took me a while to update. but am finally about to finish it. I apologize again for my horrible writing. I'm trying to improve it. but figured in this fic I don't need to, caus it's just rubbish, and doesn't need to make it a nice piece of writing.
Oh, and I while I was writing this one remembered that it was already going around Easter week.

hope you like it. R&R

March 17th Monday

10:20- Yesterday on Palm Sunday, after I went back home, I did nothing but sleeping. At 8 I was awaken by my mobile.
"Bella" heard Alice's voice over the other end of the line, "Just wanted to make sure you're coming on Easter Saturday."
"Sure" I replied thinking this Easter will introduce me to someone, like last year, and forget about Edward Cullen "who's coming?"
"Everybody. Well you know. Rose, Emmet, Jess, and everybody. Ah and Jasper is inviting Edward".
"Really?"
"Well. Yeah. Really" HURRRAAAH.

Then after I hanged up, Jess came toward me and said "you know Edward? The one who saved me?"
"Edward Cullen?"
"Yes. Edward Cullen. Is he single?"
Oh no. why everybody is in love with Edward?? I love it when I have a crush on someone and everybody is in love with him, makes me feel normal. But why now Jess is having a crush on him? She shouldn't be. Now I can't go out with him, 'caus she'll be hurt.
"I think he's not" I said eventually.
"You're right. With his looks, I don't think he ever was"

22:00- Unbelievable what has happened today. while I was having a meeting with Martin Thomas, my mobile started ringing.
"Hello darling" my mum, "guess what?"
"What?" I whispered, trying not to let Martin hear.
"Can't hear you honey" mum has started using honey, sweetheart, darling, baby ever since I moved out, quit nice actually, but then its starts to be a little bit annoying.
"I said. What??" I raised my voice a little.
"Don't say what, say Pardon" she started, "anyway, your aunt Fiona is coming this week for Easter. Isn't it amazing? We haven't seen her for about two years. "
I was trying to block my head of memories involving Aunt Fiona; she used to come to visits and bring me boys' toys, and call me Billy.

"anyway, darling, also wanted to make sure you're coming on holy Saturday dinner at your uncle Timothy's house" she continued.
"Already invited to another party."
"to where?"
"Alice's"
"No. you're coming to your uncle's. with the family"
"what family? They don't know that I exist"
"oh don't be silly darling. You'll have fun. You're cousin George will be there"
last time I saw George was when mum invited him to my graduation party, and he had pimples all over his face.
"Who cares about my cousin George?"
"Bella. Darling. I've told them you'd come"
"tell them I'm sick"
"they won't quit believe you"
"alright then. Tell them "Bella doesn't want to come because she hates spending holy Saturday with bunch of wankers that call themselves fucking family""
"Bella. Watch your language"
"have to go now mother. Work. Work. Work. Not like you'd understand"

March 18th Tuesday

Met Gemma today, who wanted to talk about promoting her music video.
"I met Edward Cullen yesterday" she suddenly said. What? Where? When? Why haven't I seen him? Why?
"why you never told me you know him?" she asked.
"yeah. Well. He's a friend of Jasper. My best friend's boyfriend"
"oh. And I didn't know you once worked with him"
"well. Yes I did"
"I once heard he was making a new project about the holy land. But then he dropped it. You know why?"
"he has dropped it? That's why he never called me for other meetings"
"you were also attached to it?"
"yeah"
"well" she said, then start whispering, "I heard he had a crush on some director, and he dropped because he didn't want to fall for her. you know how Directors Producers relationships are complicated"
"really?"
"yeah. And even heard that he has also quit being a producer, because of that director"
"who was the director?"
"they say she's just a young inexperienced one"

When I came back home I found Jess.

"I'm moving out" announced she.
"What? When?" I burst
"tomooooorrrrrrooow"
"Why? Do I smell that bad"
she chuckled, "no. Mike has asked me to come and celebrate Easter with him in the states"
"is that moving out?"
"well, and then go live with him in California. Imagine. California"
"mmm… today?"
"uh. Well, I knew about it yesterday night".
"aren't you and Mike, you know. Like broke up?"
"mmm… well. we came back together yesterday. He was at some party"
"but didn't you say that he was in USA, and that was the main reason you both broke up?"
"well, he came back"
"when?"
"A month ago"
"Mmm. Very odd. Don't people usually come back after the holiday?"
"well, he had to do something very urgent before the holiday. Or else he wont like the Holiday in America"
"What was that?"
"to turn me back to him" she was blushing by saying that.
I suddenly realized that there is true romance. I mean look at Jess and Mike, Jess only mentioned him twice when I moved in with her, she never really fell head over heals for someone. and now she's going to America just because of Mike. I thought that was romantic, and what's even more romantic that he in his turn came to London precisely to get her back to him, isn't it romantic?
Why I can't have this kind of romance in my life? Well. Mustn't get to depressed over that, maybe Edward will come now and beg me to marry him, so we can live happily ever after somewhere, and maybe he'll change me into a vampire and both of us will be drinking blood for the rest of our life. And I'd be having this supernatural power and start reading everybody's mind, or even better I can have a talent in predicting the future.

Blurry Hell. I don't know why I fantasize too much.

135 lbs (how?!?! How ? how? From where?), fantasies involving Edward Cullen: hard to count.

March 20th Thursday

I'm all alone. Nobody cares about me. I'm so lonely. Edward never calls. Why? Why?
even Alice and Rose didn't call.
maybe am dead, and everybody knows am dead, while I think am still alive in a manner of a ghost. Must look for self on some directory. Or the pages of dead people. Or go out and talk to people.

Glasses of wine: 50 (more or less).

I apologize for stopping here. but I hope the last chapter will be coming around sooner than you'd expect.
Thanks for reading and REVIEW please.