Disclaimer: I don't Inuyasha
Genre: Angst
Characters: Kagura
Even I have to admit that I don't make any sense. I tell myself every day; the only thing I want, the only thing I care about, is my freedom.
But if that's true, why haven't I told Naraku that Kohaku has his memories back? Or that Inuyasha turns human on the night of the new moon? Why do I care for Kanna, knowing that she reports my movements back to Naraku?
Honestly, I don't know. Kohaku doesn't stand a chance in hell at defeating Naraku. It would be kinder to take his jewel shard and let him die quickly. But for some reason, I keep protecting him. Inuyasha and his group are no friends to me, but they have a chance, however slim, of killing Naraku. So, I've stopped trying to kill them. It's that simple. It's not out of gratefulness that for some reason, they always stop short of killing me.
Kanna's loyalty irritates me, but I can never stay angry with her for long. She was made to be emotionless and obedient. But I see things in her sometimes that make me think it's not that simple. She'd urged me not to go off on my own when Naraku's barrier was weak. Because of obedience to her, our, master? Or concern for me?
I don't know the answer to that either.
And why, why, do my thoughts keep coming back to Sesshomaru? He's made it clear that he doesn't care about me, so, why should I spare a single second on him?
I don't need to be loved. I don't need friends. I just want my freedom.
But if I ever get it, what will I do with it?