Hai there! Hope you guys like this, these entries aren't in order so it's kinda easier, just letting you know so there's no more confusion on whether or not you guys thought it would be in some kind of specific order.

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-Kaylabear

The pain hurts too much to bear. It hurts so much, I can't stand the way she looks at him, I don't know why I feel like this and it's killing me. It doesn't help that the rest or them can hear what I thinking and feeling.

"today is the day the worst day of my life you're so content it hurts me I don't know whythe cost of misery is at an all time high I keep it hidden close to the surface in sight…"

The words couldn't be truer, but it still hurts to think about it, to think about how she used to love me when he left. I can't believe she forgave him and it just makes it hurt more how I was there for her, I put her back together slowly and then she leaves me like he left her. She left just as broken as when he left her, in the same, heartbroken, painful way.

I know she loves me too, but it's not in the way I want her to love me. She loves him and I have to standby and watch as she slowly turns into one of them. It hurts so much I can't breath, I want to rip my heart out.

"Jacob stop thinking about it!" Sam scolded me.

"Dude, get over the vampire girl already." Paul sounded irritated.

"That's because I am dumbass!" I hated Paul so much.

"I hate you too." Can he quite reading my thoughts? Highly doubt it so just forget I even said it.

When I think about Bella it hurts that she threw me away just like that, she knows how much I hurt but she won't try and fix it because she loves him too much for her own good. There's nothing I can do about especially since she's going to have a baby.

***flashback***

We were standing inside the garage, we had been working on the motorcycles after school for quite awhile. Bella was sitting inside the rabbit talking about how her day went. God she looked so beautiful right now. I'm tempted to touch her but I restrained myself.

"Jake are you okay?" I looked up surprised.

"Oh yeah, fine, totally." I answered getting distracted again. Her eyes shone brightly today. Briighter than before.

"Are you sure your okay?" Bella asked moving to my side placing her hand on my knee.

"Yeah." I breathed in sharply hoping she didn't notice.

"Jake thank you, for everything for being there with me." Bella leaned in letting me breath her scent more.

"No prolem that's what best friends are for." I smiled.

"No I think you're more than my best friend now." Bella pulled me closer to her.

Our lips touched and mine parted as Bella kissed me. Her tongue glided on my bottom lip making me go crazy. My arms wrapped around her being careful not to embrace her too tight so I wouldn't crush her ribs. Bella's arms wrapped around my neck as she stradled me. I placed my hand on her waist my other one on the back of the neck gently holding her to me. Bella's lips moved with mine in equal passion.

Bella was the first person I ever kissed and I surprised at how well this was going. Bella puled away from me all to quickly tears leaping into her eyes.

"Bella! What happened?" I asked worried.

"I'm sorry Jake! That wasn't supposed to happen, I have to go now! Bella leaped out of my lap and ran to her truck driving off...

***end flashback***

"Jake can you tone it down a bit?" Jared's voice sounded in my head.

"Yeah sure." I mumbled running around the area I was patrolling for the twenty-eighth time.

Just imaging them doing it makes me want to throw up. It hurts me that she gave up her whole self to him in a heartbeat. Now their going to have a little monster child. Ugh!

Is there someone that can save me from this internal pain? It seems to last forever and I don't know how long I'll be able to last because it hurts that much.

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-kaylabear 3