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A/N: hey everyone, thank you for all of the reviews for last chapter, they made me smile. And here is the next one, I hope you enjoy it ^_^
'All I Wanted Was You'
'Chapter 21: Fall to pieces'
'I don't want to fall to pieces, I just want to sit and stare at you' –
'Fall to pieces' Avril Lavigne
(Alice's P.O.V)
"BELLA!" I shouted as loud as I could as I watched Bella's figure disappear into the forest,and at the same time I was trying to escape from my brother's grasp.
"Edward, get the hell away from me!" I shouted as I punched his arms that were around me, but he wouldn't let me go, I scratched him so much that it would actually leave marks on his marble skin,
"Please someone do something! Please" I shouted to them and I watched as the all looked to me with a pained expression. Esme was dry sobbing on the ground with Rosalie's arms wrapped around her, while everyone else looked angry and shocked.
Why did she do this to me? Why did she leave? Why did I not see it? How could I not see it?
"She blocked it, she didn't want you to see her choice" Edward said, his voice right near my ear. Then he released his arms from around me and before anyone could say anything I shot off towards where Bella left, I followed her scent, I followed it until I had reached the limits of Forks, and then it was just... gone, like it had disappeared. Like she had disappeared.
I collapsed onto my knees, I looked up into the grey clouds wishing that I could cry one single tear from my eyes. Just so I could display my sorrow on the outside, the pain I felt from my mate leaving me here...alone.
"Bella.." I cried looking into the skies.
How am I supposed to live knowing that she is another country or place where I am not. She could die working for the Volturi. I wouldn't even know, if something happens to her...
"Alice?" I heard I quiet voice behind me, I knew who it was, I could smell his scent from a mile away,
"Jasper.." I cried and before I had even finished saying his name he wrapped his arms around me in a hug, and I copied the motion.
"Why Jazz, why did she do it?" I asked him as I cried dry sobs into his shoulder,
"She was protecting you Alice, she was protecting all of us" he answered me, but I cried harder,
"But she knows how much we all love her, how much I love her, we could have all gone, she didn't need to go by herself!" my voice sounded muffled in his shoulder, I felt him rub my back comfortingly,
"Yes she does know Alice, but I could feel her guilt, her sorrow...her love, a love too strong for her to let anyone who she bestowed the feeling on, be harmed" he said calmly,
"She might die Jazz" I cried and I felt a wave of calm coming over me, and I felt myself calming my crying a bit.
"Bella is a strong person Alice, we have seen what she was like when she was human, she has got so must courage, and she is very smart, she will get through this" He said and I knew he was right, Bella is strong, she is brave, but she is Bella...what if something does happen to her?
"Alice, I know this is very hard for you, but letting feelings take over you is not good, remember what happened to Bella when we left? I don't want you to go through that, and I know for certain that Bella wouldn't want that either. Just please try and be calm, you will see her again, wars like what she is doing do not last long" he said and I felt myself calm down fully, a few moments later I pulled out of his arms and smiled at him,
"Thanks Jazz, I'm just scared" I said as I looked down at the ground, he pulled my chin up so I could look in his eyes,
"She will be fine, and so will you" he said and I smiled sadly at him, and frowned,
"Guess we should head back" I said and he shook his head and I looked at him with a confused expression,
"there are too many feelings in the house, it's sending me a little bit0 0mad, I think I will go and hunt, I just wanted to check you were okay" he said and rubbed my arm soothingly,
"Thank you, I will see you later then?" I asked him and he nodded, and then took his leave, I looked up into the sky for a moment and then I headed back to the house, to get some answers,
I walked into the house to see that everyone was congregated in the living room, Esme was being hugged by Carlisle, David was sitting next to Rebecca, both of them looking like they don't know how to react, Rosalie and Emmett were snuggled on the couch, and then there was Edward standing in the corner, I glared at him as I entered,
He must have known Bella's Idea, he must have been in on it to hold me the way he did,
"She asked me to" he said breaking the silence in the room. It was then that everyone attention was on Edward and then everyone looked back to me as if realising I was there for the first time,
"Why?" was all I could say, I couldn't rap my head around it, he stared at me with sorrow in his eyes,
"she didn't want anyone to be harmed, she needed to go with them to save us, she said that she wouldn't change her mind" he stated and I broke down on the floor again.
That girl has got to be the most idiotic selfless person I have ever known, but I wouldn't want to love anyone else.
"Alice, dear" I heard Esme's voice flow around me, I looked up to see her crouched down in front of me, her eyes looking into mine, I couldn't help but lunge into her arms,
"It will be okay sweetheart, Bella will be just fine" she reassured me and I felt comfort in her words,
"I don't even know when I'll see her again" I cried into her shoulder and I heard Carlisle's voice float around the room,
"I will call the Volturi and get the specifics, since we were so cooperative they should at least allow us some details" he said but I could hear the sadness in his voice,
"Thank you" was all I could muster, I tried to contain myself as I stood back up,
"I need to be alone" I murmured before walking up the stairs at a human pace, I walked slowly over to our room and stood in front of the door, I braced myself and then I opened the door. Bella's scent hit me like human blood to a newborn and I drowned in her smell.
It was everywhere in the room, I walked over to the end of the bed and sat down, looking around the room. I could feel the sadness building up In me, the sorrow I had suppressed was edging it's way out again.
I looked over to the corner of the room to where Bella's guitar was situated, the song she had made for me was still in my head, there is no possible way I could ever forget it. I just wanted to hear her sing it, in person.
I had stayed in the room for hours, reminiscing memories of me and Bella. The memory of us both together, laughing and having fun. Our first kiss, and our first time making love. It was all coming back to me. I knew that Edward was in the house and no doubt reading my thoughts but I couldn't care less at the moment.
"Alice?" I heard Rosalie's voice float from the other side of the door, I knew she was coming to check on me, I couldn't be bothered to stop her from doing so.
"You can come in Rose" I whispered, I knew she would hear me. Not a moment later the door opened slowly and I watched as Rosalie walked in, her eyes were fixed on mine as she closed the door,
"How are you feeling?" she asked me quietly as she walked towards me and sat on the end of the bed. I was sitting against the headboard with my arms around my knees. I took an unneeded breath and closed my eyes,
"Sad, Angry, lonely" I whispered into the silent room and then I felt Rose sit beside me, placing her hand on my knee,
"You're not alone Alice, you have us, and just because Bella has left doesn't mean she is gone forever" Rose reassured but I couldn't take in her words, I just wanted to be alone, and left with my memories, even though I loved my family, I just wanted Bella,
"I know Rose, and I love you all very much for being here for me. It's just...so hard. She's been gone for a couple of hours and I already feel like she has been wiped of the face of the earth!" I said in a whiny voice and Rosalie chuckled, but I just looked at her as if she said the sea was yellow.
"You have been around Edward and Bella too much, always the dramatics" she commented and I felt a smile tug at my lips. Then the room went silent once more and I looked down at my knees,
"I won't lie Alice, when Bella first came and she was with Edward, I didn't know how to take her. At first I was so set on disliking her for being a threat to the secrecy of our family. And she wanted to throw away her life just to be like us. But when that thing happened with Victoria...i was actually upset...upset that we hadn't changed her earlier. I don't know, I guess she had grown on me. She's different with you than with Edward. With him she was agitated all the time and I knew that was mostly his fault, but with you, she was happy and she acted like herself instead, and I have come to love her as a Sister" she said and I let it sink in...
Rosalie was not one for heart to hearts, but I knew that she did have one and I knew that she was very caring and considerate when she wanted to be,
I smiled at her affectionately and pulled her in for a hug, we rarely did things like this. It was a fantastic feeling that I still have my family who love me,
"I know you are angry at Bella, but just think of it this way, if it was the other way around and they wanted you, would you sacrifice yourself, to save Bella and the rest of us?" she asked me and before I could answer I heard someone shout my name,
"Alice!" it was Carlisle, he only used that tone of voice when he was serious, or in deep thought,
Both of us ran out of the bedroom and ran towards Carlisle's office before he had even finished saying my name.
I looked towards him and he was holding a phone in his hand. I gave him a confused expression, he just smiled sadly at me and moved the phone towards me, motioning for me to grab it. I took it out of his hands and gave him a curious look, without saying a word he walked out of his office with Rosalie following after him, no doubt trying to get answers.
I looked at the phone as if there were a serial killer demanding a ransom on the other end. I gently held the phone to my ear and spoke softly,
"Hello?" there was silence and then sounded like someone had sighed in relief,
"Alice" they sobbed into the phone and I knew immediately who it was, and I could have cried just from hearing the tone of her voice,
"Bella" I cried into the phone, I couldn't bring any of the words from my brain to my mouth, but before I could say anything, she spoke..
"I'm so sorry Alice, I didn't want this to happ-"
"none of this is your fault Bella" I interrupted her and she seemed to go silent,
"It is Alice, I should have told you.. I jus couldn't stand the thought of you all coming here and being forced to do something you all hate" she cried in the speaker and I sat in the corner of the room curled in up in a ball,
"I want you to come home" I cried, and I heard her sob,
"I know, I want to, too. But I can't leave until this thing they are using me for is over" she said and I just wanted to get on a plane and go to Italy..but reality is harsh,
"I wish you would have let me come with you, I could have protected yo-"
"No" she said harshly and I was taken aback by her tone, then it went back to normal,
"The whole reason I did this was to protect you Alice, you and the rest of my family, I didn't want to lose any of you, and I won't be gone for long, their problem is not as bad if they have me with them its just who they are up against have powers that are dangerous" she said in a serious tone,
"I know, Bella I just, I just miss you, It's going to be torture not being able to know if something happens to you, I don't know what I would do if something did" I cried and she replied in less than a second,
"You will stay with your family, please Alice, if something does happen, don't do anything reckless, just stay with them, they love you very much. I will allow you to see my decisions while I am here so you can see everything that is going on... okay? I'm not going away just yet they want to train me first" she said I felt a pang at the pit of my stomach at the mention of anything possibly happening to her, but never the less, I agreed with her,
"Okay, just please be careful Bella, for me. You know how their minds work, you know what they are capable of" I reminded her, knowing that they would most likely play mind games and try to get her to join them permanently.
"I know Alice, and be careful for me in return" she said, and I could hear the love in her tone. We broke into silence. Then I heard a few people talking in the background on Bella's side of the phone,
"I have to go now Alice..I'll try to call you when I can" she said and my mood turned sad once more,
"You promise?" I asked her and I could tell she was smiling on the other side,
"I promise...I love you Alice" she said and I smiled sadly, I wanted her with me so badly,
"I love you too Bella" I replied back to her, I could tell she could hear the sadness in my voice.
"Please don't be upset Alice, and will you do something for me?" she said and she suddenly sounded much happier,
"Anything" I replied to her, she was silent for a few moments and then replied,
"I think I left my Wuthering Heights book under my pillow in our room, can you keep it safe for me please?" she said and I was confused to no end. You would think that she would ask something more important than that,
"of course" I said and I could tell she was smiling on the other line,
"Thank you, I-I have to go now, speak soon, I love you" she said and I wished that I could talk to her longer,
"Love you too, Be safe" and with that the line went dead. And so did my none beating heart.
"What did she say" Rosalie asked as I came out of Carlisle's office with a sad smile on my face,
I sighed and spoke softly, "She was just explaining why she left and just reassured me. And she told me that what they want her for wouldn't take long" I said lastly and she gave me a questioning look,
"And that's it?" she asked and I eyed her curiously, and then I remembered the last thing Bella talked about,
"Well she asked me to get her Wuthering Heights book from under her pillow, and to keep it safe" I said and Rosalie had her thinking face on,
"Her book?" she asked me and I nodded. Am I missing something here?
"What are you thinking?" I asked her, glaring, I couldn't get any decisions from her,
"Nothing, I'll see you later, we're all going hunting, do you wanna come?" she asked and I shook my head sadly,
"I just want to be alone for a while" I said and she stared into my eyes and then took my hands in hers,
"Alice you can't be alone all the time" she said and I nodded as I agreed with her,
"I know, I know, I promise I won't be like this all the time, I just need some time to get used to it" I watched as Rosalie smiled sadly and squeezed my hand once before letting go and walking down the stairs. I watched her go down and out the front door, once I confirmed no one was in, I went back into my room. Even now her scent in here drove me crazy...I'm so hopeless.
As I walked into the room I looked towards the pillow in the bed, where Bella's book supposedly was. I casually walked over and sat on the bed and slowly lifted up the pillow up...but I had to double take a few times...
Where Bella's book was supposed to be was a small black box, and a note was underneath it. I just stared at it in shock. My hand slowly reached for the small box pulling it towards me, holding it in my both of my hands.
I took a shaky unneeded breath and opened the box, revealing a shimmering silver ring with 3 diamonds along the top with one bigger than the rest in the middle.
My breath literally caught in my mouth, as I stared at the ring, I then looked past it to the note still on the bed. I picked it up and immediately recognised Bella's handwriting.
'Dear Alice...'
'I know I haven't always been the most interesting person that you've known, and there is a lot of things about that are just plain and boring and well you get the idea.
But you love me all the same. I can't understand how a person who is so beautiful inside and out could love someone like me. It amazes me really. I know I have hurt a lot of your family in the past and now I am a part of it, but I guess it just hasn't sunk it yet, but I want you to know that all of those things, I wouldn't take them back, because they have led me to the best thing that ever happened to me. You.
And I don't know where I will be while you read this letter. There are two options, I could be with the Volturi, or I could be sitting just down stairs. And I know it's pretty stupid to write this all in a letter but you know how I am. I'm not a put on a show kind of person. But if the answer is what I hope it is then I will ask you in person once I know, I can promise you.
I want you to know that I love you Alice Cullen, more than my own life, and I just have one question to ask you...
Will you Marry me Alice Cullen?
If I see you wearing the ring I will know your answer, and I certainly hope I do.'
'With all my love...Bella'
I stared at the letter in shock, my one hand held the letter while the other one covered my mouth in shock. I wanted to cry so much, her words even though they weren't said by her personally, I know that she meant every word.
I placed the letter back onto the bed and picked the box up once more, staring at the ring inside, I gently pulled it out of the box and inspected it. I noticed inside of it was an inscription,
'Keeper of my heart'
If possible I fell more in love with Bella Swan or Cullen should I say.
And with that I gently slid the ring onto the ring finger of my left hand, looking at it with the affection it deserved. And soon I would be sharing that affection with the one who gave it to me.
The one who's heart I keep safe
A/N: "awe, I know it's obnoxiously sweet and hallmarky, but still..awe" haha I'm quoting (Well kinda, instead of 'awe' it's 'grr') S.O.N (if you know what that is then you get a cyber cookie!)
Well there you go another chapter! And I didn't take a month to update that is why it is short i guess and I'm sorry for that! The main reason is cause I'm ill! I have a crap immune system. Haha so I hope you enjoyed it and I hope you will review for me if you can, I love all of your reviews! See you next chapter!
Much love to ya...xx
-Claire-