A/N: I loved receiving the criticism and comments, thank you all for letting me know your feelings towards the last chapter, I was very nervous about posting it and some of you made interesting points that I will take into consideration. This chapter was difficult to follow up with after that crazy chapter this is another look at how Angel really feels about herself and how she still is broken and is trying to fight it off, this song that I chose for the title explains the way that she feels throughout the story and especially in this chapter. Let me know what you think… enjoy and thanks again for all of the comments.

21. Reflection

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me

Why is my reflection

Someone I don't know

Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time

When will my reflection show Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be Free to fly

That burns with a need to know

The reason why Why must we all conceal

What we think, how we feel Must there be a secret me

I'm forced to hide I won't pretend that

I'm Someone else for all time When will my reflection show Who I am inside

Christina Aguilera - Reflection

As we pulled away on the boat I watched the island get further and further away. I really hated the sight I wanted to rewind back to a few days ago when things were perfect and although Seth was puking his guts out I had something to look forward to. Now with Seth puking his guts out I was looking forward to nothing. I rubbed his back softly as he let it all go into the ocean.

The plane ride back to the states wasn't any better. I watched out the window at the passing clouds until the night sky came and it was pitch black.

"Carlisle" I heard Alice whisper quietly. I didn't know if she was trying to talk low enough for me not to hear. Carlisle and Emsee were in the seats behind us and I saw in the corner of my eye Alice standing up talking to them. I couldn't make out what they were saying anyway Seth was snoring loudly he had a rough afternoon on the boat. I was staring off into space when I felt a hand wrap around my wrist and looked up to see Alice staring down at me with a solid look on her face.

"I know you really don't want to hear this right now but we have to take another trip more like a detour" she said frowning. I eyed her. Seth moved in his sleep smacking me with his hand. I grabbed his arm and held it in place as Alice spoke with me.

"What kind of detour?" I looked at her with concerned eyes.

"Italy" she said. I could feel myself start to feel sick again. We had to go to Italy now instead of waiting a few days for them to come to us we had to go to them. They must have been really pissed about the whole thing.

"Should I be concerned?" I questioned her.

"That I'm not sure of when we land in Washington we are going to figure this thing out and once we get back home we are going to book a flight to Italy. We have to discuss who is going and how we are going to deal with this" she said to me. I looked over at Seth his arm still wrapped lazily around me.

"I can handle that" I nodded. She looked at me with a light smile.

"I have faith that everything will work out so let's just play this one by ear" she sounded slightly confident.

"You amaze me more an more every day" Alice added.

"Thanks I guess" I said shrugging my shoulders.

"I know you can handle anything you have taken everything so well. Don't work yourself up and let's try to keep our confidence high we haven't lost you yet and no one will take you away form us that easily" I smiled at her.

The plane ride was incredibly long and by the time we got back to Washington I almost felt exhausted. I shook Seth waking him from his long nap. He had slept almost the whole ride only getting up every once in a while to use the bathroom. I didn't have the heart to tell him just yet what would happen in a few days or hours. We were in the back of Rosalie and Emmett's jeep when it was brought up.

I felt the back of his hand touch my face he gently rubbed my cheek.

"You look bothered by something" he said to me in almost a whisper

"I found out something on the plane" I said to him. Rosalie and Emmett stayed quiet.

"Okay please tell me" he said.

I looked into his blood shot tired eyes.

"Alice says I have to go to Italy…" his jaw dropped as I spoke to him.

"If you are going to Italy I'm going to be right there with you"

"I can't let you do that this is between me and the Volturi I'm not involving you in this mess" I said to him. He grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

"I'm not losing you again Angel I stick with the people I love weather it puts me in danger or not I don't care"

"I really don't think that they will like a werewolf walking around their city" I said to him.

"I really don't care what they like" I felt his grip tighten.

"I do if you get hurt I couldn't live with myself… I can barely live with what I did … if you get hurt now because of me or if anyone in this family gets hurt because of me I swear to god I will…"

"ANGEL" it was the first time I had heard Emmett yell. Both Seth and I shot our heads forward. He quickly took his eyes off the road and looked at me. Then I saw Rosalie she had her head in her hands and I didn't realize she was sobbing.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled. Seth leaned back against the seat and closed his eyes. Everyone was quiet for the rest of the ride home. Once we got there I bolted out of the car and ignored everyone including the few voices I heard calling my name. I ran straight to my room and shut the door. I jumped on the bed practically breaking it and buried my head into the pillow. I screamed loudly and it felt good. I heard a knock at the door.

"Hey it's Emmett can I come in?" he questioned.

"Yeah the door is open" I rolled over onto my back and placed my arms behind my head. He shut the door quietly and walked over to the bed and sat down next to me. He placed his hand on mine and looked into my eyes.

"Look you are the only thing holding Rose together and I'm sorry I yelled at you in the car I just saw the look on her face when he said those things and it upset me I can't bear to see her when she's like that" I looked down as he spoke.

"Sorry" I said in a low tone.

"I'm not mad, look Carlisle says its okay if Seth comes with us we may even be able to use Jacob and Seth's help we did last time and it worked. We are all going to be there for you we are a Family and we stick together, we even helped Bella out when she was still human and we had only known her for a few short months and we are going especially help out our daughter. I'm going to fight for you" he said. I looked up at him and smiled.

"Thanks Dad" I said wrapping my arms around his neck. He squeezed me tight and then let go.

"So what's the plan?" I questioned.

"We've got two days to prepare Carlisle is going to call the others that we know and let them know our situation in case we need back up, Alice ran off for a while to get a clearer image Seth and Jacob were blocking her vision" he explained. I nodded.

"Seth told me to let you know that he would be back later he went home to unpack and get other things together he's going to stay here until we leave"

"Thanks, I think I'm going to take a drive through town blow some steam would that be a problem?" I questioned. He nodded.

"Of course it wouldn't you go get some fresh air" he said.

I rolled down the window and let the breeze flow through my hair. The sun was about to set yes there was actually sunlight. It was beautiful in the sky a purple and orange color. With a few dark clouds hovering over it. I approached town and it was pretty lively for a Thursday night. I stopped at a red light right in the middle of town. With my window open I heard two voices arguing. I looked over and my mouth dropped.

"So you would think after all of these years I would come crawling back to you?" it was Seth and some girl I didn't recognize. She was absolutely beautiful tan skin, long black hair and a very thin body. I eyed him.

"Seth you even told me yourself that you had done some wolf thing … imprinted on me I mean I thought that would last forever right? When I was young I was stupid I married and now here I'm divorced I was way to young for that but I know that I was in love with you"

"Well I'm not…" he started to say but the girl grabbed him by the shirt and pulled him in for a kiss. She planted the kiss on his lips and he looked like he was struggling but then there was a moment where he looked like he was enjoying it. I heard someone honk from behind and I looked up to see the light change green.

"Oh SHIT ANGEL" he saw my car and was now yelling out towards me. I stepped on the gas and acted like I didn't hear him. I drove quickly down the road. I knew there was one person I could talk to about this. I pulled out my cell phone as I was on the road and dialed Nessie to see where Jacob was.

"Hey Angel where are you?" she questioned answering the phone.

"Nessie are you with Jake?"

"No he went home to rest for a bit why?" she questioned.

"I need to talk to him it's about Seth" I told her.

"Okay well he should be home" she said.

I had her give me the directions to his house again when I got there I ran up to the door and knocked. I had to knock twice because no one answered the first time. Jacob came to the door in his boxers. I looked at him and he eyed me wondering what the heck I was doing there.

"Angel you okay?" he questioned. He saw the look in my eyes and knew something was up. I stepped inside and he shut the door and then I turned to him.

"Tell me everything about that girl Seth says he thinks he imprinted on" I said crossing my arms. He grabbed my arm and took me into the living room. We sat down on the couch.

"I'm sorry does me being in my boxers make you uncomfortable?" he questioned. I shook my head.

"I'm used to guys in boxers" I said.

"Okay great, so what do you want to know?" he questioned.

"Did he really imprint on her?"

"Why the sudden…"

"Jacob just answer the question" I cut him off.

"He did think about her a lot"

"That's not answering the question…"

"Answer mine" he crossed his arms.

"I saw them in town, she was yelling at him some psycho babble about being in love with him and she made a mistake and then she grabbed him and kissed him and for a few minutes he looked like he actually enjoyed it. I mean really I don't need this right now so I'm just asking his best friend for some sort of advice on well if this is the girl he imprinted on should I bother being in a relationship with him… I really need to get this sorted out before Italy or else my brain will be scrambled" I started feeling a bit emotional. My lip started to quiver as I finished.

"Hey look I really can't tell you weather he did or not, he thinks about you even more then anyone should it's ridiculous when we are in wolf form I don't even want to be around him. I even sometimes catch a glimpse of well you and um.."

"I get it" I said to him.

"I do however know that he was very much in love with this girl at one time too but honestly I can't tell you. Look don't get upset with the guy he's only human" Jacob said.

"I know I understand that and it's not like I'm not used to this anyway but I just need to know, if it's true I have to find this out now so I'm not disappointed in the long run, But the hardest thing is that I've fallen for him so hard, and Jacob I've never fallen before" the last thing I said was a whisper.

"I'm sorry I had to barge in on your when I know you must be dead tired from the trip but I just I needed someone to confide in who knew about this whole situation"

"I'm not mad Angel take it easy. Look I'm sure what you saw was nothing honestly if he had imprinted on her he would of never fallen in love with you" Jacob said.

"There's another way to look at it, well look I'll let you rest again. Are you coming to Italy with us?" I questioned.

"Of course I will be I've been protecting the Cullen's for far too long now to let them down"

"Well then if I don't get to say it then I'll say it now, thank you Jacob I really appreciate everything"

"No problem sweetie now look go talk to Seth he's not going anywhere with out you by his side trust me" Jacob said. I smiled at him and got up. He followed my lead.

"Would it be extremely awkward if I hugged you right now?" I questioned looking him up and down.

"Not at all" he wrapped his manly arms around me and squished me into his chest. I pulled away and smiled.

"Now get your ass home before someone worries" he said with a smile.

"Thanks Jake"

~*~*~*~*~

I was lying on my bed reading a big thick book about vampire myths for some reason. One's that before this year I had thought were true when really only some if it was. I flipped through the pages and read a lot of interesting stories from all around the world. A knock at my door startled me.

"It's open" I called. I still hadn't looked up from the book but I smelled him. I knew he was coming up the stairs. I kept my attention focused on the book as I felt the bed move. His lips touched my head softly and I waited for him to say something.

"Hey" was his first response.

"Hey" I said back still not looking at him. I couldn't look at him for some reason I wasn't sure if I was scared that he might tell me that it was true and that he had imprinted on that other girl and that I was just some fluke that he fell in love with but he was truly dedicated to her, or that she was just a simple crush.

"Are you going to look at me or keep your head buried in your book?" he questioned.

"I'm not sure I can look at you yet" I told him. If this was it I didn't want to look at him. I wanted to remember our relationship the way it was before this point.

"Why not?" he questioned.

"Because if I look at you and this is the last time that you are here with me because you figured out that you imprinted on that other girl I will be loose myself" I stated.

"How much of that did you see?" he questioned me.

"A little more than I wanted to" I said to him.

"So did my eyes deceive me or did you enjoy that kiss a bit?" I questioned.

"She was someone that I was very much in love with Angel of course there was something there…" I couldn't turn around.

"Seth please just get out" I closed my eyes.

"Angel don't do this you have no idea what I was going to…"

"Okay look, I know we've been having a real tough time lately with our relationship and it's all on me I know I have my insecurities and moments where I think I can handle things on my own and I know I can I just can't hear that right now… and I would rather you walk out on me right now and spare me the pain" I said to him.

"But Angel you don't understand I…"

"Seth … I don't want you to come to Italy with me" did those words just come out of my mouth? I was surprised at myself and was waiting for my body to respond and to take back those harsh words. But I didn't take them back, and now I'm sitting here by myself wishing that I had, wondering what was in store in Italy for me. What ever it was I was ready if it meant my death then so be it.