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The month of March flew by quickly without any change and the beginning of April soon arrived together with the long sought rays of sunshine. I sat with together with Lily and Alice out in the warm courtyard trying to catch some sun.

My eyes were closed, and I could make out the sound of shoes tramping on the pavement.

Everything just seemed to flow right now and I could make out a vague feeling of happiness.

'This is what life should be like, just mashing in the sun all day' said Lily dreamy gazing at the people that had now started to play a game of exploding snaps.

'Wouldn't that be nice' sighed Alice as Lily started to sing a song, which I had never heard before but I decided that I liked. 'Wouldn't it be nice if we're older, then we wouldn't have to wait so long. Wouldn't it be nice to live together in the kind of world where we belong' she stopped at the sight of me and Alice's unchanged faces.

'C'mon, it's the Beach Boys' she shrieked but we just shook our heads and Lily mumbled something about wizard's and witches should get more acquainted with muggle music.

There was a moment of silence where we just sat still breathing in the humid air.

'What do you guys reckon James is up to in Dumbledore's office' Lily asked and Alice and I couldn't help but to giggle – it was clear that Lily was more curious about James then she wanted to let people to know.

'Maybe they're up to some top secret group or something' Alice joked.

'Ha, James Potter saving the world that's comedic considering that he barely can move with that big head of his' replied Lily in a mockingly voice.

'Okay, maybe then Dumbledore is giving him secret advice on how to cheat against the Slytherin's for the coming Quidditch match' Alice suggested

'That's more likely. OH, maybe they're having a knitting class' Lily reflected

The idea of Dumbledore together with James in the headmaster's office teaching each other different types of ways to knit made my stomach feel like it was bubbling.

'Or, maybe, just maybe they're just having a chat?' I suggested and a silence occurred again but was broken of by all three of us shaking our heads and said 'Nah'

*

I often found myself thinking about what would happen to my family, I knew that it was really silly but I couldn't help it, since the death of Mary's mother there was an air of tenseness between the students. You couldn't help but to wonder if the next person that the Head of House would inform that someone you knew had been murdered would be you, and that terrified me.

I sat at the Gryffindor table together during the dinner, it was a calm breezy night and the ceiling in the Great Hall showed of a dark sky with twinkling stars, it had a calming effect.

I didn't feel much like eating today and I only took some bites of the steak and kidney pie from my plate. Remus gave me some worrying glances but I choose to ignore them.

Beside me James and Sirius where having a deep conversation about the colour of the robe which Dumbledore was wearing tonight.

'It's a orangey red' said James determined

'No, it's more like a deep pink' reflected Sirius gazing to the teacher's table where Dumbledore was sitting and was in a discussion with Professor McGonagall

I felt a rare rush of boredom, and restless in my whole body.

'Becky?' It was an rasp voice that had called out my name behind me and I turned around, I was met by Erin's green eyes and I gave out a annoyed groan. What did she want? I was repulsed by each movement and every world that she said now and I just wanted to her to say, whatever she was going to say and leave me alone.

Six years with her was enough, as I recalled all those times where she bossed me around like I was her doormat and I felt proud over myself for actually tolerating it for so long.

She blinked at me as she fiddled with her stupid blonde hair. I wondered if the clones had thrown her out.

'Well, I just wanted to say sorry for treating you so bad this year' Erin said in a pompous voice that didn't fit in with what she was saying.

I couldn't help but to frown at her words – this year? Then what about all of those other years where she treated me worse than a mosquito, had they all magically disappeared?

I didn't say anything for a couple of moments; I just gave her a hard stare. What was I supposed to say? I'd never forgive her but the thought of a confrontment made me nauseous and my whole body shake. 'Fine' I said coolly and turned my head around to look down at the rest of the steak and kidney pie.

Erin gave a light cough.

'I was wondering if you wanted to go with me to the next Hogsmeade meeting?' Erin asked.

How dared she?

'Becky is already going with us next Hogsmeade meeting' Lily said and shoot a killer look at Erin. This wasn't true of course but I was happy to have Lily defending me and I smiled at her thankfully.

More and more people were now silent and the looks had turned to me and Erin, making me feel very uncomfortable.

I just wanted this over.

'Well, uhm – maybe then you could help me with the History of Magic homework?' Erin asked carefully and this made me fume with anger. I couldn't believe what she was saying. Did she really think that it be all over now? I just couldn't get myself to act like the person that she made me be again.

'Erin. Throughout my life I have been dealing with people like you that feel bigger by making people like me feel even smaller and you know what? I'm sick of it. The thing is, someday far off you might see your faulty with treating people like you do, and until then there's no chance that we'll ever be friends again' I snapped and took a deep breath. I couldn't believe what just came out of my mouth.

I felt relieved, it was like my chapter with Erin had finally ended. Everything felt much lighter and I felt proud, then realisation hit me as everyone looked at me and I started to shake frantically and I started to feel sick.

In hysteria, I raised myself from my seat, grabbed my bag and left the room with big steps as I felt the eyes of the others in the back of my head as finally, what felt like ages came out of the Great Hall and walked rapidly up and through the corridors until I arrived in the library.

At this time of day, not many people are in the library and I passed the empty tables, and the shelves.

I hadn't plan to go here, it had just happened, I kept on walking in the library until I had gotten to the end where no one rarely was and I sat down on the window pane, my hands placed around my legs and I gazed out on to the dark silhouette of the forbidden forest.

It wasn't like me to create a scene like that, or to snap at people. I tended to keep it all to myself but this time it just snapped for me. I had the right to do that, right? I mean, Erin expected me to come back to her so I could be her dummy once again, and I didn't want that.

A part of me was proud for what had happened and another couldn't believe what had actually just happened.

It was like something had just ran out of me, and I felt tired but tired in that sense when you have worked too much and actually contributed to something.

My eyelids felt much heavier then they had before, and I closed them so that everything went black and I went into daze.

I was woken up by hearing steps coming my way, and I rubbed my eyes tiresome.

I soon recognised the dark hair, as always perfect in place, the grey eyes and the Gryffindor uniform which Sirus always wore more casual than most, with his tie hanging carelessly tied, one or two buttons more unbutton than it was supposed to. He goggled me for a moment and than sat down next to me.

'That was brilliant' he said and could feel my cheeks starting to burn, 'Thanks'.

'I'm proud over you. That couldn't be easy for you to do 'the words felt like they stayed there in the air for one minute.

My eyes looked straight in to his.

'No it wasn't' I said honestly 'But it felt good' I said and Sirius smiled.

I was starting to think that The Marauders may be a bad influence on me.

*

It was a cold rainy day, yet all of the students of Hogwarts was outside, gathered and were intensely watching the Gryffindor vs Slytherin match.

I was standing, leaning over the rail, and draped with a Gryffindor scarf around my neck together with Remus, Sirius and Peter. The score was a tie at the moment and everyone stood in excitement waiting for one of the seekers to get a hold of the snitch,

I could make out James flying on his broom, and I have to say I admired him for having so much passion for a sport.

The Slytherin's were also chanting and screaming loudly, although their tactics was more like coming up with chants to undermine the other team while Gryffindors was more in the spirit of the team.

I have to admit, whether I liked it or not that I found this match thrilling.

'And Slytherin's Wilfurd just scored' Said the voice from the speaker, and the Slytherin' s gave out a big roar while we others continued in a hopeful anticipation to watch the game.

The suddenly there was a drastic change in the game, when Williams ( Gryffindor seeker ) had seen something in the air, probably the snitch as she went into a dive. Of course, Slytherin's seeker Keds saw this and he immediately dove in behind her.

They were at each other sides, both plunging for the snitch, then Keds started to shove his elbow into Williams' elbow, making all of the Gryffindors go in to a 'Bu'.

Williams was starting to lose her balance by this, as Keds continued stopping her from getting the Snitch that was just in front of her.

There was a silence hanging over the stadium now, as if uttering a word would break a jinx.

Gasping for air, I saw how Williams miraculously gained back her balance and stretched her arm out for the snitch then in a moment of just seconds, Keds had kicked her so that she fallen of her broom, she wasn't high up in the air, but enough to create a heavy fall.

The silence broke of by everyone around screaming, Slytherin shouting 'Go Keds' and Gryffindors trying to grab the attention of Madam Collins.

I was confused as the Gryffindors had suddenly started to rant and cheer. My eyes went to the pitch where Williams had landed, she was sitting, her clothes covered in mud that the rain had made the ground but in her hand a small golden ball was.

'GRYFFINDOR TO THE FINAL' I heard the Hufflepuff boy say.

'Admit it' Sirius, said as he turned around and looked at me.

'Admit what?' I asked

'That you enjoyed this game' He said, and I couldn't help but to smile ' I did'.

We started to make our way out in the crowd, I felt uncomfortable in it, there was way to much sweat and scream and I was afraid of getting in between someone.

We had just arrived outside the pitch when Sirius stopped.

'Becky, there is something I want to show you' Said Sirius and pointed at the different directions than the others went back to the castle.

'Sure' I said confused and I looked for Remus, who was standing in front of me. 'Uhm, Sirius wanted to show me something, so I see you in the common room' I said and he nodded as Sirius quickly grabbed my hand.

We went past all the people going out of the pitch, but instead on going to the stands we went under until we came into the pitch.

I couldn't possibly make out what Sirius was going to do and then he let go of my hand to run to the other side of the pitch and when he came back he had a broom in his hand.

'I was thinking of making you take a ride around the school'

Everything about the idea was wrong, dangerous and outrageous. I remembered the flying lessons in my first year and how I, after many lessons finally got 1m in the air where I had lost all my balance and felt down on the ground.

'Sorry, but no' I said

Of all the things I had expected, this was not it.

'Do you trust me?' He asked softly and I started to frantically fool around with my hair.

'Well that is just, completely…irrelevant' I said under my breath.

To my surprise, when I thought about it; I did trust Sirius and that shocked me because I'm not one to trust people easily and it made me feel relaxed knowing that I did.

'Is it?' He said grinning, as he placed the broom between his legs.

My head was frantically debating with is self. It was dangerous and would probably end in disaster but it seemed kind of exciting at the same time.

I was shocked at myself for even considering it.

But what was the worst that could happen?

OH merlin, I'm starting to think like a troublemaker.

Without thinking, and while shaking I sat down behind Sirius at the broom.

'When I say speed down, then speed down' I said clearly, and in a voice that didn't fit in with the panic I was going through.

'It's a deal' He said, and he took my arms and put them around them. I started to breath heavily as he shot his feet up and we were in the air.

The higher we got and the more speed we gained, at first I started to get panicked by it and I was on the verge of screaming 'go down' as we were 10 m over the ground and the Quidditch pitch just got smaller and smaller as I buried my nails into Sirius robes.

It was still raining and I feel every drop landing on my body

Then suddenly, as Sirius got more speed we flew more rapider than before, but instead of getting nervous a sensation hit me – I was still scared to death but I enjoyed it, and as I looked over the Forbidden Forest I started to understand better why James liked it so much.

The wind that blew into my face, felt soothing.

I almost felt disappointed when we closed in on the pitch again, after have flown two times around the castle and I felt my shoes touch the muddy grass.

For a time we just stood there, still, I felt out of breath and it felt surreal.

'That was dangerous, frightening and completely reckless' I said, and Sirius turned around to look at me.

'But you enjoyed it?' He asked, with a small grin

'Yes' I admitted.

First of all, I'm going to clarify somethings. I will continue with this story and even though it's currently a Remus/OC it's going to be a Sirius/OC in the end. =D

So yeah, considering all of the amount of Remus/Becky in the lasts previous chapters I decided to get a little of Sirius/Becky action now.

Sorry about the time, but as said, I have moved so it has taken sometime to update. (= anyway, internet is ... kind of working here. We have signal in like one room ( which just happens to be mine so that's great ) and on one computer and it's goig to take until August until it be fixed )

And yeah, The chapter is in honour of Micheal Jackson ( hence the title )

I have to say, you guys are all tooo sweeet. Thank you for all the good luck with the move and the AMAZING words. I really appreciate it and it means a lot. So thank you guys for reviewing, favourising, alerting and reading.

Oh. I was going to do a Rose/Scorpius but I'm going to do a Oliver/OC now instead because it's Summer and the story is set during the Summer so decided to make a Summer Story;p xD I will publish it in the coming days, like tomorrow...or the day after that ( whatever day that is...Monday I think? Anyway ) so check it out ;) But this story will still be my main project and I'll update a lot faster now.