HOPEFUL DREAMS & HIDDEN DESIRES
Hi again guys!
Let me start by saying that my heart goes out to Turkey! What happened in Istanbul is devastating :'(
Thank you for the nice reviews for chapter 20 :) I'm so happy that you weren't put off by Mark and Andrew – but maybe that was because I had you all really worried about what would happen beforehand and then it turned out that it wasn't as bad as you'd pictured it after all ;)
Some of you seem to think that Callie forgave Arizona too easy, but what can I say – we do the weirdest things when we fancy someone ;)
For one of the guests: I'm not ashamed to admit, that Callie was my favorite character overall (I think I've mentioned this in a previous authors note). But during the last couple of seasons Arizona has really grown on me, and I prefer season 12 Arizona over season 12 Callie personality wise - but Sara Ramirez will always by far be the hottest one of her and Jessica to me though! :D But I have to say I don't think Arizona is horrible and selfish in my story – I think they both have issues and handle things less than ideal. They kind of take turns at not being very good at paying attention to each other – but maybe that'll all change with this chapter ;)
Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's or any of the characters - they all belong to the lovely Shonda Rhimes and ABC. I'm just toying with them for fun with no intentions of profiting.
Happy reading of chapter 21! :)
CHAPTER 21:
Callie slowly opened her eyes and yawned. She instantly pushed herself closer to the blonde lying next to her. Arizona was lying on her belly facing Callie and her arm was draped across the brunette's midsection. Callie smiled as she took in the other woman. She reached out and softly removed a few strands of blonde hair that was covering Arizona's face. She looked so peaceful in this moment and she was obviously still in a very deep sleep.
The brunette knew they were nowhere near done talking, but she was so happy that Arizona was there with her right now. Happy that she'd told their friends about the relationship and that she'd tried to meet Callie's request. And that they'd worked it out. The brunette sighed. She prayed that Arizona hadn't just said it all out of desperation. But that she was in fact ready to tell people.
Callie slowly untangled herself from Arizona. She leaned down and softly kissed an ivory cheek. Her heart swelled as a small smile grazed the blonde's lips as she mumbled something incoherent. Then the brunette grabbed her phone and made her way downstairs. She started the coffee maker, went to the living room and sat down on the couch. She turned on her phone and found Addison's number.
The brunette sat there staring at the wall while the phone rang. She had no idea how Addison would react towards her. She didn't doubt that the red head was worried, but she also had a feeling that she'd be slightly hurt by the fact that Callie hadn't told her about her relationship with Arizona.
"Hello" a sleepy voice greeted her.
"Shit Ads, did I wake you?" the brunette questioned at the sound of her friend and glanced at the clock on the wall. 9.47 am.
"Callie, hey. Yeah you kind of did. But it's okay I had to get up soon anyway." Addison gently replied. "What's up?"
"I'm really sorry. I just figured it would be okay to call, because you don't usually sleep this late" the brunette said and sighed a little bit. "I talked to Arizona, Ads. She told me, that she'd told you guys about us, and I..." Callie paused. She didn't really know how to have this conversation with her friend. "I just wanted to let you know that I'd talked to her."
"I know, and you're usually right, but Teddy and I were up kind of late last night talking. As for things with you and Arizona I have to admit that I'd really wish that you'd been the one to tell me, Callie. But right now I just need to know if you're all right? Arizona said that you'd broken it off with her and by the state she was in, I can only assume that was hard on you too" Addison softly said.
"I'm okay. I know you're worried and probably don't really believe me, but I promise you, that I'm okay. Arizona was here last night when I came back from my date actually. We talked, made up, and she's currently sleeping upstairs in my bed" Callie spoke before sighing again. "I really wanted to tell you Addison. All of it. I just couldn't. But I'd really like to do it now, which is also why I'm calling. I wanted to know if you and Teddy are free for lunch today? You could come by my place and the four of us could hang out, and you guys could ask all kinds of questions and you and me could talk, just the two of us" Callie asked hopefully.
"That sounds really good, Callie. We'd love to! When should we be there? And should we bring anything?" Addison replied with a soft voice.
The brunette smiled. "Just be here around 1. And just your sweet selves are enough."
The red head chuckled. "You don't have to suck up to me. And we'll be there at 1."
"Perfect" Callie replied. "I can't wait to see you Ads."
"Me neither. Now go think about what delicious dishes you're going to prepare for us. I'll see you later" the red head spoke.
"Yeah. Say hi to Teddy for me" Callie said before ending the call.
The brunette then stood up and went to the kitchen. She got eggs from the fridge along with some fruit and started making breakfast. Just as she finished the eggs and debated whether or not she should go wake up the blonde she heard movement upstairs.
Callie smiled and started setting the breakfast bar for the two women to eat breakfast there. As she was reaching up in the cabinet for coffee cups two pale arms snaked around her waist and slowly caressed the exposed skin on the brunette's stomach.
When she sat the cups down on the counter Callie leaned back against Arizona a little and the blonde rested her chin on the slightly taller woman's shoulder. "Good morning" Arizona said in the most adorable sleep laden voice Callie had ever heard.
The brunette turned around and was met with a very sleep tousled blonde. She couldn't help herself as she reached up and ran her hand through blonde locks, softly caressing the blonde's scalp along the way. Arizona closed her eyes and hummed in content at the other woman's actions.
Callie leaned down and captured pink lips in a soft, slow kiss. She gently traced her tongue across the other woman's lower lip, and she was instantly granted access. Callie sighed as her tongue made contact with Arizona's soft one and the brunette moved her hand to the blonde's neck pulling her closer.
When they parted Callie smiled at Arizona as she took her hand and guided her to one of the bar stools. "Did you sleep okay?" the brunette asked as she moved to fill the cups with coffee.
Arizona smiled. "Okay? I slept amazing." She reached out and took one of the cups from Callie's hand. "Thank you."
The brunette smiled back, put her own cup down and brought the food over. Then she sat down next to the blonde. "I'm glad. You looked really tired. I got a little worried about you" the brunette said while reaching over and caressing an ivory thigh.
The blonde looked at Callie and the brunette noticed the mesmerizing blue eyes in front of her were a bit glazed over. "I was. I didn't sleep that well the other night, and my head wasn't really letting me rest for just a second all day yesterday. But luckily I got to spend last night in the arms of the most wonderful, most forgiving, not to mention most breathtaking creature on the planet. I just really hope she hasn't changed her mind about taking me back during the night."
Callie moved her hand to the other woman's cheek. "We've still got some things to talk about and figure out. Together. But I meant it when I said that I want to be with you. And I wouldn't kiss you like I did, if I'd regretted forgiving you."
Arizona leaned over and pecked plump lips. "Thank you. For being so incredible good to me. I'm going to try letting that go the other way as well in the future" the blonde stated a bit sadly.
"You already are, Arizona. And please believe me when I say, that I'm SO happy that you're here now. I would definitely be heartbroken if you weren't, but it would have been okay. If you hadn't talked to Teddy and Addison and if you hadn't figured out that you'd ever be ready, then that would have been okay. You weren't wrong to have those feelings. And I weren't wrong to have mine. We are human beings. There aren't any rules as to how we should react. Sometimes those feelings can be united and sometimes they can't. Luckily we figured it out" Callie softly stated.
Arizona smiled back and a single tear trickled down her cheek. "You're so flawless, you don't even know it!" the blonde let out and smiled before leaning closer the brunette again. "And I'm really, really, really crazy about you" she whispered before once again connecting her lips with Callie's. The kiss was soft and Arizona couldn't help but bite down on Callie's lip slightly as she pulled back eliciting a moan from the brunette.
"Now, let's eat! Because this looks delicious and I'm starving. I didn't eat much yesterday either" Arizona finished with a smile as she leaned back.
Callie moved her hand down to an ivory one and gave it a squeeze before reaching for the eggs and handing it to the blonde. "Here you go." Arizona eagerly piled eggs over on her plate as Callie took the fruit. "Oh by the way, I called Addison. She and Teddy will be here at 1 for lunch" the brunette added.
Arizona shoved a forkful of eggs in her mouth before taking the fruit from her girlfriend. "That sounds nice. Do we have to go grocery shopping?"
The brunette smiled and wiped a bit of egg from pink lips. "No. I've got something we can cook for them."
"Oh thank God" the blonde breathed out. "Because I was really hoping for a quick make out session on the couch before they get here" she smiled at Callie and wiggled her eyebrows.
Callie laughed. "We'll talk first. Then we can make out. Deal?"
Arizona pouted a little but Callie just raised one of her eyebrows at the other woman. "Okay, fine. Talk and then kissing. Lots of kissing" the blonde exclaimed.
The brunette smiled and leaned in to the blonde until their faces were only inches apart. "You can bet your sweet ass that there'll be lots of kissing. We've got ten days to make up for." Then she pecked the blonde's lips before she leaned back again and started eating her own breakfast.
Callie and Arizona sat facing each other on the couch. Arizona was picking invisible lint of her night-shorts and the brunette hated, that the other woman was that nervous about the talk. The duo had decided to just get it over with before showering, changing and preparing lunch for their friends.
The brunette reached over and took one of the fumbling, ivory hands. "Let me start by saying, that I meant what I said yesterday Arizona; I want to be with you. More than I'll ever be able to express." Brown orbs connected with blue ones, and Callie could see both relief and nervousness in the other woman's eyes.
"With that being said I can't help but be worried that you only said what you did last night because you were cornered. Maybe you were so were so blinded by wanting to be with me, that you'd say anything for me to take you back" the brunette hesitantly spoke.
Arizona shook her head. "No Callie. I want to tell people. I want to tell my dad and Tim. Maybe not this instant, but I want to tell them."
The brunette smiled at her girlfriend. "I'm glad you feel that way. I want to tell my parents, Aria and Rei too." Callie looked down and played with Arizona's fingers.
"I know I have to take your need to process into consideration, but I'd really be grateful if you could maybe take account of my needs and feelings too. I hate being exactly as let down as I fear I will every time we face a new obstacle, Arizona. I want to spend the rest of my life trying to make you as happy as possible, and I really hope you want me to be happy too" Callie whispered softly.
"Oh Callie. Come here!" Arizona reached out and pulled the brunette to her. She maneuvered them on the couch so she now leaned against the back with her arm around the brunette and Callie rested her head in the crook of the blonde's neck.
"Of course I want you to be happy. There's very little in this world that I want more than that. And I'm sorry I've been so focused on me. I'm sorry I haven't been more attentive to you. I'll be from now on, I promise. You deserve that. You deserve alle the best in this world, because there's no way there are anyone out there as warmhearted and tender as you" Arizona spoke as she gently nuzzled a caramel thigh that was resting against her own.
Callie lifted her head and looked at Arizona. "Thank you."
The blonde smiled and leaned towards the other woman. "Could we maybe proceed to the kissing now? Because we don't have much time! We have to prepare lunch for Teds and Ads. And we also need to shower."
The brunette smiled and captured the pink lips before her. She pulled back a little before Arizona had the chance to deepen the kiss. "Don't worry, I'd picked something easy. It's very quick to cook and most of it just needs to go in the oven."
Arizona smiled at Callie and slowly leaned forward pushing Callie back until she rested against the couch cushions. Then the blonde gently lowered herself on the brunette. "You're a genius."
With that Arizona claimed Callie's lips in a soft kiss. But as soon as their tongues connected the kiss got more heated. The brunette was floored by how she could never get enough of this. It was like every time Arizona kissed her it exceeded her memory of it. It was always better somehow.
Callie felt a warm hand make its way under her shirt and caress her sides. She moaned into the other woman's mouth and that clearly spurred the other woman on as the hand instantly moved to one of her unrestrained breasts.
The brunette arched her back a little at the pleasure of a soft thumb and index finger circling and then pinching her nipple slightly. She tore her lips from Arizona's to inhale some much needed air. Just one touch from the blonde and she was instantly turned on. "Fuck. I've really missed you" she breathed out as she kept eye contact with Arizona.
Arizona smiled at the look on the other woman's face. Her eyecolor had changed to almost black and Arizona could see the arousal in those beautiful orbs. She wondered how Callie would look as she was taken to the ultimate highest of pleasures. She made a mental bet with herself, that the brunette coming undone would be the most beautiful sight ever.
The blonde leaned down and recaptured plump lips. When the need for air became too great she pulled back an inch and looked into dark brown eyes once again as she felt a caramel hand trace her toned stomach. "I've really missed you too."
When Callie opened the door to greet her guests she was immediately engulfed in a bone crushing hug from her red haired friend.
The brunette smiled and returned the hug. Addison blushed a little as she pulled back. "I'm sorry, it's just that I've been waiting a day and a half to do that, and I was slowly going insane."
Callie chuckled and pulled Addison in for another hug. "Well I'm glad you didn't make it to complete insanity then. And you don't have to apologize for hugging me Ads. I like it when you do that."
Addison smiled as she eased out of the hug and moved inside the house. Teddy stepped forward and gave the brunette a brief hug before following her fiancé inside.
Callie closed the door and the trio went to the living room where Arizona was waiting. The blonde looked kind of nervous to Callie, and the brunette didn't like the feeling that rose in her at the sight.
"Please take a seat. I'll go get the rest of the food" Callie spoke as she gestured to the dining table. She came back with an oven cooked salmon and some fresh baked bread that she put down next to a salad on the table. "What can I get you guys to drink?"
Addison smiled. "I'd like a diet coke, please."
"Just for water for me, thank you Callie" Teddy said.
Callie then turned her attention to Arizona. She put her hand on the blonde's shoulder. The other woman flinched slightly and it didn't go unnoticed by the brunette. She gave the shoulder a gentle squeeze as she softly spoke. "And what can I get you?"
Arizona couldn't help but smile a little at the change of tone in Callie's voice from when she addressed their friends. "Do you have the mojito flavored 7Up, I like?" she asked.
The brunette smiled adoringly at her girlfriend. "Of course I do. I'll be right back. Please start helping yourselves to the food" Then she made her way to the kitchen. As she returned she sat down on the empty chair next to Arizona and started plating food for herself.
"Soooo" Addison started as the foursome was eating "you mentioned this morning that you guys were back together, Callie."
The brunette smiled and eased her hand across the table to take Arizona's. But the blonde moved her hand just as Callie's hand was about to connect with hers. A look of hurt shot across the brunette's face as she withdrew her hand. "Yeah, we are. We sorted it out."
Teddy gave Arizona a questioning look before smiling at the brunette. "I'm so happy for you guys. The other night didn't really leave much room for excitement about this whole thing, but now that you're back together I can FINALLY unleash it. IT IS AWESOME YOU GUYS!" the honey-blonde exclaimed as she clapped her hands.
Addison chuckled at her lover's antics and put her arm out to rest it on the other woman's chair as she softly caressed the honey-blonde's back. "Maybe tone it down just a tad, my love" the red head said as she smiled at her fiancé. "But she's right; it is awesome. I mean you're our best friends. You deserve happiness. And I for one would be ecstatic if you could find it with each other. I couldn't have come up with a better match myself."
Arizona smiled first at Addison and then turned her attention to Callie. "It really is awesome" she stated lovingly before looking at her honey-blonde friend. "And it's great that you're excited Teds. As long as you're only excited when you're with us and Addison. Because we need a chance to tell people ourselves before you 'unleash it'."
Teddy smiled. "Of course. I CAN control myself you know." Addison couldn't help herself and snorted slightly. Teddy immediately turned her head and squinted her eyes at her fiancé. "Do you have something to add, Addi?" she asked.
Addison leaned in and softly kissed her lover's lips. "You're adorable honey. And I don't doubt that you'll be able to control yourself when in public. I'll just prepare myself to let you have ten minutes every night to vent to me about it before we go to bed."
Callie and Arizona both chuckled as Teddy pouted slightly. "I don't need to do that" the honey-blonde huffed.
Arizona smiled at her friend. "I like that you're so invested in this. It's not a bad thing."
"I just want you to be happy. Both of you. And I like the idea of doing double date things in the future. And until we can do that, we can have movie nights and be all lovey-dovey together" Teddy stated with clear excitement in her eyes.
Callie chuckled. "You and Arizona can be all lovey-dovey and Addison and I can be the ones to keep it down just a bit" she said before looking at Arizona. "Not that this one can't snuggle up close to me anytime she wishes to."
The brunette couldn't help but feel a little like a fish out of water. Somehow this lunch felt different and somehow it felt like she was just enjoying some food with her friends. Like she used to. And she didn't know how to change it. Arizona had very clearly signaled that she didn't want Callie to touch her.
Callie felt a little better though as Arizona smiled and let her eyes connect with Callie's. The blue eyes before her were so warm and tender. The blonde then looked at her two friends. "Is everybody done eating?" As the two women nodded, Arizona looked at Callie. "Why don't you and Addison go relax in the backyard? I'll clear the table and Teddy can keep me company."
"Don't be ridiculous! I can help you clear the table" Teddy quickly added. "But it's a good idea. You two should go hang out."
Callie looked at Addison who smiled back. Then the brunette rose from her seat. "Okay" then she looked first at Teddy and then at Arizona. "Thank you guys."
Arizona smiled at her girlfriend. "Don't mention it. No go."
With that the brunette and the red head made their way through the kitchen and out the patio door.
Addison and Callie slumped down on two lounge chairs overlooking the backyard. A soft breeze was in the air and Callie closed her eyes for a minute enjoying the fresh air. Then she opened them and looked at Addison who was staring at her intensely.
The brunette chuckled. "Okay, you obviously want to ask me something so go right ahead."
Addison bit her lower lip for a second before asking "For how long have you been in love with her?"
Callie was kind of surprised at that question. She sighed. "That's a really difficult question Ads. I don't even know that I am. I think I'm somehow still denying myself to acknowledge those kinds of feelings."
The red head smiled at her friend. "Yeah, keep telling yourself that Callie! I haven't seen you look at Mark the way you look at her for years. You're in love with her" Addison concluded.
Callie leaned her head against the back of the lounge chair. "Maybe. I know I definitely could fall in love with her. And once I loosen up there'll be no turning back. I'll fall faster and harder than ever before. I'm just still a bit scared Ads. That she's not really ready for this. Look at how she behaved just now when I touched her or even moved to do it. And it was on her shoulder! I could have done that when we were friends too. How do I know she's really ready?" The brunette sighed.
Addison smiled. "Remember how Teddy reacted back when her and I declared we were a couple to our friends and family? It was like she all of a sudden couldn't even handle being in the same room as me. It was like she was afraid, I would molest her in front of everyone if she let me take her hand. I think you and I have managed to find significant others that are more alike than we would have ever imagined."
The brunette chuckled. "Yeah, I guess you're right." Callie turned her attention to Addison. "I really am sorry Addison. I know I could have told you without you spilling it to Teddy, I just… I somehow couldn't cope with the consequences if for some reason Teddy found out and told Arizona. But I was so close to telling you so many times because she really challenged me occasionally and I could have used someone who could have given me an opinion from a neutral point of view."
Addison gave Callie a small smile. "I want you to know, that if something like this should ever happen again, you can tell me. And I will MAKE SURE Teddy doesn't find out. And in this particular situation I would also have made sure that Arizona never discovered that I knew. I'm your friend, and I'm here for you Callie. Always!" the red head finished.
"Thank you Addison. I'll keep that in mind. Because she had me so frustrated and confused sometimes" Callie said.
The red head chuckled. "Just wait until you're going to have sex with her the first time. Remember how I told you it was…interesting…with Teddy?" Callie nodded at her friend.
"Well, we'd had the most amazing evening. We'd eaten take out, watched a movie curled up on the couch and just been together. Then as we went to bed, she snuggled really close to me and just started peeling of my shirt and shorts. And I was ALL FOR IT Callie. God, I wanted to have sex with her so bad. And things progressed really well. Until I took of her panties and she was completely naked. Then she just burst into tears. She was sobbing Callie, and I didn't have the slightest idea what was going on because she wouldn't tell me. I desperately tried to put her panties back on, but she just started kicking her legs furiously and cried even harder" Addison recited and Callie couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"Hey, it's not funny" the red head said as she started laughing herself. "Anyway, I finally got her to tell me, and it turned out she was scared to have sex with me. Because she'd never done it with a woman before and I kind of intimidated her. She was apparently convinced I was some sort of sex Goddess and she was scared she wouldn't be enough."
Callie chuckled. "A sex Goddess? Really? Why the hell did she think that?" the brunette questioned.
Addison reached out and swatted Callie's arm. "Hey! I'm really hot and believe me when I way that I know what I'm doing!" the red head let out.
"Well then I know who to ask for tips, once we reach that point" Callie said as she smiled at her friend.
Arizona was busy putting the left overs away as Teddy was filling the dishes in the dishwasher.
"So she just forgave you just like that?" the honey-blonde asked her friend.
"No not 'just like that'. I had to listen to her telling about her amazing date and Joshua Halls kissing her. And I for sure thought that I'd messed up and lost her forever. But then she told me, that I was perfect to her" Arizona got a dreamily look in her eyes "and that she wanted to be with me. But she didn't know how, when I didn't know if I ever wanted it to be known to the public. But then I told her, that I'd told you guys and then we made up and went to bed." The blonde sighed.
"But we talked again this morning. And she's kind of worried that I only said I was ready because I would lose her otherwise. She's scared I'm not really ready. So she wants to take things slow. Like even slower than before. To make sure I'm ready. But I really am!" Arizona finished.
Teddy looked at her friend for a second. "Are you though? Ready I mean. You flinched when she laid her hands on your shoulder and when she slipped her hand across the table to take yours, you removed it" the honey-blonde sighed. "Don't string her along or hurt her Arizona. She's an amazing person not to mention Addi's best friend. She doesn't deserve that."
Arizona looked out through the kitchen window at Callie and Addison who were laughing at something the red head said. The brunette was dressed really casually and didn't wear any makeup at all. But still Arizona couldn't remember ever seeing anyone as beautiful as her.
"I am. Ready. I'm just scared as hell Teds. She's so miraculous and I really don't want to mess it up. And I'm scared that I'm going to. Or that our relationship can't handle being in the public eye. The press is going to go ballistic once they find out. She's Callie Torres for crying out loud. But I want to be with her. And I'm ready to be with her. For real. Because I'm so in love with her Teddy" the blonde softly spoke.
The honey-blonde stepped up next to her friend. She put her arm around the blonde's shoulder as they both looked out the window at their significant other. "You should tell her that. Talk to her about it. When I first kissed Addison anywhere that wasn't at her or my home, I nearly threw up in her mouth. I could literally feel the bile rise in my throat. I was scared shitless of what that would mean for me and for us. But I have never ever regretted doing it Arizona. Because no matter how it had turned out between us, I would have gotten to experience her loving me. I would never trade that for anything. And I have a feeling that having Callie Torres love you is nearly as amazing as having Addison Montgomery love you" Teddy smiled as she watched her fiancé playfully swatt the brunette on the arm in the yard.
"And I know your situation is different because we aren't even close to being the stars you guys are and that prevented our relationship from reaching the public for two years. But you guys will manage Arizona. It will be hard, but if you just remember to talk to each other and take some time in private just to be girlfriends and enjoy being with each other, forget about the rest of the world, then I'm sure you can deal with it" the honey-blonde finished.
As if they could sense the two blonde's watching them, the duo in the yard turned around and looked at the two women in the kitchen. Callie winked at Arizona and sent the blonde a dazzling smile. The blonde felt her knees go a little week at that and before she knew what she was doing, she was on her way through the patio door and headed straight for the brunette.
Callie looked at her with questioning eyes as she moved towards the brunette. "Hey, what's u…" the brunette didn't get to finish her question though, because in a matter of seconds Arizona had straddled Callie and claimed her lips in a passionate kiss. The brunette was really surprised at the other woman's actions, but like every time Arizona's lips were on hers she instantly relaxed and kissed her back. Callie felt the blonde's tongue force its way into her mouth and she couldn't help herself as she moaned a little when she felt the other woman's soft muscle wrap around her own.
As the two of them parted a while later Callie put her arms around Arizona's waist to keep the other woman firmly on her lap. "What was that for?" the brunette asked while panting.
The blonde reached up and cupped a caramel cheek as she smiled at Callie. "I always want to kiss you. Every single time I lay my eyes on you all I can think about is kissing you. And you really deserved this kiss" Arizona sighed a little before continuing "I'm really sorry I flinched, when you put your hand on me and that I removed my hand from the table when you reached for it earlier. I know it hurt you because we just talked about your fears of me not really being ready. But I promise you Callie, I am. I'm all kinds of scared, but I want to do this. With you. Because you're worth it. During every fight, every stupid paparazzi ambush, every hateful headline and whatever else we have to go through, I want you to know that I'll always think you're worth it" the blonde finished as her thumb caressed the brunette's cheek.
Callie's eyes were glossy, and she could feel a tear spill from her right eye. "Arizona" she choked out "I don't know what to…You have no idea how happy I am to hear you say that. Thank you. You'll always be worth it too, and there's nobody else I'd want to go through this with than you" the brunette gently said.
Arizona placed one last kiss on plump lips and smiled at her girlfriend. "I'm glad. I'm going to go back to the kitchen and let you two finish your talk" the blonde spoke as she got off Callie.
The brunette softly grabbed the other woman's hand. "We won't be long."
"No, take your time. Teddy and I can entertain each other just fine." The blonde squeezed the caramel hand before walking back towards the honey-blonde who stood on the doorstep.
"You might as well fuck her right there on the lounge chair. That was some kiss, girl" Teddy smirked.
Arizona blushed a little. "Shut up Teds! I can kiss her however I want. And we haven't even had sex yet, remember" The blonde said as she moved back to the kitchen with the honey-blonde trailing behind her.
Teddy snorted. "I'll give it two weeks max. If you kiss like that when we're around I don't think my mind is dirty enough to imagine how you kiss when you're alone. It's only a matter of time before you have her naked and writhing underneath you."
The blonde paled a little at the thought. "We both know that your mind is more than dirty enough for that. And I really don't think we're there yet. I mean I've thought about it of course. But I don't think Callie has" Arizona stated as she fumbled with her hands.
"Of course she's thought about it Arizona. She's very clearly in to you" Teddy said.
Arizona sighed. "I'm so nervous about that step, Teddy. I have no idea what to do, when we reach that point!"
Teddy chuckled. "You didn't have any idea what to do the first time you slept with a guy either. And you do have an idea what to do actually." Arizona looked at the honey-blonde with a questioning look.
"Don't tell me, you've never masturbated Arizona. While it's not the same at all, it kind of is though. You'll know what to do, because you know how to behave in an area with a vagina. And you'll be able to tell what she likes. You'll make her feel amazing. I bet it'll all feel very naturally once you get there. I know it did for me. I was a wreck at first of course but once I got past that it was earthshattering. But I almost ruined it. I actually burst out crying the second Addison took of my panties for the first time" Teddy giggled at the memory.
"Just try to relax and enjoy the experience. You guys trust each other and, dare I say, love each other. You'll explore it together. She's not going to laugh at you or bully you or anything. You both want it to be a good experience for the other person. I spend so much time being nervous as hell, and it wasn't until Addison told me, that she'd be more comfortable with waiting, that I realized what my nerves were doing to her experience of it" the honey-blonde softly said.
Arizona smiled in gratitude. "Thank you Teddy. And I know you're right, but it's still going to be hard to just shed the nerves. BEcause she turns me on like nothing I've ever experienced before. She's going to be amazing. I just hope I'll make her feel half as good as she undoubtedly will make me feel."
The honey-blonde put her hand on Arizona's arm. "You will Arizona. I would be surprised if you didn't turn her on as well. She's going to love having your hands and mouth on her. Trust me."
Arizona reached out and pulled Teddy in for a hug. "Thank you Teds. For being an awesome friend. And when I'm freaking out right before having sex with Callie, I'm going to call you in panic from the bathroom, so you better always pick up instantly when I call from now on" the blonde said with a smile on her face as she pulled back from the hug.
Teddy chuckled. "I will. I promise. I'm changing your ringtone to 'Sex Bomb' as soon as I get home and I'll warn Addi that NO MATTER WHAT we're doing I always have to pick up if that sounds out. But you're not going to need it Arizona. It will be great. Because it will be with Callie" the honey-blonde finished on a serious note.
Arizona turned and once again looked at her girlfriend in the yard. Her brown hair was flowing slightly in the breeze and she smiled really big while talking to Addison. The blonde couldn't help but smile herself as she looked at the other woman. "You're right. Because everything is always great when I'm with her" Arizona softly stated.
And that's a wrap for chapter 21.
Let me know what you thought about it.
Lots of love /Julie