A/N : I didn't mean for it to take forever to update, but I had a bit of writers block and had been struggling to write anyting in last few months. I just want to thank whoever's still following this story. If you can - leave a review, it really helps the motivation :) Hope this chapter isn't too bad. And thanks to my very helpful friend trufreak89 for BETAing it for me :)
Chapter 21
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"Why didn't you tell me?" – I attack Kristin as soon as we're a safe distance from Bar's home.
"Because" – She doesn't want to cooperate, but I'll force it out anyway.
"Because? That's your answer?" – I say indignantly.
"Yes" – She looks to the floor and I see a slight blush covering her cheeks.
"Are you blushing?" – I chuckle slightly.
"No" – She blushes more and starts to walk faster.
"Come on, tell me. Are you back together? Why?" – I ask her, almost running after her. I hate my short legs sometimes.
"I don't know, alright?" – She stops suddenly and makes me bump into her.
"Ugh" – I breathe out and feel a laugh start to bubble in my throat. I can hear Kristin struggling to keep her own laugh in. A few seconds pass and I can't keep it in longer and start laughing. Kristin joins me and soon enough we're both laughing hysterically at nothing in particular.
When our laugh dies, we sit on the nearby bench to rest a bit. Laughing can be tiring for sure. We sit in silence for a while, each lost in her head. After a while Kristin starts talking.
"I really don't know what I feel. I thought I've been over him, that I moved on. He just came out of nowhere and made me feel like a princess" – She says, her voice full of emotion.
"I think I can relate there. Bar makes me feel exactly the same" – I say, feeling quite emotional myself.
"Yeah. This family seems to have some magical power" – She jokes sadly.
"Why are you sad then?" – I ask, although I do have some suspicions.
"I'm here for few months and then I'll go back home again. It's just so difficult to keep this kind of relationship. It didn't work last time. Why would it work now?" – She says and looks at me with unshed tears in her eyes.
I don't really know what to say, so I just scoop her in my arms and give her the infamous Fitch hug.
We sit like this for a bit until she starts untangling herself from me. She looks more determined now, like she has made a decision.
"Alright?" – I ask a bit worried.
"Yes. Let's go home. It's late." – She starts to walk and I have no choice but follow her. She's not going to talk any more tonight.
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Friday begins pretty late for me, as I let myself sleep as much as I can. I don't have to work today, because I start my new job on Sunday, but I do have a stressful day today ending with dinner with Amit's family.
When I finally wake up, it's getting near 11AM and my stomach rumbles furiously, because it missed the usual breakfast. I get up grudgingly and walk over to a small fridge we have in the room. I groan when I open it to find it almost empty, except of milk and couple of apples. I grab all the items out and boil some water, devouring one of the apples while I make myself a coffee. When I finish both apple and the coffee, I feel the same hunger I had when I woke up and decide to go to the Kibbutz shop to get some food. I buy everything my eyes see and get back home to fill my stomach. Only then I can start thinking and that's when I get cold feet. I'm really scared about the dinner and it starts to show. I decide to take a shower to calm myself down. There I finally start to relax and think clear. I've already met most of Amit's brothers and sisters and they had no problem with me. Why would his parents, right? Logically, they would love me. All parents do. But what if they don't? I'm starting to feel stressed again. I get out of the shower, get my iPod and start playing my cheering list. It usually makes me relax, so I hope it'll help me now. I take my phone to check the time and see I have a message. I relax instantly, because I know it's from Bar. Not for the first time I'm amazed how good she feels my moods and my need for her even when she's so far away. I open the message and feel a smile tugging on my lips.
Stop being nervous! Xxx
The message was sent few minutes ago, so I decide to try my luck and make a call. I'm slightly disappointed when she doesn't pick up, but few seconds after I put the phone down, I hear the message sound again.
As much as I would love to, I can't talk right now. But I miss you so much, it's unbearable. Will I hear from you in the evening? Xxx
I smile again and tell her that I'll message her as soon as I get home from the dinner. I lie back on my bed and turn the volume up. I daydream about Bar until I hear a loud bang on the door. I get up, grumbling under my nose, because that daydream was really vivid and sweet. I open the door to find Tal and Ann standing there, looking at me expectantly.
"Yes?" – I ask, a little bit annoyed that I could just keep chilling out by myself.
"Get your shoes and money, we're going to buy your dinner clothes" – Anna says and turns to go to Tal's car. He just grins at me and turns to look at his girlfriend, not so subtly staring at her ass. I roll my eyes and get inside to take my things.
I totally forgot about the clothes I need for the dinner and I'm glad my friends remembered them for me. I don't know what I'd have done without them. We drive the short distance to the town and Tal leaves us to do our thing. All my life I thought shopping with Katie was a hard thing to do. Now I know I was wrong. Katie is the easiest person, compared to Anna. She kept me running between the only three clothes shops for few hours. I was sweating by the closing time and we still didn't have the outfit. We only had ten minutes until the closing when Tal came to get us. He saw us frantically running around and started laughing. When his laugh died, he took the charge and started rummaging through the clothes we had already dismissed. He took a plain white ¾ sleeved shirt with black Chinese ornament on the end of the sleeves and bottom of the shirt. He also took a simple black pencil skirt and black shoes with a small heel and sent me to try it on. When I put it on and looked in the mirror, I stared with an opened mouth. It looked very, well, sophisticated, but still very "me". Tal grinned widely and Anna was looking like a fish out of water. I guess she didn't expect Tal to be so good with clothes. We paid for everything and went to eat something, as we missed lunch in the Kibbutz. Tal kept teasing us about the shopping and eventually Anna exploded on him. She kicked him in the balls and went to sit in the car. Even when he had tears from hurting, he couldn't stop laughing and that made me laugh too. After we finished our food we went back to the car to find Anna still pissed off with Tal. She pouted and glared, but one little grin from him and a hand under her skirt made her lips twitch. Few seconds later they were kissing passionately and I found myself standing awkwardly and trying not to look at them. When their kisses became more heated, I had to clear my throat to make them stop, because really? It was too much. It was like looking at my siblings kissing. Ugh, that's one picture I didn't want to have in my head.
So, when we got back Tal and Anna flew out to his room to do their thing and I was left alone in the room. I still have four hours before I have to get ready for the dinner and I'm very bored. So I decide to draw what I thought to do with the garden at that new kindergarten. It takes me couple of hours to draw something that'll look presentable, but I manage it in the end. I put it on the wall near my bed, so it can remind me of my first "real" job at this place. I lie down again and just stare at my drawing. My thoughts go back to my awkward conversation with Kristin. How can I go back home in few months and leave Bar here? But what choice would I have? I can't stay here forever, I know it. And she can't come with me because of the army. I don't even know she wants this relationship – whatever it is – to last more than few months while I'm here. We need to have this conversation. I decide that we'll have this talk next time she comes home. I really need to know what she wants us to be. Is there even an "us"? I'm starting to freak myself out. I close my eyes and start to take deep breaths. Next thing I know I'm being shaken awake by Tal. I must've fallen asleep while trying to relax.
"Emily, it's 6PM, why aren't you ready yet?! The dinner is in half an hour!" – I practically jump out of bed and start to get ready frantically. I dress at the record speed and start to apply my make-up. Tal is waiting for me outside, smoking a fag. I could use a fag too, but I don't want to stink from cigarettes when I go to meet Amit's family. This boy is precious and I don't want to lose him because of fags. When I finish with my make-up I take the flowers and get out of the room. I get a whistle from Tal and blush a little.
"I'm ready" – I wink at him and walk towards the car.
I try to look cool, but inside I'm very nervous. We make a short trip to the town and Tal takes me to Amit's home. When I see the three-store house, I feel even smaller than I usually am.
"Wow" – Is the only thing I can say and I can see Tal's nodding beside me.
"Go on, then. That's the address. Don't forget your flowers" – He says and pushes me playfully towards the door.
"Alright, alright. I'm going" – I say and get out of the car.
I brush my skirt, take the flowers and go to the door. Before knocking I turn around to look at Tal and he gives me thumbs up and a big grin which relaxes me slightly. I knock and wait, looking at the floor. Suddenly the door opens and I find two small hands around my waist.
"EMILY!" – My little buddy yells loudly and squeezes the hell out of me. I didn't know little ones could be this strong.
When I find it hard to breathe, I untangle myself carefully from the boy and bend down to kiss his cheek.
"Hi, Amit" – I say and smile at him.
"HI EMILY!" – He yells again and runs inside the house.
I slowly get through the open door after him. I take in the house. It's huge, but it's understandable, because this is a big family. I walk carefully towards the slight noise and find myself at the kitchen doorframe.
"Hello" – I say quietly, blushing a little from my nerves.
"IMA, EMILY!" – Amit yells again, tugging on beautiful woman's sleeve.
"Oh, hello, Emily!" – She says, cleaning her hands on her apron. She approaches me and shakes my hand. – "Very nice to meet you. I am Galit, Amit's mother."
"Nice to meet you too" – I smile at the woman who looks exactly like Amit.
I stand there a bit awkwardly while she's talking to Amit in Hebrew. He keeps nodding his head and listens very carefully. After she finishes, she smiles at me and turns around back to the stove. Amit takes my hand and tugs me to another room. When we get to a living room, I see all the family sitting around some board game and chatting animatedly. I count seven people, including one who seems to be the father of this big family. When he sees us entering, he gets up to welcome me.
"Hello! You must be Emily!" – He says cheerfully.
"Yes, that would be me" – I joke and shake his hand.
"I am Shlomi, Amit's father. Let me introduce these little devils to you" – He says with a smile. The other kids start to get up.
"This is Shaul, our oldest. And you already know Sarah" – I nod and shake their hands.
"This cheeky lad is Gideon" - He says, playfully slapping a redhead boy on the neck.
"The pair over there is the twins, Aviel and Ariela. And this little prince is Liad" – He picks up the little boy, who grins at me with toothless smile and waves his little hand. He looks exactly like Amit, but smaller. Amit, who is glued to my waist through the entire introduction.
"Nice to meet you all" – I say, waving at them a little awkwardly, because Amit doesn't want to let me go. His father notices and says something to him in Hebrew. Amit nods and untangles himself from me, and takes my hand instead.
Everybody sits back around the game, including Amit, who tugs my hand down, until I sit back too. Somehow I manage to understand they're playing some kind of money game, even though everything's in Hebrew. I try to pay attention, but it's too hard and I excuse myself to go to a bathroom. Amit reluctantly lets go of my hand and I leave the family to their game. After I use the bathroom, I decide to go to the kitchen. I'm a bit overwhelmed from meeting all the kids and I need a few quiet moments.
"Can I help with something?" – I ask Galit and she jumps.
"Emily! You scared me" – She says, laughing. "Do you want to help me to set the table?"
"Of course" – I say politely and walk after her to the other doorframe in the kitchen.
There I find a big dining room with a huge wooden table. It's a lot bigger than our six-seat table, but still reminds me of home. Suddenly I start missing my family, a feeling I didn't have for some time. I don't have time to dwell on it, because Galit starts to give me the plates and silverware to place on the table. I try to follow her lead and soon enough we have a whole table full of cutlery. Only then I see the small table in the corner with two candles on it. I'm about to ask Galit about it when people start flooding into dining room. I don't get a chance to ask, but I find very soon what this table is for.
"Sarah? Ariela? Will you please light the Shabbat candles?" – Galit asks the girls and they nod, grinning widely.
The girls get to the small table and everybody gathers around them. Now I can see that all the boys and Shlomi have a little white hat on their heads, which looks exactly like the one Amit had when he came to the Gan Guru for the first time. Sarah lights both candles and then both girls close their faces with hands and Sarah starts to say something in Hebrew that sounds like chanting. After few bits Ariela takes over and very soon it's over with a collective "Amen". They take a silver cup with what looks like wine in it and everybody takes a small sip of the same glass, including little ones. I take my sip too, a bit confused by whole ordeal. When they're done with a cup, men go sit on the table and women go to the kitchen to serve the food. I don't really agree with the way they do it, but it's their tradition and I'm following the girls to the kitchen. Galit takes a big dish from the stove and opens it. Whatever it is, it smells heavenly. She moves some of the food into big bowl and lets Sarah take it to the dining room. She then takes some salads from the fridge and we all take some to the dining room.
"What is it in the big bowl?" – I ask once we're sitting on the table.
"It's a Shabbat dish, called Hamin. It starts cooking around lunch time on Friday and stays on the stove until the end of the Shabbat. This way we can keep the Shabbat free of work, because cooking is working" – Sarah explains to me.
"Oh…and what do you eat on Saturday?" – I ask, more confused now.
"The same Hamin. It gets even better on the second day." – Shaul answers with a smile.
"Interesting…" – I mutter more to myself. I'm not sure I want to try it now. It still smells amazing, so I give Sarah my plate for her to put some of the dish on.
"EMILY! YUMMY!" – Amit yells one more time and gets "shhh"'s and laughs from everyone on the table.
"Thank you" – I say, taking my plate from Sarah and eyeing it suspiciously. It looks weird, but I don't really have a choice and take a curious bite. It is good. Very good, actually. It looks like they put inside everything they had in the fridge and put in the dish with spices, but it works very fine together.
"So, what do you think?" – Galit asks me.
"Yummy, as Amit said" – I smile at her and continue eating.
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"So, Emily, where are you from?" – Shlomi asks me when everybody had enough food and moved back to the living room.
"Bristol, England" – I answer, looking around. The kids are sitting on the floor with another game that looks more for kids Amit's age. Others are sitting on the two couches and chatting easily.
"Oh yes, I've been there once. Pretty city" – Shlomi says and winks at me. I know he's joking, because mostly Bristol isn't that pretty. It has nice places, but generally…it's just a city. I still miss it anyway. I wonder if I could make a home anywhere else…
"Yes, it is…" – I say with sadness in my voice.
"How long are you here for?" – He asks again after few seconds of silence.
"Three months, maybe I could make it 6 months. I like it here, even the weird weather" – I joke and we chuckle together.
"EMILY! COME!" – Amit yells and I wonder what's going on today. He's never been loud around me before. But today he yells all the time and I cast a questioning gaze towards his father. He shrugs and shushes the boy again.
I get up when Amit comes to tug me on my hand and go after him to the second floor. Sarah comes with us, just in case we'll need translation, I guess. Amit takes me to his room and starts to show off. He shows me all his cars and the bunk bed he has with his little brother. He gets to the upper bunk and starts jumping, which makes me laugh, because that's exactly what I did when I was his age. He reminds me so much of me, that I have to hold back the tears that threatening to spill out.
After a while he says something to Sarah in Hebrew and she starts to translate.
"He asks if you'd come to his first day of school" – She says and I'm stunned by this question.
"He invites me?" – I ask, too shocked to believe it.
"Yes. It's in two weeks and he wants you to be there" – She says and I look at Amit for a sign that he's joking. I can't find any, only earnest eyes that watch every emotion on my face.
"I have to ask my bosses at Kibbutz, but I am pretty sure they'll let me got for couple of hours" – I say then, feeling quite happy.
Sarah translates to Amit and he jumps off his bunk to throw himself at me. I hug him back and Sarah laughs at us. Amit turns to her and shows his tongue, which makes me laugh too.
All too soon I have to leave and I'm really reluctant to go. It was a good evening, we played more games until Amit and Liad had to go to sleep. And then I've talked a bit with the parents. They've explained me a bit more about the Shabbat. Apparently, the candles and the praying are starting the holy day. The women of the house light the candles because in the old days they were the house keepers. It's the tradition religious people still keep. This dinner was very different from what I'm used to and I'm really glad I can learn about other culture's traditions.
After kissing Amit good night (he wouldn't go to sleep without it), I called Tal so he could come and get me. It took him half an hour, but finally he's here and I have to leave. I hug everyone goodbye and go to the car. Tal looks at me questionably.
"So?" – He asks and I know he can't wait for me to tell everything.
"So what?" – I'm not going to satisfy his curiosity just yet.
"How was it? Did they hate you?" – He jokes and I laugh.
"No, they didn't. I have a feeling they liked me pretty much. And the boy invited me to his first day at school!" – I almost squeak the last part and Tal chuckles.
"Congratulations! Aunty Emily in action" – He says and I start to giggle.
"I see myself more as a big sister, thank you very much. I'm too young to be Aunty Emily" – I say through giggles.
"Yes, you are" – He chuckles with me.
We fall into silence after our laughs subside. It's a comfortable one, because each of us is lost in their head. Few minutes later we arrive in the Kibbutz and Tal takes me to my room.
"Be ready tomorrow at 10AM, you remember we're going to surprise Bar, right?" – He says as I get out of the car.
"Of course I remember! Can't wait to see her!" – I say, visibly perking up.
"Anna's coming with us, because there's no way I'm going to be a third wheel" – He winks at me and drives away before I could say something.
I decide to stay out for a bit and sit in the hammock, because I have a call to make. I check the clock to see it's not too late and dial a number. I wait for a bit until she answers, but when she does – the smile on my face is enormous.
"Hello, gorgeous" – Her voice is raspy like she's been screaming the whole day.
"Hi, baby" – I say, smiling into the phone.
"How was it then?" – She says and I can hear the curious impatience in her voice.
"The dinner at your folks without you?" – I tease her, even though I do know she's not talking about that.
"Silly. No, the dinner at Amit's" – She says, giggling a little.
"This one was fine, I think they liked me. He actually has a huge family, parents and six siblings! They all seem to get along pretty well too, which is weird for me" – It still amazes me how united this family seems to be.
"Yes, some families are actually happy" – She is right there. Some aren't, I add in my head.
"Anyway, I liked them too and Amit invited me to his first day at school in two weeks" – I say proudly.
"Oh, really? This kid must really like you" – She says in amused tone.
"Shut up, I like him too. Besides, I want to be there for him. He's a good kid" – I say in more serious voice.
"Alright, alright. I really like you too" – She says cheekily and I forgive her everything.
"Did you mean what you said in that message?" – I suddenly remember the message she sent me couple of days ago and I have to ask her now.
"Yes, I did. I am falling for you" – She says, her own voice much more serious now.
"I miss you" – This is the only thing I can say, because my throat is closing and tears fill my eyes.
"I…I miss you too" – I don't miss the little pause in her words, like she wanted to say something completely different. I'm glad she didn't, because I don't think things like that should be said on the phone for the first time.
"So, how was your day? Why were you so busy?" – I change the theme, because the tears are dangerously close to spill and I can't let her hear me crying.
"It was alright. We're getting ready for the new recruitment in in a week and there's so much to do before new boys get here" – She starts to tell me more details about what they have to do and I listen carefully, trying to understand everything. I can't say I do, but I'm trying.
"You are so cute" – I cut into her words after a while and she starts to chuckle.
"What made you say it now?" – She asks, still laughing.
"I don't know…it's cute that you're trying to make me understand things I've never seen before" – I say and I know it's ridiculous, but I don't care.
"I want you to be a part of my life and right now my life is army" – She says and this makes my heart swell.
"Thank you, honey" – I'm really glad I've met this girl.
"You're welcome, motek" – I can hear her smile on the other end.
"What's that word?" – I ask, not understanding what she just said.
"Motek is something like…like…honey in Hebrew. Not really, but it's the closest" – She explains.
"Oh, I see. I like it" – I say and I really do.
"Can I call you that then?" – She wonders and I nod, before I remember that she can't see me.
"Of course, baby" – I say and I mean it.
"You know what I like the most?" – She asks me and I'm very curious now.
"No. What?" - My mind goes to every side it can.
"I like to lie on my back and watch the stars. Will you lie with me now?" – She asks and I get out of the hammock and lie on the ground.
"I just did. What do you see, honey?" – I wonder and wait for the answer.
"I see you. I see your pretty face and your beautiful eyes and your gorgeous body and your amazing smile" – She says and that's when I start to cry silently. Not silently enough, though.
"Don't cry, motek…please don't cry" – She tries to persuade me, but it isn't working.
"I'm not sad…I'm…I just…I'm so happy that I found you" – I say through my tears and smile. I've always been a bit emotional and I guess her words got to my sensitive side. "You're amazing…do you know that?"
"No, I am not. Stop crying, honey. Come on, smile for me. Smile. Smile. Smile" – She keeps going on until I giggle a little and my tears subside.
"You. Are. Amazing" – I say again.
"Yeah, yeah. Now, have you calmed down?" – She sounds half worried, half amused.
"Yes, mother" – I tease and finally grin.
"We should go to sleep…it's quite late" – She says a bit sadly.
"I know, but I don't want to sleep without you" – My voice gets sadder too.
"I will be with you. In your dreams" – She says cheekily.
"Oh yes" – I say meaningful and she laughs.
"You are a little pervert, aren't you?" – She's too amused for my liking, but I let it pass for now.
"Yes, I am. So are you. We're a pair of cheeky perverts" – I laugh with her.
"Yes, we are. Now go to bed, baby" – She's got all badass and it's slightly disturbing, in a good way. I know what I'll be dreaming of tonight.
"Alright, boss. Sleep tight and I'll talk to you tomorrow, hon" – I say and kiss the phone loudly.
"Good night, my sweet girl" – She kisses me back and hangs up.
"Good night, baby" – I say, but she's already gone.
I stay a bit longer on the ground, just looking at the stars and thinking about Bar. She is amazing, this girl. She makes me feel happier and I'm not going to let her go easily.
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Next morning I wake up with a smile on my face. I'm going to surprise my girl and that makes me excited. I hope she likes surprises. I get up and make a move towards a shower when I hear it's already running. I guess no hot shower this morning if Anna uses it. Kristin didn't sleep home and I have a big suspicion she spent the night with Omer.
I decide to choose what to wear when I wait for the shower. I open my drawer and find the red tank top and a small pair of shorts. It's still very hot outside, so I think this outfit is quite appropriate. Besides, I want her to drool when she sees me.
"This is what you're wearing?" – I hear Anna's voice from behind me and turn around to come face to face with her. Apparently, she's been looking over my shoulder.
"I know you're gay, Emily, but I am not. Get your face away from my boobs" –Her voice is amused and I want to punch her. I am shorter than her and it's only natural that now I'm looking at her chest. I growl at her and go to the shower.
When I'm done, I find the room empty and the clothes on my bed are different. I guess Anna decided I'm going in a dress today. It's a sleeveless blue dress that hugs me nicely around the waist. It's quite short too, so my plan to see Bar drooling is probably going to actually happen not only in my dreams. I smile and get dressed.
When I get outside I see Anna sitting on Tal's lap in my shorts and tank top. So that's why I didn't get a chance to wear them.
"These are mine" – I state the fact, which does nothing to her.
"Yeah, and…?" – She asks innocently. Tal's hands are under the top and I really don't want to know where else have they been already.
"Nothing. When are we going?" – I roll my eyes at her, but decide to let it go. I really want to get going right in this moment.
"Soon. Don't you want to eat something before?" – He says and by the glint in his eyes I can see he doesn't mean food.
"Yeah, I do. But I have to get to my food first" – I stick my tongue at him and he just chuckles. "Can't we get breakfast on our way?"
"Yeah, we can…I know the perfect place, actually" – He's already pushing Anna unceremoniously off his lap and goes to the car. I check that I've got my phone and money and go after him.
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An hour later we're pulling out of the traffic to a side road and I'm grateful when I see a small restaurant few minutes later. I need to use a bathroom and my legs are pretty numb from sitting in the back. Anna and Tal decided to use all the free space with their seats and even though I've got shorter legs, I still felt like I've been pushed right inside my seat. I couldn't even say anything, because the music was so loud and Anna's bad singing even louder.
I get out of the car while Tal and Anna decide to go for a short make-out session. This place smells good, like pancakes. My stomach grumbles when I get inside, looking for a bathroom. I hope my lovely couple will be done by when I get out. I'm glad to find out they really did and are sitting on the table near the window, waiting for me. I sit down and take the menu. Everything's in Hebrew, so I let Tal decide for me.
"This place's called Pancake House and they make absolutely delicious natural syrups" – He says and my stomach grumbles louder at that.
"Do they have blueberry syrup?" – I ask hopefully. This has been my favourite syrup since childhood.
"Of course they do. You want pancakes with blueberry syrup then? What do you want to drink?" – The waiter is waiting for our orders, looking pretty impatient.
"Yes, and I'll have orange juice" – I say and Tal places the order.
Anna's strangely quiet, so I decide to tease her a little.
"Are these shorts too tight on you?" – I wink at her, but she doesn't budge. She still looks seriously lost in her head, her fingers playing absently with hair on Tal's arm.
"Anna?" – I ask again and she looks at me with confused eyes.
"Huh…?" – Now Tal's looking strangely at her and I feel lost. I have a high suspicion these two are hiding something from me.
"What's going on, guys?" – I ask and get a sharp look from Tal which shuts me up instantly. I don't have time to say anything else as our food is brought and we tuck in.'
"Oh my god, this is so good!" – My mouth is full of pancake, but I can't seem to stop shoving it in. It's definitely one of the best things I've ever eaten.
"Told you" – Tal's mouth is equally full, but it doesn't stop him from grinning at me.
"You're repulsive" – I giggle and shove more pancakes in my mouth. He shows me his tongue and continues eating. I notice that Anna barely touched her food. This doesn't look good. I decide to talk to her, but it'll have to wait until tomorrow.
Very soon we're done with our breakfast and I'm very full. When I get into the car, I just crawl to the back seat and decide to have a nap. We have at least two more hours of driving, so it seems to be a perfect way to pass them.
I wake up in what seems to me like ten minutes because the car had stopped. I look through the window and see desert. I look to another side and see Tal and Anna standing at the entry to a base with a soldier. They're talking for a bit and then the soldier goes back inside the base. Tal and Anna move towards the car and I get out to stretch my limbs. Sleeping in the car never was my favourite thing to do.
"Is this her base?" – I ask Tal when they're getting closer.
"Yeah" – He nods. – "The guy went to get her. But we didn't tell him about you, so get back in the car and surprise your girl"
I do what I'm told and wait patiently for Bar to get here. It takes some time, but in about ten minutes I hear unmistakable voice of the girl I've grown to like so much. She sounds a bit pissed, to be honest. I can't understand a word, because she's speaking Hebrew, but I can understand from her tone that she's scolding Tal for coming without asking. He sounds pretty cool, laughing and being his regular self.
When I hear a door opening, I turn my head towards it and come face to face with my lover.
"Surprise!" – I yell in her face and kiss her nose before she registers it's me.
"Wha…? What are you doing here?" – She seems confused, but her eyes gleam. She backs away a bit and I get out to give a hug to my girl. She clings to me like there's no tomorrow and I cling right back.
"I've missed you, so I came" – I state a simple fact and suddenly I can feel hot tears on my shoulder. I pull out from the hug a little and see her smiling and crying at the same time. – "Why are you crying, baby?"
"I'm so happy to see you, to hold you, to be able to kiss you…" – She trails off and finally kisses me properly. Her lips are salty with tears, but she's smiling into the kiss and clings even closer to me. I forget completely where I am, who I am with and what I'm doing here. I'm lost in the soft taste of Bar's lips, lost in her hands that hold me strongly. Lost in the world that's all Bar. Eternity passes and we finally break for so much needed breath. Her green eyes look lovingly into my own and I feel like it's my turn to cry. She has so much emotion in these eyes that it makes me cling even harder to her slender form.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you" – She's kissing my eyes, my nose, my cheeks. She doesn't seem to be able to take her lips off me and I'm not going to complain. It feels great to be appreciated and loved.
"What are you thanking me for?" – I ask with a smile after she stops pestering my face with kisses.
"I don't know" – She blushes and my smile grows. "Just thank you for being here"
"Always, baby" – I kiss her lips lightly.
"Aww you two are sickly cute" – I hear Anna's teasing voice and turn around in my lovers arms to look at her. She hugs me from behind and puts her head on my shoulder.
"Look who's talking" – Bar jokes and chuckles slightly. This laugh goes through my body and I feel a warm feeling spreading in my veins. This girl makes me feel things I thought I'd never feel again.
"What do we do now then?" – I ask everybody, because sitting in the car in the middle of the desert doesn't seem too appealing to me, even if it is with my girl.
"I have to ask my boss, but I think I can get away from the base for few hours. We could go to the city to eat something and there decide what we want to do?" – Bar suggests and we all agree. She runs off to talk to her boss, but not after giving me a lingering kiss behind my ear, which makes my knee feel weak.
"I think we'll have to get you two a room for few hours" – Tal teases and I blush furiously.
"I don't think we're going to have time" – I say, avoiding his amused stare. – "Also, I think you two are going to need it more"
I look directly in his eyes and he just winks at me, but I see Anna from the corner of my eye and she doesn't look happy. I don't have much time to ponder over it, because in few moments soft hands circle my waist and I forget everything but her.
"I'm free until nine which gives us seven hours to spend together. Let's not waste them, yeah?" – She says and tugs me towards the car.
"We'll be a few minutes, alright?" – Anna says and looks expectantly at Tal.
I nod and go to the car with Bar on my heels. I get into the back seat, but before I get comfortable I find a Bar on my lap, straddling me.
"Oh…" – Is the only thing I manage to say before her lips are on mine and her hands are under the hem of my dress. My brain shuts up and I respond eagerly to the kiss. Her hands leave hot trails on my thighs, moving up with each passing second. Suddenly I'm so hot, I have a great need to get my clothes off. I don't get to do that, because we're mindlessly interrupted by the other couple that gets inside the car.
"Told you they need a room" – Tal says to Anna, but I flip him off and show him a finger, not leaving Bar's magnificent lips for a second.
"Drive" – Bar mumbles when we pull out for air and attacks my lips one more time. I don't mind, even though there's a nagging voice in the corner of my brain telling me we're being very rude. I couldn't care less in that moment, because these lips have my whole attention and they're just so delicious!
"Alright" – I vaguely hear Tal say and tune him out completely. My hands slide into back pockets of Bar's army pants and squeeze a little. That gets a desirable reaction from Bar. She moans and bites my bottom lip.
"We should stop" – She pulls from me a little and I pout. I miss the closeness.
"Maybe we should…" – I say and kiss her neck.
"Oh fuck…no, stop" – She grunts and gets further away, so I could not get to her neck. I pout even harder and she laughs at the look on my face. – "If we don't stop, I'll fuck you right here in this car in front of the crowd"
"Which I would really appreciate" – I hear Tal say and look at the rear mirror to see a shit-eating grin on his face. My face turns crimson and I hide it in Bar's chest. Of course, I get my nose exactly in her tits which doesn't help situation.
I push Bar slightly from my lap and she settles near me, cuddling into my side. I kiss her forehead and smile.
"You are a total perv, Tal" – I tease him and his grin grows wider.
"So, where are we going?" – I am growing curious when we're getting closer to a town. It looks like an oasis in the desert, which it kind of is. With the first houses the desert turns into a green area with trees, flowers and grass everywhere. This transition is quite beautiful to watch.
"Well, there is a small coffee shop I'd like to show you and then you and I are going to a park. Alone" – She says and sticks her tongue out at Tal. He just winks at her through the rear mirror and keeps driving.
"Nice plan" – I approve and lace our fingers together.
The coffee shop looks really small, but it's full of visitors. First thing I notice that most of visitors are women. Lesbian women, to be exact. I look expectantly at Bar and she explain that it's a gay coffee shop owned by a lesbian couple. Hence the audience.
"Very nice" – I grin and look around. I see Bar saying hellos to some women and going to the only vacant table. We all sit down and take menus from a waitress, whom Bar's familiar with also, of course. I feel a little stab of jealousy in my abdomen, but push it away. I don't need it right now and I know there's nothing to be jealous about.
After the lunch Bar and I decide to go our separate way, finally. I want to be alone with her and I want her to be mine. I've had enough of green-eyed monster for today, I want my green-eyed angel to make it all better. We agree to meet Tal and Anna at the same coffee shop in four hours and leave. Bar takes me to a large park that's pretty empty at this time of a day. It is quite hot right now, but I couldn't care less. We walk in a comfortable silence hand in hand towards wherever my girl decided to take me. We end up on the enclosed bench where nobody can see us. I didn't even know there was something inside those trees. We can see perfectly well from the bench, but can't be seen. This information is all I need to kiss my girl fiercely and forget about being scared to get caught up. She kisses back as fiercely and tugs on my dress to get it off. I guess this is not a time for a slow lovemaking and I let myself go completely. I feel her tongue on my collarbone, her hands on my thighs opening my legs and I lose myself in her touch. It doesn't take long for me to get to my peak and very soon I'm ready to scream her name. She can feel it and muffles my cry with a kiss. When I calm down, I pull her towards me for a cuddle.
"That was…wow" – I say still short of breath.
"Yeah…I've missed that" – She kisses my neck and cuddles me closer to her.
"You are so hot" – I already feel my desire for her rise back up.
"You are not so bad yourself" – She giggles and kisses me slowly.
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Few hours pass like a blur and very soon we need to head back to the coffee shop. We couldn't get our hands off each other for last few hours and it shows. I brush off my clothes and try to make myself more presentable, but it's no use. Everybody's going to know what we've been up to this afternoon. Do I care? Not even a little.
We go back to the coffee shop and sure enough Tal and Anna start laughing as soon as they see us. I scoff at them, but I'm not really angry. We have dinner and drive Bar back to her base. I can't seem to be able to let go of her and cling like it's a last time I see her. She promises she'll be home next weekend and I finally let go. She kisses me one last time and goes off. That's when all my emotions get out and I start crying. Tal places his hand around me and lets me cry into his shoulder.
"It'll be fine" – He tries to console me, but there's no use. I just need to cry it out.
Few moments later I calm down and pull myself together.
"I'm fine" – I say and go to the car. –"Let's go, tomorrow is a work day"
Tal shrugs and goes after me, Anna follows him closely.
When we're half an hour into our journey back home, I receive a message from Bar.
Thank you for everything. I love you, motek Xxx
I smile and write a reply.
I know Xxx