Waiting. I hated the waiting game. Sakura had been gone for five days now, and I just wanted her back. It was boring without her. Sure, people would stop by but she was far more entertaining. Well, actually her team was pretty entertaining but it would always end in a fight and Sai and Naruto facing off to spar. Yamato was polite, and so was Kakashi. Frankly, the polite Kakashi had me far more on edge than the asshole Kakashi. He was up to something, and I didn't know what it was.
So there I lay on her couch, trying to figure out what to do by myself once again. I had already trained with Konohamaru, walked around the village, made a big enough lunch that I wouldn't have to worry about cooking dinner... or breakfast or lunch the next day. It turns out that cooking for just one person was a lot more difficult that cooking for multiple people. I sigh as I turn, there wasn't even anything good on the radio. Suddenly there was a tap on the window. I turned my head to it and raised a brow. Sakura's home seemed to have an open door policy, not too many people knocked before entering. Which was extremely obnoxious. It was a good thing that I didn't try and have another naked time.
Heaving myself up from the couch I slowly began to walk to the window. I seeped my chakra out to see if I could figure out who was there but I barely got a flicker. I furrowed my brow as I walked closer. There was something about the chakra that was familiar but something that I had not felt in a very long time. I slowly opened the window and there was a soft cawing that greeted me. I smile at the sound of the bird.
"Been a long time friend," I say as I extend my hand out. The bird makes some type of noise as it dropped the paper in my hand. I wasn't sure that it was a crow but it felt so familiar, I am almost sure that it was. The bird pecked my finger once before I heard the sound of wings flapping against the wind. Smiling I close the window as I place the parchment on the table and move to the couch. I would have to wait to know what it says once Ino comes.
"Hey Sui-kun," Ino says as she opens the door. I am once again in the kitchen making more food since there was nothing else that I could think of doing. I raise my hand as I grunt at her greeting. "It smells great in here. Are you cooking for me again?" She asks as she makes her way into the kitchen.
"Actually yes. I made you dinner and I also have some food prepared in the fridge that you can take home," I say as I stir the pot. She hums and the sound of a chair dragging on the floor fills the air.
"You know I am actually going to miss coming to do your therapy. My fridge has never been as full at it has been recently. I mean, keep this up and Choji is going to start showing up with me," She laughed. "Hey, what is this?" I can hear her tap something on the table.
"Ah, if you mean the scroll it was dropped off a few hours ago. I think that it may be from Sakura," I said as I plate the fried noodles and shrimp. I walk over to the table with the plates and put one in front of her.
"It does seem to be from her. It is labeled to you, and it is her handwriting," She says through a mouthful of food. I just lazily smirk at her as I push the food around my plate. I wasn't really hungry, I just made the food to have something to do.
"Mind reading it to me?" I ask as I pick up some noodles and shoved it into my mouth. She lets out a hum and I can hear her unraveling the scroll.
"Dear Sui-chan... You two are so weird with the nicknames," Ino sighs. I just shrug as I take another bite of noodles. "Anyways... I hope that all is going well with you. It is hot and steamy here, and I am looking to coming back home. I am just writing to let you know that I will be back in two days from the time that you get this letter. I am hoping to see the gates around noon, but I can't really guarantee when I will be back. My client has been less than easy to deal with. As a matter of fact, the man is actually refusing to stay where we were supposed to drop him off at. So he is now accompanying us back to Konoha. I am looking forward to being back and seeing you, the progress of your sockets, and the growth of your eyes. I can barely contain the excitement I have to see you with them! Anyways I have to get going. Hope everyone is being kind to you, and that you are not too bored. Also remember not to entertain yourself in the living room. I really like that couch. See you soon.
Yours always,
Sakura."
I snorted as Ino finished the dictation and I could hear her clicking her tongue. "Why is she so obsessed with you not being on the couch. I mean she makes it sound like you are a dog or something," Ino sighs as I hear her throw the paper onto the table.
"I dunno," I say trying to hide the smirk. "I guess she is really attached to her couch," I shrug as I continue eating. Ino gives a less then satisfied hum, then I can hear her picking up her chopsticks as she began to eat . We sit in silence for a while. It really didn't bother me, I honestly had nothing to talk about. I mean, I didn't really do anything during the day besides walk around and try to not get bored.
"So what is going on with you and Anko?" I nearly spit my food out as she asks the question sweetly. I am sure that there is a look of confusion all over my face.
"What? What do you mean?" I asked back after taking a hard swallow.
"Oh, well I heard from a little bird that she was all over you a few days ago at the bar. It also seemed to this little bird that you weren't trying to swat her away," I can hear the grin in her voice as I just sit there stupidly. Of course, other people may have seen what happened, I mean she was hitting on me in a public place. I just leaned back and sigh as I shook my head.
"Well, nothing happened and nothing is going to happen," I drawl. Ino hums again as she moved her chopstick o around her bowl. Raising a brow I tilt my head. I wasn't expecting that reaction.
"Good," she finally says. "For one thing, you want to steer clear of that woman. I mean she is fun to hang without at the bar... well if she isn't trying to get in your pants. But the thing is she has a thing for, uh oddities. As much at I don't want to say it, you are a bit of an intrigue to the village." I frown as she says that. I haven't done anything to make me an oddity, and frankly, I don't like that there is attention on me and I wasn't aware of it. I hear her sigh as I frown. "I mean come on, of course, people are going to be talking. You hang out with Sakura, who is a part of team seven. People watch them all the time. You know, since they are basically the most famous team ever. And you two have been attached at the hip, then having a blind man being able to actually spar with them. Well, you can see why the villagers are interested," she said lightly. Furrowing my brows I pull in my lips and run my tongue over it. Well shit, if that was the one thing that I was avoiding. It seems no matter what people were watching and talking. "Besides that, I thought that you wanted Sakura," she said flippantly. I still my jaw as I raised a brow. "If you want her, don't fuck with her," her voice became steely.
"I didn't do anything. I am not going to do anything," I hissed at her. I know that even thinking about sleeping with Anko could have fucked something up. If anything were going to happen. I didn't even know if anything was possible. I knew that Sakura liked me as a friend, but as more...
"So, not denying it this time," Ino laughed. I still at the slip of tongue. "Come on, I already said it wasn't a bad thing. I mean you two are good together, albeit a bit annoying. But she laughs and smiles around you. ACTUALLY smiles and laughs which she doesn't really do that often," Ino's voice was soft as she spoke. Fuck it. I guess it was time to just admit it. I wanted her, and not just sexually I wanted her to be with me. Over the past few days, my thoughts kept going back to Hisako, but after I would always hear her scolding me. "Just be happy," she would sing-song in her irritated voice. Honestly, I have been happy when I was with her. It was as if she had brought color to my gray existence.
"I don't know if she would even want me," I say hesitantly. Ino scoffed at me.
"She probably doesn't," Ino snorted. I just sit there and raise my brows at that. Wasn't she was just telling me that we would be good together, then this? Was this girl playing some type of mid game? Well, she was a Yamanaka. I wouldn't put it past her. "No, I didn't mean it quite like that. What I mean is: she had a plan in her mind, and I am sure that you weren't in it. So, she will say that she doesn't, but the way she acts around you, she does. Listen, I know old billboard brow better than she knows herself. She probably has been telling herself the whole time that you have been here that she couldn't like you, but if you say that you want her... Weeeeellll, she is a sucker for romance," Ino laughed. I just sit there with my lips pursed. How did people do this shit? How the hell did Hisako do this? I mean, this felt like I was taking a long walk on a short pier. Dating, liking someone, and not just one night stands. Those were easy, but to open yourself up? To face the fact that someone may not want you, that was fucking hard.
"I'll take that into consideration," I said slowly as I placed my chopsticks down loosing all my appetite.
"Just relax. No need to stress out about it now. Let's just finish eating and move on to your sockets," Ino said through a mouthful. I just hum as I slouch down further into my chair and wait for her to finish.
The next two days were pure torture. Every moment I was alone, which happened to be an awful lot, I thought of what I was going to say once Sakura got back. I figured I might as well get it done as soon as possible. The day she comes back is when I would tell her that I have feelings for her. If I waited I wasn't sure if I could deal with thinking about this over and over and over and over again. I would go mad. It was best if I just went and got it done, one way or another I will know what to do and not be in this limbo. I had endless made up conversations with her, going both good and bad. I wanted her to come back but I also wished that she would stay away for a while. That I could find the perfect thing to say. The perfect way to say it, but nothing felt good enough. As slowly as the days moved, it was finally time for her to come back. I knew that her message said that she would be reaching the gates at noon, but I found myself sitting in a tree far too early in the morning and just waiting.
So, There I sat, my back and head up against a trunk while my leg rested on a branch. I sat there for a long while just listening to the village and occasionally feeling for her chakra. The sun was warm on my skin and on my clothes, but the air was crisp with the fall wind. Sighing I shifted my weight as I sent my chakra out once again. Still nothing.
It was past noon when I finally felt her chakra coming up on the path. I didn't move from my spot, though. Oh how I wanted to, but I didn't want to come off as too eager. So, I stayed in my position and waited for her to approach me. Simultaneously I felt relief and dread. It was an odd combination and it wasn't a feeling that I was enjoying at all. I took in a deep breath as I feel her chakra move into the gates, there was a moment when she stopped, but soon she was walking over to the tree in which I was perched.
"Hey up there," she sang, and I couldn't help the grin that spread on my face. I could feel my heart clench in my chest just at the sound of her voice. Clearing my throat as I turned my head down.
"Hey down there," and there must have been something or someone out there that was watching over me because my words came out how the usually did.
"So you plan on staying up there all day? Or..." I heard her yell. Turning my body I grin down at her before letting myself fall to the ground.
"Na, there's a pretty rhino that I was planning on hanging out with," I said as I walked up to her. She laughs her delicate chime like laugh at my words.
"Ah, found someone one while I was out?" She continued to laugh as she grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. I snorted as I wrapped my arms around her.
"Sorry to disappoint, but I don't think there are any other rhinos in Konoha," I chuckled as she released me. Without even thinking my arms unwrapped from around her and moved to cup her cheeks. I just wanted to feel her smile. My fingers brushed over her features as she stilled under the touch. I softly ran them up to her forehead and running them over her brow bones, over her eyes, tracing her nose, and then lips. The edges of her mouth were still raised as I felt her cheeks raised from her grin. Once more I move my fingers to brush over her lips. As I dropped my hand from her face I could hear her take a shaky breath in. I bit down on my lips slightly before I smirk at her hesitantly. "I'm sorry," I breathed as I stand still in front of her waiting for her response. Perhaps I had already overstepped? The air was silent as I shifted my weight from one foot to the other. Finally, she let out a small laugh.
"It's ok. I didn't think that you would miss me that much," she said in a tone that I had never heard from her. If I was honest, she suddenly sounded younger than she had just a few moments ago. Licking my lips I smile at her.
"Well, I have grown accustomed to having you around Turtle-kun," I shrugged as I placed my hands in my pockets. She let out a hesitant laugh before wrapping her arm around mine.
"I think that it's time to head home. There is nothing I want more than a shower," she said happily as she began to guide me down the path.
"How about some tempura?" I ask as I pushed my shoulder into her. I hoped that my smile is as sly as I thought it was in my head.
"Oh, yes. A shower then tempura. That is how every mission should end," she laughed.
While we walked to her apartment she told me of her mission. Actually, she just kept on talking... and talking really fast. I wondered if all the sudden I made her nervous because the way she just kept rambling wasn't something she normally did. I didn't say anything, though, I just let her keep on talking. It seemed that the mission went smoothly, minus the face that guy kept on hitting on her; trying to buy her affection. Every time she would bring it up all I could do was scoff. I knew that Sakura wasn't the type of person who could be easily bought off. I mean if the man was really serious, he should have offered to fund a new wing of the hospital or something like that. Not offer money or jewels to her personally .
"Oh, it is so nice to be home," she said as she flung open the door to her apartment. The moment we entered she let her arm fall from mine as she quickly stepped in and dropped her packs with a loud thunk. I sighed at the feeling of her body and heat moving away from mine. "Alright I am just going to hop in the shower and get into some more comfortable clothes," she yelled back as she made her way into the hall. I didn't even try and hide my smile. I wondered if she knew a few of the scenes in the Icha Icha series started with that exact line. From the other room, I heard her rustling in her room as she gathered what she needed. That was followed by the soft sound of the bathroom door closing as I made my way into the kitchen. I gather all the ingredient necessary for the tempura and begin to prepare the meal. Not that I really needed to cook, her fridge was full of ready-made dishes.
She came out of the bathroom and the moist air pulled the fragrant scent of her body wash out with her. I raise my hand acknowledging that she was back in the room as I set the last of the shrimp in the fryer. Once that was set I turned to the other side of the kitchen as I heard her pull a chair out to sit on it.
"Feeling better?" I ask as I began to whisk the sauce. She lets out a gentle hum. I try and just focus on what I am doing because the more I think about what I want to talk to her about, the more my mouth dried and the more difficult it was becoming to swallow. Though, cooking went much faster than I was anticipating.
"Much, it is always so nice to be able to wash after a long trek," She sighs. I hum back at her as I place the sauce into the dipping cups. I finally move to place the food onto the plates, after straining the shrimp from the oil. With the last piece plated, I took a deep breath and began to walk to the table. I placed hers down in front of her, she makes a content sigh as I begin to sit down.
Well, I didn't know how to go about this. So we sat for a while in silence. I ate slowly as I listened to her hum and sigh as she ate. When I should I say the words? Do you wait for a specific time? How would I know it is a good time? Or do I just go ahead and say it? I tried not to frown as I move the food on my plate. She lets out a long sigh and I lift my head in her direction. Taking a deep breath, I place my utensils down. It is now or never.
"Sakura," I said slowly as I shift in my seat. She lets out a hum as I take another deep breath. "There is something that I would like to talk about," my voice and words are still hesitant. She is quite for a moment, and I wish that she would just say something. Hell, I also wished that I could see her right now.
"Okay.." She said slowly. "You're not going to leave are you?" She asked softly. I shook my head as I let out a breath.
"No, I am not planning on leaving anytime soon," I say as I try and give her a reassured smile.
"Okay, then what is wrong?" Her voice is still soft as she asks Again my head is shaking, and I really just want to reach out for her hand, but the only problem is that I don't know where her hands were.
"Nothing, there is nothing wrong. I promise you," I say to her. And just as I am about to open my mouth the sound of her door being thrown open and heavy footsteps running into her apartment. I had to bite my tongue at the fact that some people have the worst timing ever.
"SAKURA-CHAN!" Naruto yelled as he made his way in. I frowned as I sank down further into my chair. Great, of course, some one would just pop up because why should this be easy? Well, I guess this wasn't easy.
"Jeeze Naruto," Sakura said as the boy ran into her. "You don't have to come running in here like an excited puppy every time I come back from a mission you know," she yells as I hear her push him back.
"Aww, well I just missed you," Naruto whined. "Anyways, it's not just because you came home, but I wanted to see you before I left. I am leaving in a few hours for Suna and I'll be there for about five weeks. You know that I didn't want to leave without seeing my favorite female teammate," Naruto laughed as he pulled a seat down. "Sorry, didn't know you guys were going to be eating. It looks and smells reeeeaaal good," he said. I just sigh I knew what was going on because over the course of the last few days whenever the man would show up and I was eating or making food he said the same thing. He wanted some.
"You want me to make you a plate?" I ask and try to keep the irritation out of my voice. Really, this shouldn't bother me. He had every right to stop by at her place, it was just that his timing was so incredibly horrible.
"Is there enough. I mean I don't want to impose..." Naruto said slowly. I just sighed again and shook my head.
"There should be more than enough, and if there isn't there is a ton of food in the fridge," I say as I stood from my chair and begin to walk into the kitchen.
"Thanks, Sui! You really are a great guy!" Naruto yelled back at me. I just raise my hand and wave at him as I begin to gather his meal.
Naruto stayed for a few hours and ate most of the food that I had made. I guess I didn't have to worry about all the food in the fridge going to waste if he was around. The man talked excitedly about his upcoming mission. Well, I really don't think it was much of a mission as it sounded that he was just going to hang out with the Kaze. Made sense really, the two of them probably understood each other the best, seeing as one still contained a spirit, and the other had grown up with one also. I forced myself not to get irritated. It wasn't like Naruto knew what I wanted to do that day and it wasn't like as if he was trying to block me. If it was Kakashi, then I might have thought otherwise. So I just sat and listen to the two talk. Eventually, Naruto left and I found myself in the kitchen cleaning the dishes. Actually, I was trying to find anything that would keep me occupied and not have me focusing on the fact that my heart felt as if it was in my throat. As I was drying a dish Sakura strolled in with a small laugh. I turned to her and raised my brow.
"Something funny?" I asked as I placed the dish away. She responded by giving another laugh.
"It's just watching you today. I mean when Naruto burst in and you offered him a plate like it was completely normal. Like, he had just walked into your home," she giggled as she came further into the kitchen and leaned against the counter right next to me. I could feel the heat from her body and smell the lingering scent of her body wash.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to act like this was my home," I say as I slowly close the door to the cabinet and turn in her direction.
"No, I didn't mean it like it was a bad thing," she laughed as she patted my arm. "No, I am happy that you feel like you are at home. It's good. Also seems you are getting along well with Naruto." I nod my head.
"Yeah, well your whole team tends to pop up at all hours, so I have got to know them well," I said as I scratched the back of my head.
"Even Kakashi?" she asked slowly. I smirk as I hum at her.
"Even Kakashi. He actually has been pretty polite lately," I shrugged as I turn to get another dish to dry. Frankly, I didn't want to speak of Kakashi because the sudden shift in behavior had me on edge. There was nothing I could do about him then wait to see if something would bubble over. I was sure that when it did, it wasn't going to be pretty.
"That's good," She said happily. "I don't know what his issue was in the first place, but I am glad that he got over it. I really hate when the people that I care for don't get along. I get enough of that in my family, don't need it with my friends." I hum and nod as I placed another dish into the cupboard. "So... Ummm, what was it you wanted to talk about? I mean before Naruto just came in here," her clothes made rustling noises as she shifted her weight. I wanted to freeze, but I forced myself to keep on moving. To keep on cleaning the dishes. I place the last one away before turning to her and attempting to smile at her.
"I think I want to take a walk. How about you?" I asked. At that moment I needed to do something while I talked to her and walking would keep me from fidgeting. I waited for her to reply.
"Yeah, sure we can go on a walk," she was unsure as she spoke but I just smiled at her.
So, we walked in silence for a few moments, I was once again debating on how to talk with her. I could tell that she was also a bit anxious. I felt bad that she might have been thinking that I was stringing her along because I wasn't. No, I was just walking while I was trying to swallow the massive lump that was in my throat.
"Soo..." Sakura said as her pace slowed. I took a breath in.
"So," I replied.
"Come on, don't do that. What did you want to talk about?" She snorted. I pulled my bottom lip in as I chewed it lightly. Ok, here we go. I coughed to clear my throat as I feel my heart began to race. I slow my pace as I began to force to words out.
"Ok... I did.. I do want to talk to you," Gods, why was it so hard to form words? Why was it so hard just to get this out. I sigh heavily as my shoulders begin to drop.
"Is is that bad?" She asked with a shaky voice. I dryly laugh.
"Depends," I replied.
"On what?"
"You."
"Me?" She asked. Her voice is surprised and she came to a complete stop.
"Yeah, on you," I smiled as I rub my cheek turning to her.
"Okay."
"Okay, here we go," I say as I sigh. Her arm was still wound in mine, so I reached up with my free hand and placed it over hers. I grasp her hand and gave it a small squeeze. She gave my hand a small squeeze back. "Listen, Sakura, I like you," I forced the words past my lips. In my hand, I could feel hers stiffen as I waited for her to say something. She didn't. We stood in silence for a few moments. It felt as if hours had passed as I stood with her hand in mine. I could feel as her pulse beat hard against her skin. I shifted on my feet, and I couldn't take the silence anymore. I was about to speak when she softly cleared her throat.
"You like me?" she said slowly. I swallowed thickly as I numbly nod my head. "Well, I like you too..." Those were the words that I wanted to hear, but not in that tone, and not with her hand so ridged under mine. I lower my head as I lick my lips.
"No... I don't think you get what I was saying. I like you. When you are around I am happy. When you left, I felt lost. It wasn't because I was lonely or bored, but it was because I really wanted you to be here. I mean, for so long I have just been surviving, I put on a fake smile and laughed a fake laugh with my family. I might have even thought that it was real, but they weren't. All those smiles and laughs were veneers. It wasn't until you came. I mean not at first, I couldn't get away from you fast enough," I cringe as I mouth vomit but I couldn't stop. I couldn't deal with the silence. I couldn't deal with the questions in her voice. "But, now it is like there is a brightness in my day. I laugh and I play with you. I haven't had that in so long. When I think about not having you around actually makes my chest feel like there is a weight in it." I grasp as my chest. All I can do now is stand there and wait for her to say something. There was another pause and it made me want to curl up in a hole.
"Oh," Sakura sounded after a moment. "Well... Thank you." Thank you. That's what she said. Thank you. I shifted my weight. I didn't know what to say now. I had just placed everything on the table and the only thing that she said was thank you. I wasn't stupid, I realize that there was a good chance that she wouldn't return my feelings... but I didn't know what to do with this.
"Okay," I finally say. I began to let her hand go but she attempted to grasp it again. "Um, I think I want to keep on walking. I am sure that you are tired perhaps you should go home and rest," I forced myself to smile as I pulled my hand away from her. I taking a step back as I unwrapped my arm from hers.
"Sui.." She reached out and grabbed onto my upper arm.
"It's fine," I continue to smile. "You know what, forget what I said. It really doesn't matter," my face begins to ache from the wide smile. Not even waiting for her to reply I walked away.
I walk through the village for hours. Berating myself the whole time. What I fool I was. I knew she could turn me down or away, but I thought that there was something there. Now I had nowhere to go. I just wanted to go home now, more so than ever. I was also kind of fucked. I had wandered into an area that I wasn't well acquainted with, it was also late and it had seemed that the streets had emptied. Sighing I find myself sitting on the roof listening to the crickets chirping. Their songs begining to slow as the temperature began to drop.
I screwed everything up. I mean, I was supposed to be here for her to work on my eyes, now I had gone and made everything awkward. How was I going to talk to her now? Hell, how was I going to keep living with her.?I frown as I lay back on the ceramic tiles. It will be okay. I mentally shook myself, while it felt as if everything was falling down I could get through this. I had survived much worse. I bite down on my lip as I remind myself that I had seen the death of my clan, the death of my brother and sister, the death of my love, getting turned down wasn't the worst. It hurt, though. It hurt much more than I thought it would. I let out a dry laugh.
"Hisako, you were a brave girl," I say as I tilt my head to the sky. Not only had she bared her heart, she did it for years and I just let her. How was she able to do it? Probably because she knew what I was going to say, but still there was still a chance that it wouldn't go as she wanted. Well, perhaps that was it for me. I had my happiness, maybe it was all I got. I didn't even deserve it the first time, why would I get a second chance?
"Talking to yourself? It can be a sign of genius, or of insanity. I wonder which it is for you," A deep voice said. I curse myself for not feeling his chakra approach.
"What are you doing out here?" I ask flatly.
"Well, I live in this apartment complex. Was kinda surprised to sense you when I came home," Kakashi said as he walked over and sat down next to me. The gods of luck must really be laughing at my life. I just raise my arms covering my face as I let out a sigh.
"So, I take it you are not here to see me?" he chuckled.
"No," my response came out muffled through my arms. He hummed his reply next to me. I don't even bother to respond to him or move my arms from my face. I should have gone to a training ground, found a tree or maybe a deep hole to lie in. So there we were. Me, lying there trying to ignore everything and Kakashi doing whatever the hell he was doing.
"Why are you on my roof?" Kakashi finally asked. I pursed my lips as I tried to think about what I should say to him.
"I went for a walk and got lost. There really aren't that many people out to ask for directions back, so I ended up here," I say as I let my arms fall to my sides. He hums at me again.
"Do you want me to show you the way back?" He asks. I bit my tongue as I turn my head towards him.
"What is up with you?" I sigh as I sit up. Kakashi just sat there and didn't a noise. "Seriously man. I mean why aren't you trying to kill me? Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. Getting lightning through my body doesn't seem like something that I would enjoy. But you have been decent to me. You helped me at Sakura's family, actually said kind words and now you are offering to help me back. This is coming from the man that wanted to kill me the first time we met."
"Ah, well I am trying to take a page out of Naruto's book," he laughed. I didn't it wasn't amusing to me at all.
"So you don't think that I am a threat now?" I ask as I raise a brow.
"No, I think that you may be, but I am not going to be so rash. I am watching you. You haven't done anything yet to hurt the people that are important to me, so I am letting you be. If you do anything though I will be the first in line to get you out of here. There is also still something about you, though, something that I feel like I should know but don't," He said. I just sit still. That's because he does somewhat know me. Well, he probably knows me by name and for being in the Uchiha clan. I just grunt at him. Well, it was a little bit of a relief knowing were I stood with him, not that I liked the idea of him watching me, but what else was there to do. "Anyways, want me to show you back to Sakuras? I know that she is back in the village. I am sure that she is worried that you are out here," He said as he stood. Probably just wanted me out of here. I get it, I probably put him on edge as much as he put me on edge.
"Sure," I breath out and stood.
I follow him through the village without much words exchanged. At first, I was relieved once he got me to the door and quickly left. But then again Sakura was inside. I could feel her. The relief was replaced by anxiety. Well, it's not like I don't know what the outcome will be. So taking a deep breath I found the knob and slowly began to turn it. Slowly I opened the door. I enter the apartment quickly wiping feet trying to not make any noise. Sakura's chakra was muted and I hope that she is asleep, but it can also mute as one meditates. So... it was a 50/50 shot. I wrap my chakra and move as quietly as possible through the apartment moving to my room.
"Sui," Sakura says quietly as she opens her door. I curse under my breath before I turn to her.
"Sakura," I breath her name.
"Listen, I want to talk to you. I don't think that I handled the earlier situation right," she said softly. I run my tongue over my lips as my brow furrows. I don't think I can handle this speech. I didn't want to hear the: we will always be friends thing. Not that I had experience with it, but I had heard it enough from the women that Koji would chase after. I just shake my head at her.
"Sakura, it's fine. I said just forget about it. I get that you don..."
"Would you shut up!" she hissed as she poked her finger into my shoulder. "I mean really here I am trying to tell you something but you just want to keep talking over me!" My mouth drops open as I am forced to take a step back as she pushes me.
"Okay," I said dumbly.
"Alright. Now what I was going to say is that you caught me off guard. I didn't really know what to say to you. The thing is that I have liked you since I met you. I have been interested in you since then, and it wasn't because of your eyes. There was something about you," she started off angry but slowly her words began to soften.
"I wasn't nice to you when I first met you,"I frown.
"I KNOW! I mean you were short with me and pushed me away. But you know what? I watched you with your family, with the other people in the inn, with the keepers in the village you took me to and you were warm and funny. I mean, I didn't get it. I didn't get why you were so abrasive with me. I mean, at first, I thought it was because we fought when you first say me. I thought that maybe you felt bad," she came closer and once again I could feel the heat of her body radiating. I jumped as I felt her reach out and take my hand in her. They were warm and I could feel her pulse racing. "But, slowly you got better with me. You started to talk to me. Then suddenly you would flirt, and I figured it out. That you were using it as a distraction as we spared. It was a good move," She laughed. I smiled weakly at the sound. "But after the spar, you were back to how you usually were. I thought that's fine, at least he is being more personable with me. It wasn't until we went out to the bar and you kissed me that I figured it out. You didn't want to be around me because I reminded you of her... Hisako... Right? Because I am not a replacement. I am not her," She whispered her name. I couldn't help but frown. No, she was nothing like her. I shook my head as I tighten my grip on her hand.
"No. You aren't anything like her," I had to laugh as I thought of Hisako acting like Sakura. "If anything you are her polar opposite," I smiled as I let go of her hands and cup her face.
"But you said.."
"Your laugh sounds like hers did and there are times that your chakra reminds me of her. It has the same breezy feeling. That's it. She was quite, calm and gentle. And you," I could feel her frown under my fingers. "You are like a rhino," I grin as she pushed my hands off of her face and scoffed.
"A rhino?!" She yelled. "You are telling me how you feel and you call me a rhino! Before you said I brought color into your life!" She scoffed. I couldn't help the smile that stayed on my face. I reach out and hold her face in my hands again.
"But you are a beautiful rhino," I say as I lower my head to hers. I can hear her take a breath in so that she can yell and protest, but before she could say anything I cover her mouth with mine. She stilled and stiffened a bit under my touch, and I didn't know if I had crossed a line. Soon her mouth is pressing against mine as her hands begin to knot in my shirt as she pulled me closer. My heart was pounding against my chest, so much so that it felt as if it would explode. I moved one of my hands to the back of her head, winding my fingers in her hair. She let out a soft moan as I let my tongue run down her lips. She reacts instantly. She opened her mouth and let me in. My lips and tongue brush against hers. I felt as if I was drunk. She was making me feel as if I was floating on air. My other hand drops from her face and slowly goes down her side. Under my fingertips, I can feel her shutter lightly at the touch, but she keeps on kissing me as deeply as I was kissing her. This moment I knew that all that mental torture I had put myself through was all for nothing. This was heaven. The way she sighed as I let my fingers stroke over her hip, the moan she let out as I moved my mouth from hers to her chin, down her throat, to her earlobes was the most beautiful sound that I had heard in a long time. I know I could get lost in her and I was more than happy to let it happen, as long as she was with me.
Our weight shifts and suddenly Sakura's back was against a wall, her hand was lost in my hair, giving it small tugs of pleasure here and there. My hand slowly moved from her hip to the plane of her stomach. I spread my fingers out memorizing each curve of her body and every shutter and twitch she makes. It was as if the movement was music under my hand. My mouth moves from her neck back to her mouth. I press my lips to hers once again as I took in her bottom lip and began to suck on it. She gasped as the sensation and I couldn't help but smile as I move back into the kiss. Those noises, they made my whole body thrum and I wanted to hear her make them over and over again. The hand that was in my hair moved to hold onto my shoulder. It ached, the girl really doesn't know her own strength, but it also made my blood pound faster. She wanted me. She wanted me like I wanted her. My grip tightened on her as our tongues danced together. The hand that was on her stomach moved to her hip, then her rear, down to her thigh. She may not have been as well endowed as Ino in the chest area, but more than makes up for it with other features. My hand goes over the material of her nightgown and I was more than happy to find it was short. My fingers left the cool silky material to meet the warm smooth skin of her thigh. Her skin felt so amazingly soft. Wrapping my fingers under her leg I lifted it so I can push my body even closer to her. She gasps at the action as I spread open-mouthed kisses on her jaw line, my tongue relishing in her taste. She felt so small against me, her chest was heaving into mine as she took uneven breaths in. Through the material of her nightwear and my shirt, I could feel her nipples tightening and pressing against me. I move my mouth down her neck, as I stop and lightly such on her pulse point. She gave a throaty moan as she arched into my body.
I growled as I feel her core push against me. It made my heart race and my head dizzy, as I tighten my grip on her thigh and rolled my hips against her. The friction of the clothes and her against my already aching erection made me groan into her throat. I could feel her neck moving as she panted, her hands tightening once again before they found their way back to my cheeks. Pulling my head to hers she pulled my into another kiss as we continued to roll our hips into each other. My fingers slowly went under her dress, inching their way to her backside.
"Oh, gods," she breathed as we broke the kiss. Her breath fanned over my face as she panted. I began once again to kiss her throat moving down to her shoulder. Gently I nudged her hand from my face as I wanted to feel my lips over her entire body, not only her lips and her neck, I wanted to feel everything. Her hand fell from my face, gently running down the arm that was holding onto her thigh. When her hand met mine she gave it a gentle squeeze. "We should stop," she panted. At that I stop my ministrations, I try and take a deep breath, but my breaths were also coming out in pants as I rest my forehead on her shoulders. "If we keep going, I don't think I will be able to stop," she said through another series of pants. "And gods, I want to keep going, but I just don't think this is the right time. Not right now," she said as she wove her fingers into mine and lifted it away from her leg. Her thigh fell slowly, every inch that of skin that she brushed against me as she let it down felt as if it was on fire. Licking my lips, I try and regain my composure, but my body felt so hot and ached in a way that I haven't felt in a long time. I nodded into her shoulder as I slowly and reluctantly peeled myself off of her. I could still hear her breathing raggedly as I mourned the loss of her against me.
"Just that... that was amazing," she let out a light laugh. I could hear her shuffle. "But it's late and our emotions are all over the place. I want... When it does happen it is going to be amazing, I just can't right now," she said softly. I furrowed my brows as I took a step closer to her lifting my hand I place it on her cheek. Her skin was so warm, it felt as if she was burning. She was probably so beautiful when she was so flustered.
"Sakura, it's fine," I said gently. "If you want to stop, that it fine. Anytime you want to stop that is fine. I'll wait, not an issue. I don't want you to feel any pressure," I smiled at her. She let out another ragged breath.
"Thanks," she nearly whispered. I just smirk at her as my thumb traces her jaw. "It's late, and I have to get up early to give Tsunade her mission report, and not to mention I need to see what advancements were made with your eyes. I think it's best that I get to bed," she said as she covered my hand with hers. I nod to her. "Thank you, Sui. I know it is a weird thing to say, but thank you for letting me in. Seriously, I don't think that I can get this dumb smile off of my face," she giggles. I grin back at her.
"Good, smiling suits you," I grin at her. She laughed back at me as she pulled my hand from her cheek and moved it to her lips. She gently pushed her soft lips against my knuckles before letting me go. "Goodnight Sui," She said softly. I was still grinning at her. She wasn't the only one that wouldn't be able to get it off of her face.
"Goodnight Sakura," I say as I lazily take a step back. I stand there and listen as she slowly made her way into her room. I hear the door whine as she opened and closed it, followed by a soft click of the handle. Still smiling I walked into my room. I threw myself on the bed, stupid grin still painted on my face. My whole body felt as if it was vibrating. There was nothing more that I wanted to do then to stand and fist pump the air as I let out a scream. That probably wouldn't be appreciated by Sakura and her neighbors. So I just lay there letting this dizzying awesome sensation run over and over my body.
I lay there for a few more moments before I hear Sakura thudding on the wall. "Sui," Her muffled voice came through the wall. I turn my head towards the noise as I let a brow raise.
"Yeah?" I yell back.
"Umm, if you need to... be sure to use the bathroom. I mean I don't want your DNA all over those sheets," She laughs/yells through the wall. For a moment all I can do is let my mouth fall open. Was she just? Yeah, she was... I laugh as I shake my head.
"Just go to sleep and don't worry about my DNA," I yell back. There was a second of silence before I can hear her laughing.
Hello... Man I really suck at trying to keep a schedule. There always seems to be some type of excuse. Well, the excuse is life. I had to have a surgery so I really wasn't in a good mood for a while, and pretty drugged for a while. I am fine and am healing, thought it was a bit scary. Be sure to tell the people that are in your life how much they mean. You never know when your clock will strike midnight.
Ok some fun facts that I forgot to place in the last chapter. So Sakura's mother and grandmother are really inspired by people in my life. Her mother is based on my mother in law, who is not my biggest fan. She thinks that her son could have done better and should have stuck with someone of his ethnicity. She doesn't like the fact that I am a mutt. Now Sakura's grandmother is based on my Great Aunt who is 96 and hits on all her great niece's boyfriends/husbands. Though she isn't as interested in "breeding stock," she has said if she met them when she was younger they would have had to look out. Lol.
Well, I hope you liked this one! Here they go down the romance rabbit hole. It had been a long time since I had to confess my feelings to anyone, but I remember being in the limbo of either or, I hated it and felt awkward the whole time. Well, I hope you have a great night and I can't wait to see you back for the next chapter. No promises when it will be back because I suck at regular updates :/