Chapter 20

Christmas and New Year something I loved secretly for years. I used to openly love Christmas when I was 3 and then when dad died we didn't celebrate Christmas, not properly and New Year was just another day that happened to be the first day of another year of hell. That changed when I had my first Christmas at the Curtis' house. We were woke up early by Soda shouting, he loves Christmas and according to Pony and Darry is always up early and wanting to open presents.

We got loads of presents, I got one from every member of our gang 8 presents, I was happy as ever. We all got presents for everyone and then we had dinner with the biggest turkey I have ever seen. The vegetables were eaten, not by me, but the green mashed potatoes were devoured by Soda and me. Soda wanted to put grape jelly on his as well but Luce said that she wouldn't be kissing him if his breath tasted of potato and grape jelly. So he didn't. And for dessert we had Curtis Chocolate cake made by Darry and Brandy sauce. Two-bit made the brandy sauce and went lightly on the sauce and I liked it. I've found a new alcohol I like. Darry and Luce made sure I didn't have too much but when they wasn't looking Dally and Two-bit were adding more to theirs as well as Pony's and mine we were half way to being smashed before we had even started on the keg of beer Dally and Two-Bit had brought from Bucks.

Well that was last year, this year Christmas was great cos we had De with us. New Year I hated and that was because De wasn't there. Why? Well she's gone back to live with mom and she didn't leave on good terms with me, in fact I was literally screaming at her that I hated her. I never wanted to see her again. I can't understand why she wanted to go back there. And I don't want her there with that bitch. I fucking hate it and I think the house must hate it too cos I've done nothing up hit and kick the walls every so often since I found out. When she left I was so angry that I went storming off and got into a fight with 3 Soc's who fought they could take advantage of a young girl walking alone, ha, the first one got a punch in the face and one of the others got kicked between the legs and the last was too busy helping the first for me to get him, I took off running and ran all the way to the bridge. Luce was really upset she doesn't understand either Soda's doing his best to make her feel better and I try to but she seems even more upset that 'm not upset am just angry.

De says she's gunna come see us every other day and isn't gunna take any shit off mom and who ever she's with now. I said I didn't give a shit if she came to see us or not. I can't believe she's back there after what happened and I get called emotionally fucked up, she's fucking mental if she thinks that she can look after herself and not have anything happen to her, even I can't say that, that's why I have the gang, they have my back, I have theirs but who's gunna have De's. Johnny is really upset, he didn't want her to go, just as much as we didn't, maybe even more.

I guess he really does like her, there still going out together but I don't know long it will last, it's not like he can come round here and she'll be here. She's the other side of town, past where the Soc's live, in the middle class area, well it's called the middle class, people there have a little more money but not as much as the Soc's, they have bigger houses than we do as well and better manners, there neither Soc or Greaser there just 'middlies' so it means that Johnny is going to have to half his time between us. Good Luck with that one Johnny.