For a few days now her and Kylo had been training with sabers. He'd been very cautious to agree and she knew he worried Hux would be prowling about the base, waiting for a chance to pounce. But Rey had been relentless in her insistence to continue her training. She wanted to keep her mind off her father – to keep herself distracted. Ever since she'd discovered the truth, everything seemed dreary and duller.
The thought that she was one step closer to being alone in the galaxy made her sick to her stomach. Everyday on Jakku she had thought about how her father was probably still out there, wandering, waiting, wistful. The truth had stung more than any wound she'd ever been inflicted with. It was the type of pain that refused to leave her, the type that wasn't healing as fast as she desired.
It was silly – she'd never even known the man, but she was his flesh and blood – and he'd still protected her. He'd made the ultimate sacrifice to keep her safe, to keep her from being killed or worse – being converted into a monster. Rey couldn't help but feel grateful toward him. Thinking about the injustice that occurred filled her with overflowing sadness. Part of her realized that if Snoke had taken her as his apprentice, Ben would never would've been a target, and things would have been quite different. She might have been the one Ben would have called a monster.
Kylo had been right, thinking about what happened to her father, about what Snoke did – it had been pushing her closer to the Dark Side. All she had been focused on was wanting revenge, about how she couldn't wait for the day they would meet in battle. Her body had ached for the chance to fight the Supreme Leader – and with all the ferocity her body could muster she would destroy him.
The idea had run rampant in her mind, and it might have consumed her if Ben hadn't intervened. He'd reminded her of her true pursuit: being a kind, compassionate person, about finding Luke and returning balance to the galaxy. Maz had told her a similar thing – Maz had given her the guidance she'd needed.
The belonging you seek is not behind you, it is ahead. Those words rang in her head quite frequently. That she had to look to the future because thinking about the past wasn't worth crying over anymore. Part of Rey wondered if Maz had been alluding to Ben. If somehow she had known they would meet and balance each other's worlds.
Ben was one of the few things that was holding her together now. He was trying very hard to keep her chin up, reminding her of who she truly was. Without him she would be grasping to recover from her pain – he was making sure she wasn't suffering alone. Everyday Rey hoped Ben would consider the Light Side as more of an option. Rey knew it would too arduous for her to survive on her own, especially since she'd just had a taste of heaven, which involved being locked in Kylo's arms.
It was starting to get very late, and Rey was sitting on the edge of the bed, patiently waiting for Kylo to finish brushing his teeth so they could curl up and go to sleep. It was odd how much she craved sleeping in his arms now, there was something protective in the way he held her. She was getting the best sleep of her life, before her nights involved her being painfully restless. Now she slept through the night like a baby – unaware of the perils of the world.
Finally Ben left the bathroom, in his usual thin black t-shirt and light, soft pants. Rey watched him pad over from the bathroom toward the bed. There was something very coquettish in his eyes that made her smile. Ben laid down on the bed and Rey instantly pulled herself next to him so they were facing each other. Their hair was starting to mix as they laid on the same pillow together.
There was nothing better in the world than looking into Ben's dark brown pupils and watching the dim light glitter off them. She was obsessed with his perfect black hair, and when she looked hard enough she could see hues of a chocolatey color which intrigued her. Had it always been there, she wondered.
She'd been completely oblivious to how Kylo was observing her with an equal amount of curiosity. "How are you so beautiful?" He asked her, his tone seemed thoroughly perplexed. "You don't even seem to try."
Rey smiled. "I'm glad you find my lackluster attempt to look radiant very inspiring," she repressed a giggle as her hand went forward to stroke his cheek. That's when Rey leaned in and her lips collided with Ben's.
Kylo kissed her aggressively as if he could never get enough of her. Rey could feel Ben shiver as she responded with her own brand of passion. Wickedly, Rey nibbled on his bottom lip and every once and a while she would tug on it.
She felt Kylo put his hands on her hips and pull her closer so their bodies were pressed so tightly together. Part of her wished they were even closer so that she could feel his bare skin against hers. Without warning, Kylo broke their kiss – Rey felt his tongue travel down her neck. His hot breath tickled her skin, which sent chills traveling down her spine.
A soft groan of pleasure left her lips as Kylo left soft licks and kisses behind her ear. She loved how gentle and fierce Kylo was when it came to kissing – it was paradoxical but he was still somehow was making it a reality.
"Ben, I want you in the worst way," Rey whispered as he continuously left kisses on her neck. As the words escaped her she felt Ben freeze amidst his lips brushing over the nape of her neck.
"Do you mean that?" Ben replied in a tone as soft as her own.
"I meant every last word, Ben," Rey couldn't help but mimic how he had told her there was no way he would ever give up on her. For she would never give up on him, and there was no man in this galaxy she wanted more than him. "I want you in every way."
She reached down and curled her fingers around the hem of Ben's shirt, and she swallowed heavily as she tugged it upward. Since that prison guard had said Kylo Ren had an eight pack, that Kylo Ren was shredded – she had been dying to know the truth. Her eyes widened when her gaze rested upon the spectacle that was Kylo's chest.
Her hands reaching up to press flat on his chest; she couldn't even repress the need to run her hand up and down his smooth, muscular body. From what she was seeing, the rumors had been accurate, Ben was most definitely shredded as waves of muscles rippled beneath his skin.
"Like what you see?" Kylo's voice cut through her awe, she was aware of the cheekiness in his tone. Rey had to fight hardily against blushes that were threatening to ravage her cheeks.
"How? How are you so fit?" Rey asked stunned – she was still a little bewildered how Ben could be so physically fit.
"When I wasn't looking for Luke, I was working out and honing my skills," he admitted. Rey felt Kylo grab onto her arm and pulled her so close that she could feel the heat from his chest soaking through her own clothes.
Deftly he pulled off her belt that had been tightly attached to her hips. She had nothing beyond her breast band on underneath her own gauze wrap and shirt. Never before had a man seen her in her naked form, but she wanted Ben to be the first. Ben was ravenously removing her clothes, and as her gauze wrap, shirt and breast band hit the floor, Rey could feel the cold air of Starkiller Base biting at her skin. For what felt like the hundredth time she was cursing this base for being so damn cold.
Once again Kylo crushed her mouth with his, and their bare chests collided. The heat from his skin was fueling her desire as she kissed Ren with equal fervor. She felt Kylo put both hands on her sides so he could them up and down, as if he was memorizing every curve of her figure and the way she felt under his touch. Quickly, Rey wrapped her arms around his neck and ran her fingers through his thick, angelic hair.
Ben's mouth glided from her lips and down her neck as he left a fiery trail of lascivious kisses which only stopped at her breasts. He cupped one of her breasts while attending to the other with his tongue. Kylo circled her areola with his tongue before sucking the whole thing into his mouth with a soft rumble. His hand teased at her other peak, drawing multiple shudders from her body.
Rey was becoming attuned to a little nudge at her abdomen and glanced down to see that he'd gone hard, that his manhood was prodding her. Seeing that sent a shiver of fierce desire straight down her spine.
It was quick, but Kylo was working her pants off as fast as humanly possible. Rey assisted with helping him and then they both pulled off his pants together. She found her own breath caught in her throat as Ben's erect sprang from his pants. It was large and loved just looking at it – it was new intriguing and she wanted to become well acquainted with Ben's manhood.
Rey's observations were broken as she felt Ren's hand between her thighs – she knew there was a vast wetness at her womanhood. One that only Kylo Ren could bring out in her. Ren's dexterous fingers teasing her entrance – Rey could feel the pleasure pulsing throughout her entire being, even her toes were tingling.
She watched in eager anticipation as he lowered himself down her body, and as he went he left kisses across her abdomen, hips and thighs. Finally Rey could feel his breath tickling her inner thighs and it was exhilarating. This time there was no teasing. He attacked her center with all the suppressed passion of the last three weeks. His tongue danced feverishly across her pearl and his hands methodically caressed her upper folds.
Rey's back arched and her hips lifting off the bed. With desperation, her hands clutched frantically at the sheets. A bone-tingling wave of delight swept over her – it started at her center and spreading out through her limbs, until there was nothing but Kylo Ren and the delicious feeling of his tongue against her exploding nerves. With a moan, Kylo sucked her nub into his mouth and flicked the tip with his tongue. Nothing had ever prepared her for the feeling of his tongue working magic on her.
He continued in his patterned of licking and kneading for a few more seconds and Rey could feel the heat building in her lower abdomen. It wasn't long until Rey was driven over the edge, and felt herself being torn into a million pieces. She came around the tip of his tongue, her walls clenching as her whole body trembled pleasantly. His hand stilled upon her and he let out a loud groan against her lips, tearing his mouth away.
Rey was panting as she desperately tried to catch her breath – she had hardly noticed Kylo sit up and work his way over her. When Rey finally gained her focus back she was looking directly into Ben's eyes. There was a very primal, almost carnal gleam in his stare that caused shivers of excitement to run down her back.
"Are you protected in any way? Or do I need to..." She could feel the tension in Ben's body as his gaze raked up and down her naked form.
She knew what he meant, and her eyes diverted away from his. "Unkar Plutt forced a birth control implant in any girl he could find. On Jakku you have to pay him to have it removed, it's an evil, lucrative system, but we have nothing to worry about."
His eyes darted over to her arm – Ben nodded his understanding for he must have seen the implant under her sun-touched skin.
"Is this what you want?" He asked tentatively. There was a small crack of uncertainty in his confident facade.
"Yes," she muttered between heavy breaths. "I want you, Ben. I want you in the worst way."
"It might hurt a little," he murmured, leaning down to kiss her lips unchastely. "I will be gentle."
"I know you will," she whispered as she kissed him back with zeal.
His cheeks were flushed red, and his whole face tensed into a harsh look of concentration. She felt as his hand ran over her skin and worked its way down her abdomen – and she watched as he readjusted his body.
She saw him reach between her thighs and guide his manhood into her cinching, wet warmth. Nothing in the galaxy would have prepared Rey for the unexpected fullness of Ben's erect inside her. A small gasp escaped her lips as Kylo edged his hips forward. She gripped onto Ben's arm as he thrust a little deeper each second. It wasn't long until he was moving in and out in a slow, steady unrelenting rhythm. Her own hips started to move with his body a little more. It had been very painful in the beginning but the more Ben moved inside her, the more intimate and pleasant the feeling became.
"Tell me if I should stop and I will. I don't want to hurt you," he murmured to her.
"No." Rey shook her head, still holding his to his arm as if for dear life. "Please, don't stop. I need you..." she reassured him between little soft moans.
Ben's pace quickened as her sequence of throaty moans did. Rey could feel Kylo driving himself into her body with a new manic rhythm She couldn't deny how much she loved the fiction of their bodies sweat, and skin together. She knew he was very close to finding his pleasure within her.
Her back arched, her hips began to buck and her muscles began to tense. Rey gripped even tighter to Ben's forearm for support. Black and blue spots began to shoot into her vision as she was on the brink of the peak of her ecstasy. Rey moaned out Ben's name as she was at her tipping point. Her own climax sent him over the edge. She felt Kylo's cock throbbing as his seed rushed into her and she heard him call her name with a sensual, gravelly moan.
Sweaty, breathless, and exhausted – they both went limp. Carefully, he rolled off her and laid next to her.
"I hope it was a good first experience for you," she heard the doubt and he almost sounded self-conscious in his questioning.
"Ben, it was great, because it was with you," she whispered right into his ear. "I've wanted you for a long time."
"I know, when I first took off my mask during your interrogation – I knew were attracted to me because I was reading your thoughts. They were quite... Intriguing," he started to laugh and she could feel his laughter reverberate against the bed.
"You cheeky, bastard," Rey chuckled along. But Ben's voice cut her chuckling short.
"But in all honesty, Rey, I don't think I can live without. I need you in my life, and I won't ever let go of you." Rey couldn't help but smile from his words. Her feelings for him were equally reciprocated and it was elating. Knowing the truth was like a hot wave of relief was washing over her, knowing that Ben craved her the same way she craved him.
It was almost instant, but she felt Ben curl his body around her. Peacefully, Rey entwined her legs with his as they both started to drift off toward sleep. She listened to the steady sound of his breath and was acutely aware of the heat his bare skin was radiating against her own. It wasn't long until Rey was caught in a serene slumber.
[A/N]: Hey guys, I finally got one of the first real risque chapters out. Please give me some feedback and tell me what you thought. I was very excited to post this chapter, but at the same time also nervous since I've never written a true smutty chapter before so do tell me what you guys thought!
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