A/N: I really wasn't planning on updating, I know. Bad, bad girl I am. I'm sorry this took so late, but I was on my spring break and super exhausted- but here's your update, so you better not complain! The song is from Panic! At The Disco(Who I'm going to see at the House of Blues on Jun 17!) called "Always". Also make sure to go over to RoxyPony's page and check out TVF7, Viva Las Vampires! :)
I decided I really need to start this again- because I'm almost at 200 reviews! THAT IS MINDBLOWING! I'm so appreciative for every review and I'm so fortunate to get so many! So a thank you to my beautiful reviewers!
Slytherin Queen 1.30: Haha, I bet she wouldn't mind doing that! Boys, always trouble...
Jaa162: Thanks for the song suggestions! I'm glad I inspired you! I'll definitely keep an eye out for it!
MISSxMAGIC: Your reviews always make me happy, and they make me laugh my ass off! I'm glad
you liked it. Hmmm, I wonder whose side you're on- you don't make it obvious at all ;)
Jaa162: Great song, thanks for reviewing!
Ferretgirlsz: I know! Poor Ronnie, but thanks! :)
SUSHIxMONSTER: First let me say I've always admired your name- being a sushi monster myself ;) But thanks for the song suggestion!
Amela333: I love your reviews, they're always a great! But yes, I know what you mean, it's very sad! But updates are definitely coming again, now that my spring break is over!
Applefangz: Haha, a lot of people would like to punch Steve for being Steve! But I'm glad that you love OFL so much, I don't want you to die without your dosage ;)
Roxy: Thank you, broski ;)
Victoria: YOU LAZY GOOD FOR NOTHI- Just kidding, but- you need to start reading? What's wrong with you? ;P
Disclaimer: I only own what I own, I hate doing these so just read what I put in the earlier chapters.
The tears had stopped falling and once my legs had tired from running and refused to take me any further I found myself at a piece of earth that jutted out from the side of one of the smaller cliffs that wasn't even close to those we climbed leading up to the mountain. Since it wasn't as high as all of the others, I was able to put extensive fear of heights to the side, one of my legs pulled into my chest and the other hanging off the side. I felt like my whole body was numb, it felt as though it was humming like battery, the energy just radiating off my of my figure. My arm felt heavy as I lifted and tenderly placed my fingers on my lips where Darren's lips had once been. I relived what had happened so quickly, and relished in the glory that I felt in that moment- my stomach churned inside of me. I felt disgusting, and like the scum of the earth when I also felt the engagement ring on my finger. I now knew why I ran from the mountain, I ran from the mountain because I knew if I stayed I would end up in this position. I couldn't keep myself from Darren, no matter what he did to me- because I was stupid. I was one of those stupid girls that I used to wonder why they did what they did, the ones that you think are blind for not seeing what was in front of them. I was never one of those girls, when a guy would screw me over, that was it. I didn't have to have my friends point out the wrong in the situation and I was never one of those girls who would shake their head and almost laugh in your face as they said 'I don't care what you say, that's what I'm going to do', and then you're at the point of strangling them. I was always smarter than that. But I guess becoming a vampire with someone and going through the things Darren and I went through separates us from the Ken and stupid Barbie in high school who think that they'll grow up and get married. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. But fool me once and we've become practically immortal and drink blood and face obstacles together that you couldn't even dream of enduring- whose the shame on?
"Seriously, what did I tell you about your deep thinking? When you get in those moods you start to freak yourself out because you start to change your own mind. Hell, I think you could convince yourself the grass is purple." I nearly jumped out of my skin, because I didn't even hear the footsteps coming up behind me. My heart rate instantly started to descend when I saw it was Kade, her hand was placed on her hip and the other fell at her side. Her eyes were cloudy and the shadows from the night fell on her face making her look even more intimidating. She stood strong, as always and I envied the way she carried herself, almost with the ferocity of Arra Sails- minus half of the bitchiness and weird antics. Her smirk fell almost as fast as my heart rate when I didn't reply with a grin and a smart ass remark. Cassie followed behind her panting heavily and brushing hairs into place,
"I told you to wait for me, I'm not that fast. And I'm not frigging spiderman, I can't scale up rock walls like yo- whats wrong?" Cassie instantly asked once her eyes fell on me. I never was that easy to read, but these two knew me probably better than I knew myself. They were my best friends and obviously it didn't take them long to figure out something was wrong.
"Noth-" I started,
"Don't you dare say nothing, or I'll kick the living shit out of you." Kade's words cut me off, but her tone didn't match the words that came out of her mouth it was soft and concerned.
"I really don't want to talk about it," I answered, half honestly. Truth was, I just didn't want to talk about it when after the first couple of words came out of my mouth and then start bawling crying. Kade and Cassie would proceed to hold me in their arms as I bawled my eyes out and gasped trying to get out all the details- it was too time consuming.
"It was Darren, wasn't it." Cassie, as always, hit the nail right on the head. I shifted my eyes to look away from them and used what seemed to be all the energy in my body to lift myself up off the ground.
"I don't want to talk about it right this minute, okay?" I tried to keep my voice from sounding harsh, "I'll talk to you when I'm ready, just please drop it."
"Of course." Cassie nodded, Kade just shrugged her shoulders.
"We came here to tell you that Mr. Crepsley is awake and you have training now," Cassie began,
"That blows, you come back to your mentor and he instantly puts you right back into training." Kade cut in, Cassie shot her a look because she had obviously forgot there was something that was bothering me. Once again, Kade just shrugged it off.
"Son of a bitch," I groaned, I had totally forgot. The whole Darren incident had happened a little under an hour ago, and now I was going to have to go and stare him right in the face. Can you say awkward?
"C'mon Ron, hop to it!" Kade snickered and I playfully shot her the bird in response. I swear, sometimes I swore Kade was my twin with the smirks and smart ass remarks, it seemed we were always on the same page, it was never time to put up with bullshit on our schedules.
Darren's Point of View
I waited anxiously, sitting on one of the rocks that was off to the side of our clearing. It seemed as though the trees disappeared from this area just so that the moonlight could beam down on it, and it was the spot where stars were meant to be laid down and counted. Mr. Crepsley was starting to get impatient, fumbling with his sleeves as Ronnie walked up. My heart almost stopped, she avoided my gaze and I tried to stare at her until I could catch her eye, but she kept her eyes on the ground.
"Veronica, you must be punctual. I am not going to send out a search party every time you have training." Mr. Crepsley quipped, she muttered an apology and her eyes flashed up towards him quicky, I gasped in a slight bit of air as I caught sight of her eyes. The best thing about Ronnie had to be her eyes, they were a brilliant blue and they seemed to stab right through you- especially when something was wrong. But as fast as they were there, they were gone. Throughout our lesson, I had fallen and gotten injured more than any lesson before because I couldn't focus on anything other than Ronnie and the desire to just run up to her and kiss her again. But I couldn't she was with- I couldn't even think about it. It pained me to know that she was no longer mine, and not only was she no longer mine, she was with Steve. But Ronnie didn't falter as I did, she jumped, ran and attacked at an intense rate, abiding to anything that Mr. Crepsley barked out at us. She had grown stronger and had gotten insanely quick, she wasn't nessescarily the strongest, but she had the fastest movements and reflexes I had ever seen, she was agile- and almost close to remotely as quick as Mr. Crepsley. There was no way she could be even in our mentor's league, but speed and strategy were her strong points. She was taking out her frustration and anger and sadness on her tasks. I hated the pain that I caused her, I hated that she had to be in pain at all.
When the world gets too heavy
put it on my back, I'll be your levy.
You are taking me apart
Like bad glue on a get well card
There was nothing worse than knowing that like before I couldn't hold her in my arms and whisper to her that it could be okay. She was facing things all alone- and the thing with Ronnie is she refuses to talk about what really bothers her, and it eats her away inside until she cracks. You don't know what you got until it's gone.
It was always you falling for me
Now there's always time calling for me
I'm the light blinking at the end of the road
Blink back to let me know
I was always the one asking for more, the one who needed the help. The one who needed reassurance, the one who wasn't strong enough. But she always was at my side, she was willing to bend over backwards for me and even though I would do the same for it- she never asked me to. I was there when she needed, and I could tell when she was upset and would be at her side until she broke down- but she was always there. Always.
I'm a fly that's trapped in a web
But I'm thinking that my spider's dead
Lonely, lonely little life
I could kid myself by thinking that I'm fine
I couldn't go through this without her. The days when she was gone were the darkest days that I had ever endured. I had thought of ending it quickly and finding a clan of Vampaneze and having them rip me to pieces. I tried to keep up the act Mr. Tiny told me to uphold- but inside it was killing me.
It was always you falling for me
Now there's always time calling for me
I'm the light blinking at the end of the road
Blink back to let me know
That I'm skin and bone
Just a cane and rusty throne
All the castle's under siege
But the sign outside says 'leave me alone'
It was always you falling for me
Now there's always time calling for me
I'm the light blinking at the end of the road.
Blink back to let me know.
All I knew is that if I felt this way about Veronica Dexter, there was no way we could be apart. And I would die before I let her be with Steve, because I knew that wasn't where her heart lied. I knew that it didn't make her happy- it couldn't, because without her I wouldn't have a heart. And without a heart I would just be what she kept me from becoming all these years. An animal. Memories must haunt her sleep like they do mine, thoughts of me must keep her awake at night like the thought of her does to me- right? The pain in my chest was sharp and hard, there's nothing worse than thinking about someone 24/7 and not knowing if they think of you at all. But all I did know, was it was Ronnie or die.
A/N: Holy tits, that was a long chapter! Not my best, I think, but I really wanted to use the song because I think it fit perfect to Darren's situation with Ronnie. The next will be more- eventful. So REVIEW, whose gonna be the 200th review! 200... wow.