A/N: Well here is another chapter. I hope you guys like it and tell me what you think

Disclaimer...Just want to lay in my bed forever when I think I'll never own sweet Embry

I stared into his eyes, not really knowing what to do or what to say. The only sound heard was our breathing…and his pen taking against the clipboard he had on his lap.

Dr. Carlisle sat patiently as he waited for me to reply to his question, what his question was I still don't know. I've been just staring at him for about 5 minutes now trying to figure out what it was that he asked me as I thought about everything that's happened in the last week.

First, I have never felt so suffocated in my life. I was never alone so I never had any privacy, there was even someone in the bathroom with me while I showered. Their excuse was "what if you fell and couldn't get up." Of course it was stupid because I could have easily yelled for help and the fact that I was only allowed baths for a while meant I couldn't do much standing.

Second, I wasn't allowed to leave the house without someone with me at all times. It wasn't that they were scared for my life, well maybe they were a little, but I guess it was mostly because they were scared of what I would do with my new DNA. I guess they were scared I'd want to suck someone dry and even though they wouldn't tell me that out right, I knew that's what they were all thinking. There was always an eye on me and it made me feel like I couldn't be trusted so what was the point of having me around?

Thirdly, Jake was absent a lot. I rarely saw him when the sun was up and when the sun went down he would come in to eat then go straight to bed. I don't really know why he does that when he said that he would never leave me. I was always frustrated and grumpy and I think that had to do with the fact that Jake always seemed to be in a sour mood whenever I saw him. I tried talking to him on several occasions but he would always just huff and walk away to his room.

"I see you are having trouble concentrating, want to tell me what's bothering you?" He was so kind and I knew he was just trying to help me since he was really the only one who could help me right now. I sighed and took a deep breath, the tears coming easily to my eyes. I was just so emotional right now and it was so damn annoying.

"Everyone treats me like I'll either break or go on some killing spree. I NEVER have a moment to myself and when I do, I get nothing but attitude. My boyfriend can't even stand the sight of me or be in the same room with me for longer than a few minutes. I'm tired of everything and I've only been out the hospital for a week." I wiped at the stray tear and he nodded.

"When I first changed, I used to always get looks and it used to irritate me before I could get a hold of myself. I had to remember that I was different and even if no one knew how different I was, they would, to some degree, feel the difference in me. They're just worried about you, maybe they're scared that you have changed so much that you won't want them anymore." In a way he made sense, but was I so bad that my own family thought I would reject them?

"Don't they see that I need them now more than ever? I'm not just some silly little human anymore, I'm more. I never dreamed in a million years that I could understand what it is to be like my brother or like any of you, and now I get the chance to experience it. I want to live my life to the fullest because it could all be gone in an instant." I snapped my fingers to emphasize my meaning. "I just want everyone to stop treating me like I'm going to snap whenever I open my mouth."

Carlisle looked at me and scribbled a couple things down in his notebook. The room was quiet again and I enjoyed the peace for once because I knew once I left here I wouldn't be alone again until I went to bed.

"I want to take a few test and compare your results with the ones I did a week ago. I would also like your permission for one of my nurses to do a pelvic exam. I would like to do an ultrasound as well and maybe even a CT scan. I don't want to miss anything new with you and I also want to make sure I have done everything I can to make sure you live a long life. I would like to do these test once a month to see if there are any changes, is that ok?"

"Sure. I want to know what's going on with my body too. I'm all for thousands of test doc if it means that I can know what happening to me. Plus, I want to be ready for whatever is thrown my way and whether or not I have to tell Jake we'll never have kids."

"OK then, I'll check you into one of the rooms so that way you're not stuck in one of these emergency rooms all day. You'll have access to the cafeteria but I'm putting you on a diet, I want to know what food are agreeable to your new DNA and what isn't. So give it a few minutes and a nurse will be by to bring you to your room."

"Carlisle." He paused on his way out the room and looked at me. "Can we not tell anyone I'll be here all day. I just want a day to myself, I NEED this alone time even if it's a little scary." He nodded and gave me a sad smile. I know I needed someone to be here with me but I don't think I could handle another day with a herd of people watching my every move.

I say back in the chair and looked around the room.

I really did love my family and friends but I also loved my privacy and alone time. I guess I could always kick them out my house but I didn't want to hurt their feelings and I didn't want anyone to be mad at me. I figured once I got home we all needed to have a sit down and figure out some rules because there was just no way that I was going to endure being watched like a hawk for the rest of my life. And Jake and I would have to have a very long conversation about our new status and what would happen form now on.

If he couldn't handle being with me now that I was almost his enemy, then he was going to have to leave and let me move on because I deserved happiness. I really did want to be with him though and I did want to marry him one day and have kids but two of those options might fly out the window by the end of the day. I was not going to be the one to hold him back and be the one to never give him a family because he needed an heir to give the wolf gene too and to become alpha when Jake decided to retire.

There was just so much that needed to be figured out and I knew before I could figure out I had to know all the results. Today might take a toll on me but I couldn't have been happier to take them because not only my life and my future depended on the results…but so didn't the lives and future of my family, friends, and innocent people around me.