A/N: I do not own Boys over flowers.

To my wonderful readers: MIkaelv, KImmy95, PUrvlet, Michi5463 -thanks for everything. Sorry for the delays of the updates, been busy with the graduation ceremony and stupid tests! Somehow I've only got 2 months left for reviews before i could take my boards exams for liscensing, so iam still quiet busy. How are you girls? anyways i will do try my best to update.. Well here it is chap 21. hope you like it.

Chap 21: Need or Want

Time is upon her and Chu Ga eul was trying her best to be optimistic about the said event – their wedding day. Everyone is extremely excited, everyone, her fiancé, her friends, and her parents. Everyone except HER. She couldn't get her fingers on it. She couldn't grasp the situation but somehow somewhere deep inside her heart, she knows that something is wrong. It wasn't the fact that she fell out of love for him. No, that is not is not the case at all, as a matter of fact; she loves him very much that she would do everything for him. But why is it? Why is it that she seems to be in doubt?

-Ga eul? – Her thoughts were sudden interrupted by JI Hoo's questioning stares. She gave him weary smile and sighs.

-Sorry. – She apologizes.

-You seem to be in deep thoughts. Anxious about the wedding? – JiHoo incoherently asked.

Ga eul smiles at his words; she forgot that it was one of JiHoo's talents to figuratively read people's mind. So she nods at him.

-Ga eul, we've known each other for more than a decade now and you're not very good at lying. Something is bothering you.

Ga eul wasn't surprised to his predicament after all Jihoo is the most observant of them all. Especially that for this past few weeks, all she did was faked a smile and force herself to be excited about the event. She gave out a deep sigh and averted her eyes to the sky, thinking.

JiHoo knew something was bothering Ga eul, he'd seen it in her eyes. The look of being lost, her fake and force smiles, her lack of enthusiasms with regards to the subject. He was no expert when it comes to brides but he knew that they tend to be more involved and excited than the groom. But Ga eul is not, that is why when she called him earlier today for a cup of coffee at her garden, he immediately cancelled his appointments at the hospitals and freed his afternoon. He waited for her to say anything as he looked at the sky too.

-… I am very fortunate am i? I have everything I need. I have a kind, loving family, trustworthy friends, an empire to take over, a happy life, an amazing perfect fiancé that loves me. And most of all, God granted my wish and that is to be love by YI Jeong. But why is it that I feel so incomplete? Why is it .. that I'm feeling this way. –

Ga eul closes her eyes, and sighed. She gazes at Jihoo trying to see his reactions but she saw none instead he remains still, his eyes still looking at the sky. She realizes this gesture and continues.

-I hate it Ji Hoo. I hate what I'm feeling right now. I don't understand any of it. I love YI Jeong. I love him very much and ever since I've realize it, I've always wanted to be with him. I've devoted my life for him with the thoughts of marrying and spending the rest of my life with him. And now that everything seems to worked out the way I hope them to be, I am … - She gave another sighed.

- … I am miserable. …

She tried to control the shakiness of her voice as she felt the tears in her eyes. She hated herself for being this way. She hated it but somehow she just can't ignore the heavy burden in her heart. She needed to vent. She needed to get it out of her system.

-… I don't know what to do? – She cries, pouring her feelings away.

-You're in doubt… about the wedding. You're not ready. You don't want to get married. – JiHoo's words broke her trance and she gasps. Astonishment displayed in her eyes as he laid it out in front of her and just like that she snaps.

-Oh no! No! What am I doing? This isn't happening! I am sure of it. This is what I want! This is what I've always wanted.

-Ga eul, let me ask you this, what if, … what you thought that you wanted is not really what you needed? There is a fine line between needs and wants but one way or another that thing that we needed the most is what matters.

Jihoo held her hand and she sobs.

-He loves you Ga eul. He will understand. Whatever it is that you decided, whatever is the answer to that question, do not forget to consider his feelings; he above everyone else should know.

With that said and done, JiHoo stood up and plants a kiss on Ga eul's forehead before leaving.

-..JIHoo.. – Gaeul called out to him, still crying.

He stops on his tracks.

-Thank you. – Gaeul says between sobs.

-Tell him as soon as possible Ga eul. Tell Him.

-o0o0o0o0o-

-Hi Ga eul.

-YI Jeong, I have to see you.

-Miss me already? Hehehe. It's okay, I miss you too. Dinner? My place?

-Dinner is fine.

-Okay, I'll pick you up—

-I'll see you there.

-Okay, Bye sweetheart. I love you.

-…I love you too.

Yi Jeong brightly smiled after their phone call ended. He immediately instructed his secretary to cancel all his meetings and called Junpyo, Jandi, Woo bin, Jaekyung, Seo Jin and JiHoo to invite them for dinner. He has plans on surprising his fiancée by preparing dinner for her with the help of his friends; and of course for a get together too. Delighted by his thoughtfulness, they all agree to it and promise to help him out.

Right on the dot, all of them arrived at his mansion with bags of groceries for dinner. The whole afternoon was spent for cooking, baking, and preparations of the unusual gatherings tonight. Everybody seems to be having fun except for Jihoo, who was in deep thought; somehow he had this strange feeling that tonight is going to be the night where Ga eul has to break the bad news to Yi Jeong. As sad as he is for what was coming to his best friend, he can't do anything but to support Ga eul's decision and to be there for YI Jeong. He had somehow pictured the end results of tonight's main event and that includes a devastated YI Jeong and a heartbroken Ga eul. He didn't know how did it come to this but some things happens for a reason.

-Hey JiHoo! What's up with the gloomy mood bro? – Woo bin sat beside him and pulled his white tank top to wipe the sweats of his face.

-You're imagining stuffs again Woo bin. How's the meeting with the parents?

-Everything's great. As a matter of fact mom and Jae went out the whole day yesterday, don't know where they went but Jae wouldn't tell me.

– I'm happy for you Woo bin. – JiHoo chuckles and playfully punches woo bin's arm.

-Hey, what about you and Seo Jin? When are you proposing man!

-That's a surprise.

-Oh come on Ji Hoo! –

-Woo bin! Get your ass in here! And you, JI Hoo what are you doing? Are the both of you slacking? – Seo Jin reprimands them with an angry expression on her face. Sensing World War II coming, Ji Hoo instantly stood up and walks towards Seo jin with a nervous grin on his face, followed by Woo bin who was scratching his hair.

-o0o0o0o0o0o-

After her talked with Ji Hoo, Ga eul had finally made a decision. And as soon as her nerves were calmed, she called him right away. She needed to see him. She needed to tell him. Upon hearing his voice, Ga eul suddenly felt her heart shattered into pieces that she wasn't able to control the tears in her eyes. They just flowed endlessly that after the call ended, Ga eul cried harder than before.

It was already 6pm when she woke up, without realizing that she felt asleep while crying her heart out. She hurried up and immediately takes a shower to refresh herself. She wears a simple pink floral knee length dress with white cardigan.

Thirty minutes after, she arrives on his mansion, welcome by his butler. She fidgeted; nervousness took over her as she allowed the heavy emotions envelop her. Her heart beating rapidly as if any second now it will explode into tiny pieces and just as she saw him waiting for her in the garden, her eyes started to water.

Yi Jeong was standing in front of a wooden gazebo, situated in the middle of his garden (Jandi and Jae kyung's idea) decorated with white and blue Christmas lights (SeoJin's). He was smiling brightly upon her, wearing his signature dark blue 3 piece Hugo boss suit.

Each step was getting heavier as Ga eul tried suppressing the excruciating pain she's currently feeling right now. Somehow at the back of her mind, she manages to convince herself that this is what she needed. And so with every ounce of her strength, Ga eul held his gaze and looks at him straight into the eyes. Without realizing it, they were now face to face and YI Jeong happily gave her a kiss on the lips. Ga eul closes her eyes and felt the softness and warmth of his lips, flowing through her veins. She cherished and engraves this moment in her mind as she fights the urge to cry.

As their lips touched Yi Jeong's heart swells of joy. The kiss was the most powerful thing that rocks his well-being. There is only one girl that can make him feel this way and it's only Ga eul. His Ga eul. As he closes his eyes at the same time his arms encircles around her waist pulling her closer to him; she snakes her arms around his neck; holding on to him tightly. Tightly, that he suddenly felt the indescribable sensation, a feeling of sudden pressure in his heart that cause panic in his being. He doesn't understand why but the longer their kiss lasted the more painful it is for him. He squint his eyes trying to throw away the weird feeling.

They broke the kiss for air but their faces remains close to each other. YI Jeong saw her eyes still close and he knew something isn't right. His suspicious were much more pronounce when she didn't open her eyes instead she shut it tightly and embrace him, not letting go. He embraces her back but this time only for a brief moment. He gently pulled away from her and gazes on her face.

-What's wrong Ga eul? – YI Jeong hesitantly asked while studying her.

She didn't answer. He opens his mouth once again to say something but what he saw completely surprised him. Her eyes were still close but this time there were tears falling out of it.

-Ga eul, what's wrong? Why are you crying? – His panic voice alarmed her as she realizes that the tears she tried to control were no longer possible.

… To Be Continue …..