Chapter 21

Sorry! She dosn't commit suiscide here!

Hey, do you think I should ( 4 the suiscide part) Make it Todd's and hers POV?

I groaned as I began to come out of my sleep. I felt weak and groggy. Just then, the image of Mr. Todd came into my mind. I felt a searing anger began to eat me. I remembered how he forced the revolting medicine in my mouth, and made me close my mouth. I could still taste the after effect of the medicine. I needed something strong to get this horrid taste out of my mouth. " I'm going to kill him" I growled in a groggy voice as I slowly began to hoist myself up.

Immediately, a wave of dizziness struck my head. I tried to close my eyes, but was to afraid the I might fall asleep again. I had to clutch my stomach as I felt bile flood my mouth. With a great effort, I swallowed it. I winced at the buring sensation in my throat.

I threw my feet over the side of the bed. I shivered as my feet came into contacked with the cold unforgiving floor. I slowly stood up as I began to look around. I felt myself began to panic. Everything was so dark, I couldn't even see my hand in front of my face. " He could be in here" I told myself.

A memory of my childhood creeped into my head. As a small child, I had always enjoyed the peace and quiet that the night brought. It was like a whole new world, full of wonders and dangers. You never knew what to expect. I used to sit at my window for hours at a time, simply staring at the bright moon as it glittered in the black sky. I loved watching the stars glistening like little fires against the black soulless sky.For some reason, I felt like the night was made for me, like I belonged to it. It was my time to get away from life. But now, I'm afraid of what secrets the dark conceals. I'm afraid of what monsters might be lurking in my room. "The night only brought fear and pain for me now" I muttered." "My father could be in this room."

I sighed. As of late I have been forcing myself to stay awake. Every night for the past few days, I dreaded the mere thought of sleep alone. The moment I shut my eyelids, I instantly
reopened them to find my father's cold blue eyes staring down at me. He would be smiling at me. I would wonder why when I relize what was happening. I barely had time to register what was happening around me before I felt a familiar pain
shoot me as he began to violate my body. And I was helpless to stop it.

You can't even image what it feels like. I
could only lie there as he filled me to the core with his manhood, thrusting in and out in a brutal manner. I would try and fight him off, kicking and screaming while I would fight him. Sometimes I would even bite him. But this seemed to make it more pleasurable to him.

As of late, he had also begun to wrap my legs around his waist which allowed him to penetrate my body even deeper still.I couldn't even believe it, I was beginning to begin to feel pleasure in it. And I hated myself for it.
I hated it when a moan of pleasure escaped my lips as he filled me to the hilt. I hated it when my hips buckled upward in time with his movements. I hated myself as my body betrayed me.

Oh how I hated it all. "Being raped was one thing, but to be raped and raped repeatedly by your
own father it was...unimaginable" I thought to myself.
I sighed as I slowly got up and began to grope around to find the door. Just then I let out a sharp cry as I began to fall. I landed hard on my legs.

I hissed as I felt around for what was the culprit that tripped me. My hands found something I brought it to my face and squinted hard to see what it was. By the silhouette of it, it looked like a shoe.

" Great" I muttered as I chucked the shoe across the room. I hoisted myself up as I finally reached the door. I let out a small cry when a hot pain shot up my leg. " Great, just great. First, it was my left foot, Now it is my right! I had a chair drop on my foot and now this. Anything else?" growled as I brought my hand to the wall.

Just then, I felt a wave of sickness hit me. I gasped as I felt my heart rate race. I began to pant as I clutched my chest in pain. " No, I will be strong" I muttered.

Finally, the pain ended. I sighed as silently opened the door. I poked my head out and noticed that there was nothing in sight. I couldn't tell that Mr. Todd's door was opened or closed. I shrugged as I clutched onto the stair railing for dear life. With great effort, I finally reached the bottom.

" Bloody stairs, got to get me they are" I hissed for I tripped on the last stair, running into the wall. I growled as I walked into the kitchen and began my search for my only friend: Rum.

As I was looking for it, I didn't notice the solome Mr. Todd in the family room, smoking his pipe while staring off into nothingness. " Blast! It has to be hear somewhere!" I hissed. Useually Mrs. Lovett hid men's drink in the way back, behind the ale and gin bottles. This was her secret stash, or should I say her husbands.

I gave out an angry sigh as I continued to look. After what seemed like a endless eternity, I found it. " AH! There you are you lil burgar!" I laughed.

I had to stand on my tiptoes, and I could still barley reach it, but after several tries, I managed to reach it. I had the be extremely carefully as in not to knock down the other drinks. As I brought the bottle down, a bag of flower fell. It landed with a loud 'thud'. I was sure it woke up someone.

I groaned slightly as I bent to pick it. " Good Lord" I wheezed. It felt like it was stuffed with bricks. Finally, I managed to place it back up on the top self. I had barley any energy left.

I trudged to the cabinet and retrieved a small rum glass. I walked over to a booth and began to pour myself a large cup of the liquid. I was eager to down the medicine. My medicine. I brought the cup up to my mouth and took a large greedy gulp.As soon as the liquid touched my tongue, a wave
of relief washed over me.

I couldn't help the giddy smile which came
onto my face. " Man, that is the stuff" I thought. It was defiantly a man's drink. Most girls would spit it back out, but I savored the extremely strong taste.

Just then, I began to sputter then drink out as I felt a rack of pain slam into my body. I gave out a watery cough as I threw the glass down on the table. I watched as the rum dripped down over the edge of the table f. I clutched the end of the table for support until my knuckles turned a dangerous shade of white.

I couldn't stop coughing no matter how hard I tried. I felt myself begin to slump down as my knees began to buckle. With all my strength, I held myself up. I felt tears began to prick my eyes as I felt a horrid pain stuck me. I closed my eyes and hoped for the best. After awhile, the attack finally stopped.

I sighed as I felt my body tremble. I felt a dull pain in my knuckles but ignored it as I continued to clutch onto the table. " Well, that was unexpected" I growled as I grabbed my cup and filled it back up with rum. I took a small sip and began to look at the liquid. It looked like a goblet of blood.

I shrugged this off as I continued to gulp down the delicious liquid in the glass until. " Taste so good" I thought. Nothing in the world could prepare me for what happened next. I felt a strong cold hand grab my shoulder as the silent was broken by the rough sound of Mr. Todd.

"What are you doing out of bed?!" he hissed at me.

I felt the liquid fly out of my mouth as I began to choke. I must have jumped about ten feet in the air at this as I whirled
around in
my place to face an angry Mr. Todd. " OH my word!" I hissed as I brought my hand up to my chest. I felt my heart dance underneath my touch. I must of moved to quickly, because as I whirled around, I felt my foot caught the hem of my nightdress.

I felt myself began to fall. I tried to grab the end of the table, but my hand slipped on the spilled rum. I let out a small gasp as I fell. " If my head hits the floor then I'm going to be asleep for a long time" I thought in a panic. I squeezed my eyes closed, hoping that it would make the falling part better.

I waited for the inpacked, but was surprised when there was none. " OK, this is the part when I'm suppose to hit my head" I whispered as I opened my eyes slowly. I gave out a surprised gasp, for there I found myself in Mr. Todd's protective embrace. I felt one of his arms snaked around my waist and the other one supporting the small of my back.

I couldn't help but notice that my body was flush with his. It was as if we were made together. Are bodies molded perfectly together. I
could not help the blush which crept upon my cheeks as Mr. Todd brought me to himself. I could see his bare chest exposed in a unbottened white dress shirt. I adverted my eyes from this as

I cleared my throat uncomfortably and quickly removed myself from Mr.
Todd's arms. He was reluctant to realise me at first, but realised me. It was as if he didn't want to let me go. I just stood there, twiddling my thumbs as began to look around the room. I wanted to look at anything, anything but him. " Akward" I said as I began to shuffle my feet. I felt like a little school girl who was dared to go up and talk to her crush. I gave a silent sigh of relief as he was the first one to break this solitude of silence.

"I apologize, I didn't mean to frighten you," he said sincerely.

This caught my attention as I looked at him. " You didn't frighten me, I was just practicing my..reflexes" I told him what I told Mrs. Lovett when she startled me.

I watched as he moved towards the counter, his strong back facing me. I noticed that his arms
moved in
a strange manner, as If he was pouring something. He turned around and faced me, the bottle of rum in his hands. He came back and refilled my glass for me. " You did something to it" I growled as I watched him. He had a mock look of hurt on his face. " I assure you Miss Sky that I did nothing to your glass" he said as he stood and glared at me. I just glared at him. He just looked at me and sighed.

" Miss. Sky, you should be in bed resting" he hissed in a cool tone. I could tell my eyes where changing colors as my anger began to grow. " I don't wanna rest damn it!" I hissed at him, " Since when did you become the boss of me?" I knew I sounded like a spoiled child, but I didn't care.

Just then, I felt my head began to pound in pain. I let out a small hiss of pain, but ignored this. Mr. Todd noticed this and a look of alarm came across his features.

" Miss. Sky, please don't stress yourself out, the doctor said that that would only make things worse." That did me in. I gave out a screech of anger. It made me so mad when he tried to be all polite because I knew that he wasn't. He was a wolf in sheep's clothing, and right now, he was pissing me off...big time.

" Just who do you think you are ordering me around like this? Fuck the doctor! I don't give a damn what he says! I will do what I want, and you won't stop me!" I screamed as I glared at him with so much fury, I thought I would burn a hole in him.

Just then, all his features turned from being calm to anger. Before he could say anything, I continued my ranting. " First you scared me so bad I almost had my heart stopped and now you are ordering me around! STOP IT, YOUR NOT MY FATHER!" He just stood there, clenching and unclench his fists. In a steely tone he he said: " Again, I apologize for frightening you" he added. I just looked at him as a ugly sneer creeped its way upon my face.

"Really?" I asked with brow raised. "Could have fooled me."

He broke. Just then, he let out a angry growled as he slammed the bottle on the table and began to move towards me. I began to advance backwards part in fear and anger. I knew what he did when he was angry with me. I couldn't help but stiffen as I felt the cold wall behind
me. " Damn" I thought. I let out a surprised gasped as he was suddenly in front of me, with both arms on either side
of my head. I could see the muscles under the light material of his shirt sleeves ripple with power. I felt myself being pulled into his mesmerized, deep, black, soulless eyes. I was hypnotized. I noticed that there was a ancient hurt and pain deep within his eyes. It was almost as If I could see his past. "I could stare into his eyes for hours a time" I though guiltly.

He spoke to me in a sexy, dark and heavly husky voice as he stared my straight in the eyes as if challengling me.

"I assure you, if I had meant to frighten you, you would not be here
right now," he hissed venomously.

I couldn't help myself as I brought my eyes to his lips. They looked so full and inviting. I caught myself wondering at sometimes on how they would taste, how they would fell against me. Just then, an image of Mr. Todd running his lips up and down my neck, across my lips, moaning, came into my mind. I felt the blood begin to boil beneath my skin and throughout my veins,
at this thought. " No! You must not!" I thought. With the all will and all the strength I could muster, I pushed him roughly away from me.
He seemed take aback by this as he quickly regained his balance. There was
a demonic fire in my eyes, and it was unnerving.

"I will not be intimidated," I growled angrily, my hands balled into fists at
my side; I could feel my nails begin to dig into the flesh of my palm. I could feel alittle wetness under my touch. I drew blood. I
didn't know why this seemed to anger me so , all I knew was that it did and I was
prepared to strike if need be.

Mr. Todd simply stood there, stunned by my actions. Was that intimidation, or admiration I saw
in
his eyes? Either way, it was pleasing. "Good, he should respect me" I thought with a smirk on my face. I walked past him
towards the counter to fetch my glass." Cheers" I said as I gave him a mocking toast and took a healthy swig of the liquid
I slammed the cup on the table, almost cracking it, and wipped my mouth off with my sleeve.
Almost immediately, I began to feel dizzy and I swore the room was spinning.

I groaned and placed a hand to my
head which had begun to throb incessantly. My eyes began to droop. I tried to fight it as I clutched onto the table. " You did do something to my drink" I muttered at him. I could taste the nasty medicine taste in my mouth. The rum must of made it work quicker. " Bastard" I whispered as my knees buckled underneath me.

Mr. Todd quickly grabbed my waist as I almost hit the floor. He grunted as he pulled me up to his chest. I had not the energy within me to protest. I felt my head fall backwards, not being supported my anything. The last thing I
saw before my world went black was the smirk upon Mr. Todd's face. " Sorry luv."

A/U: hehehe, I guess this chpt isnt the suiscide part. Next chpt is AND I PROMISE IT IS! While I was writing it, I saved it and was flabbergasted by how many words I already had. I was alreay up in the 6000 and I hadn't even started the suiscide part yet! I dont know If I should like first do Todd's POV in the s part and then Christien's or what! hehehehe I posted it in another document and I already have 2000something words! HEHEHE! Srry about that! But anyways...it is going to be really good. I do need ideas for the chpt after the suiscide though! IDEAS!

PS: IT IS CHRISTEN! I keep on putting the 'I' in there on accident! CHRISTEN!!