A/N Ur gonna hate me!
Seth's POV
My best fucking friend in the whole world was in a fucking hospital bed, struggling for his life after a vampire attack on the fucking Canadian border.
He wasnt breathing. Circulation was cut off by venom.
He couldnt talk. Throat and voice box were infected with venom.
He could move. Fucking venom paralyzed his muscles.
He was loosing blood quickly. There were bite marks all over his body, exposing his veins.
He couldnt even fucking scream out in pain to at least give us reassurance that some system on his body was functioning. All of us-the whole pack, imprints, the council, etc- were here waiting outside the hospital room that I was in just a few hours ago.
No one could meet each other's eyes.
We didnt have to say it aloud but we were all thinking the same dreadful thought.
What if Jacob didnt make it?
My first thought was Baby Doll who was fast asleep in Sue's arms, looking grumpy attributed to being woken up at two-something in the morning to come to her father's death bed.
How was Leah gonna explain to her that Daddy was gone and was never coming back?
Oh my goodness.
Leah?
What the hell was Leah gonna do?
He was part of the main reason she even came back to La Push!
So what happens then? Jacob dies and Leah packs up and returns back to her miserable life as a single, depressed mother who barely has the strength for herself let alone her daughter?
Leah-who arrived about an hour ago-had her head on my shoulder, tugging my arm for support as Carlisle hauled ass to save her true love's life. I could only imagine the light leaving his eyes as the heart monitor let out that eerie beep telling us that the body was no longer live.
To shake such images from my mind, I kissed my sister's head and she only sighed.
Time seemed to be my enemy right now.
Billy-who looked the calmest of us all-was just sitting in his wheel chair, looking at the ground as if there was some kind of story the tile was trying to tell him.
He had experienced this type of torture of having to wait what seemed like hours for a doctor to tell him someone he loved with all his heart had left Earth. He knew what it was like to just sit there agonizing only to be told the worse news anyone could hear.
First his wife. His beautiful wife.
And now his son. His only fucking son.
The only "good" I could think to come from any of this is that Jacob would get to see his mother again. The women who gave birth of him and left his world so quickly at the young age of six, Baby Doll's age.
I tried not to stare as he shifted his arms to cross in front of his chest.
My mother met my eyes in that instant and I could only flutter my lashes to keep from tearing up. I heard Rachel sniffle her tears and Paul coo to her to calm her down.
I swear to fucking God that if I lost my best friend over a coven of unknown hungry vampire just passing through for a quick snack, shit was going down and it was not going to be pretty.
La Push wouldnt be the same if we lost him.
This was almost the same thing when my dad passed but I was at home when Sam came over and broke the news to us.
The silence only made everything worse.
Id rather hear him screaming and begging to die than hear nothing at all! Who know, he could already be dead and Carlisle was just trying to figure out a way to break the news to us.
Without even realizing, a tear ran along my nose and down to my chin. I reached to wipe it but then took my hand back surprised to see and feel a hundred more tears had already fallen from my eyes.
I wiped them quickly and began to pray, vowing to myself that I wasnt gonna let my best friend die tonight.
Leah's POV
"If I couldn't feel your touch...And no longer were you with me. I'd be wishing you were here to be everything that I'd be looking for I don't wanna forget the present is a gift and I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me. 'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed..."
My grip on my brother's arm intensified as every second passed.
"So every time you hold me old me like this is the last time. Every time you kiss me, kiss me like you'll never see me again. Every time you touch me, touch me like this is the last time. Promise that you'll love me. Love me like you'll never see me again..."
A tear fell from off my nose and I rubbed it off quickly.
How many really know what love is? Millions never will. Do you know until you lose it? That it's everything that we are looking for. When I wake up in the morning, you're beside me. I'm so thankful that I found. Everything that I been looking for..."
The song replayed another six times before our wait was finally over.
Carlisle finally came out of the emergency room, blood-Jacob's blood-stained all over his nice clothes and doctor's coat.
I took my ear buds out and put my iPod away to hear what he was saying, almost preparing myself for the bad news but found some hope when he began to speak calmly.
"I cant drain the venom without draining his blood as well. I readjusted all his broken bones but his time is...limited."
"Can we see him?" Embry asked, his voice in a great gruff.
Carlisle nodded then scooted out of the way as we all filed into the room, watching us in sympathy. I told my mother to stay out in the hall with Baby Doll. I didnt want her seeing this.
The heart monitor was beeping very slowly with long, drowned out, silent space between.
Beep...beep...beep...beep...
We all surrounded the hospital bed, watching our pack brother die.
His skin was paling, losing its tan glow.
His chest barely rose and fell, showing that it was difficult for him to even breathe.
What have I done?
I took the first steps toward his sleeping body and leaned down to his face that was calm, with his eyes closed, and hooked up to all types of wires. It made me cringe.
"Jacob," I whispered and he didnt respond. My hot fingers caressed his cheek and down to his jaw, which had stitches along the edges that were fixing up the bite marks.
I gasped.
His skin was freezing.
Another tear fell from off my face and onto his arm and he didnt even flinch.
"Please dont leave me," I prayed to him, voice breaking with desperation. I didnt care if I was about to break down in front of the pack and council. I couldnt help but beg now.
"Jacob, Im sorry about everything I said tonight. I shouldnt have ever said what I did because it takes something like this to happen for me to regret it. Jacob, I love you more than you even realize and if you leave me tonight-"
I couldnt even finish.
My fingers laced through his as they just lie there by his side. From his shoulder down to his elbow and onto his wrist, were huge bite marks that had a white surface and a blue ring around each dent for each tooth. The bites were too big for Carlisle to stitch back up.
Seeing this condition up close made me turn desperate and needy.
"Jacob, dont leave me. Dont leave us," I said this referring more to his daughter than the rest of the res. "Don't make this family suffer like I did. Stay...stay with us."
One of my pack brothers whimpered.
It seemed like a million years of just staring at him passed until that sound on the heart monitor-that stupid beeping!-stopped and let out a continuous ring signifying that the body had no life in it.
Chief Swan might as well put me in cuffs and take me right to jail because I was a murderer.
All of us stayed silent and tried to process the tragedy that just occurred.
"Jacob?" I said dumbly.
He didnt move.
"Jacob!" I yelled at him more sternly this time. "Jacob Black, I know you hear me! Jacob, dont you dare leave this family. Jacob, dont even think about leaving me and Baby Doll and..and this baby! Our baby...our baby...dont make me raise this child alone...by myself...again..."
My voice ran low into a whimper and whine and it was hard to tell which way was up with all these tears in my eyes, drenching his arm.
"Jacob Ephraim Black, dont leave us...please..."
He just lay there, unresponsive to my begging and that's when it all hit.
Rachel's head was in Paul's neck, choking over her own tears and cries for him to come back. Paul excused themselves to the hallway, where I assumed he held her as she cried into his chest hysterically.
Rebecca just stared at her younger brother, no tears or anything as if nothing was real same as Billy, who had even removed his signature cowboy hat in respect.
"I didnt even get to become Mrs. Jacob Black," was the last thing I whispered to myself before everyone's head jerked up to the sound of an innocent little girl's worried curiosity.
"Daddy?" she whispered as her huge eyes glanced over her father. He didnt say anything. He couldnt say anything.
"Daddy?" she called again and she knew something was wrong by the way she eyed the sick look on his face and inhuman way he lay perfectly still.
"Daddy? Daddy!" she screeched at him and that brought Emily to tears so she excused herself as well. The young child's pain stricken face was identical to her father's just a few hours ago. Her eyes watered quick.
"What's wrong with Daddy?" she asked the remaining of us that were doing our best to keep it together. We couldnt answer her. We were still too shocked to even believe it ourselves.
I failed her when I turned my head away so she wouldnt see Mommy cry.
Sue rushed in at that moment and began apologizing. "Sorry, I fell asleep and-"
She stopped mid sentence when she saw the scene.
"My son..." she whispered to herself.
Baby Doll, horrified, began to whine aloud as she pleaded for an answer. "What's wrong with Daddy?"
Technically nothing.
"Mommy?" she was talking to me but I couldnt even face her. What can I say? "Im sorry, baby but Mommy's a killer."
Horrified, she ran right into Seth's arms and he swooped her right up, whispering to her that everything was okay. He went out to the hall as well.
My eyes couldnt hold them in any longer so that very second, I belted out his name whilst throwing my body over his and kissing his flesh in hopes he'd feel it and resuscitate. I hollered for forgiveness and my pack brothers tried to help me by holding me for comfort but I fought them all off.
"Im sorry, Billy! I killed your son!" Guilt was heavy in my voice as I screamed this at the man who helped create the now departed man that everyone knew and loved. Billy simply looked into his lap and frowned as if he hadnt even heard me.
"My baby is gone," I couldnt stop repeating it as I felt my own sanity slip.
...Somewhere else deep in the Cullen residence...
Was it possible for me to throw my idiot husband any harder around the room?
"You fucking idiot!"
"Baby, I-"
I tugged him but his ear and tossed him across the bed like he was a little bird and not a vampire. He tried to calm me down but I was so hyped! The lamp fell following the sound of the glass breaking as I chucked other items in the room at him.
"You fucking idiot! I told you to attack Leah! Not Jacob!"
"Baby, if you just lemme explain-"
"Explain this!" Like a pussy, he dove out of the way as I flipped over the whole mattress.
It crashed to the floor with the force of a herd of elephants and the sound of a roaring thunderstorm.
I specifically told that walking plant to attack and kill Leah! Not Jacob!
This dumbass runs after Jacob, thinking he's Leah and now he was dead! I cannot believe I sent my buffoon of a husband to do such a simple task that I couldve-shouldve- done myself!
Wanting this bitch dead was more work than I accounted for so now, I had to strike when she was alone. So when I inject my venom into her, I can hear her screech in pain and see the lights leave her eyes!
My goodness, that child was going to be parent less.
Well that wasnt my fucking problem.
Id spare Leah and her little family tonight what with Jacob's death and I want her to live with the pain.
But by midnight's fall, Leah Clearwater would be dead, once and for all.
A/N KEEP CALM and REVIEW...
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