I appologize for taking so long to update my story. Life has been a little crazy. This chapter is mostly to get some infromation that will be used in the upcoming chapters. I will hopefully the other chapters posted soon.
3:00 am
Raph laid there on his bed, like he had been for the past few hours, and stared at the ceiling. It had been a few hours or more since Z left him at the warehouse. She told him she would talk to him later but she never did. He thought about texting her many times of the last few hours but he did not want her to think he was needy or pathetic. But it was getting late and the sun would be up in about 4 hours. Aprils apartment was not the greatest place to get stuck at all day since most of the rooms had large windows that let sunlight in. Raph pulled him self up and walked over to the dresser where his phone was charging. No messages. He took a deep breath and started texting.
Raph: Hey, suns goin to be up soon
He stared at his phone for what seemed like forever. Finally to his relief it notified him he had a new message.
Z: I know
Raph: Where are you?
Z: At Aprils still, we been drinking a bit
Raph smiled. At least she was safe, and he knew what was coming next.
April: Hey we neeed a favr
Raph: Yea?
April: We r out of alchol, I knw u have some
Raph: Let me guess you want me to bring it?
April: yes….
Same as last time and the time before they got drunk together. They ran out of aclhol and because neither of them were in any condition to go get any, they had him bring some from the lair. This was no surprise considering that Zelenia's body filtered out booze fast so she usually needed to keep drinking otherwise she'd end up sober quick. After her first hangover she never had another one, lucky bitch. Her body knew how to respond after that.
Raph: fine be there soon
It did not take him long to reach Aprils studio apartment, which was a good thing considering how cold it was. He reached the roof and heard the girls laughing. He was about to hop down to the fire escape and go through the window until he heard Aprils next question.
April: So how are things between you and Raph?
He knew it was not right to eavesdrop on their conversation but with how withdrawn Zelenia had been over the past few weeks this was most likely the only way he would ever know how she felt. He knew that she could detect him if she tried but that was only if she focused and right now she was distracted this was the perfect opportunity. His heart raced in his chest as he waited for her to reply.
Zelenia: What do you mean? *in a serious tone*
Not what he was hoping for...
April: Oh my god your terrible at this. I can tell your getting sober *Chuckle*
Zelenia: What's that supposed to mean?
April: Well….you see when you drink your "filter" isn't strong as it normally is. I can get you to talk to me about things you never would normally tell me.
Zelenia: That's…I don't know what to day to that. Anyway, what do you want me to say?
April: Just tell me stuff like I tell you about Donnie.
Zelenia: Yeah...no.
April: Why not?
Zelenia: After the stuff, you told me about Donnie I don't think I can look at him for a week *she chuckled*
April: Fine...have you at least slept with him with the lights on
Zelenia: That is none of your business
April: Ill take that as a no. So whats the issue do you not like the way he looks or something? Its been a couple months, hasn't it?
Zelenia: He looks just fine, besides I can see in the dark anyway. Aaand I really don't want to talk about this.
April: Your doing it again…..
Zelenia: What?
April: Pulling away and isolating yourself again. I have seen you do it with Raph over the past few weeks and now your doing it to me. You were doing so well, what changed?
Zelenia: Im not pulling away.
April: Then answer my question. How can I help you with your "problem"? You must talk to me about things that's the deal between us and Splinter.
Problem? What problem was April referring too and what deal? Raph moved closer to the window so he could hear them better.
Zelenia: What I have isn't a problem! In fact, it's the only reason I'm alive still! You wouldn't understand!
April: Yes it is, if you didn't think it was why did you ask Splinter and me for help. We are trying to help you get over this roadblock.
Zelenia: What does me not wanting to fuck with the lights on have to do with anything?
April: Because your avoiding it. What do you expect Raph to never have the lights on forever?
Zelenia: Forever…HA! What me and Raph have isn't going to last very long.
Raph could feel his heart drop into his stomach. How could she be so…..cold about it? Is that why she has started to pull away from him? Shes going to leave.
April: Now why the hell did you say something like that?
Zelenia: That's just how these FWB arrangements work. Eventually they get bored and move on. That's the point, no strings attached.
April: You sound like you know from experience.
Zelenia: yeah I do, its just how things go. Nothing you can do about it.
April: Well what if he wanted more than your "arrangement"?
She asked Zelenia the question he was dying to know for weeks now. He knew she would answer April honestly, it was the nature of their friendship. Raph hated to admit it but he was sometimes jealous of Aprils relationship with Zelenia. She seemed more open with April and they would talk for hours. April knew more about her than anyone. But April was a true friend and would never tell anyone what her and Zelenia talked about, still leaving him in the dark. He had already tried once, didn't work out.
Zelenia: No
April: What?!
Zelenia: Umm no?
April: I get that but why? Is something wrong?
Zelenia: *sigh* Look Raph is probably the sweetest guy. But…I…..I just cant.
Raph felt his heart sink to his feet. But wait….she didn't say she didn't want to…..she said she couldn't.
April: what do you mean you cant? That makes no sense!
Zelenia: I cant ok! Now just drop it! I don't see how this is helping anything, in fact this is just pissing me off more!
April: There's something you haven't told me isn't there? Something that happened?
Zelenia: Yes, but I don't plan to talk about it anytime soon so get that thought out of your head.
April: You know, you wouldn't have to talk if you just….you know let me back in.
Raph knew what April was referring to instantly. April has been working hard leaning about her psychic powers. She can now see people's memories , but she can only do it if they allow them in willingly. If they were not so willing she could only get small bits of information. Nothing substantial though. She can also feel others emotions more than she used to. These powers of hers have come in handy on many occasions. But her true passion was using her powers helping others with their problems, which is why she studied psychology. He now knew why their bond was so unique. April wasn't just her friend but she was "treating" her in a way. Like what Splinter was doing but in a different way.
Zelenia: Fuck that! I let you in twice and it felt weird. I don't want you wondering around my brain again. There are just some things that…..nevermind. Its just not happening anymore!
April: Well, Ill drop this. But only for now, next week we will pick up where we left off. I don't wanna push to far to soon.
Zelenia: We are not returning to this topic anymore at all.
April: What could be so bad? I mean I have learned some…..umm…..things that have happened to you from what you told me and the two times you let me in. I don't think it can get much worse but you told me about that.
Zelenia: It gets worse, it always does.
That last statement left Raph feeling a little uneasy. Just the way she said it, he didn't like the dark tone she used. Silence fell between the two women; this was his opportunity to "arrive". He hopped down to the fire escape and crawled through the unlocked window. To his surprise both girls were happy to see him. It had been a while since she smiled when he walked into a room, she used to all the time when they first started their "arrangement" as she apparently called it. In fact, she wasn't smiling or talking that much to anyone the last two weeks. Something was wrong and he had to figure it out somehow. He had to make her see how he felt, he knew words would not be enough for a woman like her. But first he had to figure out why she "can't" be more than his friend. That was going to be close to impossible with how guarded she had become.
Raph stayed a little while with the two women. He had some drinks and a few laughs with them and then walked Zelenia home before the night was over. But his mind was somewhere else, he knew what he had to do now. He just needed to figure out the "how".