Hey y'all! So, this chapter is pretty long. I was going to post it earlier, but my five best friends and I hosted a party tonight. Literally 309 8th graders and Freshman showed up, everyone we invited came. It was pretty sweet. I, however, am one of the only people in the popular clique who likes Bones, oh well. I'll just keep telling them they don't know what they're missing! :)
I may or may not update tomorrow, depends on my schedule. I messed up my knee pretty bad so I'm off basketball for a week and a half. I don't have a photoshoot tomorrow either, but my besties want to go hang out at the mall tomorrow. So I guess we'll see what happens. Anyways, hope you enjoy this chapter! :)
Alas, another Bonesless Monday is coming upon us...
Temperance was sitting at the island in the middle of the kitchen, laptop and a paper with numbers scrawled on it in front of her. She wrote down another number and circled it, sighing.
"What's on your mind Temperance?" Stacey asked, walking out of the pantry.
"Well I'm thinking of starting school again soon and...I guess I'm just feeling a little bit overwhelmed." She confessed.
"Why's that?" Stacey questioned.
"Well, I want to do the majority of my schooling online because of Natasha. Only having to go on campus when its needed. I've been looking online for about an hour now and if I wanted a PhD in anthropology I'd need to go to school online and at a student center on occasion for about six years and four months. Give or take considering I'm planning on taking the maximum amount of semester hours. Then I started thinking about how I don't want to stay here for that long and live off of you guys while I go to school. Then I started thinking of moving out and if I moved out then I'd need money. To get money I'll need a job, and if I work full time I'll have to go to school longer. I'm just...Ugh." Temperance said, stress evident in her voice.
"I get where you're coming from Temperance. You want to be able to give Natasha a good life on your own in a short amount of time. If you really want to, you could move into the house Mark and I have been planning to rent out for the past couple of months. It's a bit smaller than this, only two stories. Both stories are very large and elegant though. The majority of it is already furnished, so you won't have to worry about that. You will only need to move your and Natasha's things there." Stacey explained, "Mark and I probably won't charge you rent. If we do it'll be very little. We want you up on your feet as much as you do. We'll help you out with your schooling as well..." She was interrupted by Temperance,
"But Stacey I don't want you to have to use all of that money on me. You've already helped me out so much I just...I feel...I feel like I'm being an obligation to you guys." This time, Stacey interrupted her.
"Don't be like that Temperance. Mark and I adopted you. You aren't an obligation, you're our daughter in both our eyes and the eyes of the law. We want to help you. Money isn't an issue for us, where as it would be for you. We can afford to help you, you wouldn't be able to afford school, rent, and childcare on just a part time job. Just let us help you. Please Temperance. We love you and that child so much, we don't care that we aren't your biological parents or her biological grandparents, we love you two." Stacey said.
"I...okay. Can you just make sure Mark is okay with it? I don't want you to make a decision without talking to him, then him get angry with you."
"Yeah, I can do that. I'm about ninety-nine percent positive he'll be okay with it though..." Stacey was interrupted by the door bell. Placing an unopened can of green beans down on the island, she walked across the kitchen and down the hallway to the entrance foyer. Opening the large elegant door, she gasped at the person standing there. She closed her mouth and smiled when she saw Seeley put a silencing finger on his lips.
"Where is she?" He whispered quietly.
"In the kitchen, sitting at the island. Her back is turned towards the archway, just go surprise her." Stacey said quietly.
"Stacey who was at the door?" Temperance yelled.
"Just UPS Temperance. I'll back in the kitchen in a few minutes, I need to give Mark this package." Stacey lied, giving Seeley a knowing smile.
Seeley crept into the kitchen, seeing Temperance's back turned towards him. He silently walked across the wood floor, then wrapped his arms around Temperance's waist. He felt her jump, then kissed her neck.
"I missed you." He whispered.
She turned around on the stool, a wide smile on her face. "Booth." She said quietly, falling into his embrace.
The couple sat there for a moment, simply enjoying being reunited with each other. Then Temperance got off the stool, and leaned her head up to catch his lips with hers. They kissed until they needed oxygen, then rested their foreheads together.
They stayed like that until they heard their child gurgling on the baby monitor next to the laptop.
"Where is she?" Seeley asked, his eyes lighting up just a hint more than they already were.
"She's upstairs, I put her down for a nap about an hour and a half ago. She's probably awake. You want to go see her?"
"Of course!" Seeley exclaimed, pulling Temperance's hand, leading her to the stair case. They walked up the stairs together, Temperance opening the door to her room. He shut the door behind them, following behind Temperance to the nursery. Temperance retrieved the gurgling child from her crib, speaking softly,
"Did you have a nice nap Natasha? You sleeping help me plan for school." she said, "Now no fussing while your father holds you. He's missed you very much."
She handed Natasha to Seeley, the child gurgling happily. She stopped gurgling and curiously looked up at the face above hers.
"Hi Tasha!" Seeley said quietly with a wide grin, "Daddy missed you!"
He kissed her forehead, then tickled her lightly, earning a squeal and gummy smile from the child.
"She's gotten so big Bones. She looks so much like you." He said.
"I do see a few of genetic similarities between her and I. She looks a lot like you as well." Temperance explained.
"Say Bones, why don't the three of use go out to lunch, then go walk around the park or something." He questioned, still playing with the child.
"Well, Stacey is already making lunch, but I don't she'll mind if we skip. Mark and Brooklyn are still here. Let me get ready, can you get her dressed please? She may need her diaper changed too." Temperance said, walking into out of the nursery and into her closet.
"Alright pretty girl. It's been awhile since your daddy has done this so go easy on me kay?" Seeley said to the smiling child.
He adjusted the child so her head was in the crook of his neck, her eyes focused on his left hand, her bottom being supported by his right hand. He walked over to the infants closet,
"What do you want to wear today Tasha? It's warm outside today, how bout this?" he asked the child, holding up a pink, white, grey, and black plaid cap-sleeved dress. He found a pair of tiny white sandals, and laid the dress and shoes down near the changing table.
He changed her diaper, then put her in her outfit. He walked out of the nursery and found a flower headband laying on Temperance's dresser. He slipped it on Natasha's head, making her dark curls look ten times cuter. Then he took out his phone, taking a picture. After being satisfied with a picture of her smiling he brought up his Instagram.
'I have such great taste in fashion. Tasha agrees :D' he wrote as his caption.
He closed the app and sat at the end of Temperance's bed, playing with Natasha, her tiny squeals making him smile.
Temperance walked out of her bathroom, changed and freshened up.
"You ready Bones?" He asked while making faces down at Natasha.
"Yeah, her diaper bag is already in my car, so we can just take it."
"Fine, but I'm driving." He demanded.
"But Booth, its my car!" Temperance argued.
"I don't care. I...just let me drive okay?"
"...Fine." Temperance said, starting to walk towards her door, Seeley followed behind her, carrying Natasha.
When they reached the bottom of the stairs, Temperance called out to Stacey,
"Stacey! Natasha, Booth, and I are going to lunch and then the park, we'll be back later!" She yelled, walking down a hallway to the door that led to the garage. Seeley strapped Natasha into her car seat, then climbed into the drivers seat. Temperance handed him the keys from the passenger seat.
Seeley drove to a restaurant a few miles from Temperance's house. He got out of the car, grabbing Natasha's car seat while Temperance grabbed the diaper bag.
"Here you hold her, I'll get the door." Seeley said, handing her the car seat.
They were seated almost immediately, and Temperance placed Natasha's car seat in the highchair that had been provided for them. Seeley sat across from Temperance at the long two person table they were seated at.
Temperance and Seeley picked up their menu's, their daughter focused on a bird flying outside the window. They sat in silence for a moment, then Seeley spoke,
"So Bones, when are you going to start college?" he asked, closing his menu.
"I want to start within the next month or so, but I was doing the math today, and when I finish school, she'll be nearly seven years old Booth. Seven." Temperance said, gesturing to their daughter.
"What's wrong with that Bones?"
"Nothing, I just...I can barely imagine her being a year old let alone seven years old."
"She'll be adorable and smart just like she is now." Seeley said, his words aimed at Temperance but his face looking at Natasha.
"Yes, she will be." Temperance agreed.
"Are you going to live with Mark and Stacey the whole time your in school or...?"
"Actually, Stacey is going to talk to Mark about having Natasha and I move into the house they've been planning to rent out further back in the neighborhood. Stacey said she wants me to live independently as much as I do. If Mark is okay with it, we'll probably be in there within the the next two weeks. When are you going to your station?" Temperance asked, suddenly looking sad.
"Well, I have a week off, then I'm going to a base in New York. I'll be able to visit on weekends here though, at least until I get deployed. That could be in a month, it could be in years. It just depends on my unit."
"I...I just hate this."
"What do you hate Bones?" he asked.
"You being gone all of the time. I get that it's...well it's your job now but I guess I just wanted you around more often. I mean, we have a daughter Booth, I want her to know who you are and how much you love her. I guess it's just hard now because she doesn't really understand..." she trailed off.
"She'll know who I am Bones, I'm her Dad."
"I know Booth but, you're haven't been here. She only knows who you are because I show her pictures of you and talk about you. If it wasn't for that Booth, she wouldn't know who you are."
"Are you trying to tell me something Bones?" he asked, slightly angry.
"No...Yes...I don't know. I know that you're her father, and you're so good with her. It's just...you're not around very much. I know you can't really help it but...I don't know Booth. I just wish you were around more often so that I wouldn't have to rely on Stacey to help me with her after I start going to school. Stacey helps me out a lot. I feel like that should be you, not her. She's our child. Not hers."
"Are you trying to say that I'm a bad father?" he questioned, becoming angrier.
"No! I'm not saying that at all. I'm just saying that I wish you were around more often so that I wouldn't have to rely on other people to help me with her."
"Well maybe you should've thought about how much your independence was worth to you before you decided to have a child."
"Well maybe you should've thought about wearing a condom before you had sex with me." she said bitterly.
Their argument was interrupted when a waitress walked up to the table, the two placed their orders, then sat in silence, thinking. Temperance was looking at Natasha while Seeley was looking out the window.
'She looks so much like him.' Temperance thought, looking at her daughter's face, 'I want her to have a good life, I want her to have a family. Why is that too hard to achieve? I just wanted her to have a father present in her life. Booth needs to realize that if he's gone all the time Natasha won't be able to fully comprehend their relationship until she's older...Why is this so hard?' she wondered, 'Because you're the dumbass who got pregnant at sixteen.' she heard a voice in her thoughts say, 'Stop thinking like that Temperance, she's your daughter. You love her, she loves you. She knows who you are, gets the bond between you and her. Don't let Booth ruin that.'
Temperance was pulled from her thoughts when Natasha began fussing a little bit, clearly bored. Temperance grabbed a rattle out of the diaper bag, and handed it to the child. Seeing the object make it's way straight to the infant's mouth, Temperance zoned out again. Her thoughts were cut off by Booth speaking,
"What's wrong with me?" he asked her.
"What do you mean Booth?"
"Why don't you want me anymore? We were just completely happy an hour ago."
"Booth!" she exclaimed, "I'm not saying that I don't want you, I do want to be with you..."
He interrupted her, "Yeah, for Natasha. Admit it Bones, that's the whole reason you gave me so many chances. If it wasn't for you getting pregnant we would've stopped talking a long time ago."
"Are you saying that if I hadn't of gotten pregnant that you wouldn't be talking to me right now?"
"You know what Bones, no. I wouldn't be. If you hadn't of gotten pregnant, I probably wouldn't want anything to do with you."
"Wow, thanks. You make me feel like I mean so much to you."
"Well sorry. It's how I think we would be right now if Natasha was here." He said bluntly.
"Whatever." She said.
"Please don't whatever me." He said, "You know Bones you've changed a lot since we were seniors."
"Who are you to judge me Booth?! You've changed too!" She exclaimed, suddenly angry.
"Oh really? How?" He asked.
"You went from being a self-centered jackass to actually caring about people. Then you started to realize that you wanted a better life then you had, you're attempting to fix your mistakes."
"I'm not attempting Bones, I'm going to fix them. The only one I can't fix is her." Seeley said irritated, gesturing to Natasha. Only when Temperance's eyes went dark with rage did he realize what he said, "Okay, that came out completely wrong..." he said quickly, only he was too late.
Temperance reached into her wallet, and slapped down a few bills for her food that had yet to arrive. She stood up, flipping the diaper bag over her shoulder and picking up Natasha's car seat.
"Bones don't do this..." Seeley said guiltily.
"I'm done dealing with you." She said angrily, beginning to walk out of the restaurant. Seeley stood up and went after her.
"Bo...Temperance please. Listen to me. That's not what I planned to say." He pleaded.
"Well thats what you said Booth. You know what? I'll get papers made so you can sign over your 'mistake' and you never have to lay eyes on her again." Temperance said, strapping in Natasha's car seat, and shutting the door.
"Please just hear me out!" Seeley exclaimed.
"I've done enough of that." She said, walking to the other side of the car to open the drivers door. She opened it, then felt him grab her arm, she turned around quickly, fire in her eyes.
"How. Many. FUCKING TIMES. Do I have to tell you DON'T. TOUCH. ME." She yelled at him, yanking her arm away.
"I..I.." He stuttered, being interrupted by her,
"Don't even try. I can make it so that you never see her again. I have that power. Don't you ever forget that." She spat viciously.
Temperance climbed into her car, hearing her daughter crying in the backseat, obviously not liking her parents arguing.
She started the car then started to close the door,
"What about me?" Seeley asked, gesturing towards the car.
"You can walk your ass home." Temperance said, then backed out of the parking space.
Temperance was able to make it all the way home before she broke down. When she walked in from the garage, she slammed the door, and when Stacey gave her a questioning look, she lost it.
She set Natasha's car seat down in the kitchen near where Stacey was standing, then walked into Stacey's embrace. Temperance was able to get the full story out through a fit of sobs, then her phone started ringing. It was Seeley. She threw the phone across the room over Stacey's shoulder, then started crying again.
"Temperance...Honey I'm so sorry. I thought that you two were doing fine, what happened?"
"We...We were talking a...bbbout...life I guess and things came out of both of our mouths that probably shouldn't have. I wasn't that up...upset with him for voicing his feelings until h...he said that the o...one mistake he couldn't fix in his life was h...her." she sobbed, gesturing to the child, "That c...caused me to snap. I just w...walked out. Then he came after me and said that his words came out wrong, and I d...di...didn't want to hear any of it, then I threatened to take her away from him forever. God Stacey, why am I such a bitch?"
"That wasn't a bitchy thing to do Temperance, he basically said that he didn't love Natasha by calling her a mistake. Do you want to go to court with him?" Stacey asked.
"No! That was just a in the moment kind of thing. I want to be with him Stacey. We just always fight. She doesn't deserve that. You know what? Maybe I should've just had an abortion. I should've known this would happen, I knew he was trouble. I guess the joke is on me now, now my daughter won't have a father." Temperance cried.
Stacey put Temperance at arms length, and looked her right in the eyes, "Temperance! Listen to yourself! Don't you dare say you wish she wasn't born. You and I both know that you love that little girl more than life itself. Even if Seeley isn't involved in your life, from what I'm hearing you deserve better. I love the boy to death don't get me wrong, but if you guys aren't right for each other you're just not right. You don't deserve to be miserable just because you wan't your daughter to be happy. A child is happiest when both parents are happy." Stacey said, then pulled Temperance back into an embrace.
Seeley had walked the four and a half miles to his grandpa's house. He walked in, his eyes red, and slammed the door.
Hank was in the living room, some game show playing on the TV. When Seeley walked in, he immediately knew something was wrong.
"Okay Shrimp, before you go run and hide upstairs, what's got you so upset?" Hank asked.
Seeley's eyes immediately filled up with tears again as he sat down on the love seat, "Bones and I...we...we broke up." He said, his tear filled eyes looking into his grandfather's saddening ones.
"Now just how did this happen?" Hank asked, shocked.
"We...we both said some things that we shouldn't have." Seeley said, wiping tears off his face with the back of his, "I...I didn't mean to say this, but I said that the only mistake in my life I couldn't fix was Natasha. I didn't mean to say it like that Pops, honest. I just...god I'm such a dick. I basically said I didn't love Natasha when she was sitting right there. Then Bones started threatening to take Natasha away from me forever, but that wasn't even the worst part. The worst part about this is though Pops? When Bones opened her car door, Tasha was crying. That just...that broke me."
"Seeley...I just...I don't know what to say...I...I'm speechless. I thought that you and Temperance were solid."
"I thought we were to Pops but...god. I just...I don't know anymore Pops. I just don't even feel like living anymore. What just happened, that's the way Mom and Dad used to fight. And just the fact that Natasha was sitting right there just makes it ten times worse. I swore to myself I wouldn't let her see that and...I couldn't do that."
"Seeley, I am not going to let you sit here and talk about killing yourself. From what it sounds like, you should talk to Temperance..." Seeley cut him off,
"But Pops I tried to call her already! She either ignored my call or threw her phone or something. She hates me, I just know it. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going upstairs." Seeley said, standing up from the seat.
He walked up the stairs, then Jared came out of his room, "Not now." Seeley said, walking into his own room and slamming the door. He flopped down on his bed, clutched his pillow, and sobbed.
A few miles away, Temperance was doing the same thing. After her and Stacey talked, Stacey offered to watch Natasha for a bit while Temperance went upstairs to have another cry.
The two sobbed into their own pillows, in their own beds. Deeply craving the touch of the other.
Well thats it for tonight y'all! I'm SO freaking tired from that party. I literally danced for three hours straight, surrounded by 300 other hot bodies. I'm glad literally EVERYONE showed up though, I have the best of friends :) Anyways, hope you enjoyed this chapter, PLEASE review and if you have an Instagram, follow my Bones Fan Page: theobsessionwiththebones . THANKS! :)
