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- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Jack's POV- - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
She stood there, staring at nowhere.
"Mel…look at me please!"
"Get out of here Jack" Her voice was low and emotionless
"Let me explain…I was going to tell you but I-"I tried to reach for her but she moved back
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" She screamed at me, her face was moistened because of the silent tears. I opened my mouth to say something else, but closed as soon as she turned her head away. I walked out, slamming the door but it didn't make a sound.
I opened my eyes scared but soon was relieved. It was just a bad dream… I squeezed my eyes to make sure I was really awake and looked beside me, Mel wasn't there. I sat on the bed and noticed her nightgown by the edge of the bed. It reminded me of the awesome night we had, what made me to smile. Now, where's she?
I noticed the bag with her clothes was gone. I opened my room door and heard the water going down in the bathroom. I went downstairs and noticed we were all alone. Evil Jack is taking over…
I opened the bathroom door as quietly as I could and got in. I spotted a black bag on the floor and smiled. Quietly, I made my way to the bathtub and opened the curtain all of sudden, I was expecting her to scream or to curse me, but I wasn't expecting…
"Fairy! What the fuck?!"
"Bobby?!" I asked closing the curtain as quickly as I opened it.
"No! Santa!"
"I thought it was Mel"
"Do I look like her to you? What's the matter? She had a real proof that you like dudes and left?"
"Shut up. Where's she?"
"I don't know, just woke up"
"What's in the bag?"
"My shoes, why?"
"Nothing… Damn!" I said while going out of the bathroom
"Jackie?"
"What?"
"Did I humiliate you?"
"What are you tal…argh! Fuck you Bobby!"
"Jack!"
"What?" I asked really annoyed
"Merry Christmas"
"Merry Christmas Bobby" I said while closing the door and heading to my room. When I got there, I put on a dark jeans and a red and black stripped long sleeve t-shirt. As I went downstairs, I found Ollie and Mel coming in by the front door, he was caring her on his back and she was singing, just like a big kid. I couldn't help but smile, that's one of the things that I liked the most about her, even being responsible, intelligent and stuff, she still managed to keep her childish innocence.
Keep on whispering in my ear
Tell me all the things that I wanna hear
'Cause it's true
That's what I like about you
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -End of Jack's POV- - - - - - - - - - -
Ollie carried me to the Mercer home on his back, I stopped singing as soon as I saw Jack smiling to us; I jumped off Ollie's back and went to where he was
"Merry Christmas Jackie!" I said before locking my hands behind his neck and placing a kiss on his lips. He wrapped his arms around my waist, putting me closer to him
"Merry Christmas Mel!" He whispered in my ear without letting go of me before kissing me deeply.
"Merry Christmas Bobby" Ollie said while giving Bobby a manly brotherly hug, which Bobby corresponded. Ollie did the same to Jack while I hugged Bobby. God! This arms…I know it's kinda wrong, he's my boyfriend's brother, but hell! It's not my fault that he has such…big arms!
"Let's call Angel and Jerry, other less Mel will die" Bobby said mocking of my hurry to open the presents.
"I already did. They are coming" I answered smiling and he laughed. Bobby sat on the couch along with Ollie, Jack and I went upstairs to his room.
"You gotta pay for something" Jack said while closing the door, while I sat on the bed.
"For what?"
"You went away without saying goodbye, I woke up and you weren't next to me"
"Aaw, I just went to wake my brother up and to take a shower"
"Still…"
"Last night wasn't payment enough?"
He smiled broadly and I laughed while lying down on his bed. He laid next to me and I rested my head on his chest. We stayed there in a comfortable silence while he ran his fingers through my hair.
"They are here!" Ollie said from downstairs and I jumped off the bed, what made Jack to laugh. We went downstairs to meet Angel, Sofi, Jerry, Camille, Amelia and Daniela. We all hugged each other and started exchanging and opening the gifts.
Ollie and I gave to Angel a special CD collection of 50cent, to Sofi a pair of big earrings hand made, to Jerry and Camille a table reservation in one of the finest restaurants in Detroit, to Amelia and Daniela a doll that had all the accessories to play with hair and make up, I bought one each, so they wouldn't fight over the toy. To Bobby, I bought a special limited edition of a hockey stick, it was five times stronger than normal, considering it was for him, I thought it'd be a very useful gift. To Ollie I bought a really cool Blackberry, using my money of course, I wouldn't make him pay for his own gift and that meant I was kinda broke. For Jack, well, for him I bought a CD organizer in guitar shape, so he could take his favorite CDs off the floor where they usually were. That was with Ollie's money, with mine, I bought a chain with a guitar pendant, on the back of it was craved 'I love you, Mel'. He smiled and gave me a passionate kiss after I handed him his presents. I put the chain on his neck and kissed him on the cheek. When Sofi gave him his present, Jack said
"Thank you so much for the advanced one"
She laughed "I hope you enjoyed it"
"You have no idea!" Sofi laughed again, so did Jack and I.
Bobby handed Jack a box "Here's something you can actually use…" Jack opened the package to see that it was a box of condoms "…With who it's your problem"
"At least you bought the right size, extra large" Jack answered amused and everybody laughed.
"Will you shut up man?" Angel asked looking over to Jack
Now it was finally my turn to receive the gifts. I got new clothes from Angel and Sofi, according to them a new journalist needed new clothes. From Jerry, Camille and the girls I got a brand new digital professional camera and a big shoulder bag to carry all my stuff to university. Bobby gave me a purple pocket-knife with my name craved on it, he said that besides being extremely useful, it could help me in some issues with the pervs from uni in case I needed an extra help and he weren't there. He also gave me a plushy ladybird, what I thought it was extremely cute of him! I don't know why he nicknamed me after a bug but I thought it was sweet no matter what, something rare to see from Bobby Mercer. Ollie gave me the coolest laptop I've ever seen! It was a compact one, so it'd be easier to carry around and I could change the skin if I got bored with it. It was very stylish with purple flowers on a black background, the other two skins were blue and red flowers, and he said it was perfect for me since I get sick of stuff really easily. Jack gave me a Very Irresistible Givenchy Sensual perfume
"How did you know that I love this one and mine was in the end?"
"I saw it when I was in your room"
"Smartass" I said smiling amused. And he also gave me a silver ring, I had never seen any like this, it was twisted and by one of the edges, there was a light red heart, it was written in black 'in love' and inside was craved 'Jack and Mel… always and forever'.
"Thank you soooo much!" I said before kissing him.
"You deserve it" He answered smiling as he put the ring on my finger to just after kiss me. "Be right back" He said as he pulled away from me and rushed upstairs. One minute after, he was back holding a black t-shirt, I narrowed my eyebrows as he handed it to me. "That's another gift" He said smiling
I took it and realized it was the one I had chosen for him to dress last night "No! You like this!"
"So do you"
"Yeah, but with you in it!" He laughed
"Keep it!"
"Jack…"
"You won't reject a gift from me, will you?" He asked with puppy eyes, I couldn't help but smile and shook my head 'no'.
By lunch time we were all full of new gifts and decided to have lunch together. By the end of the day, each one went to their houses to enjoy the new stuff.
…
Andy arrived in Detroit two days before the New Year's Eve Party. Before then, I just spent my time either buying stuff for uni like notebooks, books, pens and that kind of shit or making out with Jack when he wasn't at band practicing. Yes, we did have other nights like the Christmas' Eve one. I didn't even bother bringing the nightgown back home, it was always by the edge of his bed.
Sometimes, when Jack and I were in a comfortable silence, I could feel his eyes one me and when I looked up he smiled, trying to fake what he was feeling or thinking about. But in his eyes, I could see concern and sadness. I really didn't know what was going on, but definitely he was up something that he didn't tell me, that wasn't the first time, and I wouldn't obligate him to. The only thing I could do was to show him that he could trust on me to tell whatever was bothering him. Every once in a while, I saw Bobby staring at him with a weird expression, it seemed to be mad but it wasn't, at least I think so. And Jack would change his gaze as soon as their eyes met.
The party was half an hour away and I was finishing curling my hair while Andy was straightening hers, and we still had make up to do. She brought her Super-Girl costume from NY, she got it borrowed from her cousin and mine was bought by Ollie. He said that I should buy it since I was going to university some other costume party might come up and I didn't argue, it was a dark blue sort of medieval dress with golden details and with a little delicate golden crown over a white veil, really beautiful! Ollie was going as Robin Hood, I laughed my as off when I saw the pants he'd have to wear
"Dude, you're gonna look so gay!"
"Shut up, will ya?" He said annoyed and I laughed even more.
The challenge was Bobby, first he didn't want to go to the party and when we finally convinced him to go, he didn't want to wear any costume.
"That's for pussies"
"Come on Bobby don't be such an ass! Everybody is gonna be there and Jack's gonna play! It'll be fun!" I cried but he didn't seem to give in any soon. "Let me choose a really cool costume for you!"
"No fucking way!" He said getting up from the couch
I jumped on his back "Pleaaaaseeee Bobbyyyyyyy" He couldn't help but laugh. "You can ask Kate to go with you, huh?"
"Hmm… maybe that's not a bad idea!"
"Yay!" I squealed while jumping off his muscular back. Wow!
"So, what you have in mind for the costume?" He asked while sitting back on the couch, I did the same.
"Maybe you should wear a fancy tux. That'd be funny as hell… Bobby Mercer as a clown"
He gave me the finger and stood up but I grabbed his arm. Holy crap! Breathe, just breathe! "I'm kidding Bobby! Come back here" I asked with puppy eyes and he sat back again.
He'd always think the costumes were 'fucking stupid' or that he'd 'look like a bitch'. After a long time discussing and a lot of sighs coming from me, we finally came to a common agreement: he'd go as a boxer.
I haven't seen Jack in two days and had no idea what he'd go as.
"Whatever Sofi takes for me"
And when I asked Sofi, she'd only tell me not to worry and that I'd love it. She was going as Catwoman while Angel was going as Batman. Very appropriate! Since Camille and she went after the costumes together, Sofi told me that Camille was going as Cleopatra and Jerry as a Roman soldier, the girls were going as two of the Powerpuff Girls. This party wasn't exactly appropriate for kids, but since it was for 'high society' of Detroit, there'd be a special place for them, with nannies and stuff. I just couldn't wait to see the face of those rich people while seeing the 'Mercer Gang' around!
"Do you think there'll be lots of hot guys there?" Andy asked me while we were dressing up, the party had started half an hour ago.
I laughed "I don't know, maybe"
"Maybe it's not good enough"
"Why are you worried? Tim's gonna be there"
A huge smiled popped out on her face and she blushed lightly, what made me laugh "Mel, he's so cute!"
"Yeah, I know"
"Hey!"
"What?"
"You already got Jack!"
"So what? Just because of him I can't find other guys cute? So, what did you guys talk about when he took you to the bus station?"
"Mostly about music and drums, stuff like that. He did ask if he'd see me here in the party!" I cracked a laugh seeing her excitement "What do you think he'll go as?"
"I don't even know what Jack is going as, do you really think I know about Tim?"
"Not really…Can you help me close this?"
….
It was finally time to go, Andy and I were both ready. After a last check on the mirror, we went downstairs to find Ollie standing by the door way waiting for us. I stopped in the middle of the stairs to laugh. His pants were way too tight, I heard Andy mumbling a 'holy crap' under her breath, yeah the costume did make his butt look awesome along with his legs and his arms were bigger than I ever noticed but still, it was funny was hell.
"What you laughing at my lady? Don't you like your new archer?"
"I appreciate it very much my good sir" We both laughed and hugged each other.
"Ready to save the world Andy?" Ollie mocked her.
"More likely to destroy it" I answered laughing
"I'm not you Mel!" She said half annoyed, half joking as she poked me on the side, what made me laugh.
"Are we taking Bobby?" I asked while we went outside
"Yeah, he wanted to take us, but I convinced him that in a party like that, we should go in a better car"
"Thank God" I mumbled "Yo Bobby!" I yelled while knocking on the Mercer door, which soon cracked open, revealing a boxer Bobby wearing a white costume. "Ui! Ain't you sexy?"
"Thank you" He smiled sarcastically while closing the door. Andy and Ollie were already in the car.
"So, did you call Kate?"
"Yeah"
"Is she going?"
"Yeah"
"There you go Bobby!" I said poking him playfully and he smiled. "What will she go as?"
"No idea, whatever she wants she'll look fucking hot. Though I'd prefer if she didn't wear anything"
"Shut up!" I said laughing as hit the back of his head. We got in the car and went to the party.
….
"Are you ready to see Jackie dressed as his truly self Mel?" Bobby asked while we were walking to the entry.
"What you mean?"
"Do you think fairy would lose this chance? I bet he's wearing a pink leotard and some silver skirt"
"You mean like the ones you have in your wardrobe? Nah, I bet you're wrong" And he surely was! The dance-hall was huge and colorful lights danced around sweetly according to the song's beat. As we got in, I looked up at the stage, the band had just started playing a new song, one of my favorites and there was an extra person there playing the piano, while Jack sang softly
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
He saw me and gave me a big smile before start singing again. I couldn't help but feel as if I was going to melt.
The falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I five the final blow
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight
It ends tonight
Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight
It ends tonight
Everybody started clapping hands and some teen girls started screaming near where I was as the song finished. The band was soon playing another song.
"I'm sorry to say this Mel, but Jack's looking freaking hot!" Andy came by my side
I laughed "He really is" He was dressed as a vampire: black pants, white long sleeve shirt with the three first buttons open, a red waist band and a Dracula necklace around his neck. I assumed he brushed his hair back with hair gel, but messed it while singing. I've never seem such a handsome vampire in my entire life. This time, I was the one who needed to thank Sofi.
Tim was dressed as Superman, what made Andy go nuts. Tyler was as a pirate and there was this crazy girl screaming
"I'm your Elizabeth Swan!"
I just wanted Jack to come down, but I knew he couldn't.
"Hey guys!" Jack said on the microphone after the finished playing another song, everybody yelled on the sound of his voice, specially those crazy teen girls, one of them yelled 'you can suck all the blood I have in my body!' and I seriously had to control myself to not punch her on the face. "I hope ya are all enjoying the party! The DJ is gonna keep the music going on, we're gonna have a little break and will be right back!" With that, all of them walked out. I just wanted to jump up and down, I was going to see MY vampire.
About five minutes had passed and still hadn't see Jack. Tim was already talking to Andy, Tyler was God knows where and still no Jack. Bobby had found Kate, who was dressed as a nurse. How creative! And guess what? They were already making out
"Get a room" I said amused while passing through them. Bobby gave me the finger without taking his face off hers. I had already met Sofi, Angel, Jerry and Camille, but no Jack. That bitch must have attacked him! Or the opposite… My thoughts were disturbed as I felt an arm around my waist, a black cloak flew in front of my face and a kiss was cracked directly on my neck. Dear God! My spine shivered, how couldn't it?
"You hungry?" I asked before biting my low lip
"You have no idea" With my head on his hands, he kissed me deeply.
"What took you so long?"
"Freaking groupies wouldn't let me pass"
"I'm gonna kick their asses"
"Don't mind, I already did" He answered smiling before kissing me again, I could hear the little fuckers gossiping about us. They can kiss my ass! "Princess, you look breathtaking! Or should I say… bloody tasty?"
I laughed "You don't look bad yourself"
"You can say that I look sexy" He said with a huge smirk on his face
I slapped on his chest laughing "Don't get too cocky"
He laughed "Wanna drink something?"
"Yeah" We went to the bar to ask for our drinks. I spotted Andy and grabbed Jack's hand. "Come on" I said while dragging him to where she was "Andy!"
"Hey Mel!"
"I finally found my lost vampire!"
"Oh, really? And where's he?"
"What you mean? I'm saying that I found Jack!"
"Yeah, I got it! But where's he? That's not him!"
"What you mean that's not…" I stopped speaking as I looked behind me and saw that wasn't really Jack, I let go of his hand. "Holy crap! I'm sorry!" The guy was as tall as Jack, but was dressed as Zorro, had dark blue eyes and dark layered mid-length hair.
He laughed "I can be your vampire if you want" He had a deep voice with a mysterious touch on it. I was speechless, I dragged a random boy around saying that he was my lost vampire and now didn't know how to get rid of him! If I was single I wouldn't, but due the actual circumstances…
"Mel! Why did you take off?" I heard Jack's voice and could finally breathe. He was coming to where we were and holding two bottles of beer.
"Jack!" I went over him, he handed me a bottle and wrapped an arm around my waist.
"What's going on here?" He said looking suspiciously to the guy
"Hmm… I thought he was you" I said and he looked at me confused "I know you guys are totally different but you were by my side on the bar and when I saw Andy I just grabbed what I thought it was your hand without even looking at you and came here. It was all a misunderstanding!" Everybody laughed at how stupid I could be.
"Jay! What are you doing there?" Someone called and everybody turned, clearly Jay was the Zorro guy and the one who was calling him was Rachel, she was dressed as Abigail Waistler, the vampire hunter.
"Hey Rach!"
"Mel! Hi! How are you?"
"Fine, what about you? Good to see you here!"
"You too! You know Jay?"
"Hmm… No we just met, there was a little misunderstanding here"
"What happened?"
"She thought I was her boyfriend and dragged me here" Jay answered and Rachel laughed
"Hey Rach!" Another person called as everyone turned to see Gimmy coming dressed as Blade. Jack held me closer, he knew I felt uncomfortable near Gimmy all because the video store thing and if it wasn't for that I'd laugh hard seeing a vampire talking to two vampire hunters. "Oh, Hi Melanie and Jack"
"Hi" We both answered simply back
Gimmy cleaned his throat "Melanie look, I've been looking forward to that so, I know what I did back there was wrong. You had nothing to do with what happened to my brother and neither did Jack. That's why I wanted to apologize, I never meant to insult you or your family! A new year is about to begin, so I thought we could start over"
I looked up at Jack trying to find an answer to what I should do, he looked down at me and back to Gimmy as he continued speaking "Rach told me you're going to Detroit University, I really don't wanna a bad mood between us at all! What you say?" He reached out his hand
I took his hand and shook it "If you do that again I'm gonna break your legs" Everybody laughed and Rach squealed.
"So, what you going to university for?"
"Journalism"
"No shit? Me too!"
"Cool! What field?"
"Sports! You?"
"Entertainment!"
"Nice!"
"Jack!" Tyler called "We need to go back"
"I'll be right there!" He yelled back "I gotta go now" He said looking at me
"Can't you stay more?" I asked with puppy eyes
"Don't do that! I wish I could but I gotta play another hour, then I'll be all yours!"
"Hmm… tempting" I answered biting my lip again
He pulled my body really close to his and crashed his lips against mine. "Save all this blood for me, huh?" He whispered in my ear before biting my neck lightly, well not so lightly. God! That's torture!
"Will do" I gave him a final kiss on the cheek "Rock on Cracker Jack!" He laughed and went up stage.
I spent the party with Andy, Gimmy, Rach and Jay. They kept joking about what happened between me and Jay, and I knew nobody would forget this any soon.
"So guys" Jack said on the stage "I hope you liked our band and stay tuned 'cause this won't be the last time you're gonna see us!" Again the little bitches yelled "This is our final song… and well, it was written for someone really special, Mel…" He said looking over to where I was and everyone who knew who I was or that saw me kissing Jack turned their faces to me, that meant the majority of people and who didn't know turned just because everyone else was doing it. Great Jack, I'm gonna kill you! "…I love you! Always and forever! Don't forget it!" Everyone clapped hands and Andy yelled, I couldn't do anything but smile at him and he laughed, he knew I was embarrassed as hell. With that, he started singing Lips of an Angel.
"Two minutes for the countdown everybody!" The DJ announced. We started getting all together Jack, me, Andy, Bobby, Kate, Ollie, some chick that I've never seen, Sofi, Angel, Jerry, Camille and the girls. I was between Jack and Ollie.
"One minute people!"
The unknown chick turned to me and said "Are you Ollie's sister?"
"Yeah, why?"
"Hi!" She suddenly hugged me, I didn't do the same "I'm Lilly"
"That means…"
"I'm Ollie's girlfriend!" She said smiling, I looked shocked to Ollie, not because of the fact that girl was his girlfriend but because he didn't tell me! And Ollie rolled his eyes annoyed, probably she wasn't really his girlfriend "And together we're Lollie! Isn't that cute?" I narrowed my eyebrows. Where the hell my brother took this beast from?
"10!" Everybody started counting down "9…8…7..." I was hugging Ollie and Jack at the same time and each one had one arm around my waist "…6…5…4…3…2…1! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Ollie kissed me on one cheek and Jack on the other, so I was basically a kiss sandwich, what I thought it was extremely cute! I hugged Ollie really tightly
"I love you big bro!"
He hugged me tightly back "Love you too little Mel, I'll be always here for you"
"I know" I kissed him on the cheek "Now you can let me go 'cause your hug is way too tight and you're smashing my lungs!" He laughed, kissed my forehead and let go of me. I turned to Jack who had just finished hugging Angel, we smiled to each other before hugging and kissing.
"I love you Mel! Always…"
"And forever" I finished for him and he nodded smiling.
"Don't forget that!"
Fireworks could be heard outside as we all hugged each other. After I had hugged and wished happy New Year to everybody I knew, I grabbed Ollie's arm.
"She's not my girlfriend!" He stated before I even started speaking
"Man, she's dumb as a donkey! What the hell is that Lollie thing? Come on…"
"She's hot!"
"Please!"
He laughed "No worries little Mel" He kissed the top of my head and went away as I came back to Jack's arms. We spent the rest of the time dancing, messing around, making out and laughing a lot, the party was extremely fun. Someone, I can't remember who, once said me that you spend the rest of the year as you were in the eve like, if you were happy you'd spend the rest of the year happy and stuff like that. If this person was right, my year is gonna kick asses! But latter I'd find out that the person was in fact, wrong.
…
Two days after the party, Andy had already gone back to NY. Jack and I were going to have 'a romantic night', as he called it, at his place, he'd be in charge of the food and I of the movies, I seriously didn't think we'd see any, but still! We planned this right after the New Years' Eve party, it'd be like, our first date in the New Year. I was really looking forward for it!
Before getting ready to go there, I was looking for some stuff for uni and end up finding my old box of notes, I put there any piece of paper that meant something or that had a good memory attached to it. I hadn't opened it in ages! Since I was going to see Jack, I thought it'd be cool for him to look through it with me. Time to go! After taking a bath and even putting a light make up on, I put a jacket on, grabbed the box and the movies I had selected and made my way outside. I didn't even knock, I just came in
"Hey! Jackie, I hope you like my movie selection! It's Lord of the Rings free!" He was coming downstairs and I looked around, the house was as usual, no candles, no roses, nothing that would set a romantic mood. "Where's the romantic stuff?" I asked while placing the movies and the box I was holding on some random table.
"Mel… hmm" He forgot.
"Don't, even think about saying what I think you're gonna say"
"Sorry, I… I had to take care of some other stuff and I end up…"
"Which stuff?" I looked around again, with more attention this time, and noticed a couple of bags on the corner of the room along with… his guitar case? It… it can't be.
"I… We finally got a manager and we have a great chance to have a CD recorded"
"That's great!"
"But…" He took a deep breath "We gotta go to California, we're leaving tomorrow, first thing in the early morning"
My mind went completely blank, I couldn't think about anything. "Why are you saying this now? Why didn't you just tell me earlier?" I felt my entire body shaking, but kept it under control.
"It's not that simple"
"Nothing with you ever is. You're like two completely different people, there's this charming, romantic guy that I fell in love with and then there's this other guy… who keep things away from me, lie and can't realize what he's missing" I said as calmly as I could, tears were already formed in our eyes, fighting against our will to not let them fall.
"I've done this before, I went to New York to pursue this dream. And apart from my brothers and Ma, when she was still alive, not once I ever regretted leaving anyone or explained myself…" I closed my eyes slowly and opened them again "But then I met you…"
"…Then stay" I said while getting near him. I know it wasn't fair from my part to ask that, but I had to.
"I can't… Because that's not only about me, it's also about the other boys and all we have been through. It's not fair to them if I throw away everything we've got so far for what I feel…for what I love… I hope someday I can show you that as much as I want to stay with you, there are more important things than what I want"
"Don't expect me to be waiting around for that when you get back" I turned around and started walking. I can't cry, not in front of him!
"I'm not coming back Mel" I stopped on my tracks, my heart skipped a beat and it became even harder to control the tears. "…At least not anytime soon" I crossed my arms on my chest and started breathing hard. He approached and stood behind me "I'm sorry…I never meant to hurt you"
"But you found out a way to do it anyway, didn't you?" I said while turning to face him.
"This is it. The moment, right? The moment that I'm gonna regret for the rest of my life, isn't it?"
"Yes" I answered shaking my head lightly. I couldn't believe that he was going away, that I wouldn't kiss him again. That thought made me impulsively crash my lips against his, I realized I shouldn't be doing that but also didn't want to let go. His hands were lightly on my waist, mine on his chest as I slowly pulled away. "I loved you" This time a tear, that I was so strongly holding, escaped and rolled down on my cheek. I used past sentence, without knowing if it was right or wrong. Can you stop loving someone like this?
I finally fully let go of him and walked out in silence, without looking back.
I wish my life was this song
'Cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years and never have to cry
I'd show you how I feel
Without saying a word
I could wrap up both our hearts
I know it sounds absurd
And I saw the tears on your face
I shot you down
And I slammed the door but couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends