Quick update yeah!
LEAH'S POV
I was back in my old room at the Cullen's house. It was like nothing had changed. Well… nothing except the fact that I now had two children. Twins actually, one boy and one girl. I was just as surprised as anyone. Dr. Cullen said that he had no idea how he didn't pick this up. I don't mind. I love my babies. But right now, all I had was little Nathan Avery Clearwater. My baby girl had no name. But as I lay in bed starring at the two bundles of joy that had come into my life, I couldn't get Sam out of my head. What would we be doing right now if things had turned out differently? Would he like the name Nathan? Or would he want our son to be named after him?
The name Ann ran through my head a couple times. It was my mom's middle name after all. If one baby was going to be named after someone special, the other one should be, too. However, whenever I looked at my tiny baby wrapped in the pink blanket all I could think was Sam. She had his eyes. She was a fighter, too, like Sam. She almost died during birth, but Dr. Cullen saved her. I am forever in their debt because of that.
Nathan started to cry. I picked him up out of his cradle, trying to get him to drink from the bottle. His crying was like a chain reaction because within seconds, the other baby was crying. I didn't have to worry about the fact that I only had two arms for long though. Rosalie was through the door with a second bottle in a second. She lifted the baby girl and held the bottle to her lips. Nathan began to drink from the bottle and so did my baby girl. I smiled at Rosalie and moved over to she could sit next to me on the bed.
"Do you have a name for her yet?" Rosalie asked, staring at the little baby in her arms.
"Samantha," I said. I blinked in shock. I hadn't meant for that to slip out. It really was perfect though. Sam after well… Sam and Ann after my mom. Samantha. I liked it, "Samantha Rose."
Rosalie smiled as she realized the origin of her middle name.
"You really don't have to-"
"I want to," I insisted, "You've helped me so much these past few days. I'm going to need someone like you to help me raise these babies."
"Well… if you insist," Rosalie smiled, "Samantha Rose Clearwater."
"And Nathan Avery Clearwater," I added, giggling.
"Avery?"
"Yeah he's a uh… friend."
What is there to say about Avery? He came into my life, he was there when I needed him, and now he's gone. Maybe I'll never see him again and maybe, just maybe our paths will cross in the future. He was a great friend while I knew him, but I'm ready to write him off as someone I knew in the past. I've lived two lives now. One before my babies and now one with my babies. Before I had them, all that mattered was myself. My feelings. My problems. But Nathan and Samantha are my number one priority now. As their mother, it's my duty to take care of them. Every instinct in my body is telling me to protect them with everything I have.
"I take it you're keeping them?" Rosalie asked quietly.
I sighed, "Yes. I can't imagine… not having them. But…"
"But what?" Rosalie pressed.
"I'm just nervous. I mean, what if I'm the worst mom ever? I've never done this before," I said quickly.
Rosalie laughed lightly, shifting Samantha in her arms, "You have a house full of people to help you with that. We're here to stay with you now."
"I suppose I should tell my mom about them," I muttered, "Or at least visit her to let her know I'm okay…"
"That would be… nice," Rosalie said quietly, her eyebrows furrowing a little bit, "I think you should wait though… the babies aren't ready to leave the house yet. Just wait a few weeks."
I nodded, "You're right."
And I did. I waited four weeks before I decided it was time to visit my mom. I tried to go three weeks later, but chickened out at the last minute. Somehow, the Cullens managed to get my car back for me, so getting there wasn't the issue. It was what was going to happen after I got there that was the issue.
There was something that I hadn't noticed happening the past few weeks since I've had my babies. I'd been growing, changing. I didn't realize that I'd grown a foot taller in just four weeks, or that I suddenly had arms like a body builder. I was too preoccupied in my own babies to realize.
I crossed the old rotting "Welcome to La Push" sign. The run down houses made me feel right at home. I had chosen not to bring my children with me the first time. I was going to see how my mom took me being back first. If she took it well maybe I would ease her into the idea of my kids. If not… well I hadn't thought that far into the future. I just really hoped she would take it well.
I didn't realize how tall I had gotten until my dad opened the door and I could see over his head. I'd always thought my dad was so tall. I had to look down to see into his eyes.
"L-Leah?" he whispered
"H-hi dad," I said, smiling.
"You've gotten so… big," he said, backing away a little.
"W-what do you mean?" I asked, quickly becoming angry, "Big? So I've gotten taller but- how dare you! I've been back for all of ten seconds!"
"Calm down Leah," dad warned, "Sue! Call Sam!" he yelled behind him.
"SAM? YOU'RE BRINGING SAM INTO THIS?" I yelled.
Suddenly I wasn't me anymore. Pain was all I felt and then I was on all fours. My dad was on the floor and my mom was rushing down the stairs. I was too freaked out to register what was going on. I ran out of the house and into the woods. I wasn't human, I was an animal. I could feel a tail! I had a fucking tail!
Hello?
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE A MOTHER FUCKING TAIL WHAT IT WRONG WITH ME I'M GOING TO KILL SOMEONE OH MY GOD MY DAD WHAT'S GOING ON IS HE OKAY I HAVE TO GO BACK WHY AM I HERE WHO'S THERE ANSWER ME I'M GOING TO SCREAM I SWEAR I'M GOING TO SCREAM
AWOOOOOOOOO
Leah?
Who is this?
Leah? Oh my god! This is great!
Someone was laughing. Their voice sounded oddly like Paul's. I growled. Wait I growled? Oh my god I just fucking growled.
P-Paul?
Yeah it's me!- Paul
Why can I…
Hear me? Cuz you're a wolf now! Well… a shape shifter… but oh my god Sam is gonna flip a shit!- Paul
Sam?
Yeah hold on I'm gonna go get him! Don't move. Seriously Leah don't move- Paul
Um… ok
I waited. Was I really a… wolf? Like a werewolf? Everything looked different, that's for sure. The colors were more vibrant, I could see every bug on every tree. I could hear a rive probably twenty miles away.
Leah?
Sam?
Oh God Leah not you, too- Sam
What do you mean?
Leah, you're a shape shifter… like me- Sam
But… how?
I just don't understand. The legends never said anything like this has happened before. It's unnatural. A girl can't turn into a wolf…
Sam's mind was going a hundred miles an hour and I could hear every thought he had. Fuck, that probably meant he could hear mine. I tried to keep my thoughts back. Everything I didn't want him to know about, I blocked.
Sam… what's going on?
I have to go. I have to tell the council.- Sam
I was alone again. Sam left me. I should be use to this by now. But I wasn't, it still hurt just as bad. And I was still a wolf.
Leah?
Jared?
Yeah, it's me. Sam sent me to… explain things to you- Jared
Explain what?
And so he did. He explained everything. He told me that the legends were true, that I was a werewolf. That nothing had ever happened like this before. I was a… freak of nature as he so kindly put it. He explained all the pluses to being a wolf… and he explained… imprinting. And that he imprinted on Kim and Sam on Emily. And suddenly it all made sense. I wasn't meant for Sam… Emily was his soul mate.
That's why Sam couldn't talk to me. He wouldn't tell me anything because he didn't want to have to be the one to tell me I was never meant for him.
But why? Why does this happen?
Because of the vampires- Embry
What vampire? They're real?
Yes, Leah. It's the Cullens. The Cullens are vampires. They're the ones that triggered the gene- Embry
The Cullens are vampires? But my… don't think about that now! Nobody can know now.
So… now what?
Now you join the pack-Embry
What if I don't want to?
Take it up with Sam I guess- Embry
Okay.
Hey wait, I didn't mean now!- Embry
It was easy to follow Sam's scent. Everything had a scent. It led all the way back to my house. I hopped the fence to my backyard, nearly landing on Seth.
"WHAT THE HECK?" He screamed, dashing out of the way just in time.
Leah, stay away from him! You could really hurt him!- Embry
"STAY AWAY FROM ME!" Seth yelled, backing away.
"Seth?" I heard Sam's voice.
"Leave me alone Sam! I hate you!" Seth yelled. He began shaking. It was scary to watch because he was trembling so fast.
Oh my gosh, two in one day!- Embry
What's going on!? –Seth
Seth!
Leah?
Seth?
Sam?
Embry!
Embry go make yourself useful somewhere else- Sam
Sorry- Embry
What's happening to me? Why am I furry? Is this a dream? Did that wolf actually kill me!? What about my dad?- Seth
Dad?
Seth, calm yourself!- Sam
Seth immediately obeyed. It was weird one second he was panicking and the next he was quiet. The way Sam spoke had a heaviness to it and I felt it hard to not obey.
Leah, explain everything Embry told you to Seth- Sam
But… I have to go see if my dad's alright.
Not now Leah!- Sam
Sam, it's my dad! Seth said-
I don't care what Seth said! I have bigger things to deal with right now! Why do you always have to do this to me? Can't you just listen to what I say and do it?!- Sam
…
Go fuck yourself Sam.
It felt nice to say that. So nice in fact, that my blood pressure lowered and I felt myself becoming human again. That was easy. I realized I was naked so I grabbed a dress from the clothing line and put it on. Not wanting to freak out and turn into a wolf again, I tried to stay as calm as possible. I walked into the house, not looking back at the asshole of an ex-boyfriend I had. Inside the house, there were paramedics. Mom was sobbing over dad who was just lying there while a bunch of doctors surrounded him.
I made my way over cautiously.
"Dad?" I whispered. He didn't answer. But his eyes were open. Why were his eyes open if he couldn't talk to me?
"Dad!?" I said louder.
"Leah," my mom cried, "H-he's gone."
"What?" I whispered.
"He had a heart attack… he didn't make it," mom said, wiping the tears away from her face.
"No! No no no no no no no no!" I yelled, running my hands through my hair.
"Leah, get out of here!" I heard Sam yell. I immediately rose to my feet and walked out. I tried to turn back but I couldn't. My body wouldn't let me. Sam sent me away! It was his fault! I would never see my own dad again!
"I HATE YOU SAM!" I screamed, but I couldn't stop walking. I got to my car and drove back to the Cullen's house, dreading what I knew I had to do next.
"I don't know Edward! Alice saw her jump!... She's on her way now… Edward I don't- Leah you're back! Why do you smell like wet dog? Edward I have to go," Rosalie hung up the phone. I thought for a moment, not knowing where to begin.
"You're a vampire?" I whispered.
"Why… why would you say that?" Rosalie said, laughing awkwardly. But I knew the truth.
"Don't lie to me Rosalie! I know what you are."
"We were going to tell you!"
"Where are my babies?" I said slowly.
"Leah please-"
"WHERE ARE THEY?"
"Upstairs," Rosalie whispered.
I walked upstairs to my room. Nathan and Samantha were asleep in their carriers. I started packing up all of their things. Some toys, blankets, pictures. I even wrote a note. This werewolf thing was hereditary, it might happen to them as well. They would need to know where to go if it did. But hopefully they would never come in contact with vampires again. I never want them to meet their father. He is an arrogant asshole who doesn't deserve to walk this Earth. As a last thought, I slipped in the diary I'd been keeping. It would show them how much I really did love them. Hopefully they would know that they were loved and that I was only doing what was best.
I left the house shortly after that. Nobody tried to stop me.
I did the right thing giving up my babies. I left them at the hospital, only giving their first names, a promise to keep them together, and nothing else. I didn't want to have the temptation to try to get them back. I didn't want to know. If it were meant to be, I would see them again. I couldn't keep them. I couldn't take care of them, I was a wolf. The Cullens were vampires. My mom would be devastated if she found out. Nathan and Samantha would be much better off adopted by a nice family with money and enough love to take care of both of them. I just couldn't provide them with that.
The ride back to La Push was the saddest one I've ever had to take. Crying so hard I couldn't see the road in front of me, I just had to keep telling myself that this was the right thing to do. I know it was. They needed this. Maybe I wasn't a good mother, but I was a good enough mom to know that this was what they needed most of all.
I was too lazy to edit this so... sorry;) Hope ya like it.
This is the last of the Leah flashbacks for now. After this is Eclipse and Breaking Dawn and that all happened the same way. so yeah hope you liked this!
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