Disclaimer, I only get to play… I do not get to keep.

A/N….this is going to be a short chapter, once again I am SOOO sorry for the wait, the only thing I can say but life happens but its still no excuse, and the fact that you are still reading this means you are all AWSOME!

Last time on, Can You Look At Me Now?…

"Jasper, there is to much damage, don't move her…there is no way, unless she is changed.."

Jake howled…the song changed ( this song is AFI on the play list ) , Bella's eyes opened for just a second and with a weak breath she whispered to me…"surprise" then she was out.

Now….

JPOV

I held her broken body close to me, I was fighting the instinct to growl at Carlisle for coming to close…I knew he was there to help but my inner demon didn't. All my demon knew was my mate was hurt, and I had to save her.

My mate.

Even my brain was over loaded, I didn't know where or what or even who…all this was in a split second before I caught on to what I needed to do…save my Bella.

As I lowered my lips to her neck there was screaming crashing around me, I didn't care I didn't even look up, I whispered to my angel "please be ok" I gently sank my teeth into her soft flesh. I could feel the faintest heartbeat I think ever in my 160 years, but it was there, that's all that mattered.

I could feel more and more venom pushing into her neck, I wont lie by saying no words could describe the taste of her blood, the strange thing is I never once thought of draining her, it was never even a thought in the back of my head, I knew I needed to do better, she needed more of my venom to heal, I broke away from her neck and moved to the soft spot about her heart and bit down once more.

Day 1... Screaming, pain, shed and unshed tear.

Day 2... Fighting, more pain, losing mind, so I sing to her.

Delusional

I believe I can cure it all for you, dear

Coax or trick or drive or drag the demons from you

Make it right for you sleeping beauty

Truly thought I can magically heal you

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening

Failing miserably to rescue

Sleeping Beauty

Drunk on ego

Truly thought I could make it right

If I kissed you one more time to

Help you face the nightmare

But you're far too poisoned for me

Such a fool to think that I

can wake you from your slumber

That I could actually heal you..

Sleeping Beauty

Poisoned and hopeless

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening

Failing miserably to find a way to comfort you

Far beyond a visible sign of your awakening

And hiding from some poisoned memory

Poisoned and hopeless

Sleeping Beauty

Day 3... Breaking point, even more pain, possible regret.

Day 3 ½… It all came to an end, the pain, hers and mine, as well as her human life.

I have not spoke a word to anyone since the accident, fuck who am I fooling there was no fucking accident, she planned this, I was sitting on the floor holding her hand to my face, my knees pulled to my chest my guitar on the other side of the room where it landed when I threw it. My anger was about to flare up again her heart came to a fast stop.

I knew it was over, her feelings were….relived of course and there was hurt, she's not hurt I wonder if something went wrong, she's not opening her eyes. Before I started to really panic and start screaming for Carlisle her lips moved, letting out the softest whisper, almost mimicking her last words to me before she died.

BPOV

Day 1... Pain, burning, uncontrollable screaming

Day 2... Indescribable pain, flesh melting, will it ever end .

Day 3... Excruciating pain, charcoal for body, wishing for death.

Day 3 ½… my life as a human, over, new life with the ones I love, beginning.

Its not that I couldn't open my eyes, I just didn't want to. I felt my hand on his face, I knew he had been there the whole time… boy did I have time to think, and its only been a few seconds…I think I could've maybe even should've done all that differently.

Something told me Jasper was freaking out, before he would have the chance to panic even more, I whispered to him, scared of my own voice, "I'm ok"

The look on his face told me, yeah I was ok but this….this was not ok.

JPOV

Fight or flight, fight or flight, that was my internal struggle, I am not saying I was going to leave for good, I just don't want to fight with Bella. I got up heading out the door with out anther word, she will live till I get back… she's a fucking vampire now.

Alice and Rosalie were already heading toward my room with some clothes for Bella, I mumbled to them, "goin to hunt be back later"… with that I just shoved my hands in my pockets my head down, I took off on a dead run out of the house.

I had to clear my head, I was already missing her, the pull to come back home to hold my love in my arms was getting to be too much, I knew though, I knew for sure if I went back now I would have a few choice words for her …. Reckless, unthinkable, bull shit, thoughtless, fucking ridiculous, outright stupid actions!

I sat on a stump running my fingers threw my own hair, I had a bite to eat, took out some trees, now it was time to get my head back in the game, I had a girl to get back home to, a girl that is most likely scared out of her mind as to what is going on with her.

BPOV

I just sat there watching him walk out, who can blame him… I did this now I must deal with it… ok I know I am knew to this and my overly experienced vampire boyfriend just left, but I think I am taking this rather well…

Before I had a chance to really dwell on things Alice and Rosalie walked into the room.

After a hundred outfit changes, and about a million eye rolls I was dressed in something I actually liked. I started to pace the room, I had this feeling I could not put my finger on….it was like I was auto-pilot.

I was not even really listening when Carlisle and Alice were talking over if I had a power or not. All I could do was watch out the back window like my life depended on it.

Then I saw him… just coming over the river, I am not sure but I think I broke the glass to the door as I shoved it out of my way.

I was to him faster then I thought I would be and collided with him, bringing both of us down into the water, did I care… hell no, my mate was in my arms, and I in his.

A/n... once again, sorry its so short but I am happy with it... and the song Jasper sings is Sleeping Beauty by A perfect circle... ( I dont own that either )