Chapter 21 (Fear)
Alexandra startled and for a moment she wasn´t able to move.
She has been so lost in her thoughts she didn´t notice Jonathan coming into the room, lightening a few candles and a small lamp in the kitchen.
She turned round slowly and then she saw Jonathan standing right in front of her.
Jonathan was barefooted and he was wearing nothing but blue jeans. His hair was still damp from the shower and his skin was gleaming in the candlelight. His thick black chest hair clinged to his body and Alexandra could see a drop of water running over his neck down to his chest.
Since he had been back in her life again, Alexandra had seen him wearing suits the entire time. Even when they had made love in the ruins of the cabin yesterday afternoon, she hadn´t seen anything else from him. And now she was getting this view!
Alexandra noticed something around Jonathan´s neck and for a split second she had no idea what is was. But then she knew - it was her necklace. The necklace she had given to Jonathan such a long time ago.
Oh my god, he´s still wearing it! Or does he wear it again after a long time?´
Alexandra gasped and she could feel a shiver running down her back. She hadn´t expected to see Jonathan like this.
Jonathan gazed directly into her eyes. She could feel him taking the glass with the Irish Cream out of her hand and putting it on the countertop, keeping an eye on Alexandra the entire time.
Oh dammit! Alex, pull yourself together! This guy will try to seduce you!´, flashed through her mind when she could feel Jonathan´s hands on her hips.
Did he fooled her the entire time just to bring her here, to be alone with her? It was obvious he wanted to surprise her somehow – and he had been successful!
Clever Jon, very clever.´, Alexandra thought. But it´s the wrong time for it now!´
„Jon, listen, we should..", Alexandra whispered when he gripped her hips and pulled her lightly towards him, his face right in front of her now.
"Shh.. Alex..", Jonathan interrupted her and she could feel him placing her hands on his chest.
The last time she saw him like this was 12 years ago and she could remember him having a fluff on his chest. She also remembered her thought of Jonathan having a 'well-haired' chest when he was older.
Oh, I always imagined it like this. Jonathan, you didn´t promised too much.´, Alexandra thought while her fingers were running through Jonathan´s thick chest hair.
Damn it Alex, pull yourself together! You have to talk to Jon, you can´t fuck him now!´, she could hear her inner voice shouting when she noticed how excited she was now.
Alexandra could feel Jonathan moving lightly to the rhythm of the music, trying to lead her.
She couldn´t believe it! Now they were even dancing! In the club he was prudish like a churchy man and now he was mutating into a casanova!
Jonathan´s lips brushed hers and he geazed deeply into her eyes.
„ Now you say you love me.. Well, just to prove that you do.. Cry me a river.."
Shit! Diana, in what are you involving me!´, flashed through Alexandra´s mind when she could feel Jonathan´s lips on her mouth, pushing his tongue softly between her lips.
Alex, I want you. Can´t you feel it?´
How long did he waited to feel her again! His whole body yearned for her.
Alexandra could hear Jonathan moaning softly and a shiver ran down her back when the tips of their tongues touched lightly and Jonathan started to explore her.
Oh man, he can kiss so damn well, he always could.´, Alexandra thought when she could feel Jonathan´s hands moving over her abdomen up to her breasts, slipping softly the jacket of her suit over her shoulders.
Alexandra´s jacket fell down to the floor.
Jonathan and Alexandra gazed into each others eyes, panting lightly.
Jonathan looked at her blouse and his fingertips moved slowly over Alexandra´s breast. The blouse was transparent and her black bra gleamed lightly through the fabric. This view excited Jonathan even more. He pulled Alexandra towards him a bit more and started to kiss her softly again, first on her mouth then on her cheeks and her neck.
Alexandra could feel Jonathan pressing against her and she felt his excitation on her body.
„Jon.. Jon, wait a minute..", she whispered, panting, trying to push Jonathan lightly away from her.
No, she couldn´t allow this to happen now no matter how badly she wanted Jonathan!
Resist, Alex! Resist!´, her inner voice shouted.
„Come on, Alex.", Jonathan murmured into her neck and kissed his way all up to her mouth."I know you want me."
Before Alexandra even could say anything, he was kissing her again.
Oh Alex, I want you so badly and I want you now!´, flashed through Jonathan´s mind, pressing his body firmer against Alexandra.
„Then be a man and not a mouse!", Scarecrow shouted suddenly. „She´s here, so take her like a man!"
Alexandra could feel Jonathan´s grip getting firmer and suddenly she felt uncomfortable by his touches.
„No, leave her alone!", Jonathan screamed when Scarecrow came out of his dark corner, trying to press himself forward.
„Jon, please. I´m serious. Let me go!", Alexandra said while he was kissing her neck and she could hear her voice getting louder, but Jonathan didn´t care at all.
Now Alexandra tried to push Jonathan away from her when she realized his grip getting harder and his kisses rough and demanding. Pictures of bad memories flashed through Alexandra´s mind and she could feel the fear welling up inside her.
„Jon, let me go!", she shouted again and her resistance augmented but Jonathan grabbed her hard and pressed his lips on her mouth, so firm that it started to hurt her.
„Oh, I can feel it! I can feel she´s scared! I can even smell her fear!", Scarecrow panted and pressed himself forward more and more while Jonathan tried to hold him back in his dispair.
„No, don´t hurt her, leave her alone!", Jonathan yelled, pressing against Scarecrow as good as he could.
„You don´t want to take her like a man, don´t you!", Scarecrow shouted and laughed aloud when he finally broke through Jonathan´s barrier. "Alright. I´ll do it for you!"
"Jonathan, no!", Alexandra screamed and tears were filling her eyes but Scarecrow just laughed when his hand ripped at her blouse and her black bra came to light.
Somehow Alexandra managed to break away from Jonathan and she rushed forward to the main door, but Scarecrow could grab her and pushed her violently against the appartment´s door. Both hit the door with a big noise, panting heavily.
„Shhhhh... shhhh..", Scarecrow whispered after he had pushed Alexandra´s body forcefully against the door.
Her face was pressing against the door, Scarecow behind her. Again, Alexandra tried to push Jonathan away but she was too weak.
„Oh my God, Jonathan...", Alexandra panted and she could feel her tears running down her face. „What are you doing?"
„Shhh.. shhh..", Scarecrow whispered again, kissing Alexandra´s shoulders and neck. „Stay calm. I want to help you. There is nothing to fear.."
Alexandra was seized with panic.
„Jon...Jonathan..!... what.. what are you talking about? What the hell is wrong with you!"
„Noooo!", Scarecrow giggled, grabbing Alexandra´s breast with one hand, squeezing it hard. „Not Jonathan..."