Sorrry for the major delay, been breaking into A-Levels, as you can see its clearly taken a while!
2 hours had passed, and Ruth was perched on the visitors stool in resus, carefully brushing her hand across Jays face. She had almost lost him too many times, she thought of the moment she opened her door at the bizarre time of night, finding a very stressed Nick Jordan on her doorstep..she couldn't quite believe the events of the past week..Jay had lied, he had gone missing, he had almost died..he had actually felt that he couldn't talk to anyone that much.
She softly leaned her head on his arm, feeling soothed by the way his chest had got into the pattern of rising and falling, effortlessly.
"Im going to look after you" Ruth said..her voice sounded determined...people stopped and stared..the only other noise the workers had heard was the beeping of the various machines.
"I mean it Jay" Ruth said, trying to imagine Jays reaction..he would laugh it off, say he didn't want to burden her or something like that...something that sounded so selfless to Jay, but so stupid to Ruth.
She got him though. She had never been "looked after" a day in her life, and she got the impression that Jay, although he never spoke about his family, often had to be the strong person who held everyone together, the one who had to work for himself. She had never got the impression that Jay had had a very cushioned upbringing.
She looked at him, his eyes shut, he was a alive, he looked peaceful...almost happy. This time when he woke up it would be different. He wouldn't hide anything..what else was there to hide?
She would support him through chemo, try and reason with him to make sure he did it.
Ruth got up and suddenly realised..she had to be the rock. She had been Jays sort-of rock, but she was going to be like robin to batman..she was going to always be there, always. This was a huge responsibility for her, she could barely keep herself on the straight and narrow and now she had the task of absorbing all of Jays emotions aswell..but she wouldn't be alone.
As if he knew what she was thinking, Charlie entered resus, with a coffee in each hand..he handed one to Ruth
"Technically we aren't allowed "food and snacks" in here but Nick made a little exception" Charlie said with a wink,and looking like some sort of naughty child. Ruth had to laugh as Charlie tipped back his head for a long swig of coffee, but was brought back to earth by the fact is was way too hot to drink
Charlie studied Ruth's serious expression, and Jays sleeping form
"Its going to be different" Charlie said, to Ruth, who looked emotionally drained
"How can it be..he's going to think lieing for our good is for his good..." Ruth started
"So we need to talk more, we need to make him understand...and we also need to beat this whole "im going to save the world and protect everyone" sense of self out of him!" Charlie said, and chuckled at Jay
"I remember the simple days, where he just ate tea and biscuits and called me gramps" Charlie sighed, wistfully
"I remember the days when we first got together when he used swabsticks to represent our relationship" Ruth laughed, thinking of how long ago that was, and how far away the thought was
"Hes not going anywhere" Charlie smiled
"You got that right gramps" said a murmur, and Ruth and Charlie both looked at eachother and smiled
"Your a idiot" Charlie said, looking into Jays bloodshot brown eyes
"I guessed that would be your first course of action" Jay said, amused
"Your getting chemo..I don't care If I have to forge your signature" Charlie continued, and Jay looked around at Ruth, who vigrously nodded
"Ive been a bit of a plank havent I guys?" Jay said, seriously
"A bit.." Ruth started
"Well you ran away, into the cold, into the night, without your medication, and thought you could live on water..not your best idea by any means" Charlie grimaced
"Stuff like that sounds so dramatic when its all put together" Jay sighed,
"Thats because it was serious Jay..you could of died" Ruth said, with a sad face
"Im gonna go rally the troops and tell them the solider is awake.." Charlie decided, he got up and swiftly nodded at Jay with a smile, which seemed to be infectious
"Ruth im sorry..if you want to get up and go you can, you don't deserve this" Jay said, sounding in pain as he said it
"You don't understand Jay, still! I want to be there for you if you'll just let me and stop keeping things to yourself!" Ruth said urgently, putting a hand over his
"Im sorry" Jay said again, and his eyes started to tear up upon seeing Ruths tired, upset expression
"Jay; I love you, I want you to be better...we can deal with everything else later just please...do this for me" Ruth said, emotionally, and Jay knew what she was getting at..Chemo.
"Last time.." he started, looking at her, mirroring her tear-stained face
"Its not going to be like last time" Ruth cut in, not wanting to hear the horrible stories
"I love you" Jay blurted out, and Ruth stood up and pressed her head to Jays
"I love you too" she said, simply, like it was the easiest sentence in the world.
She kissed him softly as their tears both fell together..for now he was safe..