Chapter 21

(Continued from Ed's Dream in chapter 20)

"How much?" Ed asked the hooded figure on the slum sidewalk.

"It one hundred, twenty dollars per gram." The hooded man said.

"Well, I can get it cheap down the street…" Ed thought out loud.

"Not any more you can't. She got her Dumbass busted."

"Oh…Well…"

"How big of hits you take?"

"About one tablespoon," Ed admitted.

"Newcomer? Ok…want three hits worth that'll be…$5160"

Ed thought about it for a moment, "Here," Ed handed him the cash and took his dope.

"Thanks for business kid." The man said thumbing though his cash.

"I'm not a kid." Ed said walking away putting his drugs on the inside of his coat pocket.

Ed walked briskly back to his dorm room, there was a note pinned to his door.

Eviction Notice

Edward Elric, You are no longer a member of the State Military, We cannot allow you to stay in these dorms. You have four days.

"You have to be a damn dog to do other, and yet if your not on the General's leash you get thrown out like and unwelcome mutt." Ed crumpled the paper and walked in and packed a few bags full of clothes. Closing his last suitcase he took out his newly obtained drug. Ed made his dose and wrapped his belt around his arm and injection himself. Pulling the belt of he rested his head back against the wall.

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The area were Ed bought his dope got busted completely. After he recovered from his three days sicknesses of withdraw he bought a cheap apartment. Using the last of his money. So he sold all most everything he owned, then spent that on booze.

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Then after weeks of Mustang dragging him back home. Roy took the drunk blonde in.

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Ed woke with a start, sitting straight up; panting and sweating slightly. Ed was completely oblivious to the fact he was sitting in-between Roy's legs, and being watched be that same man. Ed sat there for a second and ran his hand down his face squeezing the bridge of his nose.

Roy kept quiet and observed Ed's actions. He arched a brow as Ed held out his arm and look at the underside of his arm before he leaned back on Roy's chest.

"Oh...shit I didn't know you were there!" Ed said as he started to sit up. Roy pulled him back and wrapped his arms around him, "You know Ed, I've decided it's time for me to talk and you listen. You've told me so much, and had so many breakdowns, and I'm not complaining." Roy said shifting himself and Ed to get more comfortable.

"you don't-"

"Yeah I do. I promised I would." Roy said, "When I was sixteen my mom committed suicide, no one knows why she seemed happy. She didn't do drugs or drink nothing. But one day I had been out with some friends. I came home and mom was out looking at the city, she was standing on our ledge that was I don't know twenty stories up. 'I'm so tired Roy I'm sorry.' She jumped me and dad saw he was about fifty feet away from where she hit." He took a breath and Ed looked up at him with apologetic eyes. He knew what it was like to lose your mother, but to suicide? "Dad lost his fucking mind," Roy continued, "I always hated the man. Bastard, mean son of a bitch. After three years in rehab, he followed mom's actions. I got accepted into the State at 21. Ishbal, hell. I have flashbacks. Still," Roy trailed off. That worried Ed, he rested his head on Roy. Roy feeling this came out of his daze and rested his cheek on Ed's golden locks. "I was ordered…to kill countless families." Roy fell silent again.

"Roy…" Ed said hoping to draw him back, but no response. Ed grabbed Roy's hand and intertwined their fingers. Roy noted how gentle and caring Ed was being before he continued, "I fell into a deep depression, took up drinking. And…" Roy's voice fell to a quiet, saddened, and shameful tone, "I had it in my mouth Ed."

Roy felt Ed tense, as he held back tears, now was not the time. But Edward pulled away from Roy, turned and pulled the older man into a tight embrace. "Roy, my god why didn't you tell me sooner?" Ed asked quietly into Roy's ear. Their cheeks were touching, and Ed could tell Roy was holding back his own breakdown from the quiver in his jaw. "Roy you know I'm always here for you, so please just let it out." Eds words touched Roy deep down, nearly, "I can't yet," Roy said strongly.

Ed wasn't surprised, he wasn't stupid Roy wanted Ed to talk. Ed moved beside Roy and leaned on him, his touch was comforting. "Where do you want me to start?"

"The day of the funeral." Roy said wrapping an arm around Ed.

"What about it?" Ed sighed.

"Edward…"

"Fine, well I went to the funeral left the flowers," Roy cut Ed off.

"What did you say to Al?"

"I'll never forget you, sorry I can't be with you, I'll always mourn you, baby brother, I love you so much." Ed said "it's what the flowers meant. After everyone left to Winry's I went off and found of bottle of whiskey, then went and talked to Al." Ed looked at Roy, his onyx eyes full of worry and guilt? "Roy, I don't want to talk about the rest. It's so bad." Ed grabbed the bend of his flesh arm.

"Try Ed."

"I…injected…"

"What? What was it?"

"…"

"Ed?" Roy was scared now though Ed had apparently kick the habit.

"I…," Ed stopped him self, "always bought it from the west till they all got busted. Then they kicked me out of the dorms."

"Edward, what did you inject?"

"…heroin."

"…" Roy's heart dropped into the deepest darks pit of Hell. "Oh Ed."

"I got scared then…" Ed trailed off.

"Come on Ed," Roy gently coaxed.

Ed only held out his wrist. Revealing his scars, he was wearing a blank t-shirt, that revealed his injection sites.

"When you cut it wasn't just because you were scared?"

Ed broke, "I miss all so damned much, then, still now, all I want is to see his face! Mom too." He cried.

"That's enough I've heard all I need." Roy said softly pulling Ed into a supportive hug.

"No you wanted to know it all. I drank and didn't heroin at the same time in hopes, then….they all got busted. So I drank heavily, then picked fights. Trying to get the shit kicked out of me, in hopes." Ed sobbed.

"It'll be alright. We'll get through it."

"I want to end it all, it's too late for me, the thoughts, everyday." Ed rambled.

"Enough, Ed, it's not to late it's never too late."

Hours pasted Ed cried himself to sleep. Roy changed himself then Ed. He held Ed as close and as tightly as he could without waking him. 'Ed I was almost too late.' Roy felt tears stream down his face at that thought. A soft sobbed escaped his lips, and his shoulders shook, waking Ed.

Ed took a moment to collect what was happening. He wrapped his arms around Roy, "I hurt you again."

"Ed if you every die on me…" Roy sobbed, "I couldn't handle it."

"I know, I'm the same with you."

They were like that a while longer then Ed lifted Roy's chin and brought their lips together quickly. But it wasn't enough for Roy; he needed more, to assure himself Ed was in the bed with him not just an illusion.

Roy brought Ed back; the kiss was deep, as Roy trusted his tongue into Ed's mouth. Burning the taste, feel, everything into his mind. He sucked at Ed's bottom lip as he pulled away. Roy ran his hand down Ed's bare side, over his hip, and down his thigh, Ed was clad in only his boxers as was Roy. Roy dove back for another passionate kiss, this time pushing the thin blonde and his back. Ed Brought his arms down roy's body after he was on his back and guided Roy to where he was directly hovering above Ed's form. Roy was getting unbelievably hard, as was Ed. Roy's hand glided down Ed's side and played with the waistband of Edward's boxers. Running his fingers under it lightly touching the skin. "Unh…" Ed moaned into Roy's mouth as he arched his back. Roy left Ed mouth and attacked his ear, nibble and sucking at the lobe. Kissing and nipping a trail to Ed's boxers, and looked up at Ed.

Ed's eyes were full of lust and passion, as he nodded.

Roy slowly slipped Ed's boxers off and teased the sensitive skin around Ed's throbbing erection. Roy licked the underside of Ed's shaft and took the head in his mouth and flicked his tongue over the slit. Ed moaned and bucked to gain friction Roy held down Ed's hips as he slowly took Ed's length in his mouth, slowly bobbing his head, and swirling his tongue. Hearing Ed's moans was almost enough to push him over the edge. Ed screamed out Roy's name as he came into Roy's mouth. That scream didn't just push Roy over the edge it violently threw him over, as he lapped up Ed's seed. That had never happened to Roy before, not even with Maes. He always needed his own turn, or at least his own hand. It surprised Roy. He fell beside Ed and pulled him close, running his hand silently down Ed's body. There was no need for words they knew it was going to be alright. Until Roy's hand brushed over Ed's upper thigh…

Yes I used the lyrics from Three Days Grace – Never Too Late

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