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Jess was clearly deep in thought, silent for nearly twenty minutes once Christian finished talking.

'I...what happened to your mum...I 'm sorry about that, you didn't deserve that, no one deserves to go through'

Jess bit the inside of her cheek, thinking still. 'But, I mean...I understand the whole situation, you know...the dominant thing...it's just...Elena Lincoln...'.

Jess stood up and started walking around the room, clearly still thinking and digesting Christian's words.

'What she did is just wrong. You were a child Christian. You weren't that much younger than me and you had gone through so much, she knew all about that. And yet she decided that she was going to use you for sex...that's like child abuse Christian'.

He rolled his eyes a little 'it wasn't like that Jess'.

She turned around, eyebrow raised

'so what was it like then? Was it a relationship? No. Was it for her own sexual gratification? Yes. That says something Christian, you might have liked it to, but that was just because you were getting sex and you were a teenage virgin. You'd have been happy with anything. She only did what she did- whilst cheating on her husband I should add- because you would do anything that she asked. Tell me I'm wrong'.

Christian was quiet for a long time an muttered quietly 'I can't...'. She nodded, pleased with the breakthrough

'you're not the awful guy you seem convinced you are Christian. And you have so many people around you who care what happens to you and want you to be happy. You've got this family who are trying so hard to show you just how much they care but you won't let them in will you? You don't think your worthy, why? Because you had a bad childhood that wasn't your fault? Because you're into a different type of lifestyle? Well it's not as bad as you seem to think it is. They are all consenting adults and can say no at any point...surely that should make you realise Christian, you aren't an awful person'.

He ran a hand through his hair, looking confused 'Jess, you don't have to do this, I'm fine'.

She rolled her eyes 'No, you're not. I've seen you with your family. They love you so much that it's almost painful to see you sit there and think that they don't'.

Christian sighed, sitting back in his chair 'I...it feels good to tell someone other than Flynn and Ana. I'm not a good person Jess, just leave it'.

She looked physically annoyed now, slamming her hands on the table between them 'everyone around you cares about you and wants you to be happy. No one gives a fuck if you're blaming yourself for things that aren't your fault. A lot of people have a lot to answer for in your life Christian, but you aren't one of them, that much I know. And you know what, this self pitying attitude is going to annoy people and you'll just push them away eventually'.

As she stopped, Jess realised how loud she had been talking, almost shouting at him.

Christian looked taken aback 'well that was...unexpected. Why do you have such faith in me?'.

Jess sat down heavily in the spare chair again, shrugging 'you had faith in me didn't you'.

Christian's eyebrows rose in surprise at her honesty but sat forward in his chair, tapping the desk absently 'You know...I didn't want to seriously consider the idea of adoption all the whilst you didn't know...all the whilst I had this secret that you would be disgusted at when you found out...but... You've probably done more for me than even Flynn has managed Jess'.

She looked up, not sure what to say as Christian sat there, looking the youngest and most relaxed she had ever seen him.

His voice was quiet and doubting as he looked at her warily 'Jess...would you...I mean I haven't made any arrangements or anything...I don't know...if I was to ask social services about the possibility of adoption...what would you say to that?'.

The expression looking back at him was a mixture of amazement behind the massive smile on her face. 'Are you being serious?'. He nodded and she finally closed her mouth 'Oh my god...Christian, thank you'.

She stood up, a lump in her throat, making her long red hair fall across her face to hide the tears that were springing up.

Christian stood up and hurried over, holding her arms so she had to turn to him 'What? Why are you crying?'.

She swallowed 'I- I just didn't expect this... I didn't even realise you cared that much'.

Christian rolled his eyes and pulled her into a swift, close hug.

They stood there as Jess cried lightly into his incredibly expensive shirt, Christian with his arms around her.

As he looked up he saw Ana standing just outside of the doorway, a look of amazement on her face at the very fact that Christian was voluntarily letting someone touch him without flinching.

Whatever she had done, Ana was grateful.

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