So so sorry I haven't updated my home internet has been down so I haven't been able to post, ive been reviewing from my phone :( hope you like this one…

Lauren stared down at the little girl finally resting against her chest, Joey was right she did look like a very small version of Rosie. Both Lauren and Joey were surprised that Lauren had been able to hold her, but they had been assured that she was healthy enough. She still had a while to develop but they were confident she'd make a full recovery.

Joey laughed slightly, noticing Lauren had frozen when Eva had wriggled against her. "Babe you can move you know, she won't break" His fingers brushed through her hair gently grazing over her cheek every now and then.

"You don't know that… I don't wanna hurt her and make things worse than I already have done" the whispered words were something she'd repeated a few times over the last 20 minutes or so. Joey moved so he was kneeling in front of her, his expression quite sad at the thought they had to be so cautious with their own daughter. He knew Lauren was still trying to come to terms with things. Joey had had slightly longer to process the information and so knew their situation wasn't as bad as it could have been, no matter how many times he tried telling this to Lauren, she still wouldn't believe him.

"I'll never forgive myself if she doesn't get better Joey" Lauren angrily wiped the tears from her eyes "Eugh look at me I'm such a mess" she laughed gesturing to her face.

"Oi now listen to me…" Lauren turned her face away from him the tears still falling; she shook her head to him biting her lip. "Lo, Look at me… look at me" his finger gently tilted her head so their eyes met "Listen to me Baby, you have to stop blaming yourself for this. This was not your fault Lauren, you kept her safe and in that amazing body of yours for what… 34 and bit weeks, you should be so proud of yourself for that babe, especially with the problems you had with Rosie. None of expected this to happen" He paused briefly seeing her staring at him, absorbing his words, Eva was still resting against her chest but she'd pulled a blanket over her attempting to warm her slightly.

"The only person to blame here is Derek, and he's going to go to prison for this Lo" she nodded unsurely at him. Joey knew it wasn't a firm acknowledgment on her part but it was a slight improvement none the less. "and as for Eva, I won't lie to you babe and say everything's perfect because you know as well as I do that it's not, but the doctors are confident she will get better, she just needs time to develop more, she's already breathing by herself and she's only 24 hours old, you have to believe me Lauren we will make sure she gets better"

Lauren took a deep breath in her body falling further back into the wheelchair. " I believe you" Those three little words sent his heart soaring, such a simple sentence and he knew she was starting to accept things. If she hadn't meant it she wouldn't have said it.

"Good Because I mean every word" He kissed her softly on the cheek, feeling them heat as she blushed and smiled at the contact "Love you Baby".

"Love you too" she smiled up at him as he pulled the chair closer to her and Eva.

A few minutes later the nurse came over to them. "Are you ok with her for a bit Longer Lauren or do you want to pop her back into the incubator?"

"I'm ok with her, if it's safe for her to be like this ?" Lauren looked at her smiling gently

The nurse nodded to her "as long as she's warm she's in the safest place- with her Mummy. How did she feed earlier?"

Joey answered knowing Lauren was feeling disheartened that Eva hadn't had much from her. "She was ok for a few minutes but she didn't take much" He squeezed Laurens hand reassuring her

"That's not a problem, It was just something to try, Premature babies struggle with a few things at first and feeding tends to be one of them, they find it difficult to suckle and breathe at the same time that's why for now, we are tube feeding her too. You breast feeding though Lauren is really good for her; even if she only takes little bits direct from you it encourages the suckling"

"Can she have my Milk through the tube? I want to do all I can?" she looked from Joey to the nurse and then down at Eva.

"That would be brilliant Lauren, I can arrange for you to express the milk between feeds but I'd like to continue with her going to your breast as well if that's ok with you?"

Lauren eagerly nodded "Would it be alright if Joe Held her?"

"Of course, If you go and wash your hands again for Me Joey and I'll get Eva sorted for you" Lauren slowly shifted the blanket from around her not really Looking at Eva but trying to stem an embarrassing situation forming. "I think you're doing better than you think Lauren, Eva's fallen to sleep" The nurse slowly Lifted the tiny baby from Lauren wrapping a clean blanket around her.

Joey was quickly sitting back in the chair besides Lauren as the nurse showed him what to do, his muscular arms cradled her, in Laurens arms she looked small but now in Joeys she looked even smaller.

The door opened and Tanya made her way back in "Lauren you doctor say 5 more minutes and then she wants you back" Lauren nodded as she leaned into her mother's side.

"Can you bring Rosie in tomorrow please… I miss her" In all of the events Lauren had really missed Rosie and she wanted to have a little mother and Daughter time.

"Of course darling… you alright?"

"A little tired, can you take me back to the room please?"

"Il take you baby" Joey signalled the nurse to take Eva back but Lauren protested

"No you stay with her, please I want you to, I'll see you later" she squeezed his hand as Tanya stared to wheel her out

"Ok babe, Get some sleep"