DISCLAIMER: I do not own of JK Rowling's wonderful work, only the characters that you may not recognize from the original story.
"There's always that one person who will always have your heart..."
James sighed as he got ready to head to breakfast. As each day passed he felt Lily growing closer to him, except it was as if she still galaxies away. She was just in his grasp, yet miles away.
Everything that he had ever hoped for seemed so distant without Lily by his side. He knew what he wanted. What he desired. Nothing was possible without the red headed girl that he so dearly adored.
Early morning brisk brought inspiration to James as he stepped onto the quidditch pitch with the rest of his team. He looked up at the screaming fans, looking for only one person. Smiling as he saw the mass of red, he knew it was her. Everything now would just be a blur. For his heart was full knowing that the girl whom he adored was here.
The match began with little fuss. Ravenclaw was playing rough today, but James would not have any of it. He respected this game and felt playing rough was degrading to quidditch. Many times over James had told this to his team, looking around he was happy to see that they too, like him looked disgusted at the other team.
Grabbing the quaffal, he shot off to the posts with his fellow teammates at his side and ravenclaw's close behind. James watched as Sirius constantly was swinging his bat trying to get rid of the ravenclaw's off James' tail.
He passed the quaffel and watched as his teammate Alison smoothly through it through the hoop.
Soon the game was on in full swing. Ravenclaw was beating them by a mere twenty points. James shouted at his seeker, making the guy almost jump off his broom, to fly around and find the snitch. He wanted to get off his broom and spend time with his friends, mostly Lily. James sighed realizing that maybe he was growing up. He wasn't much into winning anymore.
Another seventy points scored by ravenclaw occurred within the half hour it took for the gryfinndor seeker to grab the snitch. Still winning, James was happy. But felt defeated that they only won by forty points. Next they would be playing against Slytherin. James promised himself that he would do whatever it took to defeat them. Never would he be able to hold his head high if the Slytherins beat them.
The Sunday before the end of October found third years and up roaming around Hogsmede to get last minute pieces for their costumes for the upcoming ball. Together with the Marauders, the girls found themselves inside shop after shop picking up pieces of garment.
Marcy and Remus departed from the rest of the group wanting to spend some quality time together alone. Both had purchased the remaining parts of their costumes and headed to a more secluded cafe.
"I'm hungry!" Sirius whined.
Lily rolled her eyes. "Sirius, we ate lunch like two hours ago. Can't you wait for dinner?"
Sirius looked at the head girl in disbelief. "Uh, no! That's still two hours away. I'll be skin and bones by then!"
Kela grabbed Lily's arm. "Fine, we're going to the Three Broomsticks. I want some butterbeer anyways."
"C'mon mate. You heard the lady." James said towards Peter who was enticed by a manequin in a tutu.
"So anyone gotta hot date for Friday?" Sirius asked the other four with him. This question was loaded in so many ways. Firstly, it would help his best friend to see if he had any competition for the girl of his dreams and also to see if the girl Sirius had a thing for would be going with anyone.
"Yes." Both Lily and Kela spoke at the same time. Within that second two hearts were broken.
Sirius raised his eyebrows. "And who might you two be going with?"
"I have a really hot date. Smokin'. Best I've ever seen!" Kela smiled.
"But you aren't going with me." Sirius joked.
"Yeah, mine is irresistible. No one can keep their hands off them." Lily smiled.
James and Sirius exchanged looks, trying to figure out which two individuals the girls were attending the ball with.
"Who?" James asked.
"Why my dear Lily of course." Kela batted her eyelashes at the boys.
"And I will be with Kela." Lily took a sip of butterbeer. "Best lookin' date I could ever have."
Both boys let out sighs of relief. Happy to know that the girls would not be there with anyone that thought they had a chance with the two beautiful gryfinndor girls.
"Ready?" James asked stepping out of his room seeing Lily sprawled on the loveseat with a stack of books in front of her.
Lily closed her book and grabbed for her shoes. "Yeah, just give me one second to put these on."
James watched intently as Lily slowly tied her laces. He thought about how even the simplest thing made Lily look ever so beautiful.
"Okay, I'm ready."
Slowly the minutes ticked by as James and Lily wandered the corridors making sure no one was causing any mischief within the walls of Hogwarts.
"Favorite color?" James asked. They had started this game of favorites just a few days before after it seemed there was nothing left to discuss. Well besides the personal things.
"Purple. You?"
"Red." James responded automatically looking at Lily's hair.
Lily felt self conscious by the way James kept on looking at her. "Uh, favorite number?"
"8. You?"
"12."
"Favorite country?"
"To live in?"
"Sure."
"England definitely."
"Mine would be Spain."
"I've never been there."
"You should go some day. You'd like it. Though you'd have to always cover up from the sun. Don't want your pretty skin getting all red." James laughed.
"But don't you like red?" Lily teased. The words were out of her mouth before she had a thought to process them.
James looked at Lily, realizing that thee Lily Evans was flirting with him, James Potter. "True. So when we go to Spain together you're just gonna stand in the sun the whole time."
Lily laughed, lightly shoving his arm. "Ha ha!"
James smiled. What a good night this had turned out to be. "Are you ready for the ball?"
"Yup. Just finishing up a few minor things on my costume. You?"
"Yeah, Sirius and I finished our costumes a month ago." James laughed.
Lily giggled. "Of course you two did."
"Hey! That was rude." James was in heaven.
"It was honesty."
Wednesday felt like it would take forever to pass. Kela sat beside Lily in transfiguration, watching as slowing the minutes ticked by. It felt as if each minute was at least two minutes long. The week was only half over, yet she was ready for Friday night, when she was going to spend the whole night with her friends, making some of their last memories at Hogwarts.
"Lily!" She whispered.
"What?"
"Have you spoken to James yet about you-know-what?"
Lily's face began to match her hair. "This is not the time to discuss that!"
"Just do it Lils'! He's totally smitten with you!"
"Ladies!" McGonagal turned around from helping another student. "That does not sound like silent work to me! What is so important that you must discuss it in my class?"
The two gryfinndors turned to look at one another. "It was.. It was.." Lily began.
"Girl stuff." Kela finished. "Sorry Professor.
Professor McGonagal's face softened. "Very well then. Please discuss it after class. Now to your work."
James sat in the head room alone finishing up the last of his essays. He sighed not believing that he was actually doing all his work. Never before did he realize how much work this was. But he thought to himself. He wanted Lily to see that he had changed, and by doing all his work and not hexing others was a good way to show it.
He struggled with the last two concepts but finally completed it. Feeling accomplished James got up and looked out the windows that faced the school gounds. He looked around taking in the view. He didn't know quite it was that was changing him. He turned around to look at the heads room, his eyes landing on Lily's door.
He gulped in knowing the answer to his own question.
'Only two more days to go.'
Looking around her eyes caught on the top of James' head as he was bent over a parchment concentrating on it. She looked curiously as to what he was doing. Lily studied him, not realizing that Sirius was watching her watch him. He was even tall in his chair and his hair was definitely unruly. But she thought, 'I guess that's what makes him James Potter.'
"Mate, don't look up, but Lily-flower has been starring at you intently for the last five minutes. If I knew anything, I would think that she fancies you." Sirius whispered discreetly to his best friend.
James smiled. "She still?"
"Yup. Oh wait no. Marcy's talking to her now. You can look up."
James raised his head to see Lily talking intently to Marcy about something. "She sure is gorgeous."
"So I've heard..." Sirius muttered.
A/N:
Your reviews have been amazing! I love you all! Okay so here's the thing with my man. Yes I am calling him my man. Cause he is going to be mine. Just wait, it'll happen. I promise! Okay, so we work together, went to school together and have LOTS of mutual friends. The most difficult thing is work.. You know how it is. People at work are WAY to gossipy. I know I shouldn't care what they think, but it just bugs me for people to talk about me, ya know?
Also.. So he might of asked me to prom.. Well here its grad. But yeah. And I said yes in some sort of context cause I was NOT SURE ABOUT HIM at this point. Totally freaked me out. Then I sort of.. avoided him. I know, WORST THING EVER! Then he was mad. But now we're good. And going skating :) :) as soon as I find my skates. My friends before were skeptical of him, but now I've been told I'd be stupid to not see what happens.
Okay so question:
Do you ever think that there's a point where something or someone can not be forgiven for the actions that they have obtained too? (I am definitely not talking about infidelity here.)
AND
Vulnerable: capable of being physically or emotionally wounded or hurt
Do you ever feel like if you open up to a guy your vulnerable to him, and that scares you so much that you can't be completely honest with him or even yourself?
Anywho XOXO,
Blondie :)