Author's Notes: Sorry for the LONG delay, but I'm still in college and still doing YouTube everyday. But I don't plan on stopping till I'm finished!
Chapter Twenty-one – Secrets
Jewels made a mad dash over the two women towards a grassy area of the patio. As they stood up they soon heard a very audible cat-like moan-meow mix emanate from the area Jewels ran towards, causing both women to laugh.
"I swear she's holding it in for moments like this." Shego mused.
"Seems like it." Kim agreed.
"Can't blame her, I hate cleaning out the litter b…" Shego continued before Jewels made a beeline over their booted feet back towards the door to the master bedroom.
They look towards the bolting cat, a black blur even by their standards and especially Shego's catlike reflexive standards until it became clear when a couple rain drops began falling. Without saying a word, they both ran towards the balcony to the master suite after Jewels to escape the impending monsoon.
They made it just in time for the storm to pick up in its intensity, all without losing their breath. A shame. Shego thought as she closed and locked the door behind them. She really wanted to make her Kimmie loose her breath. After looking over her still red-head girlfriend once more, from her black-base red hair, to her black and albeit semi tolerable pink dress and finally to the fact that she was wearing a pair of Shego's thigh high boots Shego didn't really want to fuck Kim's daylights out, she REALLY wanted too.
"A little more excitement than I was expecting tonight." Kim said.
Shego turned to her girlfriend with a disappointed frown and raised eyebrow. "Oh? You don't think I could provide excitement without leaving the condo?" she asked questioningly.
Kim raised an eye brow of her own. "What'd you have in mind?" Kim asked.
Taking one of Kim's arms with her own, intertwining them, Shego began to lead Kim out of the master bedroom as she turned out the lights. "Now why would I want to spoil the fun telling you?" Shego schemed, she knew Kim well enough by now to know Kim wasn't a real fan of surprises and preferred planned things, dates no exception, with little to no surprises. But tonight, was different, Shego felt especially, as if more secrets could be shared. Though she was no fool when it came to one secret she never wanted Kim to know about, as strong as Kim was Shego felt it might be too much for Kim to handle.
As they proceeded walking towards the living room, Kim could already hear music emanating from the living room's direction. As they got closer, the lyrics could be heard near the end of the song:
Forever trusting who we are, No nothing else matters…
By now Shego and Kim had reached the living room and Shego twirled Kim around, almost ballet style and placed her hands-on Kim's shoulders while Kim, almost out of instinct, placed her hands against Shego's waste.
Both women's libetos went racing when their girlfriend's warm soft leather gloved hands touched their bare skin, for Shego her waste and Kim her shoulders.
Right before the song was about to end however, the music was interrupted by an image on the TV screen with "GO" on it in team go's signature logo.
Shego was the first to see it as she was looking towards the TV's direction. "Ah hell." She said in a dry irritated voice.
"Wha…" Kim started to say, before Shego without warning pushed her onto the large leather couch. "The hell?"
Shego put her index finger against her lips as a sign to Kim to keep quiet. As Shego turned to the TV, a familiar large man with blue hair appeared in his 'macho superhero pose'.
"Greetings Sister." Hego asked.
"What the hell do you want now Hego?" Shego dryly asked, folding her arms and glaring at the TV's built in camera. "You know I hate it when you call unannounced…"
"True, but you also hate it when we try to give you fair warning…" Hego pointed out.
"Gee, I wonder if it has anything to do with I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE…" Shego said in her old sassy manner.
"Now sis is that anyway to treat family?" Hego asked.
Shego just rolled her eyes at the question, after doing so however she looked at the screen and saw what Hego was wearing. "What the hell are you wearing?" Shego asked, not hiding the obvious disgust in her voice.
Hego wasn't wearing his typical black and blue jumpsuit that was similar to Shego's green and black. Instead it was a solid blue jumpsuit, if Shego had to guess, made of spandex which made her want to cringe.
"This my fair lady." Hego started, before Shego wanted to vomit at not only the outfit but also Hego's 'hero voice' "Is Team Go's new uniform!"
"It was my idea." Came Mego, who was wearing a purple version of the suit. Who after taking his hand off his chest when he said 'my' and opening his eyes to see what Shego was wearing raised an eyebrow.
"Anyway." Hego interrupted. "We called to let you know if you'd like to get your own…"
"I'm not joining Team Go, EVER!" Shego interrupted, clearly disinterested in where Hego was going.
"Now sis, since you've lead a crime free life for…" Hego continued.
"NOOOOOOOOOOOO." Shego replied.
"Question is though, why are you dressed so nice? Its horrendous outside." Hego asked after he finally saw what Shego herself was wearing.
"Gee, you ever stop to think maybe we're having a night in and didn't want to be interrupted?" Shego asked, clearly annoyed as she leaned to the side, exposing one of her legs and thigh high round-toed boot.
Letting out a sigh. "Shego, what did mother say to you about that kind of boots?" Hego asked, clearly indicating his dislike of Shego's choice.
Kim meanwhile, keeping very quiet and still only moving her eyes from the screen to Shego as they went back and forth could clearly see how pissed Shego got from the mention of her mother. Note to self, let's not talk about Shego's mother… for now…
Though thinking of the boots, she thought about a conversation she and Kim had about her boot collection and asked why none of them were stilettoes. Though explaining it to Kim was easier than it was explaining it to someone else. It was simply because due to Shego's former career line and her constantly fighting people like Kim, though no one else could compare to her Princess, that fighting in the right footwear was a must and anything with a heel that could easily cause you to lose balance.
Though Kim found it funny that Shego admitted that the closest she got to stilettoes was the days leading up to the little diablo night where the heels were close to stiletto but not fully. And Kim couldn't help but chuckle a little as Shego's boots were like Trinity's from the Matrix in terms of being around at the toes and the size of the heel, though as Kim felt her feet in the boots she had on, she did admit that they were comfortable and felt she could take on Shego in a fight… does she plan that for tonight? Kim asked herself.
"Oh please, I'm not some whore that wears stilettoes against bear skin. As you can see…" Shego explained, raising one of her feet. "They're not 'hooker boots' and their heels are the size of my own heel with the front being rounded!" Shego's voice getting clearly annoyed at the line of questioning. "Of course if you'd like a closer inspection I'm sure I can put my foot so far up your ass I'll kick your teeth out and you can look down at them that way!" Shego offered.
As if on que to save the day from their favorite sibling, the Wego twins popped up. "So whose..." One twin started.
"With you?" The other finished.
Shego just stared at the screen, just looking clearly annoyed.
"Yes Shego, who's the special lad that clearly has wooed you?" Hego asked.
"Yeah, who's the guy that was brave enough to ask you out sis?" Me go asked.
"Ukk." Shego replied in disgust. "As if I'd tell you her name." Shego stated, clearly satisfied with the results that followed.
"…her?!" Hego asked in shock, as if he hadn't remembered Shego was gay. "her…" he repeated.
"Yeah genius, her being a female… NOT A GUY!" Shego continued.
Kim meanwhile was watching how much joy Shego seemed to be getting from 'breaking' Hego, or something…
"Her?!" Hego continued, before being pushed aside by Mego.
"Who's the lucky girl then?" Mego asked. "Surely you'd be willing to tell me at least?" He asked, placing his hand on his chest again.
"No." Shego replied.
"Us?" The Wego twins asked eagerly.
"Not you two, yet." Shego replied. "Now why was it you called?"
Letting out a long sigh as Hego kept repeating 'her' in the background, Mego decided to finally get to the point. "Well since we have a new uniform and since I was right when I told Hego that you still wouldn't want to join us again. We've sent you the rights to the old uniform look, not that it matters but lawyers and all that though we should at least give the design to someone and well I did say you were the better choice."
"Thanks…" Shego replied, with slight sass but also some sincerity as she did still like the design of her cat suit, even if she hadn't worn it in over three years.
"HER?!" Hego continued.
"We'll let you go now and try to fix Hego… did you really have to do that again?" Mego asked.
"You can see why I did it." Shego replied with a fiendish smirk on her face before the Wegos began waving goodbye and the screen went back to the music between songs. With Shego letting out a long-winded sigh. "Damn I hate it when they call." She exclaimed to Kim as she began rubbing her temples as if getting a severe headache.
"Come on Shego, they're your family." Kim pointed out as she got back on her feet.
'Except our family isn't as happy go-lucky as yours Kimmie." Shego said as they got back to their original dance position as the next song began. The screen by now had green, black, pink and purple as the swirling colors during the new song. Same old Love.
Take away your things and go, you can't take back what you said, I know.
"Hmm, nice song to start with…" Both women said at the same time, going bugged eyed as they went from looking at the TV screen to each other. Though Shego's hair on the left side of her face still covering her left eye. "Jinx!" Both women say at the same time again, causing both women to blush.
This is… weird, but in a good way. Kim thought, she had used Jinx with Ron for years and now she felt like it would be a good thing to have pass on to her new best friend. Though that thought making her cringe a little on the inside due to Ron being her friend since Pre-k. though as she thought about it even more, the more she realized that in life your significate other was supposed to be your closest friend.
…weeeeirrrrd. Shego thought.
I've heard it all before, at least a million times. I'm not one to forget, you know.
By now Shego and Kim were stepping in sync with the finger snapping to the beat of the music, just looking deeply into the other's eyes.
I don't believe, I don't believe it. You left in peace, left me in pieces, too hard to breath, I'm on my knees right now, 'ow.
I wish she was on her knees right now. Both women thought, trying not to give away their fiendish desires away to the other.
I'm so sick of that same old love, that shit, it tears me up.
By now they were stepping in sync with the beat of the drums.
"We don't have that same old love, do we?" Kim finally asked, with the conversation stirring again they seemed to have drowned out the song.
Resting her head-on Kim's shoulder, Shego replied. "Way to kill the moment Princess."
"Shego…" Kim responded, clearly slightly annoyed. Though she has a point… don't tell her that. Wait… her skin's touching mine… fuck…
Lifting her head Shego looked once more into Kim's eyes. "No we don't, we have our own kind of love." She replied, getting amusement on how taken aback Kim seemed to have been. "What?"
"Well for starters your response and second the fact you didn't go all 'language' on me." Kim replied.
"'Language?'" Shego asked, arching an eyebrow as her hair fell back into its normal place without covering her face.
"Erm… I might have thought of the 'f' word… you didn't hear it?" Kim explained. That made Shego blush slightly. "No not in that context."
"No I didn't…" Shego thought, then she thought about how that could be a quickly concluded that it wasn't something that just happened when they touched each other's skin, but something they both had to be willing to show and see to what another.
Kim too came to that conclusion and to test it, she rested her head against Shego's shoulder this time and they both seemed to be trying it.
Do we have to do this as a show of trust then? Was heard with Shego's voice.
Pulling her head back Kim got her answer. "Well now…"
"Yeah… I'd say we most definitely have our own love." Shego mused, smirking as she leaned her forehead against Kim's. By now they were both glad that Shego's hair went back into its normal position as they could now see both of their eyes to see the sincerity in the other's eyes.
With that there was a sudden bright flash of lightning flashing through even the black blinds on the windows that were supposedly rated to block out the sun. Followed by a crack of thunder loud enough to pierce the sound proof walls of the condo walls and roof. Causing Shego to wince highly visibly as if she still hadn't shaken off what had happened during the Lil Diablo night.
Kim's suspicions immediately got raised. Despite Kim's presence and their apparent moving past what had happened that night, hell even apologizing to one another for their roles in the confusion of that eventful night, it was clear to Kim that Shego still wasn't over it.
"Shego…" Kim started, clearly concerned for her moss colored girlfriend.
Shego immediately after hearing the sh part of her name broke off from the dance, clearly still shaken. "I don't want to talk about it Kim!" Shego declared.
This momentarily threw Kim off, who began giving into her 'dark side' that she hadn't shown since that night. "WHY THE HELL NOT?!" She demanded to know.
Shego out of instinct lit up her hands momentarily before realizing their setting and remembering they were trying to get passed fighting for stakes more than bragging rights. Looking away and remembering that she wasn't wearing her clawed gloves Shego immediately put out her hands, fortunately she had them on a lower heat level as if from the old days rather than an urge to kill mode. Shego closed her eyes as she saw Kim's dark side again, she desperately never wanted to see the hate in those eyes again, yet here they were again.
I can't… Shego thought, before opening her eyes and seeing Kim will still upset, not deathly upset like before but still upset with Shego not telling the truth when they said they could move on from that night.
Kim knew Shego well by now to know she was near the point of caving in. However, rather than doing her puppy dog pout face, she went with her 'Shego trump card' merely holding her hand to show she cared and wasn't going anywhere.
In a way, Shego was glad they were wearing gloves as she felt right then and there she would have spilt it though their ability to hear each other's thoughts. At least without giving Kim some time to prepare. Damn it Kimmie… Shego thought. "Alright…" Shego finally let out, relenting to Kim's show of love.
Shego walked both her and Kim over to the oversized black leather couch with Kim trailing behind her. They both sat down with Shego closing her eyes as if meditating, more likely mentially preparing for what was to come. And Kim looking at Shego mostly worried.
Shego finally opened her eyes after what seemed like minutes. "I have to warn you… it's not pretty…" Shego said.
"I don't care, I'm not leaving you no matter what." Kim replied near instantaneously. "No more Secrets."
Closing her eyes Shego inhaled before letting out a long sigh through her nose and removing the glove on her right arm with Kim doing the same. Kim would have been lying if she said she wasn't nervous as she didn't know what to expect. As far as they knew they could only hear each other's thoughts, but then remembered the sex dream they both seemed to have seen together, which did worry her a bit.
Closing their eyes, they made skin to skin contact holding each other's hands.
Shego's memory
The scenes of that stormy night, clear as day from the point of view from Shego all too clear. Turning back to see her boss finally tell the blond buffoon that he knows his name. Way to fucking go doctor smurf! Now because of you Kim blame's me for that damn syntho drone. I KNEW I shouldn't have threatened her with dating Eric, why the FUCK did I even say that!? I don't like guys… reminds me of… shit. Shego's thoughts being interrupted by Kim jumping in front of Shego, who turning around gasped in horror.
Kim just stood there for a second before resuming her banter, her poster not giving away any intentions yet. "You know what I really hate?"
Getting into a defensive poster. Let her have the first blow? Shego asked herself. "That your date melted?" She asked. What the hell kind of response was that?
"No…" Kim replied, before leaning back towards the kick. "You."
The 'you' could be heard echoing through Shego's mind, she could see the kick coming as Kim leaned forward to say 'you' before leaning back to kick. I deserve this… Shego thought as the kick landed home swear on her chest right below her breasts. Her point of view shifted as she began screaming towards the tower all the while no thoughts of regretting letting Kim kick her came up.
Slamming into the tower, Shego's vision could be seen getting distorted though a green glow could be seen from her peripheral vision as she struggled to see Kim as she walked towards the tower. Please kill me… Shego's mind screamed as if not wanting to be in this world anymore knowing her involvement in this whole night. No wait… Kim would never live it down! It's not her… must live through this! Shego realized as the intensity reached its climax and her powers discharged from the buildup.
After falling to the bottom of the tower, Shego let out a moan. Crap that hurt, I think my sternum is broken. She thought until she heard a rumbling. Wha... Looking up Shego could see the tower begin its descent as it fell all around her, without her making a sound, no scream no roar just as if she accepted whatever fate was about to bring her.
A few minutes later, Shego finally came too however she could feel her legs pined under the rubble. Letting out a controlled burst of plasma she could feel herself freed. GA IT HURTS she screamed to herself as she began moaning.
"Search the rubble, I want her either in cuffs or a body bag from there!" A male's voice could be heard, though muffled.
Shego could feel she was in no state to resist anything that happened to her, but she still had one backup card to play. Reaching into her pouch she pulled out a radio like device with several buttons on it however pushed a button. Fuck you asshole. She thought before an all too familiar voice sounded on the.
"Shego-drone responding." The voice over the radio said, with Shego's voice.
Damn I never wanted to use this, but I have no choice. I'm NOT recovering in a prison! Shego thought. "Drone, get to the control tower's base. Find a large piece of debris to put on top of you and surrender without a fight when found." Shego ordered, before wincing in pain as her adrenaline wore off.
"Yes Ma'am." The drone said before Shego put away the device.
Maybe now I won't kill Drakken! Shego thought before starting to crawl towards a crack in the rubble bubble she was in. she could see the drone, dressed just like her found its way to a large chunk of the tower and lifting it up to lay under it followed by the police 'finding' her and taking her in.
A few hours later she looked at a clock she had found and saw about an hour had passed and without hearing any noise Shego pushed what seemed to be the smallest piece of debris over her. Letting out a scream in pain as she pushed it away and after hearing the debris sound as if it was going to fall without that piece to support the rest in place. She felt a rush of adrenaline pump in and all her pain disappeared, taking advantage of this she bolted as fast as she could out from the debris as it collapsed behind her.
Though knowing her adrenaline wouldn't last she ran as fast as she could towards the garage, only to collapse in agony as she neared her black Camaro with dark green interior and lime green stripe down the middle.
She just laid there on the flour for a few minutes as the pain subsided before painfully attempting to move again. DAMN THIS HURTS! Shego thought as she slowly got in and made her way to her condo.
After reaching the condo, she was glad she had a private parking area so no one could see her as she took the elevator to the condo she and Kim were in now outside of the memory. It was pretty much the exact same look as it was now.
With every step, she took, every stair she climbed to get to her bedroom, Shego let out almost a whimper of sorts of pain. She soon made it to her bathroom where she finally collapsed with a loud thud, though she didn't care at this point as she was home.
Shego's vision could be seen getting blurry as tears began filling her eyes. "What the fuck have I done?!" She screamed, as if someone was there to answer her. "Damnit now Kim hates me all because of DRAKKEN!"
Resting her head against the marble floor Shego began to smell an all too familiar scent. Looking down at her body for the first time and confirming in the full-length mirror, she was covered in blood, with some blood pooling on the floor. Just great. She thought.
She started the hot-tub before peeling back her cat suit, fortunately this was somewhat tailored to take into account a bra and a thong being worn underneath as she looked at the extent of the damage she took. She could see, and most importantly feel, broken bones sticking out of place in her legs and arms. Several deep gashes that had been covered by the cat suit, knowing fully well that that suit was now trashed.
But what struck her the most painful of her injuries, was a large foot shaped bruise square on her chest. Though the most striking part of it, was the fact of how black it was. It wasn't a typical dark green bruise but jet black like her hair. She let in a sharp inhale in surprise only to wince some more from the pain.
She hates me… Shego thought as her tears began streaking down her face, taking blood with the droplets. Her legs soon began to visibly wobble in the mirror so she went to the hot tub with a splash. She turned on the water jets to full blast which seemed to make the events of the day just melt away. She didn't even care that she was wearing her underwear, it just felt damn good. At least until she looked at how red the water was getting from the blood loss.
Shego let out a long sigh, this was by far the worst day since Sara's death. Though at least with Sara, she was dead, with Kim well, she hated Shego now which felt worse. Still the more she thought about it, she was glad they never found Sara's body. It was thought to have burnt up in the insuing inferno of her home after Kitshoa told Shego that he stabbed her with one of his Katanas. Though to add insult to injury, Shego remembered the large red-diamond she made for Sara. It was hard to get it right, but she gave it her all with her powers to make that diamond for her, best part of all was that it was considered a flawless red diamond, as flawless as you could get without being a clear diamond. Rumor was he took the diamond and placed it in the katana that killed Sara.
Shego could feel more tears flow as she remembered everything bad that had happened in her life with no end of the pain in sight. Until an all too familiar cat made her way in with a meow while standing on the rim of the large tub.
Forcing a smile Shego looked at the black cat. "Hey Jewels." She said before petting the cat with power dried hands. The cat just looked at her owner, somewhat sadness in its eyes that if it was human would probably look concerned.
Outside of Shego's memory
Shego pulled her hand away from Kim, looking away from her red-head girlfriend to process what she just saw.
Kim… well, Kim was horrified beyond belief! How could I have done such a thing… she wondered. "Shego…" she started, trying to find the words to articulate. "I'm so, so sorry." She finally got out, on the verge of tears.
Shego knew Kim by now would be near tears and didn't look towards her. "It's alri…" She started before being tackle kissed by Kim who by now took off her other glove, placing both her warm hands against Shego's cheeks.
And then, it was as if all those years of self-loathing and self-destructive feelings disappeared in an instant. No words were required to express what the other was feeling anymore.
Shego pulled back and looked towards Kim. "I love you Kim." She said, herself near the verge of tears.
"I love you too Shego." Kim said.
Meow! Jewels interjected. Causing both women to laugh.