Edward
I had been running for hours and hadn't made much sense of what had transpired between Sarah and me this afternoon. All I knew was that Sarah was coming to see me, for I what I had absolutely no idea, and when she got there she saw Tanya kissing me. Tanya had been flirting with me on the plane, clearly she liked me, anyone could see that, but I knew it, it was in her thoughts. Problem was that I didn't like her. Her family and my own are closer than any other covens, I did not want to cause a discourse between them, so I just shrugged off Tanya flirting, until this afternoon.
I vaguely recall throwing Tanya off me and into the wall, only I couldn't remember deciding to do that, or which wall she hit (hopefully not the one with my music). Then I know I ran after Sarah, but why did I run after her, why did I care that she saw that? I don't think it was her surprised thoughts, although there was a trace of horror, I shouldn't have cared. Why did I feel the need to explain to her that I didn't like Tanya, that it was Tanya that kissed me not vice versa? Instantly an unwelcome thought came in answer to my questions:
You care because you love her, and you want her to love you. You love her.
I knew the thought to be true, but it was terrifying. She won't love me, especially not after what happened with Tanya. She would choose Jason to be her mate and her partner in this life. Just thinking about Jason touching Sarah caused rage to boil within me, it was irrational, especially since I wasn't with Sarah, its not like Tyler and Tori. The only thing I could think of was how much I wanted Sarah to love me, and how much I wanted to protect her. I shook myself mentally trying to clear the thoughts of Sarah from my head.
I ran towards home, having acknowledged my feelings for Sarah, I decided I would tell her, the first opportunity I had with her alone. I was surprisingly not very far and could see the house in a few minutes.
I saw Tanya come out the door with her bag in her hand. I searched her mind for some sort of explanation.
There's no point in staying anymore, I don't have a chance with him, he threw me against a wall. I'll go back to Alaska, I shouldn't have left anyway.
Oh yeah, I did throw her into my wall, I should probably apologize for that, but at least she's accepted that we won't be together, and she's leaving, so I can focus on Sarah.
"Oh, hey Tanya, are you leaving already? And I'm sorry about throwing you into the wall earlier…" I let my voice trail off, careful not to sound disappointed that she was leaving, as was customary.
"Yeah I am, there's no place like home, and don't worry about the wall thing, it's no problem." She forced a smile onto her face, before turning to continue on her way.
I wonder if Sarah is back yet, if she isn't, I'll go after her, I don't care what Carlisle says, she needs to know the truth about the 'incident'. Although, I probably should take his advice, he had more experience than I did when it came to romance and love. Carlisle will probably talk to Esme, but she won't tell anyone, and Esme will either talk to me herself or tell Carlisle who will tell me.
That's why I won't talk to Tyler, he would tell Tori, and Tori is too close of friends with Sarah. The same goes for Alice and Jasper, Emmett is never serious and Rosalie won't care. But, I want to play a baseball game, with Jason and David. I could feel anger boil within me at the thought of Jason's name, all I wanted was to be with Sarah, and maybe rub it in Jason's face.
I opened the door to the house, and to my relief I was assaulted with the familiar scents of my entire family, including Sarah and unfortunately Jason and David. I looked around counting every member, Tori and Tyler sat on the couch across from Alice and Jasper talking, Carlisle was in his study, Esme and Rosalie were in the kitchen discussing…drapes?, Emmett was where he almost always was, playing a video game, David was reading a book on the porch outside, and Sarah was upstairs…talking to Jason…in her room.
Horror consumed my entire form as I froze in the door way, I vaguely felt Jasper's tense stare followed by the others with him, as I crushed the door knob in my hand. Esme's scream at me to stop ruining her house, shook me back into movement and realization, as Sarah ran down the stairs, followed by Jason. I released the crumpled door knob, suddenly aware of the questioning and accusing stares directed at me.
"Sorry Esme, I thought I heard something. I'll fix it." I made my hasty apology complete with a competent excuse.
"Yes Edward, you will. I must say that you will be rather busy tomorrow, what with fixing the door knob and the massive hole in your wall!" I could feel the anger within her words, and all the males in the room visibly cringed at the force within it.
I nodded and moved away from the crowd, to the stairs. Once I was at the top I looked back over the railing, everyone had gone back to what they were doing before, except Sarah and Jason, who had joined Tyler, Tori, Alice and Jasper, and Esme who stood frowning at the door knob.
"Why don't we play baseball a little later, there's supposed to be a thunderstorm tonight, it'll be a good way to get to know each other." Alice had obviously just had a vision, and this was perfect I had wanted to play the 'guests' in a baseball game.
From downstairs I heard everyone agree, and I turned back toward my room, but not before my eyes caught Sarah's smiling gaze. Instantly I was filled with a new hope, that maybe, if she wouldn't be mine, she would be a close friend.