Disclaimer: I don't own APH or "Losing My Mind" by F2F.
AN: This is an ArthurxKiku songfic for Sagesther. Told you I could make it ArthurxKiku!It's World War II.
Story notes (for this chapter ONLY): Italics are song lyrics. Regular is Arthur. Bold is Kiku.
Far, knowing you're far away
I couldn't make you stay
I wasn't expecting it. I didn't think you make that decision. I never thought we'd end up on opposite sides. We never had a chance. It's better we just turn away and forget about what we could have had. It was never meant to be.
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind...
I wish I hadn't said those things. Without you, I'm losing my mind. I kill senselessly and don't care about who I'm hurting. I'm only glad that I'm not fighting you. I couldn't deal with that.
At least I'm not hurting you. I couldn't deal with that.
I can't look you in the face anymore. You make me regret everything, but I've got to follow my leader, just as you have to follow yours.
They say, time is on your side
Still here, with bleeding skies
Can't turn, turn back the time
I'm losing my mind
You don't deal me the same courtesy. You attacked someone neutral. You attacked the one I cared for. My little brother. You did it brutally and harshly, no remorse.
I had my reasons for doing what I did. You have your reasons.
You may say it was something else, but it was to get back at me, wasn't it? Don't turn away from me with your polite words and carefully phrased lies. You're only digging our grave deeper. You won't be able to escape anymore.
Quiet, still feels the same
Silence can be so damning some days.
Hear you, calling her name
I can hear your voice, whispering my name from the shadows.
Can't turn, turn back the time
This is all that there is. Our choices and decisions have led us here. When you've seen as I have seen, then it doesn't bother you as much. You're emotional because you're still young and hopeful and idealistic, despite it all. You should have known better.
I'm losing my mind
I'm old enough to know what I want. You're the one who fought it.
Far, knowing you're far away
I couldn't make you stay
There was nothing I could have said to keep you here with me. You wanted to leave and would have done anything to get away.
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind
Far, knowing you're far away
You wanted me to leave. It was in your green eyes, your words. The truth was always there. You never wanted this.
I never wanted to be so far away from you.
I feel like I'm in chains
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind
Your love.
Your love.
Your absence. Your absence.
It keeps me chained here.
I tried, tried to call you
Somehow, I never got through
I wrote you letters, but never sent them. I called you, but I always hung up.
Maybe, I am too blind
I'm losing my mind
Every time you looked at me, I felt like you were staring right through. You never really saw me. But, did I ever really see you?
Quiet, still feels the same
Realize, there's no one to blame
Can't turn, turn back the time
I'm losing my mind
You say it's for the best. I miss you.
I miss you.
Far, knowing you're far away
I couldn't make you stay
You're so far away. There's nothing I could say to get you to come closer again. You won't risk it. You're afraid of me. You're afraid of being hurt again, of me hurting you.
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind
What did I do to hurt you?
Far, knowing you're far away
I feel like I'm in chains
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind
If I asked, if I begged on knees with tears in my eyes, would you come back?
If I apologized and let you see into my mind, would you forgive me?
Far, knowing you're far away
I couldn't make you stay
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind
Far, knowing you're far away
I feel like I'm in chains
Can't rewind time
I'm losing my mind
Will the fate of this war decide our lives?