To my one and only love, I miss you too much Jazz.
I need you in so many ways its painful, without you I find it nearly impossible to breathe, I want you here by my side so much. I hate that we have to be so far apart, I cant stand being here alone. My bed is empty, a lot like my heart without you with me. I want you to know that no matter what happens with this your step dad I will always love you, and I want us to be able to get on with our lives as soon as possible.
I can not bare to think of my life with out you to share it with me, having you away for these few weeks has made me realize just how my I need you to live. You are the air I breathe, the reason I wake up in the morning, the purpose of me existing. I'm counting down the minuets until you return, and one you come home and enter my arms, I will make sure you never leave them. All I want is you, all I need is you. I want to love you, I need to love you. I want you to feel my love, I want you to feel my heart beat for you. My heart beats your name Jasper, but at the moment all it beats is pain. I hope you are OK, I sit here dreading that something might have happened to you. I hope your keeping safe and I hope your taking good care of your self, unlike me.
I truly hope you have managed to cope with our separation better than I have, I must admit that I am a wreck and my lack of food and sleep is starting to show. I miss you more than words can describe, I can not wait to feel your soft warm touch, to feel your amazing lips and to be held in your strong secure arms. I only hope that this last week goes by quicker than the last few weeks have. I spend all my time looking at the photo of us on my bedside table, wearing your hoodie and thinking only of you. I feel so lonely here even though I'm surrounded by family and friends, but they will never be able to replace you, no one could ever take your place in my life.
Stay safe Jazz, it wont be long until we can see each other again, take care of yourself babe.
All my love and more,
Your Alice
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