"I can't lose you.
Maybe a simple life is more than
one way to go.
Yeah, but then again,
I'm mostly alone,
'coz I'm losing everyone.
But I know one thing.
I know that I can't lose you.
And maybe my time will come
but I know I can't lose you.
Brothers to the end."
'' Garcia, Can you hack him back, so we see what is happening there? Morgan asked while driving. '' That would be really helpful. ''
'' Hmm.. I can try. '' Garcia answered and started working. And she did it. They saw Lucas and Hotch , but Hotch and Lucas didn't hear them.
Hotch didn't know what to say. He wanted to cry , but didn't want to so it to Lucas.
'' I know how you feel. Believe me. I know. And you know what's better. Because you know now how I felt after you killed my brother, so it was my turn to kill someone you love. And like you said , I knew that you don't love nothing more than her. '' Lucas said and took his knife from his pocket.
'' I didn't kill your brother! '' Hotch shouted to him.
'' You don't get it do you?'' Lucas asked and slashed a little cut to Hotch arm. '' He were only family I got. You don't know what is it like to take care of your brother when your parents couldn't do it. '' Lucas said.
'' Oh you have no Idea. '' Hotch said quietly.
'' You mean that you had to take care of Sean? '' Lucas asked. He didn't expect anything like that.
'' Yeah. Protecting my little brother was like my job, and it still is. '' Hotch started.
'' What do you mean by that? '' Lucas questioned.
'' Our father hit us. Me and Sean. My mom didn't do anything to it so it was like my job to protect him. He was only 7 years old and I was 15. I were scared to go home after school. Every single day. But I did , just because of Sean, because of my little brother who admired me. And then I went to High school and I moved out, Sean came with me. We lived together and our mom send us money every month and our dad never find out. '' Hotch said and smiled a little bit. Moving away from home with Sean , was one of his best memories.
'' And always , at school when Sean was in trouble I were always standing on his side. Always. Once I saw how our school bully beat Sean so I just run between those two. I didn't hesitate , even a little. We fight with that guy. Well I got grounded , but it was totally worth it. Nobody did ever bully Sean after that. ''
'' Okay, then. What would you do if someone would kill Sean?'' Lucas asked. Hotch knew exactly where this conversation were going.
'' I would do anything I can to get the guy. And I would make him pay. '' Hotch said.
'' And what would you say to him. What would be your last words to him? '' Lucas asked and enjoyed. He got that one thing. It's easier torture people inside. They break easily than when you hurt them physically .
'' My last words to him… '' Hotch remembered this one dream he had. Sean lying down in hospital bed , in coma. And Hotch were sitting next to him and said this one thing before he died:
'' They gave me this one job. Only this one. And I screwed it up. I blew it. And I'm sorry for that. '' Hotch said quietly. Even thinking about losing Sean too it's more painful than any other. He just lost his girlfriend , a girl who he loved so much. And now, thinking about losing his brother.
Lucas went quiet.
'' So you now get it why I'm doing this. '' He finally said. He slashed another cut to Hotch's arm and it was double as deep as that first one. His heart rate accelerated. That wound bled pretty hard. He knew that he couldn't last very much longer.
'' No. I still don't get it. Because there is this one little difference. I would catch the right guy. You exploded that house, so you killed your brother. It wasn't our fault.'' Hotch tried to convince him. And that all was for nothing.
Lucas cut the rope where Hotch were hanging on and Hotch fell down the floor. And Lucas started kicking him. To his leg, to his chest, to his body.
'' Don't try to blame me about my brothers death. It wasn't my fault. If you wouldn't have showed up, he would be alive, and so would be JJ. '' Lucas said and squat down next to him. And slashed another cut to his wrist.
It bled and it bled, and in awhile it blurred in Hotch's eyes.
" Morgan, drive faster. We can't lose him too. He is dying. '' Prentiss said. And Morgan speeded up.
" Try to hold on Hotch. Just few minutes and we are there. " Morgan said and looked at Garcia. She were pale. " We will get him home in time."
Garcia nodded a tears in her eyes and Rossi started call the ambulance.