eyes found his practically pleading for an explanation but all I received was a sigh and the release of my hand.

"Eli…" He opened his mouth trying to find the words but none followed and he looked in total despair.

"All I'm asking for is an explanation Benjamin; I could be torn apart and turned to ash never knowing what I actually mean to you…" I was unable to finish as he stood from the bed looking down on me like a child.

"Exactly Eli we could die! So why put yourself through the pain how will we benefit at all from this? Is that what you want to play pretend thinking everyone will get a happy ending?" I flinched at his words surprised with how much they stung and how much they made me feel as though I was being torn apart already.

"No but-" A low growl escaping my lips as I spoke.

"But what!" His voice gradually getting louder as he spoke and I could see his body begin to shake "You want us to play Happy and be left broken when the other is killed! Is that what you want?"

"There isn't a certainty that we will die! Just tell me Benjamin…Please" My pleading sounded more like a whimper but at that moment I didn't care, I wore my heart on my sleeve and now I was having it thrown back in my face.

"No…" He whispered turning his head away from me and at that moment my world collapsed again but I couldn't let it go.

"No what?" I had never been more stupid and I was sure the others could hear and were no doubt mocking how idiotic I was putting all my faith in someone and having them discard it as though it were nothing.

I just couldn't stop, I knew how moronic I sounded and most likely looked but my brain didn't seem to accept it, I wanted to believe this was all a sick joke but even I knew I wouldn't be so lucky.

"Just NO!" His words hit me hard and I felt a harsh stab at my heart, I was stupid for ever thinking this could amount to anything and stupid for ever caring in the first place. I had no one to blame but myself.

I stood up and made my way over to the door not bothering to even look back at him, I wanted to hate him to make him feel the humiliation I felt now but I couldn't. My heart didn't beat but it sure as hell broke with every word he said to me.

"Well…You certainly have made your feelings evident" I shocked myself with the amount of venom laced in my words as I swiftly turned and rushed from the room.

A pressure built in my chest and my heart felt as though it would burst into flames, every step I took walking away felt as though I was transcending into hell and it was agony, I had to escape and I did the only thing I could. I ran ignoring the intense gaze of several sets or eyes as I ran from the house and into the woods.

Benjamin's POV:

"Well…You certainly made your feelings evident" The anger behind her words seeped into the room making me feel as though I was trying to walk through thick mud. Every word was weighing down on me and making it harder to move.

What had I done? The sound of her walking away broke me, knowing I had caused her all the pain I could see in her eyes made me feel like a monster, I was a monster.

But I couldn't take the words back just as I couldn't stop myself from saying them. It was for the best I couldn't live with myself if I gave her hope and she then had to watch as I was turned to ash, just as I wouldn't be able to live with myself if she met that same fate.

It was for the best…At least this way she can hate me and not have to deal with the pain it would cause knowing I loved her and having it torn away.

Not that it mattered whether or not I loved her now, she hated me and the venom in her voice proved that. I wanted nothing more to wrap her in my arms and confess a thousand times over my love for her if I thought it would keep her safe.

Now I had to deal with the consequence of my actions but the only thing on my mind was her.
The way she looked so pained, the way she flinched when I spoke as though my words caused her physical pain. I doubt it compared to the pain it caused me to say what I did, my throat burned and my stomach felt as though it was tied in knots.

Now here I was stood in her room with pangs of guilt coursing through my body which I knew I had only myself to blame for. I felt a consuming sense of pain and loss that made me want to scream with anger.

I stood in silence listening to the world around me, I assumed the faint whispering I could hear outside was about me, they were probably just as disgusted with me as I was with myself. My head snapped round to the door when I heard footsteps coming toward me praying it was Eli, Such was my torment when I saw Amun appear before me.

Amun was never one for comforting words unless the person needing comforted was Kebi so I wasn't expecting sympathy, not that I deserved it anyway. This is probably why it surprised me more when Amun placed a reassuring arm around my shoulder…

"Now child was that the wisest thing to do?" He raised a brow as he guided me to a small sofa at the opposite end of the room.

"I thought it was, I thought if she thought there were no feelings between us the pain would be less if we were to perish" I muttered with shame.

"How so? When now is she is to perish, she dies thinking you never returned her affections. And you knowing you hurt her and yourself trying to avoid it" I knew he meant no harm with his words but I still couldn't contain the growl that passed my lips.

"I never meant for it to be like that it was supposed to make things easier" Amun stood from the sofa and walked to the door.

"There is time to make this right Benjamin, I fear now with what has transpired you have given her reason to believe she has nothing left to truly loose…I couldn't bare to see you suffer and more torment than you are now" And with that he left the room leaving me to mull over his words.

Yes I could tell her that I loved her and we could spend our remaining time in each other's arms in ecstasy and happiness. But each time I thought of doing so it didn't take long before I could see her face twisted in pain as she watched my death, or how I could hear myself cry out as her limbs were torn apart.

I had no idea how to come back from this, how to even get her to stop and listen let alone forgive me…

A/N: AHHHHHH! Silly Benjamin! Well that was your first taster of Benjamin POV and I hope I did him justice but I apologize if it's not exactly how you pictured him. I took your advice and made the chapter longer, I'm also setting a goal that the next chapter will be even longer :D Any way thanks guys for all your support and I hope you continue to like the story. Thank you!