Ok, so last chapter had a nice bit of KuluMois, somewhat of MomoFuyu and I guess GiroNatsu….Sho~ Let's focus on the couples for this chapter, shall we? ;) Warning, might get a little OOC here and there and possible a little depressing so read at your own atrophy.
Giroro
Tonight felt incredibly lonely, even with Fuyuki in the room. I wanted nothing more than to creep into Natsumi's room and tell her everything, but something was stopping me. I'm not even sure it's pride anymore…I think I've just gone soft, gone weak. But, you know what? Who cares…the entire platoon has fallen head over heels for something on this planet, and my weakness just happens to be Natsumi…and I'm perfectly fine with that.
The bright moonlight shone through Fuyuki's window and on to me. I wonder if she's asleep right now. I wonder if she's looking up at the moon with me. We may be separated by this thin wall, but it's still being together, yet so far apart.
Natsumi…what I wouldn't do for you, just to be able to see you sleep peacefully, to hear you say my name sweetly, to let me be near you and, to let me lay my hand on yours for just one moment, for just one night. And maybe, we could stare at the stars together, sharing conversations over a burning, yet loving fire I've made that would bake your favorite sweet potatoes to perfection. Perfection, that could only suite you.
Before I turned over to let myself dream, I stared at my hand, longing for hers to be there…longing to hold her hand, even if it meant just once in my life…
Fuyuki
I wonder if the Corporal is awake…I hope the light from the moon isn't bothering him, maybe I should just…nah, he looks perfectly fine…
I wonder what time it is over where you are…
Is it morning where you are? Or the middle of the afternoon, evening breaking it's way into the sky and filling the area in twilight. Or maybe, it's the middle of the night, and you're laying there, sleeping sweetly. Maybe you're still awake, your beautiful eyes staring up at this beautiful moon.
I silently wish that you'd be thinking of me like I am of you this beautiful night…Heh, maybe you'll see a shooting star, and maybe it'll be a UFO, and then you can tell me all about it, get close to me when you come back to tell me the tale. Try describing it, as you use my hands as an example, pulling me in closely.
A blush steals it's way on my face, quickly, I hide it under my pillow in case the Corporal sees. Secretly I smile as I take one last look at the moon and close my eyes, ready to dream an adventure with you.
Mois
Are you even thinking about what you said, or the words I said back to you? I hope you understood that my heart's in pain because I can't help but care about you. But no, you had to be mean, you had to be cruel, you had to be…well you.
And I wouldn't want you any other way, I tell myself as I smile under these streaming tears. Here, I stand alone in your lab, ready to do some late night cleaning to take my mind off of you, maybe I'll do those reports alone and maybe then you'll be happy. Then I won't make you so mad.
Like, I wonder if this is a normal feeling though. I don't see Natsumi acting like this, but then again she's strong. So, am I weak? Is it weak to cry, even when you're happy about someone you like? I wonder if you ever cry, or think about me. This doll, the very doll that came from my own heart, the very replica of all the feelings I feel, shaped into a doll of you.
I wonder what you tried to say that morning. You didn't seem like yourself, you seemed, shy, quiet…nice almost. Are my feelings getting through to you finally? Like, I really hope so. You could say, like a fish out of water? No, I…I don't think that's right, maybe like a rose without it's thorns? Maybe me without you here is too much for right now…
Kururu
Tch, he's so loud. I'm starting to miss being in my lab where it's nice and quiet and lonesome. Where the sound of electrical currents passing through my computer chords is my lullaby at night. Where she sleeps soundly in the same room…
I laugh weakly, thinking of what I said, making you go away, making you cry. I'm not that bad of a guy am I? Nah, I'm sure everything will be fine. I know I'm a jerk, but why else would you like me then? You couldn't possibly like me because I'm nice, since when have I ever been nice? Had I gone soft? Oh great, I'm turning into the old man who fantasizes about that loud mouth girl.
I can't be going soft, I'm still me, still my own person, still thinking of only myself. Yup, only me~ And you. Thinking of those sparkling eyes that pierce through my shell, of your girlish voice and incoherent ways. Silly girl, maybe I should talk about it tomorrow, at least attempt to apologize. And then push her away so I can have my lab to myself. It's starting to turn a little girly in there thanks to her…and I'm letting her…
Saburo
Would Natsumi even want to be my friend if I'd had told her off like Kururu did to Mois-chan? I couldn't even believe my own advice… "they'll always come back?" what's wrong with me? Is this what I sound like when I'm on the radio? God…why do all those girls like me then? Why does Natsumi like listening to those empty, harsh words? How can I say those things…I'm turning into my parents with words like those…
You'd never come back to me, even as a friend if I ever made you cry…So, can I possibly make you happy? Even with all of my family problems, with these aliens…with Giroro and Koyuki always by your side, ready to take down whoever hurts you…
I promise, as long as the moon exists, as long as it shines brightly, I'll never hurt you…even if you're never mine…I'll try my best to be your friend, to be your protector, and, try with all my heart and soul to be the one you love…Huh, why can't my poetry or radio shows sound more like this? Maybe it's time I stop with the crud, and speak from the heart…
Koyuki
Hmmm, Dororo's been acting pretty weird lately, especially when I talk about Natsumi…I wonder what's up. He probably just feels a little awkward about her situation, he's probably just worried. Silly D. I'll have to talk to him later, maybe when he gets back from his rounds tonight.
A yawn slowly escaped through my teeth as I realize what time it is. Hmm, maybe I should get some sleep, talk when I'm more rational, less tired. Maybe, just a little longer. It feels nice outside, the stars are pretty tonight and the roof top seems comfier than usual. The only thing that could make this night better would be Natsumi. Maybe I should try having another sleep over with her…and pretend to forget my sleeping bag so we could share her bed.
Just to get a little closer to her, I know I could have a chance. But sometimes I feel like I'm wrong, that maybe this isn't normal. Maybe I'm just pretending, trying to keep her closer because she's the first one that accepted me. But when I'm around her, my heart starts pounding and I forget what the word normal means, does it even have a meaning? Do I fit under that category? Maybe. But, she said it herself, normal isn't always all that fun…and as long as she still wants to be around me, that's all I'll ever need for now.
Dororo
This beautiful planet is so peaceful tonight. It's so rare that no one is out doing something mischievous. It's pretty cold out right now, might be the reason. Or maybe, people are starting to get better, starting to be more peaceful, more beautiful. Like her…If they think Natsumi-dono's oblivious, they obviously haven't paid enough attention to Koyuki…That was mean of me, I hope she could forgive me for such a comment…
But what am I supposed to do when her cute, cat like smile makes my heart flip forward? When she says my name or acknowledges my existence when no one else does? When her long hair is let down from her ponytail, flowing as graceful as the wind. When those beautiful, emerald eyes stare into my soul, making me want to reach out and tell her that she's the reason I stay on this planet anymore.
I want this beautiful Pekopon to be as beautiful as her. The spring season to be as cheerful as her, the summer as graceful, the autumn as beautiful, and the winter as cold. Winter would never be so harsh as it is sometimes, she never gets angry. I don't recall seeing her pretty face scrunch up because someone has upset her, and I don't ever want to see her that way. That's why, I'm willing to put up with my silence, and her love for someone else.
Natsumi
That was…nice of him. He gave the charm back. Saburo helped me back into the house. And Koyuki helped me to and from the hospital. Why do they do this to me? I'm conflicted as it is. I know they mean well, but, I don't want to be pitied, I don't want to be seen as week. As a way for them to walk in and pretend to be my heroes. If they want to help me…I want them to let me take care of myself for a day, see just how much I really mean…
What am I thinking…of course they care…it's all they ever do for me…but why does it feel wrong? Maybe, because I'm so conflicted in my choices. What clothes to wear, what to eat, how long to study, who I like…do I really like anyone? Is it just the adoration I feel because they care, and I'm not doing anything about it? Do I adore what they do, and not how they feel? Or is it the opposite…do they adore what I do, but not how I feel? Do they even know how I feel?
How could they…I keep playing the friend zone card…the only one I've ever gotten so close to was Saburo, and that was purely accidental…but it felt so nice, so nice to be in the arms of someone I care for…but, the look on Giroro's face crushed me…was he really just surprised? Or did it mean more? He's avoiding the topic a lot, so maybe…it means more…and then there's Koyuki…she refuses to leave me alone in case something happens…she flips out at the slightest touch to my leg…it's sweet…
Gah! This is why I can't sleep soundly at night, or sleep at all…
The moon looks so peaceful…so at rest…I wish I could be the moon. Everyone adores the moon…I wonder if any of them are staring out at it tonight…if any of them are thinking of me, like I'm always thinking about them…Oh, a shooting star! Hmm, I wish I may, I wish I might, have someone admit their feelings to me before tomorrow night…
Yeah, I know they were all a bit depressing and what not, but I thought it appropriate to see everyone's feelings, aside from those that are already asleep or not within Japan at this current time. SO for those of you that guessed it, Natsumi is very conflicted on who she cares for, and as always, is very oblivious to how any of them feel. So, who do you think will admit their feelings before tomorrow night? Till next chapter I guess ;)
