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I know it has been so long guys and you all deserve to shoot me, but I updated this as quick as I could, I didn't even get to send it to my fabulous BETA so forgive me for any mistakes!

I won't keep you any longer

THE STORY!

BPOV

The fireplace let off an eerie red glow as we sat in Jake, and guess mine too's, lounge room. I waited for the next words eagerly, knowing they would give me the answers I desperately needed.

"Why, uh, okay, well Bella has known me technically ever since we were young, but we first fell in love when she was human, and later on I helped her through a rough patch and we got married soon after," Jake smiled at me and I returned an uncomfortable smile back.

"So you got married to a vampire, she was one at the time, right?" Claude asked.

"Yes," Jake nodded, "I know it sounds crazy, I used to hate those bloodsuckers, but now we're both immortal, we can be together forever," Jake added looking into my eyes.

Weird. Jake didn't seem half as playful as I remembered.

"You guys got kids?" Claude asked and I froze.

I felt like hanging myself at that moment. I felt the numbness start to lift as a massive realization came to me. Edward wasn't the only person who was missing from this new rewrite of the future Claude and I had landed in.

There was some one else who I couldn't bare to live with out that would presumably no longer exist. Some one who was my very own, some one who I swore to protect, some one I had come close to losing before.

Renesme.

It now occurred to me by going to the past to fix my pain for Edward leaving didn't just risk losing Edward, but it also meant all the Cullens and my beautiful daughter that I couldn't bare to live without.

I was a terrible mother. I had failed. I hadn't even thought of Renesme, I just selfishly took the chance to fix my pain, I was kidding myself when I said it was hurting Edward too, it killed me the most.

And now my dear sweet Nessie was gone.

"Bella?" Claude asked waving his hand in front of my face.

"Sorry," I said shaking my head, my whole body aching with sadness. I was now thanking god that I couldn't cry otherwise I would have made a river of tears.

"Bella mentioned the rough patch to me, I know her through Edward," Claude said though it barely registered.

All I could think of was the way Nessie felt in my arms, how it felt when I was holding her and Edward was holding me, how she could communicate with us even when she was so young, the way she grew so fast and scared us all, her first day of high school, her face after Jake first kissed her on the lips, the way her cheeks flushed red like mine once used to…

"…GET OUT NOW!" Jacob yelled at Claude interrupting my thoughts.

"What?" I said realising my only chance to get the two people I loved most in the world back was heading for the door.

"JAKE NO," I yelled as Claude exited.

"It's okay," Claude said finally closing the door behind him.

It was then very quiet. I didn't quite know how to explain my short outburst to Jake. But I had bigger problems. Nessie and Edward were gone.

"Are you okay?" Jake asked snaking his hands around my waist, leaning in to kiss my lips.

I turned my head to the side. It felt weird touching Jake like this, he was married to my daughter and I had a husband, but that didn't exist now, it was like a dream slowly fading.

"What did that creature do to you," Jake said disgust in his voice.

"Nothing," I whimpered.

It was silent again. There in his arms I felt kind of comfortable; which made it more awkward. He soon released me and headed to the kitchen. He placed his palms firmly on the bench about shoulder width apart, his large muscles tensing, and his face down.

"Why didn't you want him to leave? How long have you been seeing him for?" Jake asked me.

It took me a second to fully register what he meant. He had already come up with a reason why I wanted Claude to stay so bad; he wasn't asking for an answer, he wanted an explanation.

He was suspicious of me; he suspected Claude and I were more than just friends.

"Jake," I said bewildered.

Is this how our relationship was? Jake didn't trust me at all. Was this seriously the future I would have had if I had chosen him over Edward? The thought of Edward and then Nessie made me feel sick again, the pain rushing through every inch of my body.

"Bella, I love you, but do you love me back?" Jake asked.

"Of course," I answered. I would always love him, but just as a brother, not like this.

Nessie Edward Jake Nessie Edward Jake, the room started to spin.

"Bella, tell me you love me," Jake said walking over to me, putting his hands on my shoulders.

"I love you," I whimpered, only feeling like half of me was in the room.

"Mean it," Jake said sliding his hands under my top.

They felt warm.

"Please Jake," I said recognizing where this was going.

"Say it Bella," he said pulling me closer to him as his hands slid down my back, taking my shirt off with it.

"Jake," I said scared now, I couldn't, I wouldn't

Edward Nessie Jake Edward Nessie Jake

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Jake was crying on the couch. He kept apologizing over and over. He didn't really do anything to me; he came to his senses when I slapped him across the face. It wasn't how a wife would act, but I wasn't his wife.

At least I wasn't before.

I came to my senses; I knew I wouldn't be able to get my family back unless I found Claude again.

"I'm going out," I told Jake who was still in a mess on the couch.

"Are you coming back?" Jake asked and I realised he was being very serious.

Had I got close to walking out on him before?

"Do you even love me?" he asked, the girls expression shocked.

"Of course I do, I love you," she answered walking towards him.

"Do you love me more them him?" he asked stopping her in her tracks.

"Why, I…" she started but was cut off.

"You hesitated," he said tears in his eyes.

"I wanna be with you," she pleaded.

"But you would rather be with him," he pointed out.

Sobbing, the girl ran out the door.

I shook my head. That wasn't a day dream I was just having, it involved me and Jake, except the room looked a little different and it was fall outside. It was, it was a memory, from this life.

Some thing was seriously wrong. I walked out the door with no explanation to Jake and ran. Down the cliffs and into the dense forest where the air cooled, refreshing my skin.

It wasn't long before Claude caught up to me.

"You okay?" he asked.

I nodded, put on a brave smile, but I could tell he could see right through my phony act.

"Sorry, I know that was a bad question to ask," Claude smirked.

There was a silent moment.

"Ok this is going to be even worse, but Jake told me how, well, you ended up with him, and I don't think you heard," Claude stated.

"You mean how Edward died?" I asked and Claude looked down, "It's okay, I want to know."

Claude sighed and began, "You two were crazy in love then Victoria came back to you, around the time you would have been in Italy facing the Volturi, I calculated. Edward died fighting her off. Going to Italy saved him, allowed him to be more prepared.

"How so?" I asked not quite getting how Victoria could defeat Edward, I couldn't accept it.

"Well ever since your eighteenth birthday he had been torn up that he wasn't good enough for you and that you deserved better, that was another thing, him leaving convinced you both that you couldn't live with out each other. When he fought Victoria he wasn't thinking straight and the other Cullens were attending to you," Claude explained.

"Me?" I asked.

"Yes, you had called Victoria," Claude explained.

"WHAT?" I asked, so confused.

"You wanted to be changed so badly, you knew Victoria was following you, so you let her bite you, Alice foresaw it and came to your rescue before Victoria killed you, but you were already changing. Emmett and Rose were holidaying in Africa and Carlisle was too busy attending to you after that, Esme helped. Alice, and Jasper did their best to help Edward fight of Victoria even though she had a smaller army of newborns, but Edward's life was lost," Claude explained.

"You got all of this from one conversation with Jake?" I asked the first thing coming to mind.

"I went back in time, remember," Claude explained.

"So I killed Edward?" I asked, not expecting an answer, the pain rushing through me again.

"We are going to get him back," Claude said holding me now.

"I killed him, I KILLED HIM," I started screaming.

"STOP I HAVE A PLAN," Claude yelled louder, shaking my shoulders.

"What?" I asked feeling small and helpless.

"I think I know some one who can help us. I have been doing a lot of thinking. I just tried before; I can still time travel, so all we need is for some one to be able to manipulate the past again. Remember how past Edward read present Edward's mind?" Claude explained and I nodded, choked up at the thought of Edward.

"Well, his power worked through the time barrier, now all we need to do is find some one who's power involves minds and can work through the time barrier," Claude explained.

"That sounds impossible," I answered.

"I know, a lot of things can go wrong, it might not work, but we have to try. Now we have to find her," Claude said.

"Her?" I asked.

"Oh yes, sorry, I really should explain the second part to my plan. We need to find Caterina," Claude said as calmly as if he was asking for a dollar, not a miracle.

"Caterina?" I asked.

"Well, yes, she must still be around, and she can put thoughts into peoples minds, maybe through time too," Claude smiled.

"How are we meant to find her, we don't even know a tracker, why I wouldn't know where to start, what if she uses her mind thing on us and doesn't want to meet us, what if se isn't alive any more…" I started hyperventilating; there were way too many things that could go wrong.

"Bella!" Claude stopped me.

Just then some footsteps could be heard further in the woods. Claude and I both got in our crouch positions, ready to face the person approaching, and they were going way to fast to be a human.

The scent hit me before he appeared, phased in his human form, Jacob stood shirtless before us in the small clearing, his face torn at the sight of Claude. Any one would have jumped to conclusions, and that's what Jake did.

"Bella, please don't do this, the only reason you like him is because he reminds you of him. We can be happy together, I know we can, just please come home," Jake pleaded, giving Claude some death stares that made me fear for his safety.

"Jake, you will never believe me if I tell you the truth," I started and Jake shook his head.

"Don't lie to me Bella, just don't," Jake said walking closer.

"Jake, I love you, but as a brother," I said and Jake fell to his knees.

"Bella don't leave me for him," he begged.

"JAKE! You don't belong with me, and I don't belong with him. I belong with Edward and you belong with Nessie!" I blurted out.

"Nessie?" Jake asked clearly confused.

"My daughter," I stated, Jake's eyes growing wide.

"It's a long story…" I began.

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After we had finished explaining to Jake what had happened, and Claude had taken him through time to prove our story, it was all silent, and very awkward.

"I am sorry Jake," I said knowing it would be a lot for a guy to find out his wife never loved him.

"No, its okay," he said drawing aimlessly in the dirt with a stick as he sat on a fallen tree's trunk

"So we need to find Caterina, can you help?" Claude asked.

"Sure," Jake nodded, "Just one thing."

"Anything," I said, literally meaning it.

"Were Nessie and I, you know, happy?" he asked.

If I could cry, tears would be welling up in my eyes. The thought of her beautiful face, those eyes, just sent me crumbling. But Jake needed me; he needed to hear these words.

"You and Nessie, I can't even begin to explain. When you imprinted on her, it was magical, you couldn't stand to be away from her, and she loved you back just as much. You were every thing to each other, a sibling, a best friend, a boyfriend, a husband. Whatever she needed, you were it," I said choking up on my emotions.

"We need to find Caterina right away," Jake said standing up, "Do you know if she owns a credit card? Has done any thing under her full name, what is her surname?"

Blank.

What was Caterina's surname? Jones, Smith, Cullen, no before Cullen, Edward's maiden name, sort of…

"Masen," Claude answered for me, but I could not recall ever knowing that.

"Yer, Masen," I agreed, not wanting to alarm him.

"Well, let's go," Jake said running through the forest.

And we followed.

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