Hey guys, Adelae here. I'm really sorry but this is not the update you were looking forward to. I do promise that the next chapter is almost done (I have one transition and editing) but I just needed someone to talk to and get this all off my chest.

So, for all of those who didn't know, I am in my first semester of collage. Yes, hard to believe, but I am only 18 years old. I started this work when I was 15.

On September 1st this year I was in a major car accident. I was t-boned by a guy going 50mph and in that moment everything changed. You know how you can move the front seats of a car back and forth on a set of rails. Well this guy hit me so hard the rails broke. My drivers seat, with me in it, flew up and over the steering wheel.

My head hit the windshield. Hard enough to spider shatter the glass. I'm gonna put a picture up on my tumblr .com. Which is a blog I tried to create to post pictures and blueprints, but I never found the time. Sorry.

Throughout the semester I have had to go to several specialists to figure out what exactly was going on in my head.

First off, I have acute short term memory loss. This happens even when I'm not trying to remember anything. Like the other day at a restraunt I wanted to eat my bun. When I reached to grab it, the plate was gone. I asked my parents where my bread had gone and they told me I had told the waiter I was done with that plate, which I have no memory at all.

Second, my vision's gone a bit wonky. Let's pretend that we see on a 180 vision scope (I know we don't really, but bear with me). So from left to right the first 50 degrees are completely black and white. Yes, out of half my left eye the world looks like a movie from the 20's. the other half of my left eye is set in a Sepia color tone. (Find a phone camera, they have that color setting) The right eye is normal colors. But 90 degrees of my vision is not normal color vision.

Also I have been getting major migranes that nothing seems to help. During one of them I can't think, can't move. Any noise is a piercing attack on my head.

I may need surgery on my right knee. Because my chair detached from the floor, my knees slammed up against the dashboard. I wear a brace everyday and have to ice and heat almost every night.

Hang with me, all of this is leading somewhere.

So, because of my head injury, I didn't perform the best in school. But also because of my brain injury I thought I was doing really well. There were a couple times where my brain refused to wake up so I slept through that days classes, but the rest of the time I showed up and learned. At least I thought I did.

I got a letter from my college today that says for the spring semester I am on Academic Probation. Which means that if I don't pull my grades up to a 2.5 I will be kicked out.

Now, I thought I was doing better than that. I felt really good about my classes. I turned in my stuff, took the tests. I was sure I aced my finals. But my transcript says otherwise.

I, I can't say I'm mad at myself. I'm just dissapointed. I know I haven't always been the best student and that I've been notorious for turning papers in late, but I have always retained a 3.0 or above school average. I just can't believe one person's mistake is costing me this much.

I take this time for a safety announcement. Please, Please, PLEASE watch what you are doing on the road. Put that phone away and follow the speed limits. Or there could be another case like me. An 18 year old with an advanced brain injury, slightly monochromatic vision, and a lame knee. I don't care if your favorite celebrity finally tweeted you back, keep your eyes on the road and watch your speed. Don't make stupid driving mistakes.

If you have been drinking, stay home.

Please.

Alright, so this Spring I will be focusing on school the best I can, but I'm calling out to all of you. If you have any study tips or notes or if any of you have suffered from a brain injury before and have recovery tips, shoot me a email at conquereroftheearth ( ) . That's the email I have that is not attached to any IRL data.

I wanted also to say that this community we have on here is beautiful. All of us are so creative and wonderful. Everyday I log on to see another story, another idea.

This year has not been a good one. First David Bowie, and Alan Rickman, and (just yesterday) Carrie Fisher passed away after a heart attack. All the others that have passed; Prince, Muhammed Ali, Ellie Wiesel, and so many more.

Then all the riots throughout the world keep happening. Russia banned memes. Thousands flee their own countries to escape certain death.

But then, if you thought 2016 couldn't get any worse, Trump won the election.

I just feel like 2016 was a wasted a year. A terrible year that future generations will look back upon and scoff.

If you stayed till now and didn't click off, I thank you. I just needed someone to rant to that was a third party figure with little to know prexisting bias against me.

Next chapter should be up by January.

Till then...

Peace out!

Adelae