A/N: Heyyy peoples so this is kinda long and it is very angsty. There will be bad language as there has been before but guys it's a T for a reason...

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Chapter 21: Pain tends to heal as time passes but personally, I don't want time to heal my wounds

Simon's POV

It was Monday once again and after most of the last week off Simon really didn't want to face the school again. He had spent most of the week dwelling in his room watching anime, TV series, films and he even read a few books and Simon couldn't help but admit that he only watched and read what he did because they were Cris' favourites. He had only left the room to eat, he knew his mum was getting anxious but she knew what happened to Cris and he was pretty sure she knew the effect that Cris' situation would have on Simon.

His mum didn't come to the room very much, she had on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, to try and get him out of the house, then out of his room, then just out of bed but Simon thought she had given up by Saturday as he was undisturbed. He knew he couldn't do half an hour without food so it surprised even him that he only left his bedroom to get food at meal times.

He didn't see any one, apart from Clary and his mother and sister; who had left for university on the Saturday, and he didn't really want to see anyone anyway. His phone was racked up with missed calls and texts from the girls, and they had also came to the house to see him but Simon got his mum to send them away. For the life of him, Simon didn't know how Clary got in his room but he was pretty sure his mum just let her in, no matter what Simon wanted.

Clary stayed for a few hours and in that he just managed to crack a smile; he knew it was hard on Clary as well but he couldn't muster up the sympathy for her as he was mentally and physically drained. Of course this made him feel even worse as he couldn't comfort his best friend and although she seemed fine, he knew that she was keeping it in.

So it was hard to wake up 5 hours earlier, at 7am, to get ready and go to school. He didn't want to go to school, even more so than he normally did, because she wouldn't be there. He didn't know how things would turn out at school because, although all of them hated Jamie on Monday and most of Tuesday, Jamie had changed, for the better, and the girls took a liking towards him for that but without Cris, Simon thought, Jamie wouldn't seem like he had changed.

Simon was right.

Simon just made it to the gazebo in time to talk with the girls before the bell went and when he approached it, he only saw the girls. What a surprise he thought sarcastically. Conversation stopped as they laid eyes on Simon, they all had a look of sympathy apart from Izzy who had one of anger.

"You're probably wondering, Jace and Will are on the courts playing football" Clary started her voice full of pain, it must be really hard on her and you made it worse Simon thought bitterly. Maia rested a hand on her shoulder and continued on from Clary "We've briefly talked to Jem and we haven't even seen Jamie" Simon sighed then, he was partly thankful that Will and Jace weren't in the vicinity.

"Any way, normalities over," Hazel started but Tris blurted out, stopping Hazel from saying what Tris was about to, "Did you really have sex with Cris?" This comes out rather blunt and Hazel face palmed and Tris tries to regain her dignity and says "What? We all wanted to know the answer,"

Simon pulled at his hair in frustration then said "No, by the angel, did you really think I would do that to her?" Pain is clear in Simon's voice and Izzy stared at him as if deciding whether to believe him or not.

"We know you want to but whether she does is another matter," Izzy says, all emotions devoid from her voice. Simon rolls his eyes and Katniss "Sit down and tell us what happened then," Simon sits in the middle of the gazebo the girls facing him, it nearly felt like an interrogation.

"So do tell us what happened on that fateful night?" Tessa asks with a smirk and Katniss gives her a soft nudge but can't hide her own smile. Izzy then says flatly "Don't bother lying: we can tell," Maia and Clary look over at Izzy, unbelieving that she could be so cold.

"Look it's a long story and we only have like one minute," Simon says trying to get out of this but of course he hadn't relied on one of them actually having a watch. Tessa pulls her phone put of her bag and says "Simon, you're so terrible at time-keeping, we've got 5 minutes," with a sweet and innocent smile which, at that moment, he loathed.

"Simon, you're not getting out of this one" Clary says and Simon sighs. "Okay, but first I need to tell you guys something, I know it should be Cris' to tell you but you should really know," he paused then to take in the looks of surprise and anxiety on their faces. "The guy that nearly kidnapped Cris at school have been out to do that for a while now. He and another guy already tried to kidnap her before but I stopped it when I was going to visit her. So the guys have been sending her texts saying 'No one will be able to save you this time' and other things like that and she had been having bad dreams about them ever since,"

The girls now looked horrified and slightly angry before Hazel spoke "So, they were the guys that tried to kidnap Cris at Jamie's. They were the reason why Cris fell," Simon said softly "Most probably,"

Deciding to continue on with the story Simon said "But any way, Cris came round my house at about 9 o'clock on Saturday, then she burst in to my room with tears in her eyes. I told her to not be so strong all the time and she cried into my shoulder. When she was done, I made her laugh a bit, and she yawned, she was probably tired as she said she had a really bad dream that night. She said she was going to go back to bed but I offered her my bed as she was already at my house and I didn't really want her to go out on her own in a vulnerable state. So she got under the covers with me and she fell asleep in my arms. That was it,"

The girls mumbled together for a few moments and finally Izzy said "Simon we're sorry we didn't know what Cris was going through and I'm guessing you we're the only one who knew about the texts and the dreams?"

"Yeah, Cris didn't want her mum to get worried so I think she only told her mum about the dreams and not the texts but the only reason she told me was because I saw her fighting the men at the beginning," The girls look sadly stunned once again and pain coursed through Simon at the thought of Cris and that night.

"We should go to see her tonight?" Katniss proposed and the girls nodded but Tris said "But the last time we went the doctors said we couldn't see her," At Simon's confused expression Maia added "We went to see Cris on Wednesday but the doctors told us to come back on Saturday as they were doing tests and other boring stuff, so when we went on Saturday they said we still couldn't see her but Magnus told us that she" Maia broke of then unable to form the words.

Clary stepped in to continue on from Maia, "Magnus said that Cris heart stopped once on the Monday, on Wednesday and on Friday, he said it was all they could do to keep her alive, so there's even less of a chance of her waking up now," Clary choked at the end and Simon could tell she was trying hard to keep the tears in. Tessa pulled her in to a hug which she willingly agreed on. Simon just stared, unable to form words and he was trying hard to keep from crying himself.

"We've got a few minutes left, do you think we have time to see Mrs Branwell?" Tessa asked but Katniss shook her head and said "We should probably do that after school so she has the night to come to terms with it," The others nodded and Simon was once again confused.

Izzy answered his unasked question and said "We were going to tell Charlotte about what happened to Cris since Monday because she would probably want to know," Simon gave a sheepish nod and at that the first bell went, to tell them to start to go to registration.

Simon was in a different form to the girls, as they were in Ithuriel and he was in Jahoel, but they still had their forms in the Arch Angel block so he could walk with them to form. Unluckily Jem wasn't in his form, that would have probably been good as Jem is the known peace-keeper, but very unluckily Simon had Jamie and Cato in his form which was bound to go terribly, for Simon.

On the plus side Jace and Will were in Nakir which was situated in Seraphim block which was on the opposite side to Arch Angel, so that was two less people Simon was going to be killed by in the first twenty minutes of school. There was another up and downside to this because, unlike Ithuriel's form tutor, Jahoel's tutor, Mr Phantomhive, was never late, the upside, but the downside was he couldn't control the class which meant that Jamie could do whatever the hell he wanted.

As they reached Arch Angel block he said goodbyes to the girls and headed down to the right. Simon swung open the door and made his way to his seat at the back of the room. When he got to his seat the bell rang and Mr Phantomhive entered. A few more people swung in, to which the teacher pronounced late.

Peeta Mellark was sitting next to Simon and this was probably a good thing as everyone liked him so no one would ever hurt him or anyone close to him, this was also because he was incredibly strong. But then as Simon scanned the class he saw Jamie flirting with another girl. Phew he thought as Jamie wasn't paying him any attention.

As if the world wanted to punish him more, Cato appeared at Jamie's side, pushed the girl away and said something to Jamie, looking purposely at Simon. Jamie then turned to face Simon, his features contorted with anger and his eyes a dead brown almost black. Simon looked away before Jamie could see him looking.

Unfortunately that didn't work and the next thing he knew a fist punched the table leaving dents in the wood. Simon looked up to be faced with a very pissed Jamie. "We have unfinished business, don't you think?" Jamie snarled and Simon was going to come back with some witty remark when Jamie fisted Simon's collar and pulled him up from his chair.

Simon saw Cato come up behind Jamie and gave an evil smirk towards Simon who was fighting to breathe. It was then, when Jamie threw Simon against the wall and lifted him up by his neck. "Hey, Jamie get off him" Peeta shouted, in Simon's defence but unfortunately Cato said "Mind your own business Mellark, you probably have more important matters to worry about... like Hawthorne fucking your girl,"

Cato was even larger than Peeta, so when Peeta threw a punch at Cato he deflected it and then they just started throwing random punches at each other. There was now a crowd surrounding both the pairs and Simon was still struggling against the unrelenting Jamie.

"I thought we finished whatever business we ever had," Simon managed to choke out, Simon's feet were barely touching the floor and he found it extremely hard to breathe. "Business is done, and I'm letting you off even though you should pay for what you did to her," Simon snarled and a flicker of anger crossed Jamie's eyes before turning back to a dead look.

"What I did to her? Ooh that's rich coming from you," Jamie spat as if the words were poison. Anger rose up in Simon and he said the words that he didn't mean and shouldn't have said. "Hey, you were the one who killed her!" Simon nearly shouted and Jamie's grip on Simon's neck increased making Simon gasp for breath.

"You bastard!" Jamie shouted, the anger clear in his voice. "You just can't handle that after whatever you did to her, she still rejected you and, oh, she must have not liked it otherwise she wouldn't have ran into my arms,"

Anger rose up in Simon, of course she didn't reject Simon because Simon didn't try anything but it angered him that Jamie was saying that. Everyone seemed to know who and what they were talking about as most of them had gone pale and were gaping at the boys.

Then Jamie did something Simon wasn't expecting, he smiled. "And I must tell you she is one hell of a kisser, although we didn't get up to what you did, she certainly made up for it," Jamie smirked, one of such hate and maliciousness but there was also a hint of sadness in his expression although it was hidden well by all the anger.

Suddenly Jamie was thrown off Simon and Mr Phantomhive and Mr Michaelis were towering over them, well at least Mr Michaelis was. Mr Phantomhive often got Mr Michaelis to do his dirty work, like stopping fights or anything like that. This was mainly because, despite his slender frame, Mr Michaelis was extremely strong which is why he got the nickname of demon butler because he did the dirty work, often wore black expensive suits, he had black hair and pale skin but the weirdest thing was his eyes which were the colour of blood.

Now, all the girls loved him because apparently he was 'smoking hot' but most of the boys hated him as he was pretty strict when he needed to be. So the crowd dispersed leaving the girls staring at him and the boys far away from him.

Simon fell back on his feet leaning against the wall gasping for air. Out of the corner of his eye he could see Jamie glaring at him and was being restrained by Mr Phantomhive, which must have been hard for the teacher as he had the stature of a thirteen year old, and he also saw that Mr Michaelis managed to pull Peeta and Cato apart. He just got his breath back when Mrs Branwell flung open the door and stormed in.

"Ciel, Sebastian" Charlotte said addressing Mr Phantomhive (Ciel) and Mr Michaelis (Sebastian) by their first names. "Escort those four boys to my office and wait with them outside until I arrive," She said rather sternly. Simon saw the three other boys being pushed forward and Simon stepped forward before he could get pushed. He heard Charlotte addressing the class before the classroom door shut behind them.

"Walk!" Mr Phantomhive nearly shouted and the boys reluctantly walked over to Mrs Branwell's office. It was a rather uneventful walk; Mr Phantomhive had left Mr Michaelis to walk them to the office as he did have a form group to take for the next five minutes. No one had made any more attempts to kill each other as they were pretty sure Mr Michaelis could easily handle four boys at once.

When they reached the office they found something Simon wasn't expecting: Izzy, Katniss, Maia were already standing outside the office with Jem and a rather beaten up Sebastian.